Onyx Forepaw

[Sanshain]

'you have bad grammar and punctuation' is the laziest most childish excuse i've ever heard to deflect someone's genuine response to a too-long drawn out situation. it tells me that no matter how it was written, you wouldn't want to change your opinion, even if it's factually incorrect and stated otherwise. my statement is legible, and i have no more to invest in this absolute tripe, it didn't deserve my full typing effort. this is over now, move on to the next cow

Please kill yourself, also post nudes, in minecraft.

 

[verygayFrogs]

Jess contacted Olan Rogers, the creator of "Final Space" and asked him to insert her self-insert / OC into the show.

Oh god. I’ve seen this time and time again and it never works. Can people just like stop doing this if they’re like over the age of 13 or don’t have a make a wish?

 

[Lyra Plushie]

holy shit, i'm not gonna read a mini novella from someone who says "innit" unironically.

 

[Leonard Helplessness]

my statement is legible, and i have no more to invest in this absolute tripe, it didn't deserve my full typing effort. this is over now, move on to the next cow

Remember, you’re here forever.

 

[Bridge to Nowhere]

Can we take a moment to appreciate that, despite writing an entire novel about how much she's changed, she's single-handedly proven she hasn't learned a damn thing? First, she got indignant at ED a long time ago - fair enough, I guess? Then she revived her dead thread with no posts in a year or two by Tweeting about it for no readily-apparent reason, and now she's reviving a barely-active thread by showing up in it. She has now made the exact same mistake three times. Why did she think it would work this time?

Also, she has the telltale signs of an autoandrophile troon. Hope she enjoys being mistaken for a teenager at best.

 

[José Mourinho]

'you have bad grammar and punctuation' is the laziest most childish excuse i've ever heard to deflect someone's genuine response to a too-long drawn out situation. it tells me that no matter how it was written, you wouldn't want to change your opinion, even if it's factually incorrect and stated otherwise. my statement is legible, and i have no more to invest in this absolute tripe, it didn't deserve my full typing effort. this is over now, move on to the next cow

yaaasss your rite my freind fcuk garmmar peeple sould juist raed reegadhtless oef garmmar aend punkcutation

 

[FrankyBoo]

Can we take a moment to appreciate that, despite writing an entire novel about how much she's changed, she's single-handedly proven she hasn't learned a damn thing? First, she got indignant at ED a long time ago - fair enough, I guess? Then she revived her dead thread with no posts in a year or two by Tweeting about it for no readily-apparent reason, and now she's reviving a barely-active thread by showing up in it. She has now made the exact same mistake three times. Why did she think it would work this time?

And how bittersweet is this: Back in the "old days" she got banned for writing walls of unstructured rants. Look where we are now.

Agreed, this thread was nearly dead, but her showing up and presenting this word salad brought it back. Her actions are baffling.

 

[judge claude frollo]

one of you really had the hypocritical cheek to be like "oh yea he has no job and spends all his time on the internet" whilst making a friggin 10 page essay on a stranger on the internet and why they're a knob with all these incorrect facts and no research. you write that on your lunch break or summat?

it takes 10-15 minutes on average to write an informative post

 

[LUNEKO]

i was too defensive over summat that didnt matter

Almost, you where this close to be self aware, but nope you had to go and post a massive wall of useless word salad to show us how not owned you are. Speaking of job you should apply for social media damage control at CD Project Red, they're desperate there.
This whole thing reads in this tone

Can we take a moment to appreciate that, despite writing an entire novel about how much she's changed, she's single-handedly proven she hasn't learned a damn thing? First, she got indignant at ED a long time ago - fair enough, I guess? Then she revived her dead thread with no posts in a year or two by Tweeting about it for no readily-apparent reason, and now she's reviving a barely-active thread by showing up in it. She has now made the exact same mistake three times. Why did she think it would work this time?

Also, she has the telltale signs of an autoandrophile troon. Hope she enjoys being mistaken for a teenager at best.

Guess that perfect functional life of her got too stale so she had to come poke the wasps nest

 

[FrankyBoo]

In case anybody is wondering why she is not answering.

She is in a bad mood and "kinning" the character Legoshi from the Netflix Anime Beastars.
(Kinning = identifying with and pretending to be a fictional character IRL)

Who is Legoshi?
Description: „Legoshi is an anthropomorphic, male wolf and the main protagonist of the anime "Beastars".
He is a hero, who has to fight with his dark urges due to being a superior class in his society, a carnivore. (Feeding fetish)
He is battling society and although he is extremely powerful, Legoshi is always holding back. He is not only an outcast for craving to feed of the flesh of others, but also due to his behaviour and his sexuality. (He has a crush on a herbivore which is forbidden).
But at the end he wins against the lunatic villains and gets to bang his herbivore girlfriend.“
Ok

So this is what she is identifying herself with right now.

