Careercow Narcissa Wright / Cosmo Wright - Former speedrunner tumbling down

[Satania]

The modern age is truly terrifying.

Imagine studying hard, getting a quality job, finding a good girl to settle down and start a family with.

She gives birth to a wonderful son, you couldn't be happier. You want to teach him all the lessons that life has bestowed upon you, the good and the bad. You want to prepare him for life, so that one day he too can start a family, be successful and feel as wonderful and fulfilled as you do in this moment.

Then he grows up to be a tranny begging for money on the internet, not reproducing and probably committing suicide in his 30's when the last shred of 'pass-ability' fades. There is no hope for Cosmo.

 

[Dylan]

Cosmo is literally sick in the head. He is actual Narcissist. Narcs are mentally incapable of feeling empathy: that's where his attitude towards viewers comes from; they are there for his own narcistic needs.

His grotesque face and crooked teeth reflect his ugly personality.

Can't wait to see him left alone and abandoned in narcistic rage.

 

[CrunkLord420]

Narci will vaguely threaten suicide if her pay pigs don't shower her in asspats and pitybux.

 

[Haunter]

Narcs are mentally incapable of feeling empathy

You might be confusing Narcissist Personality Disorder with Antisocial Personality Disorder, though the two are often co-morbid. I believe a narcissist has a complete range of emotion, it's just turned in on itself, in a way.

That doesn't make one any more bearable than the other, of course.

* I took one psychopathology course, so take this with a grain of salt :/ *

@dhume Anything come of getting info on Cosmo together? You can just ask Mods for help if you need help with anything

 

[0 0]

Cosmo is literally sick in the head. He is actual Narcissist. Narcs are mentally incapable of feeling empathy: that's where his attitude towards viewers comes from; they are there for his own narcistic needs.

His grotesque face and crooked teeth reflect his ugly personality.

Can't wait to see him left alone and abandoned in narcistic rage.

You might be confusing Narcissist Personality Disorder with Antisocial Personality Disorder, though the two are often co-morbid. I believe a narcissist has a complete range of emotion, it's just turned in on itself, in a way.

That doesn't make one any more bearable than the other, of course.

* I took one psychopathology course, so take this with a grain of salt :/ *

@dhume Anything come of getting info on Cosmo together? You can just ask Mods for help if you need help with anything

That's correct. Those who are considered narcissists are capable of feeling empathy. However, they will consider their own plights and tribulations much more significant (in terms of importance or intensity) regardless if they actually are. In other words, they're aware that other people suffer, but their own personal suffering demands more attention.

People who are considered antisocial, or more colloquially "sociopaths," however, are also capable of empathy. But unlike people with narcissism, who see their own difficulties as more important, people with antisocial personality disorder simply disregard the suffering of others. The distinction is that those with narcissism will still care about another's suffering, while those with sociopathy will not. But both are able to feel empathy.

An inability to feel empathy is in line with autism spectrum disorders. Empathy is an innate human trait, and the vast majority of the autism spectrum disorder's symptoms stem from the person's inability to empathize with others both in terms of emotionality and through communication.

I obviously can't summon Cosmo in front of me and scan his brain to determine what precisely is going on, but from what I've seen, Cosmo both has narcissism due to how much he prioritizes his own difficulties over the plight of others, and sociopathy due to how demonstrably he disregards the feelings and emotions of others. He is completely aware that he makes other people feel awful when he bans, mocks, or ignores them. That's why he does so as a "punishment" in his stream chat. He simply (and consciously) chooses not to care.

 

[dhume]

@dhume Anything come of getting info on Cosmo together? You can just ask Mods for help if you need help with anything

I have 130mb of chat logs from 2010-2013. Posting them unedited would reveal my identity. I'll go through them soon.

 

[awoo]

The modern age is truly terrifying.

Imagine studying hard, getting a quality job, finding a good girl to settle down and start a family with.

