Moving on and trying to improve myself

[The Cunting Death]

if someone rates you dumb or autistic, move the fuck on.

 

[Just A Butt]

I hear 8chan takes in guys like you.

You’d know, wouldn’t you Fatty?

 

[Chin of Campbell]

I don't get it, this dude has seven posts and only two of them are on a thread that isn't apologizing for something, and one of them is a picture for ants in one of the picture threads.

 

[Dr BigEvil]

I don't agree with everyone here either, but that's the nature of the site. You can find the crowds you most agree with.

People will hone in on any specific thing to make fun of regarding the Lolcow of their choice, even if in reality, they don't consider that thing to be a big deal. It's all for the sake of a laugh. Don't take it too seriously.

And I think at the end of the day this is my issue. I just felt piled on before and felt people actually hate me or think I'm actually like this when really I needed was advice. I guess I just need some help in changing the way I view things or think things.

It makes me panic especially here when I see people annoyed. When I saw opinions here I took it way too seriously. Even though everyone around me was telling me to ignore the site and move on and do something I enjoy, instead I'm thinking about comments on sports fans or consoomers and such. I can't do what I enjoy because of whats said here. The reason why I came back here is to try and close the book on the issue.

I think looking back on it @Gar For Archer was right and one of the things I talked with my councillor about. I care about what this site thinks about me knowing what it is. If I made a mistake or acted like a fool I'd normally move on and just forget about it as a silly thing I did. Not here. I feel like I've treated this site as the source of truth rather than a simple gossip forum with opinions I disagree with.

 

[What the shit]

If I made a mistake or acted like a fool I'd normally move on and just forget about it as a silly thing I did. Not here.

You still have not learned a single thing.

 

[Dr BigEvil]

You still have not learned a single thing.

And I'd like to learn. I know you said before in the previous thread why I shouldn't care about what the site says, but why.
Why shouldn't I? I've annoyed a lot of people and made all this mess. Including yourself. I shouldn't care about that?

 

[What the shit]

And I'd like to learn. I know you said before in the previous thread why I shouldn't care about what the site says, but why.
Why shouldn't I?

You should care.

 

[Knight of the Rope]

@Dr BigEvil why are you such a fucking consoomer?

Just stop being such a fucking consoomer, you fucking consoomer.

 

[Fliddaroonie]

OP it sounds more like you care about steering or controlling the narrative and getting the last word in.

Just get the fuck outside, touch grass and get some real life hobbies. Grow something, connect with nature, whatever but accept in this one your obsession with "putting things right" is REEEEtarded.

I'd never heard of you but now I have cos of your post. You're a really exceptional individual. The kind of person who proves the seriously mentally ill should not be allowed on the internet.

Let it the fuck go and move on. Nobody cares about you or your apology.

 

[Dr BigEvil]

OP it sounds more like you care about steering or controlling the narrative and getting the last word in.

Just get the fuck outside, touch grass and get some real life hobbies. Grow something, connect with nature, whatever but accept in this one your obsession with "putting things right" is REEEEtarded.

I'd never heard of you but now I have cos of your post. You're a really exceptional individual. The kind of person who proves the seriously mentally ill should not be allowed on the internet.

Let it the fuck go and move on. Nobody cares about you or your apology.

I know, its just the site and what it is that's got me so worried. I just feel like if I don't try and resolve this anything I do outside this site is meaningless. My councillor tells me to move on but how can I move on knowing that when it comes to this site, I'm seen as something I'm not.

Just how do I change my perspective or outlook. I seem to care a lot about this forum and what it says more than anywhere else.

 

[Poppavalyim Andropoff]

Just how do I change my perspective or outlook.

Start by unfaggoting yourself

 

[Fliddaroonie]

I know, its just the site and what it is that's got me so worried. I just feel like if I don't try and resolve this anything I do outside this site is meaningless. My councillor tells me to move on but how can I move on knowing that when it comes to this site, I'm seen as something I'm not.

Just how do I change my perspective or outlook. I seem to care a lot about this forum and what it says more than anywhere else.

Nobody cares. Any apology you make is meaningless and nobody gives a fuck.


You are asking how you change your perspective or outlook. I am telling you: log off, go the fuck outside, get some sunlight and fresh air and touch some fucking grass.

