I'm Stuck in a Never Ending Loop

Baste German schizoposter redeeming an otherwise boring thread.
Btw, if you have the gift of hands, tapping the tippytop of your head only makes you blink if you're Jewish. Otherwise, it's between the eyebrows. (Those are chakras)
What does it mean if neither one makes you blink? Annunaki? Reptilian?
 
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My diagnosis has changed three times now. In 2022, I was diagnosed with ADHD, but by 2023, it was Schizotypal Personality Disorder. Now, a couple months ago, I was diagnosed with schizophrenia.
Don't worry about your diagnosis. Psychology is a field where close to 50% of the scientific literature is not reproducible. These retards pretend as if they know everything, when in fact they are living in a house of cards propped up by the pharmaceutical industry.
I’ve tried so many things to fix myself. I’ve poured time and effort into gymmaxxing, trying to build my body into something good. I’ve moneymaxxed hard, hoping that at least having money or getting surgery would change my life. I even did DIY earlobe surgery, cutting off part of my own ear with scalpels I ordered online. I spent over 1,000 euros on HGH and injected it daily for two months, hoping it would give me the boost I needed. I’ve ordered every drug I could think of, both prescription and OTC supplements like minerals, vitamins, herbs, etc, you name it. None of it really worked. I thought throwing money and effort at my problems would solve them, but here I am, stuck in the same place as before.
So...uh...why were you doing this? What were you trying to gain? Who were you trying to appease by doing this, if not for your own personal fulifillment?
 
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Baste German schizoposter redeeming an otherwise boring thread.

What does it mean if neither one makes you blink? Annunaki? Reptilian?

If tapping none of the seven-system chakras produces an effect in you, you simply do not have the gift of information of the brain. (Relish in this, because it means you don't have gay fingers.)

There was a schizophrenic named Florian Schneider who developed a "Man-Machine" system of brain-betterment, which system spits on the notion of chakras and yoga. He did not communicate his system but I am taking on the task myself. The thing is, if you have no gift, you probably cannot utilize Florian's system.

If you were to go down a path of consciousness, I'm sorry to say you would have better results with typical yoga, which is variously praised yet which is conversely repulsive to people who have my gift.
 
Your problem is that you are a spoiled teenage boy going through puberty, that's why your brain is all fucked up, your prefrontal cortex is being completely rearranged thanks to hormonal changes in your body. Feeling hopeless, like the world is against you, nobody "gets you" and constantly drowning in self pity is all part of the teenage experience. If you are lucky this will eventually stop once you reach your mid-late twenties, but sadly some people never outgrow this phase.
 
If a red flag was a person, it'd be OP.

I'm not even going to feign concern here. It's obvious he is set in his ways and approaching a point where he may hurt somebody for personal satisfaction. Best thing you can do is save yourself to avoid that deep, dark place that he manifests with his personality.
 
It’s hard to make any changes when you truly believe that you’re not responsible for anything that happens in your life.
It definitely is. This belief needs to start changing if you want any results.

Why would you write all this on the farms of all places is beyond me. I was gonna call you a faggot because this isn't reddit but I'm late. If you wanted to be treated like you're on reddit, you'd post this on reddit. In fact, what really startles me is the fact that you posted it here. But since you did, here's what I think:
Start eating better, start lifting. If you can't get yourself to the gym, buy a pair of dumbbells. If you can't, then start doing bodyweight home workouts. Make sure you get enough vitamin D, K and B12. Keep it up with the therapy.
It's incredible how much our brains respond to these things - food, vitamins, physical stimulation.
Even if you're not responsible for what happens in your life(you are, kind of, for a lot of things. not your fault BTC can't pass 62k tho), you're responsible for how you respond to whatever happens. You need to pay attention to how you respond to events, and why.

