When I first came to 4Chan I used to see a certain picture posted with some regularity - some deranged person had altered his penis so much, by piercing, tattooing, and a big split down the middle, so that it resembled some kind of Pokemon... that would be the only way of describing it.
A few years ago, everyone would have known this by the description instantly, but it now seems to be forgotten.
Can anyone shed some light upon this, preferably spoilered too, due to its shocking visual impact?
When I first came to 4Chan I used to see a certain picture posted with some regularity - some deranged person had altered his penis so much, by piercing, tattooing, and a big split down the middle, so that it resembled some kind of Pokemon... that would be the only way of describing it.
A few years ago, everyone would have known this by the description instantly, but it now seems to be forgotten.
Can anyone shed some light upon this, preferably spoilered too, due to its shocking visual impact?
I don't know the specific picture, but there were several penis-bifurcators on the BMEzine website and that is probably the source. They're sexual masochists basically, a lot of them are fags, I would be unsurprised if a bunch of them trooned out or if trooning has replaced that kind of body modification fetish in younger generations. Pauly Unstoppable (farrah flawless) is one person I know went from the body mod to trooning out pipeline and got botched pretty bad on his SRS.
He's flushing it with pro-biotics... So the scar pouch that collects debris and sweat in it... That's where he puts a pro-biotic... to feed the already festering bacterial soup. Loony Troons really do think it's a vagina and not just a hole in their pelvis.
he is flushing it with pro-biotics intended to create an acidic environment, so if he got his wish & these germs took it would probably fuck his skin up really bad. It makes as much sense as putting oral pro-biotics up your asshole tbh
Do any of these people ever think that maybe. just maybe. The reason they're so lacking in 'depth' is because their anatomy isn't designed to stretch when aroused?
Also sorry not sorry but if I opened someone's pants and found any of these sideshows, my 'natal vagina' and I would be going home and having a strongly fortified mug of hot cocoa instead
When I first came to 4Chan I used to see a certain picture posted with some regularity - some deranged person had altered his penis so much, by piercing, tattooing, and a big split down the middle, so that it resembled some kind of Pokemon... that would be the only way of describing it.
A few years ago, everyone would have known this by the description instantly, but it now seems to be forgotten.
Can anyone shed some light upon this, preferably spoilered too, due to its shocking visual impact?
Probably not what you were thinking of but the closest example I can think of off the top of my head below. We were all flabbergasted for weeks and many of us are completely desensitized to crotch origami at this point.
I think i found the most horrifying non-political thing on reddit that i've ever seen. I stumbled upon this from rdrama so I dont have a link to the original post
Probably not what you were thinking of but the closest example I can think of off the top of my head below. We were all flabbergasted for weeks and many of us are completely desensitized to crotch origami at this point.
You know, i swear there's more than a single doctor who'd be able to look at that in Canada.
I've actually spoken to a few FtM trannies about how there's supposedly only 1 doctor in our area who does hysterectomies, and had a multi-year wait list. It's a lie though (i know a lot of women who've had them done and most went through a specific womens-health clinic) and I suspect the other doctors all refuse to work on trannies, funneling them to a single surgeon instead.
ot only do we not have to, the natural flora will get rekt if we do. It's a one-way ticket to infection city. Gynecologists tell you not to put soap and/or water in there, because it'll fuck up your microbiome.
I've actually spoken to a few FtM trannies about how there's supposedly only 1 doctor in our area who does hysterectomies, and had a multi-year wait list.
You know, i swear there's more than a single doctor who'd be able to look at that in Canada.
I've actually spoken to a few FtM trannies about how there's supposedly only 1 doctor in our area who does hysterectomies, and had a multi-year wait list. It's a lie though (i know a lot of women who've had them done and most went through a specific womens-health clinic) and I suspect the other doctors all refuse to work on trannies, funneling them to a single surgeon instead.
SRS is also so unregulated that it's experimental. The doctors that did examine him would have no idea what they're actually looking at, or how it will affect standard treatment. What happens if you try to fix the rectal prolapse of a guy that has shoved his diced up dick into a cavity right next to it? Especially if his original surgeon isn't even going to give you a clue through patient records? Maybe it's a nothingburger, maybe it does something you wouldn't have expected. Too risky either way.
