Lack of motivation

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KifflomKween

KifflomKween

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How do you all deal with this?

It's not that I lack energy or drive. I take care of myself and my health. I'm fairly good looking. I used to gaf about college, career. I had dreams.

Then I went into academia and realized what a load of corrupt bs it was. Went into the workplace, same crap. It's all about politics at the end of the day. Spent my time surrounded by puffed up talentless buffoons I had to grovel to because thats just what u do. Lost passion for the field somewhere along the way. Was offered a really good job abroad after years of grinding to prove myself and realized it didn't excite me anymore. I tried other jobs, simple jobs but they don't fullfil me.

I'm not depressed. I have this nagging feeling that i should be doing something but i don't know what. Even doxing retards and perverts on the farms doesn't excite me anymore.

People in general annoy me. Can't stand group dynamics. Or people in general. At the end of the day it feels like it's just theatrics. I always feel drained like I am wasting my time.

Then there's the politics, surveillance everywhere, everything going to shit. In my shithole country everyones on meds or drugs or both, everyones mentally ill.

The only times I've felt alive recently were when I messed with ppl who annoy me. Like that one time I got my flatmates evicted. It was an accident (although i admit i have a knack for causing chaos even without trying lol, its like the Devil whispers in my ear) but its the hardest I've laughed in a while. And I had a blast adding fuel to the fire afterwards because fuck those two and the landlord. There have been other times in my life when i have messed with assholes like that, pitting them against each other, and nothing has made me feel more alive.


What do I do? Do I indulge the urge? Has anyone been through this?

I used to have morals and standards. I used to care about making the world a better place and living a good wholesome life.

Sorry if this doesn't make sense. I'm in a weird place in my life.
 
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KifflomKween said:
The only times I've felt alive recently were when I messed with ppl who annoy me. Like that one time I got my flatmates evicted. It was an accident (although i admit i have a knack for causing chaos even without trying lol, its like the Devil whispers in my ear) but its the hardest I've laughed in a while. And I had a blast adding fuel to the fire afterwards because fuck those two and the landlord. There have been other times in my life when i have messed with assholes like that, pitting them against each other, and nothing has made me feel more alive.
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Ibanez RG 350EX said:
I'll never understand this advice. You can't just pick goals arbitrarily - there has to be some emotional impetus behind them. That's what makes them "goals" rather than "acting arbitrarily".
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I had nothing but goals before and an insane drive, I fullfilled a great part of them, still felt the same sense of emptiness.

I'm not even depressed, I'm just in limbo I think.
 
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Sounds like you need to take on some responsibility.
That often gives meaning to a man.
Personal goals are fine but being responsible for something bigger than yourself can keep you going till the day you die.
 
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herefortheactualthreads said:
its not about arbitrarily, its about finding stuff you like and set goals around it.
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If you have a bunch of things you enjoy and want to achieve within those domains, you're not making a thread like this in the first place.

If someone is upset they lost their legs in an industrial accident, you don't tell them they might feel better if they take up running.
 
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Ibanez RG 350EX said:
If you have a bunch of things you enjoy and want to achieve within those domains, you're not making a thread like this in the first place.

If someone is upset they lost their legs in an industrial accident, you don't tell them they might feel better if they take up running.
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okay, my apologies.
 
Ibanez RG 350EX said:
If you have a bunch of things you enjoy and want to achieve within those domains, you're not making a thread like this in the first place.
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I have a bunch of things I enjoy (hobbies) and I could even set some goals for myself, what I can't shake is this feeling that something is missing.
I achieve one goal, then another, then what? That's my problem.
 
Yeah welcome to the club dude (F).

The idea of nothing mattering and not feeling especially motivated or passionate about anything is usually associated with depression, but it doesn't seem like that (although it is a depressing state of affairs, considering you're getting older while nothing happens), I think it's more just the sense that all anyone is doing is building sand castles.

You could make the argument that that's life in general, because none of it will last forever, but that type of nihilistic escape mechanism is kind of sour grapes. It all feels empty and fake, so all you can do is convince yourself that's how it always was to numb the sting of knowing this is the one life you've got, and it doesn't feel that precious.

I figure nobody else is going to have an answer as to how to fix it though, because if someone had an easy answer to a problem then solving it would feel empty and dissatisfying, and that itself is the problem.
It's independently overcoming something and building/advancing something you strongly identify with that makes it feel real.

Idk, I see the type of people who are happy with the modern cycle and I really envy them. They don't think this nonsense or have constant gay meta thoughts about what they're doing, they're thoroughly absorbed and happy with whatever's in front of them. It's admirable.

That's really the best phenotype for the modern world. Meanwhile other people are out here slowly thinking themselves extinct.

Idiotron said:
Well then, if I may ask, do you have a partner and/or kids?
Because a lack of that can be the reason why you're not motivated.
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Maybe, but the idea of inviting people into your life in the hopes they'll patch the chronic spiritual hole in you seems unfair and unwise.
Children are supposed to be learning how to be satisfied from you, not the other way around. That sounds like a recipe for messed up kids.
 
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Ultrapenguin said:
Idk, I see the type of people who are happy with the modern cycle and I really envy them. They don't think this nonsense or have constant gay meta thoughts about what they're doing, they're thoroughly absorbed and happy with whatever's in front of them. It's admirable.
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I don't think they're happy like that. Most normies I know are either on psych meds or have some kind of addiction (drinking, drugs, sex, partying, working). They just don't look like your typical sad messy addict.

Ultrapenguin said:
The idea of nothing mattering and not feeling especially motivated or passionate about anything is usually associated with depression, but it doesn't seem like that (although it is a depressing state of affairs, considering you're getting older while nothing happens), I think it's more just the sense that all anyone is doing is building sand castles.

You could make the argument that that's life in general, because none of it will last forever, but that type of nihilistic escape mechanism is kind of sour grapes. It all feels empty and fake, so all you can do is convince yourself that's how it always was to numb the sting of knowing this is the one life you've got, and it doesn't feel that precious.
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See I don't even think the problem is building something, it's enjoying building it and enjoying the finished product. With all my goals what happened was a minimal and vanishing feeling of enjoyment, mostly grinding, then an emptiness once the goal was achieved, rinse and repeat with less and less enjoyment each time.
 
Overwritten Tapes said:
Lack of motivation isn't the same as lack of discipline. Build the latter, and the former won't matter.
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In a way, discipline is also a form of motivation. It's a type of ritual and these do motivate (or at least encourage) you.


Idiotron said:
being responsible for something bigger than yourself can keep you going till the day you die.
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Idiotron said:
do you have a partner and/or kids?
Because a lack of that can be the reason why you're not motivated.
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Both are good advice.

Think of something you want to achieve in your live (family, career, etc) and work towards it. The goals just depend on where do you see yourself in the future.
 
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