 

[judge claude frollo]

In case anybody is wondering why she is not answering.

She is in a bad mood and "kinning" the character Legoshi from the Netflix Anime Beastars.
(Kinning = identifying with and pretending to be a fictional character IRL)

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Who is Legoshi?
Description: „Legoshi is an anthropomorphic, male wolf and the main protagonist of the anime "Beastars".
He is a hero, who has to fight with his dark urges due to being a superior class in his society, a carnivore. (Feeding fetish)
He is battling society and although he is extremely powerful, Legoshi is always holding back. He is not only an outcast for craving to feed of the flesh of others, but also due to his behaviour and his sexuality. (He has a crush on a herbivore which is forbidden).
But at the end he wins against the lunatic villains and gets to bang his herbivore girlfriend.“
Ok

So this is what she is identifying herself with right now.

I rated autistic, but you are not the autistic one

 

[FrankyBoo]

I rated autistic, but you are not the autistic one

I would deserve it though. After copy and pasting a paragraph about „Beastars“ I feel kinda autistic.

Update: Jess seems to monitor this thread and has deleted the „Legoshi / kin“ account mentioned above in record time.

 

[judge claude frollo]

I would deserve it though. After copy and pasting a paragraph about „Beastars“ I feel kinda autistic.

Update: Jess seems to monitor this thread and has deleted the „Legoshi / kin“ account mentioned above in record time.

I would say it's never too late to turn yourself around for the better, but I've been following this special case for years and years and years, and this sums it up perfectly:

Once a cow, always a cow.

 

[FrankyBoo]

Activity Update:

This thread being active again made Jess fume with rage. After posting her autistic rant, she monitored the thread 24/7 and then pretended to delete all her Social Media accounts in an attempt to "vanish from the internet".
After a few days of 0 lessons learned and no self-reflection whatsoever, she activated her accounts again.

Insta:

Funny: She came to this forum complaining that her feeding fetish would be a private topic, but plasters some kind of food obsession related shit on every profile. Previous sentence was "The guy who likes to eat".

"never let them see that they get to you"

Also worth to mention: She uploaded stories on her instagram, explaining how KiwiFarms is ruining her life again. She pretends being the victim while coming here herself and dumping one big pile of autistic horseshit.

 

[Kuchipatchi]

alright i've had just about enough of this nonsense, heres the facts, i'm putting this to rest. whether anyone chooses to listen or not is not my concern, i've then said my bit and can move on. probably not 'farms etiquette' or whatever but fuck it

my name is Jeff, i have had gender dysphoria all of my life, and it has gone unaddressed due to my difficult home life and adulthood (that you're all very much aware of, to my knowledge). my name is Jeff on all my legal documentation, including my bank, my tenancy and landlord agreements, my doctors and medical records, my passport (including its gender changed to male), my government details such as benefits and what USA would call social security - it's been changed across the board, i've never been so certain of myself in all my life. i received a diagnosis from a private GP as apposed to being on the NHS waiting list for several years; this attributed to how fast the process was compared to others in my region. i was passed for a diagnosis of gender dysphoria, and i'm awaiting an appointment letter from an endocrinologist in my city to start hormone therapy. i don't know what basis these "fake trans" accusations will have in 2 years time when my voice has dropped and i've got a better beard than all of you. that accusation is on a very fine time limit.
what Manic (yes it was him reactivating the thread with blind stupidity and using two aliases on this thread to cover himself weaponising this thread, i know his typing style anywhere his masking and alibi is mediocre at best) failed to mention was the 2+ hour phone call i had with the guy explaining my history with dysphoria and in-congruence right back to childhood, and his supposed acceptance of such. and the rest of you! dont even bloody know me! didn't see all the time i spent out privately to my friends but not out on social media, exploring my new identity and coming to terms with things before going public. wasn't just some drop off decision, i finally got the chance to be myself this year and the pieces all just fit together. my doctor certainly knows more than any of you lot do about the topic. and the person who DID know more about the topic (Manic) failed to present this information out of pure bleedin spite because i ended the friendship with him after he'd made me feel uncomfortable in many ways (digging into my story, trans gatekeeping, random sexual remarks from many years, all the shit on twitter i honestly dont know, not my business, never wanted any part in his nonsense but stuck by him despite that for as long as i bloody could) - he had all this info, he's known me for as long as he had, he just chose to reactivate a dead thread no one clearly cared about in some petty spite move because i didn't want to be his friend anymore. he spun the story to his own benefit because he's petty. he's done this to other people, and he's done it to me too, can't imagine i'll be the last. he's a grown ass 30 yr old adult c'mon! be better.
while i'm at it, i'm not cheems, i honestly don't know who they are and would have rather not have had a mole on my accounts, as you can see if i had any place to respond i'd damn well just do it myself. Manic would get so defensive over that twitter thread being brought up, and it's none of my business, he can sort his own battles. i'm here to sort my own and then drop.

