I'm Stuck in a Never Ending Loop

[Laburnum]

If you're feeling down and want to do something drastic maybe you should post your name and address to go along with your face dox, that could be fun.

 

[Gravityqueen4life]

Nigga, Last i checked, You come from money. Travel to South America and do Ayahuasca like all sad rich white/jew people. What could possible go wrong?

 

[punpun]

Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end.

 

[.iota.]

I'm not sure what caused this abrupt change in perspective.

it probably has something to with this:

Now, a couple months ago, I was diagnosed with schizophrenia.

 

[56 others]

 

[Joe Swanson]

How it started:
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How it's going:
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It's almost as if vanity, pride and hedonism don't result in long term happiness, who would've thunk it.

Ultimately OP, I can't speak to whether or not free will exists or not, but you're only using the possibility that it doesn't to absolve yourself of guilt and shame in your own mind as a cope instead of doing genuine introspection. Not that you should wallow in self pity about how awful of a person you are either, but so you can make peace with yourself and define who you are from within.

 

[Pomniman]

dude you are nuts to think this shit up

Let's be real, it's on par with a chatgpt prompt.

 

[Crex Crex]

How it started:
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How it's going:
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To think multiple people in that thread foresaw it was going to come to this.

 

[TapewormSalesman]

HELLO AGAIN, SUBHUMANS!
I have taken liberty to add a little bit of soundtrack to this heart-wrenching event. Part 1 if you want to experience this man's rise and fall in chronological order.

Spoiler: CRY EVERTIM

[Verse 1]
HELLO SUBHUMANS!
I must admit, things are not well,
I've looxmaxed hard, I rose so far
But in the end feels like I fell

[Verse 2]
The therapists are pointless
And the meds just never work
My muscles bulging, ears sliced up
Yet brain still goes berserk

[Pre-chorus]
You can't mew your way out of despair
My whole life feels just like a curse
Each time a glimmer of hope's in the air
God's cruel hand just twists it for worse

[Chorus]
Oh, sub-humans!
Why am I stuck in this loop?
A puppet of fate with no will of his own
A broken schizo , just trying to cope
Oh, tell me, subhumans!
Is there any way out?

[Verse 2]
Can one man somehow break this cycle?
Join army, nuthouse or do crime?
The brain can muse but body's still
A coward's wish ain't worth a dime

The fate puts me on path of loathing
Oh, who am I to disagree?
Can't force to care, nor why should I
For in this loop you're stuck but free

[Pre-chorus]
The shrinks just give me tools for evil
Light Yagami is who I'll be
In my hellscape of no upheaval
Forgot the despair, but it never forgets me!

[Chorus]
Oh, sub-humans!
Why am I stuck in this loop?
A puppet of fate with no will of his own
A broken schizo , just trying to cope
Oh, tell me, subhumans!
Is there any way out?

[Instrumental]
[Breakdown]
I feel no guilt, I feel no shame
It's destiny, I'm not to blame
No faith, improving, no acclaim
Cause all I do will end the same
Ooooh,
Subhumans!
Come by and witness my lament!
Responsibility, atonement
None of those things I've ever meant
OOOOh subhumans!
Don't try to help and spare your scorn
I'm still the victim still supreme,
Been down that road it’s a dead end!

[Chorus]
Oh, sub-humans!
Why am I stuck in this loop?
A puppet of fate with no will of his own
A broken schizo , just trying to cope
Oh, tell me, subhumans!
Is there any way out?
Is there any way out?
Is there any way out?
Oooh!
Don't forget I'm still better than you
Yeah!

 

[Laplace's Victim]

False alarm, niggas
I feel great again. Everything in the thread is still real, but honestly, I just don't care. This is the power of neurotransmitters. I was reminded of this while reading Schopenhauer:

"Life swings like a pendulum backward and forward between pain and boredom."

"Human life must be some kind of mistake. The incessant clamor of needs and necessities, the torment of desires... all these imply that we have fallen out of a state of peace that belongs to us by right."

The difference between pessimists and optimists? Simply neurotransmitters. Schopenhauer just had a shitty brain. It seems obvious, but I only truly understood it a couple of years ago.

Naturally, I know the despair will return, like it always does, but in this moment? I don't care at all. It’s funny how that works. Appreciate those who wrote high-effort replies though @Toji Suzuhara @Vecr @Lords Greatsword @henstepl @Bloitzhole

 

[Laplace's Victim]

HELLO AGAIN, SUBHUMANS!
I have taken liberty to add a little bit of soundtrack to this heart-wrenching event. Part 1 if you want to experience this man's rise and fall in chronological order.

Yo, bro, you gotta chill with the songs...
It's lowkey kind of creepy...

 

[Bruno Powroznik]

Just bottle up your emotions and "make a brain slushie" after it becomes too much to bear like a REAL MAN next time

in other words

 

[TapewormSalesman]

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Yo, bro, you gotta chill with the songs...
It's lowkey kind of creepy...

Sorry, I can only stop when people stop having dramatic breakdowns on the Farms. So probably not for a long time

 

[Ultrapenguin]

If he's going to do something drastic to change his life, it should be to bang Vingle.

Just think, OP can finally realize he's been gay this whole time (he'll never be happy until he comes to terms with it), and Vingle can end his desperate homosexual lovequest. That will change not one, but two allegedly hopeless dead end lives.

False alarm, niggas
I feel great again. Everything in the thread is still real, but honestly, I just don't care. This is the power of neurotransmitters.

Nope, you're lying to yourself. You're only telling yourself you're happy. You're never going to break the cycle until you bang Vingle.

 

[Flaming Dumpster]

Didn't read any posts but based on your avatar I suggest you stop watching anime.

 

[TenMilesWide]

Naturally, I know the despair will return, like it always does, but in this moment? I don't care at all. It’s funny how that works.

If you know another wave is coming, use this time to fortify your position. Make investments that will outlast your depressive swings.

 

[Jarl Varg]

OP, here's a great song for your situation!

 

[Cumeatsioner Gordon]

Didn't read but whatever it is it could be worse, you could've sucked @Vingle's cock.

Unless you did, then it really is over for you.

 

[Laburnum]

Is this it, are you just going to be a gay retard every time you feel sad now

 

[LifeAlert]

hoping that at least having money or getting surgery would change my life.