There's some catharsis to be found in her finally acknowledging the shit that big bad KF has been screaming at her for years. That, yes, she's not the only victim here, and that she actually is herself responsible for a great deal of the pain put on Marl's victims.
She does make a weird quasi-attempt to take some amount of responsibility... this is "better," but being better than the absolute fucking worst isn't a really high bar. Even despite what I assume is Pengo coaching her so that she comes off as palatable, her allergy to agency is still showing where she frequently tries to frame her inaction as a result of Marl's "mind control".
Marl seems like an actual fucking psychopath, and you know, I totally buy it given what we've seen. However, whatever "control" he has over her does not distract from the fact that she literally knew that Marl was fucking their mutual dog, and she
made the decision to do fucking nothing about it. She KNEW Marl was a dogfucker who pressured people into making dogsex videos, but she still silenced the people who came forwards. She chose not to look into the truth of her own volition. She chose not to read what people were telling her and she chose to believe everyone was just lying about her to make her look bad. She had all of this context and she just sat on it and lied about it for years and years.
She was tested and she failed spectacularly. It may have been difficult for her to do the right thing while she was allegedly in this state of mind, but the onus was still on her to do it and she didn't. Instead she consistently enabled and participated in his abuse and I can't look past that just because she was messed up.
Also shit like this still slips through:
glip said:
Marl announced to me that he wanted to kill people who were posting to KF, because of how much they were harassing me. I was horrified. I told him no, he couldn't do that, it would only make matters worse. It wouldn't stop people from saying whatever they said.
I notice that her priority isn't that she doesn't want Marl to hurt people, it's that hurting people would make it
worse for her.
glip said:
Marl had acted like I was complicit in making videos with him in Seattle, when I absolutely wasn't.
She was complicit in making videos, though. If someone coerces and scares you into hiding a body, you're still complicit, so I don't see how she can deny being complicit to Marl's horrific nightmare shit. Despite how awful it was for her, she had more agency in that situation than the dog did. But she kept going with him to meet these people and conveniently doesn't remember any of it so like, what the fuck.
glip said:
The whole situation was so wonky. It just got spun as "trying to silence a victim" - and I can understand how it must have felt that way.
Love the minimisation here. It didn't "feel that way." You were literally silencing a victim. Several victims. You made a fucking habit of it.
It also bothers me that she seems equally or MORE concerned by Marl fucking Exty behind her back than by the fact that MARL FUCKED THEIR DOG. I hope this isn't
the time she got pissed at him on tumblr and mentioned eevee tried for sloppy seconds. It better not be, because can you imagine finding out that your husband fucked your dog and then only being concerned with going on tumblr and writing about how he cheated on you? Either way, that does not sound a lot like something someone terrified of talking about their husband would do - talking about his bullshit in public and then putting an image of your fursona decapitating him on a shirt. She's said and done so much shit in the past that contradicts the victim narrative she's crafted in these docs. I'm skeptical in general.
I kinda feel sorry for her, but not for any of the reasons she wants me to. I feel sorry because she's a huge fucking unapologetic deviant with literally no concept of a healthy normality to compare her life to, and since she thinks the behavioural and literal squalor she lives in is fine, she will never go out of her way to fix that and will probably keep getting involved in insane shit like this. So much of her life is centered around weird sex that there's no way it's not having negative effects on her mental condition. She thinks all this has made her incredibly emotionally literate when she's one of the least emotionally literate people I've ever seen in my fucking life. Though I obviously feel much worse for the victims of Marl's pedo dogfucker bullshit that she co-victimised.
I think the bottom line is that Mel is not anywhere near equipped for any of this. If she really wants to repent for participating in dog rape, for allowing a dog in HER care to get raped by someone she KNEW loved dog rape, and for hurting the people that were hurt by said dog rapist, she needs to stop paying lip service and actually take ownership - not just finally saying "my bad, oops" after a decade of lying her ass off didn't work. She needs to realise she is not equipped to run a community full of minors and sexual deviants. She needs to realise she is not equipped to do "scenes". She needs to realise she's a head case that shouldn't be in charge of anything involving vulnerable people. She needs to out Marl's ass. She needs to get actual, real therapy and stick with it. If she doesn't do that, more people are going to get hurt and it's going to be her fault, and we'll be back at square one with her whining about how everyone hates her because of her own actions.
She won't tho