Accept that you cannot steer this narrative back in a direction you like and that you will not get the last word (which is what this comes down to, really, right? Admit it) and that people don't give a shit about you or your apology and vanish.

 

[Dr BigEvil]

I'm just conflicted at this point.
On one hand I know this thread is bringing negative attention and stuff I've done when people have forgotten about it but at the same time I feel like I needed to just explain things and then get some advice on how to improve myself.

Its all well saying “why should you care what Kiwis think of you” but I look at some threads and people seem to genuinely despise the lolcow and that they live a pathetic life and are a pathetic excuse of a human being. That's why it bothers me so much that I've annoyed people here because of that.

No matter what people outside of the site think of me or no matter what people in person say about me, it won't be enough because of all this. No matter what I do in the future.

 

[Shig O'nella]

Oh, fuck. You AGAIN?!

Just fuck off, dude. No one cares about your toy collection.

 

[eDove]

I know, its just the site and what it is that's got me so worried. I just feel like if I don't try and resolve this anything I do outside this site is meaningless. My councillor tells me to move on but how can I move on knowing that when it comes to this site, I'm seen as something I'm not.

Just how do I change my perspective or outlook. I seem to care a lot about this forum and what it says more than anywhere else.

I think, deep down, a lot of people take their parasocial interactions to heart — it's not something you want to voice, however. Take a deep breath, realize that we're a bunch of no-name retards who don't actually matter, and go on with your day. Like I said, people will forget, and you're only going to invite more ridicule if you continue to be so transparent.

Chris-chan partly got into all the problems he's in now 'cause he couldn't handle being "mislabeled" or perceived as something he's not. Our perception of you doesn't matter. We're not your family or your boss. Your online presence can be reshaped so as long as chill out.

 

[Noble Redditor]

You have two options:
A: log off and never come back so people will completey forget this ever happened

B: double, triple and quadruple down until you have a 99999 page thread on here.

 

[Dr BigEvil]

I think, deep down, a lot of people take their parasocial interactions to heart — it's not something you want to voice, however. Take a deep breath, realize that we're a bunch of no-name retards who don't actually matter, and go on with your day. Like I said, people will forget, and you're only going to invite more ridicule if you continue to be so transparent.

Chris-chan partly got into all the problems he's in now 'cause he couldn't handle being "mislabeled" or perceived as something he's not. Our perception of you doesn't matter. We're not your family or your boss. Your online presence can be reshaped so as long as chill out.

I do have a kind of "live and let live" kind of attitude tbh. If someone isn't hurting anyone and enjoying themselves I don't give a care about them. I guess when people say I can't improve the situation it stresses me out because of the state of mind I have here in that if I don't get validation here my life is objectively pathetic. People noticed I was JimPerson on lolcow. I feel like some of the stuff I said there was me venting about my frustrations with the site.

I feel like the culture is just too serious and I do get what you say about chilling out. I love sites and communities that joke around. I think 4chan does it better than this site tbh. So when I perceive the culture to be super serious I get anxious when people do get annoyed.

 

[Fliddaroonie]

Its all well saying “why should you care what Kiwis think of you” but I look at some threads and people seem to genuinely despise the lolcow and that they live a pathetic life and are a pathetic excuse of a human being. That's why it bothers me so much that I've annoyed people here because of that.

Why're you so hell-bent on going down the same route then?

This is hilarious, you've been given the answers, and you're just ignoring them. I hate to break it to you, but your parents lied. Sometimes, you won't win. Sometimes you can't make it right. Sometimes you can't apologise your way out of things, and sometimes people are going to hate your fucking guts.

Grow up and accept it or carry on and embrace a 2500 page thread and being loathed. Your choice.

 

[N I G M O D E]

I'm tired of hearing "suicide is NEVER the answer" when people like OP still exist.

 

[Shig O'nella]

Why're you so hell-bent on going down the same route then?

This is hilarious, you've been given the answers, and you're just ignoring them. I hate to break it to you, but your parents lied. Sometimes, you won't win. Sometimes you can't make it right. Sometimes you can't apologise your way out of things, and sometimes people are going to hate your fucking guts.

Grow up and accept it or carry on and embrace a 2500 page thread and being loathed. Your choice.

He gets off on it.