Another thing to consider about the case is that in reading the OP's post history, it seemed there was one surgeon who may be able to take him on, but her waitlist was of a considerable length and the issue is disabling him on a daily basis; therefore, even if there are providers in Canada bold enough to take on his very complicated case, waiting in line for something ruining his life so regularly is still its own problem. I'm very eager to see how his situation rolls out, so I'll be watching him closely as he's been posting predominantly in pelvic prolapse support subs rather than transgender ones as it seems he really, really doesn't want to believe that what he did was self-inflicted - especially so long after the fact.
Anyway, I'm always walking around with pockets stuffed full of posts to share for this thread, so let me add some more.
Eternally stabbed voodoo doll Veinscrawler has turned to the people of r/nullectomy to get some ideas on what to do with the nebulous li'l nubbin that his doctors left behind in his attempt to become that which man cannot craft: a woman. I like that he calls it "genital remodeling" as if his crotch were a house rather than an organic extension of himself - perhaps such language makes it easier to cope with the ruination of one's own anatomy in pursuit of a pipe dream. (Also, it seems ol' Veiny is aware of his fanbase over here on the farms as he referenced us in a post he made after spiraling about how much he wants Republicans to die. It's funny how cows are happy to give us a holler off-site but won't come by and say hello directly. C'mon, don't you wanna come sign some autographs?) Last Post Link | Archive
I underwent a botched genital remodeling surgery that has resulted in poor sexual function, urination issues, and constant discomfort and pain from overexposed internal tissues and damaged nerves. I feel disgusted by my body, and trying to fix what is left of my genitals seems like an almost impossible task, so I'm hoping I can just get a nullectomy to stop the pain and urination issues.
Would it still be possible, with me having lost so much skin, to undergo nullectomy without using a skin graft?
Back in July of last year, sumthinthumpin endured the nightmare of doods who dare dream of dicks of their own: total dong death. But miraculously, she's back, and her pee-nix has risen from the ashes after having swapped from a RFF (radial forearm flap) to ALT (anterolateral thigh flap) phalloplasty so she can finally be a real man just as she always wanted to be. But there's a bit of a problem: she is already experiencing wound separation with mysterious fluids leaking out here and there. If you were really meant to be a guy, I feel like your body would've gotten the memo not to kill off every psuedopenis you staple on to it, but what do I know? Last Post Link | Archive
A while back I wrote a post about my struggle with a failed phalloplasty. Since then, I’m happy to say the second attempt was successful! I was absolutely thrilled that everything was healing well and I felt much more confident in my body. This community was very helpful in getting me out of a dark place and I will forever be grateful to you all.
Quick background: I’m 2 weeks and a day post op for ALT. Surgeon said it was okay to stop propping at about a week and a half, but I didn’t feel comfortable with that and I continued to prop. I am propping at about 45-90 degrees. Propping continues mainly at 90 degrees as the swelling is going down and it is starting to slowly move downwards.
However, 2 days ago I noticed that on the underside of my phallus, there was still some yellow fluid and blood coming out. My wife said it might just be seeping out of the stitches but she didn’t see anything concerning. I had an urology appointment that day and she said everything looked good so I left it at me just being anxious hoping I wasn’t getting any complications based on my last unsuccessful surgery.
The following day, I noticed a small hole near the middle and it had some yellowish fluid with a tint of bright red slowly seeping out. Last night, my wife was helping with my dressing changes before bed and I felt like there was more yellowish/bright red fluid on the xeroform and gauze and I saw this now at 2 different points under the phallus. She checked and saw 2 small holes near the suture in the middle and towards the bottom. So, naturally, I freaked out. I messaged my doctor and he said that because they used a running suture, it was normal and not to worry about it. However, when my wife checked today, she noticed that the holes seemed a bit bigger. A nurse came by today and said it looked okay too but to let her know if it looked like it was getting bigger tomorrow. I’m propping at 90 degrees because that’s how I noticed the hole towards the bottom of the phallus looks closed and I’m hoping that as long as I continue to use xeroform and gauze to keep it clean and dry, that this position may help.