She gives birth to a wonderful son, you couldn't be happier. You want to teach him all the lessons that life has bestowed upon you, the good and the bad. You want to prepare him for life, so that one day he too can start a family, be successful and feel as wonderful and fulfilled as you do in this moment.

Then he grows up to be a tranny begging for money on the internet, not reproducing and probably committing suicide in his 30's when the last shred of 'pass-ability' fades. There is no hope for Cosmo.

I don't think this is necessarily a product of the modern age (depending on how you define "modern"). I can only imagine how Baby Boomer parents felt when their children ran off to become hippies. I'm sure you can find other examples from other generations.

I have 130mb of chat logs from 2010-2013. Posting them unedited would reveal my identity. I'll go through them soon.

tfw wikileaks now

 

[RJ MacReady]

I appreciate that Cosmo is using his esteemed platform to help draw traffic to the Kiwi Farms. Thank you, Comrade Cosmo.

 

[Zilortha]

People who are considered antisocial, or more colloquially "sociopaths," however, are also capable of empathy. But unlike people with narcissism, who see their own difficulties as more important, people with antisocial personality disorder simply disregard the suffering of others. The distinction is that those with narcissism will still care about another's suffering, while those with sociopathy will not. But both are able to feel empathy.

An inability to feel empathy is in line with autism spectrum disorders. Empathy is an innate human trait, and the vast majority of the autism spectrum disorder's symptoms stem from the person's inability to empathize with others both in terms of emotionality and through communication.

That's not exactly right though. I'll try to explain a bit...

I think the best way I ever heard NPD and APD contrasted was as such:

If you tell an emotional (and generally relatable) story to someone with NPD, they can put themselves into the other person's shoes, but by default they can only relate/compare it to themselves. They'll always bring it back to their own experiences and how it affects (or fails to affect) them. They're capable of empathy, but it's warped because they weigh their own needs/emotions/etc. greater than the needs/emotions/etc. of others.

But if you tell that same story to a person with APD, will have a genuinely difficult time empathizing or even sympathizing. People with antisocial personality disorder rarely (if ever) experience remorse for that exact reason... They just have genuine difficulty putting themselves in other's shoes and have trouble feeling emotions when relating to the troubles of others.

Autism spectrum disorders are a bit different. People with personality disorders have a fully developed theory of mind, so while they know and are completely aware that other people have perspectives, beliefs, desires, etc. of their own, they (depending on the specific disorder) generally just disregard them in favor of their own perspectives, beliefs, desires, etc. On the other hand however, people with autism spectrum disorders have real trouble understanding that other people have perspectives, beliefs, desires, etc. that are different from their own.

 

[awoo]

I have to disagree with lumping autism with personality disorders, at least when going by DSM-5 (which admittedly is flawed in countless ways). It is diagnosed as difficulties in communication and social interaction, along with repetitive behavior and intense focus. However there is a pretty widely cited 2004 study by Baron-Cohen that shows individuals with AS/HFA scoring significantly lower in terms of Empathy Quotient. Further reading I couldn't be bothered with: https://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/full/10.1111/j.1468-5914.2009.00402.x

I'm also gonna take the unpopular stance (here on Kiwi Farms) that being transgender itself isn't a mental disorder, however gender dysphoria is. Again from DSM-5 which I completely understand if you attack as PC/Big Pharma/biased etc.

Edit: Something interesting Narcissa said in her video was how she knew turning zeldaspeedruns.com into her personal site was evil. I just checked the site again and the old Cosmo photo is gone, replaced with the obscure BotW category. Now I wonder if this is actually knowing it was harmful to the community, or not believing so and just saying that because others have told her so...

 

[Zilortha]

I have to disagree with lumping autism with personality disorders, at least when going by DSM-5 (which admittedly is flawed in countless ways). It is diagnosed as difficulties in communication and social interaction, along with repetitive behavior and intense focus. However there is a pretty widely cited 2004 study by Baron-Cohen that shows individuals with AS/HFA scoring significantly lower in terms of Empathy Quotient. Further reading I couldn't be bothered with: https://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/full/10.1111/j.1468-5914.2009.00402.x

I'm also gonna take the unpopular stance (here on Kiwi Farms) that being transgender itself isn't a mental disorder, however gender dysphoria is. Again from DSM-5 which I completely understand if you attack as PC/Big Pharma/biased etc.

