Something that happened a long time ago...
I remember watching some of Terry Davis’ videos and streams, What he did was impressive but he was so batshit insane it was hysterical; and then it stopped being funny. I think watching his fall changed me fundamentally, because he made it seem like we’re all so close to the edge of insanity... After all, he used to be normal. Perhaps he was even a genius, until his slide into madness, Who knows what it takes, genes? A bump on the head in the wrong way?
Is it better to desperately live on knowing you’re helplessly derange, or to welcome the sweet embrace of eternal sleep? His last video was cryptic, but I think he was lucid in the end. It hurts to think he stepped in front of that train but maybe that was the first decision he made as himself in years. It’s impossible to know with certainty the circumstance of his death, but I hope he finally took control of his life as his last choice alive.
His saga was the only time I’ve been sad on the internet, and I’ll pour one out for him tonight, Rest in peace, Terry A. Davis