I guess I’m here to ask if anyone remembers what the start of their wound separation looked like. Also, what sitting/laying positions helped the best. I try to keep my legs open as best as I can most of the day, but my body starts to cramp up and I’ll close my legs for a while. I wear mesh underwear but because the phallus is heavy and the underwear isn’t too supportive, I wear boxers over it with the phallus resting on the open fly with plenty of breathing room and a lot of gauze to pad it well.
I’m trying to stay calm and work through the anxiety of my previous phalloplasty trauma, but it’s difficult. I’m attaching a photo of the current state of it. I know that even if it is wound separation, most people heal fine on their own, but I was really hoping to just catch a break of all the complications I’ve had since the initial surgery.
P.S. the color on the left side of the phallus is the way it is because the donor leg was previously used as a skin graft from the initial surgery. I was told it was peeling due to the skin being stretched out but the redness is just the color of the skin.
Any insight would be wonderful. I appreciate you all.
If you have to ask, it's usually a bad sign: a TiF wonders if the darkening of her 'dog is indicative that her little boy might not make it through the labor it took to bring him into the world. Now when I say dark, I'm not exaggerating, either - when I say dark, I really mean black. ItsFUNyetVIOLEnT (Dr. Jordan and Dr. Bowen; radial forearm flap (RFF) phalloplasty) Link | Archive
I've already messaged my medical team about it and have a post op appointment tomorrow on Tuesday. I just want to see if anyone has experienced this and what happened? Just an FYI my arm flap was not enough to "close" the phallus so that triangular seam bit is a skin graft
As far as neocrotches go, this one isn't entirely offensive - no malevolent oozes, no stitches bursting open, no demons slithering out whenever the camera turns away from it - but it still has a very silly looking appearance to it as if sculpted by a beginner sculptor. What really amuses me, though, is that OP reports having a boyfriend who has supposedly gone down on that thing yet has not dared to enter it with his penis. Guys are usually pretty eager to switch from carpet-munching to bumpin' uglies, so I sense that something may be amiss in the bedroom for the two of them if he doesn't mind keeping penetration off the table for what should be comparable to a true and honest vagina... dragonflydust_05 (Dr. Ramineni; vaginoplasty) Link | Archive
It has finally been six months post-op for me! I have mixed feelings about my current result.
Here’s a few details on the reality of things:
I am currently only dilating up to the teal soul source, starting off with purple and working my way up to it within 10 minute intervals. I have managed orange a few times but have a hard time implementing it into my regular dilations because it’s a challenge to get it all the way in. Some days the teal slides more easily inside, and others it can be a difficulty. My depth is around 4.5” to 5”, i’m not totally sure but i’m not satisfied with anything below 5”, I am yet to have intercourse so after a few times of doing the deed I think i’ll have a better understanding of if a depth revision is necessary or not for comfortable sex.
Aesthetics wise I am sort of disappointed. I had a lot of skin fusion so there is little to no definition between my labia, and my clitoris is flat. My urethra is very prominent and I hate that everything is very out in the open. My majora have quite a bit of excessive skin as well, and look very odd because my scars are very apparent towards the middle of them—Granted I was doing little to no scar treatment, but I expected them to be a little more subtle, so I definitely want to consider a scar revision as well. (The second picture is me with my legs closer to my chest, and the third picture being my legs spread far apart)
I am a little worried that at six months I am still yet to have had intercourse. I have a boyfriend and we have done oral, and attempted some insertion awhile ago without success, but haven’t done much since. Something is telling me it might not be happening anytime soon, especially if I cannot get the orange soul source into my regular rotation (even though he is not all that big).