Edit: Something interesting Narcissa said in her video was how she knew turning zeldaspeedruns.com into her personal site was evil. I just checked the site again and the old Cosmo photo is gone, replaced with the obscure BotW category. Now I wonder if this is actually knowing it was harmful to the community, or not believing so and just saying that because others have told her so...

Same. That's one reason why I was trying to explain that certain personality disorders and autism can present with similar symptoms.

Also, ultimately I don't think that a specific diagnosis really matters. Even if we hit the nail on the head, it wouldn't make a difference. Even if Narcissa sees a psychiatrist or psychologist, I get the feeling that noncompliance would be an issue strictly because with issues like NPD, psychotherapy is the first stop (ignoring comorbid treatments). Not gonna :powerlevel:, I'll just say that at the end of the day, I think we all know there's more going on here than just gender dysphoria. And we have to take Narcissa's word that even that's real given the potential issues involved. Idk. I just feel that this sort of behavior is indicative of a different issue. Comorbid maybe? But maybe not. It's hard to say.

Either way it feels irrelevant to me. Potentially sad in a way, but irrelevant nonetheless.

And as far as I'm aware, ZSR has been like that for a while. It logs the made up BOTW category that Speedrun.com refuses to acknowledge (that caused the shitfit in the first place, from what I understand.

 

[GhostButt]

being transgender itself isn't a mental disorder, however gender dysphoria is.

Not that invested in the debate, but:

You have to have dysphoria to be trans, so being trans means you have a mental disorder, period.

Fakers, crossdressers & gendercreatives are either (or a mix of) autogynos, fetishists, compulsive liars, munchausens (both kinds), narcissists, and self-mutilators. Which put them as mentally ill as well.

It's a sickness no matter how you cut it (heh). The real debate is how society deals with the "genuine" cases, do we cure the mind or the body.
I don't know a fool proof way to do either, passing post transitions still have mental issues and pray/drug the gay away is also sus.

 

[Super Collie]

Hi Cosmo I think you are a fartknocker and Zelda sucks. I am only posting in this thread because I want you to make a 20 minute YouTube video about me where you talk about god knows what because I haven't actually bothered to listen to a single one up to this point. I just want validation and stickers from Kiwis.

PS: JOHN FUCKIN NUMBERS

 

[Heather Mason]

I find it amusing how some of Cosmo's most loyal lackeys call US obsessed. We're not the ones endlessly throwing money and pages of advice at a misanthrope who doesn't even show the smallest bit of appreciation. Compared to them our interest in Cosmo is lukewarm at best

Maybe it's because we get more attention than they do? They must be jealous

 

[awoo]

https://www.patreon.com/narcissawright/overview

$388/month with no posts and no rewards. Just throwing money away.

Edit: someone named "alan khanlarian" made a shoddy attempt at a meme in 2016 and posted to Patreon community with the comment "i NEED to post this." :horrifying:

 

[0 0]

I have to disagree with lumping autism with personality disorders, at least when going by DSM-5 (which admittedly is flawed in countless ways). It is diagnosed as difficulties in communication and social interaction, along with repetitive behavior and intense focus. However there is a pretty widely cited 2004 study by Baron-Cohen that shows individuals with AS/HFA scoring significantly lower in terms of Empathy Quotient. Further reading I couldn't be bothered with: https://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/full/10.1111/j.1468-5914.2009.00402.x

I'm also gonna take the unpopular stance (here on Kiwi Farms) that being transgender itself isn't a mental disorder, however gender dysphoria is. Again from DSM-5 which I completely understand if you attack as PC/Big Pharma/biased etc.

