I can’t really say specifically what that repellent feeling is whenever I look at a picture of Lucas, but it acts up HORRIBLY if I have to hear him talk. I can’t stand to watch his videos. It gets worse when he starts screaming and yelling. It’s like your brain is forcing you to imagine being right there with him, a smaller woman being screamed at by a dangerous lunatic who has 100 lbs on you and is intent on “running your guts.”
It’s like when you look at a person and you just know something is off about them, something feels wrong, even when they’re speaking normally. Nothing they say is unusual, but you just get a very bad feeling and want to leave as soon as possible.
Lucas’ voice activates something primordial in the back of my head that just screams danger. When he talks, I have the unbearable urge to turn around and quickly walk away, even though I’m sitting in my own office, and it's been that way since the first time I saw this thread.
It’s a weird sixth sense that this man is going to try and push me into doing something I don’t want to do if I keep talking to him, or go someplace where we are alone. There is something off about him that my subconscious picks up, but my conscious thoughts can’t explain.
Sadly, women can’t just detect all predators and loons instantly like that. A lot of predators are good at hiding it behind superficial charm. But Lucas has NO charm, no ability to even try to act like other people, so his “off-ness” is just nakedly on display and slamming into a woman’s creep radar.
As you say, I grasp for words to describe my revulsion. Even if he didn’t inspire fear, just experiencing how he stares and talks would make me think, “like FUCK I will ever let this creep inside me, much less father any kids. This guy is a DNA dead end.”