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So, Barbara had been born and grew up as child number five out of eight to the Weston family in red oak, VA on October 1, 1941. Her life was a redneck simple country one. She had mastered sewing, mending and making clothes and other farm-life facets and church-going habits.
*to note, there are similarities and polar differences between her past and mine, respectively, as i shall write and note to ye all.
In her schooling years especially at high school Barbara was a very intellectual,, yet she also was a cheerleader for a time. Barbara had tow boyfriends in high school, one of which was tom Ashley which had gone fairly well, but Barbara had planned to leave for college, so ultimately, she broke up the relationship. And Harriet Weston took tom for her own. now, during high school and prior, Barbara sisters had spread rumors of her, calling her a slut, but Barbara never had sexual intercourse. She never every even masturbated, it simply never ever dawned on her to do so, and it was not against her religion either.
Comparison: she dated, yet i was naive on the subject of dating and healthy relationships, and i masturbated, during our respective high school years. and i was too focused on education to ever seek a relationship or sex (not counting the friendships in that).
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over her adult years, Barbara had attended and graduated from college, and before meeting mister c. (robertchu), Barbara had seven ex-boyfriends, counting the two in high school. and between numbers three to seven and mister c as well, they all were rather selfish types of men, and in their testosterone-occupied selves, they each had never really cared for her pleasure when it came to sex. to them, it was more for their pleasure and genetic reproductive intentions. Jerry and mister c. aside, they were love-em-and-leave-em types. jack smithey was number five, and the dammed trucker “loved” Barbara and left her with Cole.
also to note, after five (epic) fail relationships on her part, after finding mister c., Barbara, in her own words, married him because “he owned a house”. and yet theirs, with i under their care, was a ship that lasted with some genuine love.
Comparison: Barbara had selfish exes with actual in-person relationships and a few weddings. i had hardly anything beyond friendships on authentic, and the relationships i had that “went anywhere” prior to these days were distant, online, and fake.
i define generation trauma: a noun, a trauma one experience from thee past experiences and aura resonance vibrations from the biological parents or legal guardian that can either be beneficial or sabotaging, depending on the parent(s)
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now, as one may hear from Joseph Cole smithey's testing of Barbara as a mother: he had seen and experienced emotional manipulation, some lack of better care; he even called her a “pathological liar” when it came to asking her about jack smithey, and other details from his perspective.
no sugar-coating and blunt, here, from me: i my years Barbara was caring, but remained some distant emotionally and mentally. she had emotionally manipulated me at times. when i told her of my intentions of going to a convention in another state, she did threaten suicide of her self. she also had raised her voice to me in upset and anger, especially when it came to money. after the paid sex with a kind Cherokee woman in April, 2012, in may, i told Barbara about it, and Barbara literally propositioned me for sex by telling me, “i would have had sex with you myself, christian” and in one aspect of her unconsciousness, Barbara had considered me a replacement for mister c. after September 6, 2011
so, yeah, Barbara, in a way, did become and emotional burden on I.
Yet, in despite of the situation, and i have personally written to hielberg the story of Barbara in these and similar words in truth, nobody had interrogated he, “because of her age”. The legal system, am i right?
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Now you all know.
For now, until my safe return to all of ye in light, power, divine, i remind thee of one of the new commandments and introduced to ye all a couple more of them as inscribed on 10142021.
15) thou shalt not comment online or offline in hatred, spite, falseness, or without any words of criticism that are intentionally, genuinely meant to be supportive for actual improvements.
14) thou shalt hate thy neighbors or others that share any similarities in race, ethnicity, interests, or whatever else with thee. And thou shalt hate thy self for any one of these traits or interests, either.
21) thou need not to feel pressured nor obligated to peruse sexual relations, and among all who pressure and talk continually about sex, please do not speak on and on. And thou nee not feel obligated to listen if thou feel uneasy around others when they speak of which. For sexual relations are better when thou and thy partners(s) actually feel appreciative and open, and not pressured by others beforehand.
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And lastly to englehardt and anyone else with the same or similar idea(s): now is not the time to make any LOLCOW wiki pages on anyone who does not already have such on them, including celebrities and politicians, for these imminent times, the collective shift and greater events are on and happening, and ye nee to be observant and enlightening for thy selves, as well as recognizing and dispelling any and all remaining dark, demonic, and devilish influences from deepest within thy selves and thy unconsciousness.
Ah, for now, my individuals and followers; alike i (farewell) work diligently, through and hard for ye all,
Be safe and well.
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