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I love this thumbnail. Amber looks like a kettle that is about to blow up and Becky is completely checked out.
Without having watched the video I'm going to take a guess that Amber finally accepted the fact that people watch her for the train wreck and decided to capitalize on it. But, since this is Amber, it's going to be fake drama, she will still lie and will be called out on the comments.
- Odd start for a video that has that thumbnail. Amber starts out smiling and "singing". For someone who's a shut in she talks a lot about the weather, but I guess she has to make the videos longer somehow...
- Amber has finally found someone who matches her mental age, but even
brat Brady can only stand her for so long.
- Interesting scene (not really) inside the car showing Becky helping Brady with the seat belt. I'm not sure if Amber showed this to "prove" the haydurz wrong or if it was to prevent more "mean" comments. Either way, it shows that she clings on to every single thing she perceives as bad and won't let go. (I think the whole scene was "scripted".)
- Next Becky shows two shirts they'll buy. It's very fast and pointless, plus Amber focus the camera on Becky instead of on the shirts. Fear of showing the size?
- Another pointless clip to show the movies they're going to watch. Ends with Amber walking towards a mirror.
- 3:30 min and 2 ads later, she finally gets to the reason of the clickbait title.
-59 seconds of a thumbnail that reads: "getting personal". I guess it's this long so we can all find our tiny violins. She is in a "bad rut", her depression is horrible and she "filmed a private video for herself". She also says she doesn't want to be a burden or annoy anyone.

- Oh boy! According to Amber the clip we're about to see was filmed after a binge. Also known as Amber's daily behaviour. I still think it's not the real deal.
- After making sure we understood that the video was made just for herself, she begins the clip by saying the same thing again (because I guess that's what you do when recording for personal reasons - you remind yourself it's just for your eyes and mention the vloggers who
make you jealous are your inspiration. I mean, how else you'll remember who their are?)
- In case people are still in doubt, Amber repeats herself again: "this is just for you so don't be trying to upload it to YouTube". Because saying it over and over again makes it true, right?
Personal observation: the subject of this talk doesn't match her facial expressions. Amber dissociated herself (refers to her future self as a separate entity) and show no emotions other than a few smiles.
Sure, she's finally repeating, verbatim, what people have told her in comments, but she doesn't believe any of it. Amber has no intention what so ever to lose weight - she knows she only makes money on YT due to her weight, and that if she did lose weight she would lose revenue afterwards. She is very comfortable in her own skin and still sees herself as beautiful and sexy.
- "I love you, and I care about you, and I don't want you to die". Amber said to...Amber.

I just found out another thing she isn't good at - acting.
- Amber tries really hard to squeeze some tears, it doesn't work, so she gives up and giggles. Despite this being a totes personal video, not meant to be on YT, Amber feels the need to mention that "I sound like I have a split personality disorder". To herself, of course. After all this clip was not meant to go up on YT.
- Admits to not having read the "binging books" yet and claims to have friends who also suffer with BED.

- Oh, what a surprise! The clip ends and at no point is Amber showing any emotion. If this was really made after a binging episode, it shows that what she feels after binging is contentment. She's calm, pleased and smiles throughout the whole thing.
- The next day...Don't put your tiny violins away yet. She admits - as she giggles - that "I've been really bad with my eating and I haven't been caring about what I'm putting it in my body but I really wanted to focus on drinking water".
- While trying to show us what a savvy shopper she by buying a gallon of water for 98 cents, she says that you can get a little bottle, 12oz, for (Amberism of the day) more expensive than that.
- Amber's magic thinking in action. Because she bought the gallon of water (and it was a good deal), she drank almost all of it (even though we don't actually see her drinking). So, take that you haydurz. Buying water isn't a waste of money. If she didn't buy that gallon she wouldn't have drunk water at all.
Personal observation: so far this vlog is Amber, yet again, addressing observations made here and in her comments section. Amber is too proud to admit people have given her good advice, so she comes up with stupid and convoluted ways to do what people have been telling her.
I think part of the reason why she makes things so complicated is so she can, when she eventually fails, claim that this (whatever it was that people suggested) doesn't work for her because snowflake.
Stubbornness isn't a bad trait to have, but there is a difference between being stubborn and being stupid. If people tell you that jumping from a bridge is dangerous and will harm you, and you jump anyway you're not being stubborn, you're being stupid.
- For all of those who said Amber doesn't brush her teeth: we get a clip (sped up with bad music, starting around 7:30) of her doing just that. 10 seconds of it.
- Food porn. Something that might be two pieces of bread with wilted greens on top, or two small potatoes (I can't tell), a quick appearance of a glass with a lemon slice (you need that water, gurl!) and a sorry excuse for a salad that looks like an infant threw up on top of some random vegetables.
- Next we get a close-up shot of Becky's double chin and her food. Amber can throw shade with the best of them

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- Next scene shows them in the parking lot and a breathless Amber informs us they're going to the mall. Very exciting scene of Amber turning earring displays round and round. "I love this so much" says Amber as she holds a choker in her hands. They're in a Claire's store (I went to check their website and the first photo I saw was of cat ears. I guess Amber broke all the ones she had and went there for more? BTW, after she puts the choker back, she pans around and the same photo I saw on the website can be partially seen in display)
- I don't even know how to describe the next scene. They're talking about Becky having strep throat, but it boils down to Becky being afraid of the mean comments.
Personal observation: Amber is making Becky into her mouth piece whenever it comes to "mean" comments. If you believe what Becky says, she has the thinnest skin in the whole universe and her fee-fees get hurt easily.
Amber still believes that comments praising Becky are real and that people are more prone to stop "harassing" them if the complaint comes from Becky.
- After Becky "opens up about her fears", the camera is turned to Amber who makes a face that can only be described as "I don't give a shit". You see, Amber is a strong person and the haydurz don't get to her. The problem is that the way the scene was done it comes across as if Amber doesn't give a shit about Becky's feelings.
- They proceed to discuss about editing the little heart-to-heart they just had out of the vlog. Because this segment was so true and raw. This was not a planned conversation, y'all. Not at all, and if you think so you'll make Becky sad again.

- After the awkward and completely not planned little rant from Becky, Amber segues with - what else? - food talk. Amber couldn't keep her face straight, but she pushes Becky's fee-fees out of her mind, lick her lips and invites Becky to go check out a store where they might get Quest cookies.
- Amber, the economist, talks about the price of Quest bars. Riveting content.
- They found the cookies! Becky doesn't seem impressed. Amber pushes a cookie she chose on Becky's hand and chooses one for herself. "like I can try this one and then we can like both try wolf(both) yeah". Translation: "I'll eat one and then I'll eat the other".
- Oh noes. The car broke down. From what Amber said, I suspect it's the gearbox/transmission.
- It looks like they stayed with Rafe and Hanna, but I could be wrong.
- Stupid scene with Amber trying something she claims smells really bad.
And I'm out.