I would greatly appreciate if anyone had some insight on what I should look for in a revision, and some doctors on the east coast that are more consistent in their results. I am disappointed with Dr. Ramineni, and don’t believe a revision with him is in my best interest. I don’t think he’s all about the details, and a surgery time that was under two hours definitely shows that. I want to look into Dr. Del Corral, and doctors at Mt. Sinai, although I believe they are actually having issues with my current insurance and so that option might be off the table.
Anyway I am open to questions and suggestions! Thank y’all
Nullified nitwit girlpeen is back to show us what it looks like when one loses your twig, your berries, and, well, the whole gosh dang bush all in pursuit of the coom. Surprisingly, he's healing pretty well despite being a degenerate troon and alleges that he can still orgasm, but forgive me if I'm strongly suspicious of such a notion coming from someone who seems eager to encourage others to follow down his path. (The only reason I would believe it is because he claims to suffer from persistent genital arousal disorder/PGAD, but even then, troons lie like they breathe, so remain skeptical nonetheless.) Last Post Link | Archive
there's a fair bit of talk about sexual function and orgasms. we're talking about sexual areas, so like...that should not be shocking.
healing has gone great. very happy with it! gonna give a rundown of how it's gone.
stayed at the clinic overnight, left in the morning.
i have PGAD or something, and have for more than a decade, and this leads to lots of throbbing in "the area" and lots of spontaneous orgasms throughout the day. it is often annoying and unpleasant, and i think it made the first week worse, for me, as things would twitch around stitches and the catheter very painfully.
the first week was pretty much hell. catheters *suck* and the bolster dressing was so irritating. the stitching holding it in place was constantly tugging my skin painfully, and caused a tear or stretch mark or something in my skin in one place that convinced the clinic to remove it early (day 5 instead of day and things instantly felt so much better. the irritation and pain from the catheter continued until it was removed on day 8. it feels like the first week was more painful and miserable, for me, than most people i've talked to.
after getting the catheter out, things went infinitely more smoothly, for me. i've had a policy of just kind of closely observing and listening to my body, and for me that has meant a lot of ignoring the surgeon's directions and doing things much sooner than i probably should. masturbation was supposed to be a 1-month-in activity, and sex a 3-month, but i was masturbating furiously in the second week, playing with others in the third (touching each other), having thorough and lengthy anal sex in the fourth week, and receiving oral as of a few days ago. in short, the area gets a lot of attention from myself and others. i recommend none of this, and i'm sure my surgeon would be very upset with me, but it's been fine! i'm very careful to not do anything that feels bad or hurts, and i make sure to wash up very well as soon as it's over.
a note on orgasms: the nerves from my penis were preserved and buried under the skin above my urethra, but they are still basically totally numb. but it's very easy to orgasm from stimulating around my urethra, and has been the entire time! also, i can have a lot of them, and really close together. very nice. but, i can't really "finish". like, i haven't been able to have an orgasm that makes me suddenly like "i'm no longer horny, that need is fulfilled." i can kind of compensate for this by just having more of the "non-finishing" ones until i hit a cozy and cuddly sort of feeling that is just *really pleasant*.
on work: i'm a sex worker, i mostly pay my bills by streaming. my finances demanded that i do my first post-op stream ~week 4 for groceries, and it actually went great! was careful to take it a bit easy, but things looked healed-enough and i managed to not hurt myself, any. i don't know if i could go back to doing it fulltime, yet.
there are still a few things different, for now. i haven't resumed my diet or exercise, i'm careful to not lift things that are too heavy (except for a crt once and that was fine), i'm careful with how i sit down, i'm slow with squatting down to be safe. otherwise, i'm basically as good as new!
will answer any questions that i think are worth answering. hope you find my post informative!
