Forgive multi posting I swear the back log is getting longer not shorter....
My very first crush <3 <3 <3
Kent is in his room and wishes a good night to everyone on YT. He wanted to make a new video for everyone it's been on my mind something something floating in my mind I should just make a video and share it. This is my first crush, my very first crush first girl I had a crush on I'll share. Ok I had a crush on a girl in middle school, middle school I was in the 8th grade, ok. First girl I had a crush on very first ever ever liked I wanted to be with.
You know, at that age, you are 13-14 year old I was 13 going on 14. and um, I was a teenager I was a teenager with hormones and all that stuff and I wanted a girl friend it never happened in middle school. I really really like this girl, she was very beautiful. She was pretty I found her attractive a lot of people in middle school a lot of people didn't like and said she was unattractive, I found her attractive she knew it.
I would stare at her and all that. I was really making it clear I had a crush, really clear to her. I was going to do what ever it takes to make her my first girl friend this never ever happened. Um, you know, everyone know I know I liked her. That's how I messed up I went to tell the entire school that I had a crush on this girl. People were like she's ugly people said that, they hurt, that was the time what they said. It was a slang term, that that she was unattractive.
But um I told them I think she's cool I see nothing wrong with her at the time, I would always, I would always write her letters and all that stuff that I liked her and stuff, I did ask if she wanted to go out and she she said no and rejected me didn't feel same way about me. Like I did her. I liked her really liked her and wanted her and really wanted to be with her. I was in middle school at the time.
Bear with me, kids are kids, you know at the time in grade school. I asked her out at least 3 or 4 times she said no and everything. She was very, to a degree, kinda mean to me. A little bit towards middle of the year kinda mean to me. I don't know why. You know? At the time, in middle school they said don't go out with Kent he's ugly and in special ed. You don't want to date him. She should date someone better than him. People in their cliques did this to me. Probably did this.
And um you know, speaking of my first crush I still I don't follow her on instagram I don't follow her but she's with someone in a relationship with someone on her instagram. In middle school she liked other boys at the time she liked boys at the time at the time of middle school. She dated 2 boys two guys at middle school two guys. Two guys at the time in middle school, you know. First guy it really really really crushed me.
It really crushed me and really hurt my feelings and she dated him you know knowing I liked her and she told me now he asked her out and she said yes. You know that hurt my feelings and really did. And everything. She just didn't treat me right you know? She treated me like crap. After a while she felt sorry for me to a degree people people would mess with me people would always give me a hard time. And everything she was nicer to me toward end of the year and we were gonna graduate middle school 8th to 9th grade.
I was was a teenager my brain wasn't developed at the time she said I'll go out with you kent in high school and we went to same high school. We'll date in high school She never went out with me, she dated some other dude who wanted to be a rapper you know she liked that she was the type of girl who liked pretty boys you know she liked them. She likes guys like that at the time, she pretty much dated pretty much 2 3,3 guys I liked her. By that time I just started, losing her. I had a crush entire year 8th grade and she didn't want to go out with me refused to and everything.
Because her clique her clique the popular clique wanted to say don't go out with him, he's slow he's ugly in special ed, they gassed her head up to not go out with me. She didn't. That's what they do in middle school that's what they did to me. All that stuff but um, you know she is in a relationship we are grown, and grown she's in a relationship. I just thought about her, I think about my past. You know. That's what happened she never went out, she was kinda mean towards end she was nicer.
She agreed to go out with me and be my girlfriend and um, when we got into high school, it never happened never ever happened. She dated another guy in high school. He wanted to be a rapper, she liked him for some reason. Um, a guy who just I wanted to be accepted. They they looked at me as a a, they could just tell me I didn't got the thing, I wasn't part of the clique, I wasn't in. That's what it was in about being part of a crowd or clique. I wasn't accepted by the popular crowd. Everyone hangs out and tries to be popular.
I wasn't popular. I just wasn't. I walked around alone stayed by myself in school people would mess with me and everything. And um, that was it. I I remember that I really remember that for my whole life my first crush. I think everyone remembers their first crush (lol nope years of drinking and womanizing ruined that) I think everyone does, I for sure for sure will remember that. My first crush very first was in 8th grade, 8th grade. yup 8th grade. And uh, during the time, when she was being nicer to me I dunno I don't have that picture.
I gave her a picture of me, a school picture I gave her a little school picture I gave her a school picture of me. And um, she gave me a picture of her. I don't have that anymore, I dunno what I did with it. I have to find it. She gave me a picture of her she felt sorry for me. she gave me a picture and pretended to like me, she didn't really like me. She never did. She was mean to me mean at the start of the year. but um, we used to write notes in middle school we passed notes in class. Mostly what I would do. She was dating her first boyfriend in my opinion. I stopped talk to her.
