I'm not looking for monetary expenditures or grand gestures; I'm looking for a sign that he actually puts any effort into a relationship with you, as opposed to considering you a friend of convenience. I can't read his mind, or yours, of course, but it really sounds like there's no meaningful emotional connection on his part. He messages you sometimes when he thinks you're upset, instead of being a reliable confidant. He lets you talk about your interests, but any friend should do that, and listening to someone talking about their interests over a text chat medium doesn't mean anything -- it takes no effort on his part to just let you type into a chat window or leave Skype running. Unless he's actively engaging with you and providing support, he's not really supportive.
Well I mean, an emotional connection with someone isn't really something you can convey in words.
I don't remember if it was here or on Tumblr that I said this, but I've been emotionally abused and used enough since as long as I can remember, that I've become hyper aware of when someone is using me and so on, and Lawrence is not. I can sense his honesty. I don't know what more you want me to say. He puts a lot of effort into our relationship, I don't know how you expect me to "prove" that.
But when someone starts saying "'they' isn't special enough" or some shit you kick that to the curb.
It's not "they isn't special enough" it's "I have other pronoun sets I like to go by, I don't just want to go by they."
With the note: I actually remember the day it happened, though I don't recall seeing the note so I must have been away from the computer or something.
Anyways, I have a note of my own in my drafts on my old blog that leaves off some people that have been involved in my life since I wrote it, including I think two partners. I have almost published it a couple a times with people left off of it, because I didn't want to edit it at that point
"I wish you would off yourselves" said by someone who's ostensibly going to off themself. Curious.
Those people were abusive towards him, it's normal for people to want their abusers dead.
@Stray Sheep I repeat my original advice of getting the hell out of dodge with regards to Springo. You're with an abuser and you are denying it. Rest assured that if you get away you will eventually find new friends and potentially a partner who will do good by you instead of prodding you whenever they feel like it.
Love yourself and snap out of it.
I suggest you look at my about, I'm dating several other people at the moment, if I really felt like one of them didn't care for me breaking up with them wouldn't be too much of an issue to me.
On that subject: @Stray Sheep , how do you feel in general about someone you love and consider to be a partner posting a suicide note purely for attention, a suicide note in which he asks several other people to kill themselves? Is that actually okay with you somehow?
People with BPD act out for attention a lot. I don't think the note was for attention though. I was having a similar issue at the time, I thought dying was the only way anyone would so much as know my name. And I already discussed the people he asked to kill themselves.