This one's a real horror show, ladies and gentlemen, because this tranny went under the knife for a whole collection of procedures but is now staring down one of the most dangerous consequences of surgery: necrosis. And we're not talking any necrosis here, we're talking spreading-rapidly-across-his-trunk-and-leaving-a-wake-of-dead-flesh necrosis to the point where every comment he received urges him to go to the hospital immediately. It has now been roughly 24 hours without any report from OP, so now we must watch and wait to see if he ever returns to update us with his prognosis... brattyVictoria_ (facial feminization surgery with lip lift, lip fat grafting, genioplasty + breast augmentation revision with fat grafting + partial capsulectomy repair + 360 liposuction) Link | Archive
Recently, I had some surgery done. I finished out my FFS with a lip lift, lip fat grafting, and genioplasty. I also had a breast augmentation revision. During this, they did fat grafting to my cleavage. And fixed a partial capsulectomy. The fat was taken from my waist during 360 lipo. Everything seemed to have been performed with expert precision. A compression wrap was placed around my head and waist, and I was sent home after a night of monitoring. Once home, I started my antibiotics. And this was the start of my misfortune. I had an extreme allergic reaction to the antibiotics. Causing me to balloon like a cartoon character. I was rushed to the ER where the compression wrap was removed because of the allergic swelling. It was so tight that it caused compression necrosis around my waist. It started off small, but over the last week, the necrosis has spread and grown in size quite a bit. Starting out, it was maybe 3/4 of an inch. Now it's easily a 4x4 inch area of black flesh. And it gets bigger by the day. And I'm told that there is nothing that can be done. All I can do is wait for my liposuction to heal before the necrosis can be addressed. I'm scared that by the time it's dealt with, it will require skin grafting, and I'll be left scarred and disfigured. For anyone who has been unfortunate enough to experience necrosis, how did it heal? And what was the process? I've added pictures so you can see the severity of it.
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After getting what she described as a "designer dick" in Germany, a li'l dood is finding that as time goes on, this design wasn't quite so intelligent as she still feels nothing but "light erotic sensation" nearly 6 months post-op, which seems to mostly originate from her using her mind over her matter. illegally_dog (radial forearm flap (RFF) phalloplasty) Link | Archive
I pinch my dick all the time but i dont feel anything yet, i have some light erotic sensation, like, the mental part is there already. Fuck my stupid slow-nerve-regeneration life. I think it took like two years before I had any sensation in my right nipple again.
I recently started vitamin d and lions mane supplements.
At the start of the year, tempohclock was polling the masses on whether phalloplasties are capable of looking natural enough to trick unsuspecting partners into sex with sexual impostors. Now that she's got a dong to call her own, though, it seems Lady Luck sensed her intentions and snapped her fingers just so, as she has robbed OP of the meat sabre she wanted and given her, instead, a meat toothpick. Last Post Link | Archive
I know people will tell me just to accept it but I don’t think I can. If it heals to be that small, I would want a redo, and if they say no, I seriously will go into major depression. I want to be above the cis average because there are already so many things their genitalia can do that we can’t. Being nicely sized was so important to me and I am worried they forgot I asked for 5 and botched it up. If I want a redo I cant use that donor site, have to get lipo again, have to do electrolysis again. I am so over this It is also going to lookvmuch smaller once i get glansplsty
its litterly so extremely dangerous, and you could litterly risk them killed!!
non disclosure, is something most of us want. and by telling a woman whos vulva looks surged that her vulva looks natal. could make her try this, and risk getting hurt or even killed
its okay to admit not all neo vulvas look like natal vulvas. yes it sucks, but not being honest to eachother could lead to so much worse things
In another hopeless, helpless attempt to fix the war zone below his waistband, Legal-Ad4972 is getting a third revision to try and salvage the wreckage left behind by Dr. Hyer nearly 3 years ago. But this time, his revision comes with a twist: he's swapping to a colovaginoplasty in hopes that it'll help with some of his function, but even with this new method to treat his madness, poor ol' Danny Borer believes that it's a lost cause before it even begins: "Pretty privilege is real," he writes, blaming it for his predicament. "I'm ugly and impassable so why would any surgeon want to help or not worsen my situation?" We'll see how this one goes, because this time, if it doesn't work out, he threatens to kill himself! Which he already has in the past a few different times, so I'm not holding my breath, but now I know what his name is in case the son of a gun actually pulls the trigger and I have to dig up an obituary to conclude his sorry tale. Last Post Link | Archive
I am now scheduled for my fourth surgery, which is my third revision. I originally had gender affirming bottom surgery in 2023. I was severely botched in the original surgery and two subsequent surgeries haven't improved anything.