She was like writing a note why aren't you talking we can talk just because I have a boy friend. She was feeling bad for me. Because at the time first quote unquote boyfriend. They would walk around hold hands kiss and make out IN MIDDLE SCHOOL WE WUZ TEENAGERS WE WAS 13-14 YEARS OLD. In middle school. And um, yea um, and I was just minding myself from a distance, they looked at me looked at me her and her best friend and boyfriend at the time well her boyfriend didn't like me her best lady friend.
I was just sad very sad very sad. I was sad. You know really sad. Devastated. Her second boyfriend some skater dude he liked to ride skateboards and bikes. And um everything. She dated him they broke up. You know just left me hanging. You know I just got left hanging, she dated two other guys in the same year in same school year I got left hanging you know? I didn't do nothing. I just wanted her to like me at the time. But she didn't she started being nicer to me end of the year but um, she didn't like me. She didn't care how I was heartbroken when she got her first boyfriend.
She never never dated anyone before, because quote unquote best friend since they are grown and all we go separate ways and have their own life at the time the time, when we were in middle school her best friend hooked her um with that guy she crushed on him. That's it long story short we never went out we never went out. You know she did reject me, she agreed to date in high school. We never went out we never dated, she dated some other some other, her 3rd boy friend. Her 3rd boyfriend at the time. Her first was a light skinned pretty boy second was a skater guy 3rd was a want to be rapper writing lyrics and stuff.
She said we'd date in high school we'll date in high school. My brain wasn't ready. I said see you in freshman year. We never went out. In high school. Her 3rd boyfriend would kiss and make out, me just walking by myself and she would sit down look at me. Just looking at me. I just I just shook my head I just shook my head and went about my day. My first crush treated me like crap she lied to me treated me like crap lied to me no remorse she was nice to me because remorse she just felt sorry for me. She didn't mean it she didn't mean it.
But um, I'm going to go on and close this video out. You know she's dated many dudes many dudes. Many guys. Multiple guys. She treated me like crap. On her instagram she said she's dating someone now, they got pictures on page kissing making out and at the baseball game. All that stuff the A's game she says, she loves him and is thankful and adores him. She never gave me a chance.
At the time, I'm talking now, middle school is in middle school. As for now on her page she loves her boyfriend and how much she adores him and her kissing him. I don't follow her on instagram, it's not on private though so I can see it. But it is what it is. It's her loss (chuckle) I really liked her even at the time, you first crush on someone your very first crush this very kinda mind set and dream you'll spend rest of my life with who I'll marry. That's how everyone's first crush is.
That's how I felt I thought I was gonna marry and spend the rest of my life with her, it's very rare to fall in love to marry your first crush very rare very very it's very rare though. It happens it's rare. I got over it, after a year and a half. I liked her a year and a half. That's my, video long story short, she didn't like me she didn't care about me. It is what it is, my first crush my story on my first crush in middle school, she rejected me didn't feel same, it is what is is. Her friends ruined it. It is what it is. All I gotta say Kent signing out peace.
tl;dw
Kent tells us his first crush story
He liked a girl she didn't like him
She abused him by dating another guy she had a crush on
The entire school pressured her not to date Kent
She promised to date him
He just looks up old crushes on line
this is normal
He's over it.
He fell for her "lies" because he wasn't developed as a teenager... apparently she was.
She dated other guys and implies she's a slut.
This is a top 10 Kent video the back story is huge and since we can read him pretty damn well you can pick up how creepy behavior is nothing new to him. It just shows really he's been like this forever. He feels that he wanted to date someone so he had "dibs" even though she had a crush else where.
The entire world plotting to break them up when it was clear she wasn't into him. They were at least some form of platonic social she wasn't ok with the next step, but kept door open. This wasn't good enough for Kent so he cast her away, something a friend wouldn't do. Even as a teen she knew well enough to reach out and try to chat with Kent.
I know I've mentioned before Kent's concept of a crush isn't even right. He can't explain a single detail of this girl aside he found her good looking. Crushes are great cute and fun. Getting a hard on because a girl is cute isn't a crush. I'm thinking back to the crushes I had as a kid and while I'm a fucking lolcow of a human, the first thing I remember is a personality trait.
It really rams home to me Kent dehumanizes everyone. More so women because he wants one. I feel the things I collect and enjoy as hobbies I have a deeper connection with than Kent would with a female. And if the fact I can feel a deeper bond with a 80+ year old rifle, than Kent can be if he was married is probably scarier than it is sad.
Again, highly recommend watching this one and see if you can pick some of how deep his madness runs.