Lift weights, your own weight if you have no access to weights. Read a book. Get yourself off of social media. Your dopamine receptors are likely fried. Don't goon. Best if you don't coom or watch porn at all but whatever, at least don't do it daily and for hours. Start paying attention to your own thought process. Learn to identify and root out intrusive thought patterns. Your mind might be blown by how much your life will improve if you do these things. If there's one thing you're responsible for, it's your actions. You have free will(to an extent) and as a conscious being, it's your obligation to act in a conscious manner.

>inb4 "but I can't I don't feel like it" or whatever
doesn't matter what you feel. it's all about what you think. thoughts shape minds, not feelings.
 
The fuck? elaborate.
My earlobes were larger than ideal and after watching some surgery youtube videos, the surgery seemed simple enough to do on my own. So, I decided to try it myself. I bought a practice suture set and some scalpels, but I couldn't get injectable lidocaine on amazon, so I had to improvise. I used ibuprofen, phenibut, and some numbing cream, which barely did anything.

Despite the weak numbing, I pushed through the pain, It was still very painful and because of my inability to face my fears I did tiny cuts slowly cutting off the earlobe. It literally took hours, and the amount of blood was surprising. In the videos, there was hardly any, but by the time I was done, my torso was covered in dried blood. It was certainly not enjoyable, but I committed to cutting it off, so I finished one earlobe and decided to leave the other for another day.

When it came time to suturing, the angle and the type of cut made it much harder than I anticipated, and so I gave up, but the scar is barely noticeable, so I don't care. The pain made me put off the second earlobe for a couple of weeks, but this time, I bought actual injectable lidocaine. With this, the second earlobe removal was painless and took less than 15 minutes.

That was almost two years ago, and I haven’t attempted any more diy surgeries since.
The insane thing about our modern society is, becoming a troon has a way too big overlap with being high iq than is comfortable or even plausible.
He's also shagging women, so he even checks that AGP (the high iq ones) predictor box. He will also do it "too late", as all AGPs, and become a horrorcow.
It's a fate way worse than being a furry schizocow but ironically more likely.

I learned this much on the farms.
I'm GAMP, not AGP.
Learn the difference, bro.

What was the fuckup that led to this diagnosis? Was it the ear-cutting?
No, the diagnosis came much later, but I wouldn't be surprised if the ear cutting played a part.
I know it sounds cheesy and simplistic but, if you wake up every morning and think “today everything is going to be miserable and suck”, then yes, today, everything will be miserable and suck. Go into every day, every event, action or interaction with the thought. “This is going to be a great day” “I’m going to have a good time”.
Reddit tier advice, but you tried at least.
I sort of appreciate that.
@Laplace's Victim : Post hands, faggot! We need to know.
My 2D:4D digit ratio is high T.
Drinking game: drink everytime @Laplace's Victim says he's not sorry about being a bad person without clarifying why he would be a bad person in the first place.

Is all that because some Tinder whore ghosted you?
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If this is real, go to church. Seriously, not a snarky comment, actually go to church.
I thought about it after watching an ex gang member interview.
I found his story to be compelling.
If a red flag was a person, it'd be OP.

I'm not even going to feign concern here. It's obvious he is set in his ways and approaching a point where he may hurt somebody for personal satisfaction. Best thing you can do is save yourself to avoid that deep, dark place that he manifests with his personality.
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I was gonna call you a faggot because this isn't reddit but I'm late. If you wanted to be treated like you're on reddit, you'd post this on reddit.
Proceeds to give reddit tier advice.
Looks like he's pink dorito'd up again. Now I'm wondering whether the OP and the whole thread was nothing more than a ruse to get the triangle back.

Once again the retarded kiwis have been outmanoeuvred by the Machiavellian God *sigh*
Indeed
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I know it sounds cheesy and simplistic but, if you wake up every morning and think “today everything is going to be miserable and suck”, then yes, today, everything will be miserable and suck.
Sometimes, like when you're a plumber who is on call the entire week and that week has has a cold plunge into -20 degree Fahrenheit temperatures, that expectation will be correct. That's how I got to experience what Trench Foot feels like. But you are correct about the power of positive thinking outside of such cases.
 
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