but i digress - yea, my interests are pretty out there, i'm by no means in denial that what i do for fun is a bit odd, yeah! i own it, as do the THOUSANDS of others who all also self ship, have kins, weird kinks, it aint just me i assure you that. it's becoming more and more common place as time goes on and while the numbers of people just being happy and being themselves increases, the less leverage this outdated site will have in ragging on folks for it. the way what i say online is taken beat for beat seriously is ludicrous. i have an enormous sense of self especially this year - i'm fully aware that i am human, i use the term otherkin very lightly, i don't go out stickin tails on and running through the woods pretending i'm an animal. i am human, i am aware i am not a hyena, nor any of the characters i claim to be "me" - it's literally just a term of phrase. it means we share a lot of similar attributes, the real me 1:1 shtick is literally just part of the fun, and it's not something i or many other of the kinnies i know actually take at face value. you're really clutching at straws with any of this. additionally for not using the furry label - that's just it, a label. i have anthro characters, i made a costume of that character, very "furry" like traits yeah, but i don't use the label, so therefore, i'm not. i'm fine with that, the friends i keep who do use the label are fine with that, it's bollocks, moving on.
same goes for my self ships - the irl husband thing is just a shtick guys, it really is - i'm grey romantic, i'm quite happy just being single and living for myself and my friends and family, i'm fully aware i've not gone through any marital ceremony with anyone real or fictional, to take these terms literally when thousands of other self shippers do the same is just absurd! the creators of final space are always active and talking to the fans, and i thought i'd throw in a passing line or joke on reddit, or throw together a funny video in an hour to point out some funny coincidence or whatever, i'm not taking it as seriously as you think i am. i'm not that interesting, really, several people on this thread have even said it themselves, the cow is stale as they put it - no one fucking cares. everyone stopped caring about dumbass onyx forepaw like 6 years ago man, it's such a waste of time.

one of you really had the hypocritical cheek to be like "oh yea he has no job and spends all his time on the internet" whilst making a friggin 10 page essay on a stranger on the internet and why they're a knob with all these incorrect facts and no research. you write that on your lunch break or summat? thousands of people are unemployed this year, lost their businesses, been laid off, furlough wasn't enough to support them, that feeling is mutually exclusive with the whole fucking world right now champ. i was actually going to be moving to work related ESA at the start of this year, i'd undergone enough health support to finally feel comfortable seeking work, and was in the movements to do so - and then, yanno, the world shat itself, and i was back to square one. cest la vie, if you lot can bugger off for good this time i can actually focus on my recovery and be back in work by the start of next year, if that'd make any of you eejits satisfied. the talk of lying to and manipulating my friends and not taking accountability for my actions simply just is not true. anyone who actually knows me, like really actually knows me (knows me enough to actually get the list of characters i ship with correct, not a stranger with half a story), knows i absolutely fall over myself apologising to people for the slightest mistake (and even for things that arent mistakes but i still hold myself accountable, gotta love anxiety). i bend over backwards for people i love, often suppressing my own emotions to see others succeed and not taking care of myself. i cut people i deem harmful or toxic out of my life, and i don't view myself as a toxic individual - believe me, i would hold onto it for months if i started to view myself as such. addressing the past, i hold a lot of guilt and regret for the onyx days, to this day. i feel as though the reprimand i received back then, the ones that didn't take it to the extreme, were justified. i've had people from those days find me from ED, inform me that they have seen a change in me that is vastly different from who i was back then, and we remain good friends to this day! i had a bad coping mechanism for a bad situation and i fully admit that. the suicide attempt wasn't fake, again, anyone who actually knows me would know that, spreading false information to that degree is extremely harmful. but then, that's just the farms' shtick innit, just being extremely harmful with no purpose. see when farms is used correctly - going after actual pedos, zoos, genuinely depraved people who need to be cancelled - that i can see as a good use of this website and the users time. i've seen the group effort of the people on here be impressive at taking down actual criminals and finding actual genuine information. i watch youtube videos and streams about such takedowns all the time, it really is tactful and great when people come together for a deserving cause. but for.. this? really? is this really a justified use of the websites resources and users time? just to be like hur hur look at this knob they do a self ship. just feels like a massive waste of time.

