Kevin doesn't talk much about it, but it kinda seems like he's in constant pain. If a finger hurts, a dilator hurts. If a dilator hurts, that's at least half an hour of soreness, discomfort, and pain, twice a day, every single day, for the past ten months. That'll take a toll on your mental state, even if there's a really big fantasy attached to it.
So I searched "pain" on Kev's twitter to try and get a better picture of what's going on.
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The first is that Kevin is constantly creating little stories like this about why he's experiencing a particular symptom. This was shortly after surgery, but he's been doing it constantly for months. For every twinge and sore spot, a half-baked theory.
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I wonder if this separation was the cause of Kevin's current issues. If a surgical wound looks deep but there's no pain and "not much" blood, that's not necessarily reassuring.
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Ooh, that pout when someone doesn't play along. Kevin was trying to imply that this was some kind of overwhelming experience of next-level penetration, but Marley immediately calls him out on it and he admits that the only real sensation is "mild pain."
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Remember when we were looking forward to the vaunted 8 week mark? Remember how that became four months, and then "maybe after a full year I'll finally be free of pain?" The Kiwi Farms remembers.
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The shooting pains and unscratchable itch aren't caused by chronic inflammation and nerve damage, it's the nerves "waking up," trust me.
I fully believe that Kevin is lazy enough to stay cooped up in a cramped loft rather than enjoy his time outdoors on their spacious ranch. But I'm starting to suspect that his scars get aggravated if he walks around too much, and that there are other functional issues that he just doesn't talk about.
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