Edit: Something interesting Narcissa said in her video was how she knew turning zeldaspeedruns.com into her personal site was evil. I just checked the site again and the old Cosmo photo is gone, replaced with the obscure BotW category. Now I wonder if this is actually knowing it was harmful to the community, or not believing so and just saying that because others have told her so...

I'd love to read this link later, thanks for sharing. Please don't get me wrong, however, I wasn't lumping autism spectrum disorder with personality disorders, since there's very key distinctions. I was making comparisons between the two. Either way, it's interesting to pinpoint exactly what is happening with Cosmo's mentality, but no matter how correct we think we are, it's ultimately fruitless since any positive changes in Cosmo's psychology has to come from him willingly seeing a therapist. Which is something I'm doubtful will actually happen.

 

[FrozenFlame]

If Narcissa is still answering questions / comments:

Narcissa (yes, I'll use that name for you) are you aware of how you come off? I don't think you are because I don't think any rational person would continue to act as you do if they had an once of self-awareness. Plus it can't be easy to be self-aware with all the yes men you surround yourself with in your chat who glorify everything you do. You say you don't want people talking negatively about you or pages about you to exist on websites like this, Sam & Tolki subreddit, etc. But you never once talk about how you feed into it. Yes, you do, before you can deny it.

If you didn't want the attention, you wouldn't act out in the way you do. The moment something remotely personal happens in your life you go to Twitter. Or the moment you experience an ounce of depression you turn on that webcam and start streaming. Or you talk about awkward stuff in chat. If this site / that subreddit are a toxic fire, you're the oil helping the fire grow. You must understand that on some level, yes? If you acted rationally you wouldn't be dealing with any of this.

You could make a private Twitter and vent there or you could simply not document your breakdowns on stream for all to see. Normal people do not act that way. The only logical conclusion is that you actually enjoy the attention because it makes you feel relevant again I.E. it makes you feel like you have a fraction of the attention / notoriety that you used to have when you were popular. I'm not saying any of this to be mean but making a serious observation. It comes across the same way as a child might act when they get a new sibling. You're not the most popular thing anymore so you're lashing out for attention.

I won't debate the whole transgender thing because I can't see inside your head, but I also feel like that's mostly for attention too because you go out of your way to dress / look outlandish compared to other transgender MTFs who actually put in work like wear makeup, flattering clothes, grow their hair out, etc. See: Sage, AnotherxCastle, etc. Like if you want to be taken seriously and want your transition to be taken seriously - wouldn't you act the part properly? To use an analogy you might get: imagine someone wants to be a speedrunner but decides they're not going to learn any tricks or watch any guides. They just simply run the game. Can they call themselves a speedrunner? Sure, but it's not going to be taken as seriously as someone who actually puts in the time and effort to do it to the best of their ability. I feel like if you actually wore nice clothes, did your makeup, grew your hair out, etc. you'd be taken seriously and no one would really judge you. If you did that + actually streamed with a normal attitude it would really change the perception that has developed about you.

But I feel like you wouldn't do these things because they actually require serious work and dedication - two things impossible for someone with little drive / motivation, which is something you've demonstrated.

Lastly, you act like everyone wants you to fail. Why would that be? Practically nobody thought badly you pre-transition. Unless you think it's the trans thing? But I'll call bullshit on that because there are several successful / well-liked transgender speedrunners in the community (Orcastraw, for one) so it really comes down to YOUR attitude and how YOU act. You can't expect people to treat you differently than you present. If you act like a bitch (something you've called yourself) people are gonna treat you like a bitch.

 

[awoo]

To put it bluntly, if we go by Judith Butler's "gender is a performance", where's the performance?

 

[GhostButt]

To put it bluntly, if we go by Judith Butler's "gender is a performance", where's the performance?

Avant Garde interpretation of the 2011 waveform known as "Lulu"

 

[CrunkLord420]

Narcissa's stream is so bizarre, it's hear mouse clicking and weird ghoul noises. The stream isn't showing what she's laughing at. It's just so fucking weird.

While not showing anything on stream she just fucking vomits onto twitter, and giggling.

Spoiler: tweets, reverse chronological