🪦 Deceased Joe Winko - THE GAYMASTER/Lol-Bvll / Self admitted Gay Hawaiian Ricardo Milos Cosplayer/Uploaded his consciousness to the Sims/Ed Wood of Machinima

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I don't know anything about this guy and I have seen a lot of fucked up stuff online before, including many death videos. This might have been the worst one I've ever seen. If any of y'all haven't watched it, I actually urge you not to. This one's bad, and it's not bad because of gore or anything like that. It's just heartbreaking. I wish I hadn't watched it. Idk why anybody would ever want to go out like that, I have to assume he had no idea what he was signing up for or thought he would be able to stop it from happening whenever he wanted -- which it looks like he actually tried to do multiple times.

No clue what that contraption was or what he inhaled, but I really wish I hadn't even seen him do it. Hope he's at peace now at least. I'm actually very surprised people are talking about a "clean" death and how easygoing it was or whatever, these people must not have actually watched the video presumably. Unless clean just means lack of gore or something.
 
datura_binge said:
I don't know anything about this guy and I have seen a lot of fucked up stuff online before, including many death videos. This might have been the worst one I've ever seen. If any of y'all haven't watched it, I actually urge you not to. This one's bad, and it's not bad because of gore or anything like that. It's just heartbreaking. I wish I hadn't watched it. Idk why anybody would ever want to go out like that, I have to assume he had no idea what he was signing up for or thought he would be able to stop it from happening whenever he wanted -- which it looks like he actually tried to do multiple times.

No clue what that contraption was or what he inhaled, but I really wish I hadn't even seen him do it. Hope he's at peace now at least. I'm actually very surprised people are talking about a "clean" death and how easygoing it was or whatever, these people must not have actually watched the video presumably. Unless clean just means lack of gore or something.
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He mentions in the video he got drunk first and had been too scared to earlier. It seems he was well aware of what was going to happen. I can’t imagine what it would be like to know you’ve guaranteed your own death. I’m surprised he didn’t decide to use his diabetes in some way: take some sleeping pills and overdose on insulin or something like that. I think he knew once he took this stuff there was almost 0 chance he would survive if he didn’t get EMS there immediately.
 
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Couldn't sleep so I've been perusing the thread. I didn't know about Joe till the feature, but thought I'd give my two cents in the hopes it eases the burden a bit.

From what I've seen, you did all you reasonably could for Joe. I would never expect anyone to get personally involved IRL with someone as unstable as Joe. The way he talked about his previous attempt made it obvious he was going to do it again. He reminded me a bit of Terry Davis in how miserable he was with his life circumstances. I think it's difficult for us non-schizoids to truly appreciate how painful and disorienting their existences are. Joe obviously wanted out for quite some time.

I watched the suicide video, and I think people may be overselling his suffering a bit. Most of it is him just waiting out the inevitable. Don't get me wrong, it was rough and it might be best to not watch since you knew the guy. But he definitely wasn't having any second thoughts and was toughing it out to reach his goal. As someone who has experienced some pretty brutal pain (not a suicide attempt), his fidgeting and the attempt to get up were just disoriented biological coping mechanisms for the pain. When you're experiencing a lot of pain, you tend to fidget around for some reason. From my experience, the pain puts you in a daze. You sort of reach a new homeostasis and float through it till it subsides. I don't think he was scared or distraught. He obviously researched the method beforehand and knew what he was getting himself into (especially with the previous attempt). He knew what would be required.

I think he really appreciated that you just gave him space to be himself and make his own decisions. I don't think he would have wanted you to interrupt his plans. You were a good friend to him, and that's all he wanted.

edit: Sorry, misunderstood Mildrek and thought that was you
 
neger psykolog said:
Is this making fun of us or what?
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I respected the farms and felt we were his only place of refuge where he could truly be himself and get the love and connection he desired. He just probably tried to look up a photo of caring/empathetic guys and just chose the crying ones because facial emotions may be hard for him due to the autism. He meant to make us look pity filled for him and respectful and caring. It was just the tism filtering it.
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Considering the deep depths of his autism he could've easily set them to publish years from now unless the accounts go down.
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We're joking and in Kayfabe but wait till you see an oddly topical scheduled post from one of his accounts, Following by his spirit ringing you up...
 
So what exactly was the an hero method here?
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Its not opiates or drugs, that bag looks like some shit he ordered off ebay, my guess is sodium nitrite(common method, altho fucking painfull because it eats your stomach lining because its a strong oxidant)
But if its nitrite, he didnt seem to have taken any antiemetics.
He says he took 21 grams but didnt say what it was.
No idea what the gas was, was gonna guess laughing gas but that bottle isnt one of those cartridges.
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He did NOT use gas
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He then stuffs his mask full of paper, probably to absorb the liquid thats in the bottle.
Diethyl ether, chloroform?
Took him about 30 minutes to stop breathing.
I can rule out a huge range of chemicals due to inaccessibility and the fact it took him so long to die, but i cant guess more than nitrite and some sort of "solvent" that he tried to huff through the mask to knock himself out.
Oh hes vomiting, yeah gotta be nitrite.
 
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Joe Winko was someone I sometimes checked up on, I would lurk his thread occasionally. But this is one of the first times I think I've been legitimately upset over a death on this site. Unfortunately I did watch the video and it just really fucking sucks man. No one should feel like that is their only option. This has been said countless times before probably but he had a lot of shit going on that pushed him to this, and it sucks seeing that he had no one in his life to give him that support other than the people he talked to online. I'm pretty sure that last voice note Vinluv received from him was right before he was setting everything up, if you look at the timeline of events. You can hear the grief in his voice. Yeah he was fucking nuts, but hearing that and then seeing he offed himself after is just really fucking grim.

Does anyone know if his family is going to respect his wishes? Do we even know if he's been found, and that it wasn't just his computer turning off? The screenshot folder would have at least caught someone coming into the room if that was the case, no?

Loneliness is a fucked up thing. Fly High Joe Winko. Joe Winko will end up in a better place. Joe Winko has become a digital angel posting beyond the grave.

I feel like booting up the sims again.
 
Weed Man said:
The screenshot folder would have at least caught someone coming into the room if that was the case, no?
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I doubt it. Images were time stamped 6 hours apart, he set it up as a time lapse. Lots of time for someone to get in there, figure out what was up if they didn't know already from his video, and shut it down.
 
What an absolute piece of theater. Lupe Vélez would be proud.
You've got to marvel at a mind so deranged to orchestrate a suicide like that.
*slow clap*

Fly high, you absolute lunatic.
 
Vinluv Handesbukia said:
Joe Winko wanted God…
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He claims to have gone to confession: I very much hope that poor priest who took it isn’t aware it was him. Also: since when has he had the sonichu medallion? Like that’s always a clue things are bad. It came out nowhere.

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datura_binge said:
No clue what that contraption was or what he inhaled, but I really wish I hadn't even seen him do it. Hope he's at peace now at least. I'm actually very surprised people are talking about a "clean" death and how easygoing it was or whatever, these people must not have actually watched the video presumably. Unless clean just means lack of gore or something.
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"Clean" likely refers to the aftermath for those tasked with handling that.
 
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