regarding onyx forepaw as my last statement - that whole thing has been the butt of me and my mates jokes for YEARS now. ever since i dropped it in what, 2013? seven fucking years ago?? it's been nothing but a hoohaa do you remember that funny shit between my friend groups. my friends jokingly call themselves the 'true number one fan ever' of things they get into and i laugh and encourage it! i make the jokes myself. i'm completely self aware of who i was, and who i am now, and the two arent in the same fucking league. once was a cow, now just one of thousands of others who have the same casual artistic hobby of self insert characters and characters we relate to. i just so happen to be trans on top, whooptidoo, i could name at least 5 other people in my general mutual circle who fit literally all of those perimeters, there's nothing about me that makes me different from any of them. onyx is a joke to yall, and it is to me as well, you may laugh along with me! it was dumb, i was too defensive over summat that didnt matter cus it was the only sense of control i had in my life back then, but now me and my family have all made wonderful amends this year. i've got a sense of control over my life now, and don't need to dominate some little community with a stupid iron fist because i don't need to cling onto anything for emotional support now. i used to be really open about the weird furry kinks which, again, i raise my hands to, i don't choose to deny i have weird interests, but again! there are thousands of people that do, i'm no different from the others! i've realised that putting it so publicly on display was not only gross but very exposing, and i keep it to myself now, as seen from the weasyl journal in 2016, i don't want to interact with anyone about it and it's a part of my private life. side note, the pizza was added by my friend as a joke, but i thought it was funny and kept it in there, posted it on tumblr for shits n gigs but asked for no reblogs, nowt criminal about that. i deleted my blog but tumblr keeps logs public, as do folks taking screenshots, so there you go, lesson learned. we're all only human and we have to make mistakes to learn from them.
i'm not going to completely censor myself because of this thread however. i know who i was, and i know who i am, and i know that what i'm doing now is not harmful in any way. i have a full sense of self, and the content i create and wording i use is not and will never be in a literal one for one reality shift sense. the art may not be spectacular, but i'm satisfied with it. thousands of others like me post the exact same sort of content all the time, on public accounts, and with my past well and truly out of the way i have every right to do so as well. i have my self ships and my kin characters and they HELP in coping, they assist, but it's not the only defining factor. it's not something i need to believe as reality in order to get by every day, and taking the little mannerisms and phrases as literal truth is meaningless. i'm in the middle of CBT this year, i'm coping a lot better with my mental health despite what any of you lot might think, that i'm this unhinged delusional manipulative nutcase. i'm just like anyone else, a grown ass adult living in his own flat, paying bills n rent n getting on with life innit. "but self shipping and having dumb body pillows and weird kinks isnt like anyone else!" chief there are SO MANY people like me out there, we're doing just fine.
don't take everything you see on the internet at face value, or you'll end up one of them scamdemic flat earth believers innit. it's been a long time guys, really, it's been a really stupidly long time and it's gettin real old. focus your energy on someone relevant and actually harmful, like the hundreds of actual scammers, pedophiles, zoophiles, all the people that the farms actually does a lot of good in taking down. cheers

This is a good example of info dumping.

 

[judge claude frollo]

This is a good example of info dumping.

Truly a high class citizen and not some sort of deranged degenerate.

 

[Objectard]

I dont know if this belongs here, rate me dumb but felt this is important

 

[Vampirella]

Damn, I remember reading about Onyx on ED years ago. This just shows that too much internet at a young age can mess someone up, I mean she's only what 25/26 now. Her life as an adult should be well on it's way now, but she fucked it up with obsession, drugs, toxic relationships, fetishes, and now ruining her body saying she's trans. What a sad story.

I dont know if this belongs here, rate me dumb but felt this is important

I had never heard of this show before this thread, any idea what happened that pissed her off.

 

[Cheerlead-in-Chief]

...So is she gonna abandon Instagram or make it private?

 

[Objectard]

...So is she gonna abandon Instagram or make it private?

She only abandoned the hytrexian account

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