I'm Stuck in a Never Ending Loop

[Vect]

Didn't he get into an slapfight with Vingle before making that post?

No I believe Vingle begged OP to fuck him after, accompanied by suggestive selfies. It was a nice community moment.

 

[Magicicada_septendecula]

See a therapist. Not one who puts you on drugs or wants to shock your brain, but one who still believes in talk therapy. You need someone to help you work some things in your own mind out and there are limits to how much we can do for you over the Internet.

 

[Preacher ✝]

But the idea of becoming religious lingers in my mind.

 

[Gan Ying]

If you're actually schizophrenic you're going to have to up your crazyposting game if you want to compete with the actual based schizos we have had here like @henstepl and Pam Swain (RIP)

 

[JamusActimus]

You don't want sympathy or advices..so you just want attention?

 

[Character from a movie]

If you really want to help OP the best you can do is ignore him. Ignore his begging for pity, don't go running to coddle him and pat him on the head while saying "poor you, poor you".
This guy is a grown man, it's up to him if he wants to get help or not. In any case he won't find it here, this is a website not a group therapy.

 

[Lords Greatsword]

Goodness, what a shift from your first thread.
You're young, not even 20 yet assuming that first post was real, so it's folly to think that the rest of your life moving forward is going to be shit from what you see now.
Do you have aspiration? Some definite life objective to strive for? If not, you can still try and focus on whatever external obligations concern you as of present.
Whatever contributed to the current culmination of your person - background, online communities, or whatever the hell have you - I don't really know. It isn't for me to know, frankly. But I will tell you this much; there is no such thing as "rock bottom", as it would be more accurate to describe that manner of descent as a downward spiral, one that will continue to worsen until you start realizing how much lower you continue to fall and take the stand to return from it.
Throwing a writing into the void with this for all I know, but even this is far less effort than I'd otherwise care to type out, given the site we're on.

It is true I killed my mentor, yet I am not his murderer.

My legs are OK (I still have 7 Irreversible Lesions)

 

[Scarlett Johansson]

Vingle's thirsting really did a number on you didn't it? Damn

 

[Axiom.]

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[Cats]

The next logical step is to troon out. I will assist you with this mental transition. Relax yourself and concentrate on my voice. Your name is Jessica. You are a Real Woman. Nobody can take that away from you. If people say things like, "you are obviously a man. Look at your putrid face", you just say "no", and society has to play along with whatever you say.

Pros:
you reserve the right to make everyone around you uncomfortable and there is nothing anyone can do about it because society says so.
countless ready-made online communities where your enemies will be banned if they ever say anything mean or disagree with you.
chimping out on people in public when they don't respect your version of reality.
constant sympathy and Inclusion Credit gifts from an entire political party.
your inevitable shooting rampage will not be criticized by the news media.
If you kill yourself you get to be part of multiple exciting statistics!


Cons:
none

 

[Day of the Cope]

If anyone's forgotten, this user is a highly autistic broccoli-haired zoomer and his first post was flex in the Farms about how the 'incels were right'.

Bro needs to wait until he's in his 30's before having a midlife crisis.

 

[henstepl]

OP,

I am the Genius Henstepl.

It is very interesting to me that you thought to cut off part of your earlobe. Though that isn't a Jewish trait, I am a student of the Jewish brain, and the entire reason there are so many Jewish brains today is because some fucker named Abraham cut off his foreskin (which has the effect of making a brain Jewish).

Imagine that! Exactly like the disability retards who want to cut off their limb and become "transabled", but it isn't all-the-way retarded, it just cuts an itty bit and changes the brain, and something in them tells them that's the cut that makes the brain better so they do it.

Now, why the earlobe instead? Why is that the piece of you that screams? I can't make heads or tails of it.

Nonetheless I should commend you on writing the least Jewish post conceivable

 

[Bloitzhole]

I will take this post at face value and respond with some thoughts, just musings:

You are approaching 20. Let us assume a life expectancy of 80. If you do something retarded that fucks up your life, you discard the potential that within the remaining 75% of your life, a solution is found or you may change your mind, which has apparently happened before. Thus, do not do something retarded.

You call the positives "false hopes" because there appears to be an expectancy that a state of permanent happiness is the correct, the "right" end result. Do X steps and you will be satisfied forever. This is not the case.
Consider instead the nature of what you describe as "the loop". You may find it reflected in the phrase "This too shall pass" - in prolonged despair remember that it cannot last forever: It too shall pass; and take solace in this.
However, when you are happy, during times when what you call "false hope" is there, remind yourself: It too shall pass; And appreciate these moments all the more. It would be absurd to then fall into despair, it would be akin to crying as you are eating delicious cake just because at some point, the cake is done and there is washing up to be done and new cake to be baked. Enjoy the cake, dipshit. It too shall pass.

If determinism is real, then it is irrelevant whether you despair over it, or are overjoyed over it. You can discard responsibility and do bad acts from this perspective, but it will matter no more than if you do not - as such, you might as well (pretend to) take responsibility and be a good person, for it will make you feel happier.
Precisely because perhaps, it is all a dark, a largely or entirely predetermined, an uncaring universe - we must do our best to light a candle ourselves and for others if we can, rather than impotently curse this darkness.


TL;DR: Don't shoot people or kys you retard. Go eat delicious cake with someone.

 

[Flaming_Barghast]

Damn that sucks. Maybe you should kill yourself?
Just leave everyone else alone.

 

[TapewormSalesman]

How it started:

How it's going:

 

[Montalbane]

I loathe faggots like you OP.
Quick to gloat and quicker still to despair.
But its not too late.
Set things straight or gay.
Fuck Vingle.

 

[Fascist Frederick]

Damn that sucks. Maybe you should kill yourself?
Just leave everyone else alone.

I can't believe it took this long for someone to suggest suicide. This place has gone soft.

 

[not william stenchever]

try psychedelics

Absolutely fucking not. They are in no state of mind for that kind of thing.

TL;DR: Don't shoot people or kys you retard. Go eat delicious cake with someone.

Far better advice.

 

[YHWH's Strongest Soldier]

King, you were supposed to get your pink triangle. Not do this gay shit.

 

[David Brown]

Sometimes I think I should go to church

Do it, christianity was made for wretched sad sacks of shit like you. The more worthless you are, the higher the virtue signalling points are when you are "redeemed" lol