Current issues:
no depth or width
introitus distinctly separate and detached from the vulva
no inner labia
vulvar mounds on the Mons that one surgeon calls "dog ears"
hyper sensitivity of the clitoris
loss of sensation elsewear
still have erectile tissue
urination still sprays everywhere all over myself
constant discharge, but canal is too small for silver nitrate treatments without anesthesia.
I'm sure I'm missing something. But I now have a fourth revision planned where again, surgeons will try to create the illusion that the introitus is connected to the vulva, remove vulvar mounds, add an inner labia, and give me functional depth and width. This will now be a colovaginoplasty.
I haven't had sexual function since 2023. I haven't peed normally since 2023. I haven't had human genitilia since 2023. It still feels tight, like something constantly stretched out and tied down. I'm scared to death of another more invasive surgery with new risks of new complications. I don't really have a choice in what I do because the costs have been so great as it is. I've consulted with 12 different surgeons, been operated on by 3, and I'm still in this mess. I massively regret the surgery and often catch myself fantasizing about this surgery working out only to get mad at myself for thinking it'll work out because this has constantly harmed me. I'm the unlucky rare case where it's gotten worse and worse. The before and after of the last surgery you can barely tell anything was touched, and that surgery cost me $15,000 and a lot of pain. I'm about 50k deep into this and I'm still left with embarrassment, shame, pain, no sexual function, no urinary function. It just sucks. People tell me my identity isn't based on having human genitals or being able to pee normally, or be pain free, or be able to have sex. But my gender identity is invisible. I am gendered correctly by no one. I'm not "passable" at all. I paid so much money over and over again to be harmed.
How do I overcome medical trauma to be okay with being butchered again? Yes, I have a therapist. Yes I've gone to reputable surgeons. But I think pretty privilege is real. I'm ugly and impassable so why would any surgeon want to help or not worsen my situation. I paid for this situation. So many people have profited off of harming me. It hasn't stopped. But I'm going to do it again. But if there are complications or it doesn't work out a 4th time I think I'll just end it all. It's exhausting struggling with this. Knowing I paid over and over and over to be embarrassed and non functional. Fuck, I just don't know how to deal with another surgery. Now my colon gets diced up? I'm losing my appendix?
After reading this story, do you think there is any reason for hope?
Bitch and moan about depth and comfortable sex - they make a product for that. Almost like if they did thirty seconds of googling instead of signing up for another surgery they might be happier.
Also are there any other surgeries out there where you go in knowing that you're going to need at least one corrective/revising surgery even if everything goes perfectly with the OG surgery?
Now for your scheduled programming. Today's episode: The Salmacian Special!
A rose by any other name: Dr. Rose did this li'l dood mighty dirty with her top surgery as years after the procedure, OP's nipples are pronounced to the point of cartoonishness - and since OP kindly provided a freshly post-op pic alongside her latest photo, you can see that the issue actually got worse over time rather than improving as once was hoped. galpalaxy (Dr. Katherine Rose; bilateral cosmetic mastectomy with free nipple grafts
A wannabe website stripper got herself a "salmacian" set-up - which as you should all know by now is essentially a catchall for "porn-fueled experiment" - and is now wondering about how she should present the cuntastrophe she put her pelvis through in order to make money off of being "a niche taste."
Why is it that the best case scenario phalloplasties look like someone glued a candle stub to their pelvis? They have this too-cylindrical, too-pale, plasticy look about them
Not only do we not have to, the natural flora will get rekt if we do. It's a one-way ticket to infection city. Gynecologists tell you not to put soap and/or water in there, because it'll fuck up your microbiome. Of course, the opposite applies to rot pockets, but they're totally True and Honest vaginas you guys.
For those of us learning medicine at home, an MRI defecograohy involves shitting while inside an MRI machine and some poor tech needs to capture images as it happens. 10
Defecography is a specialized, functional imaging study (X-ray or MRI) used to evaluate pelvic floor dysfunction, chronic constipation, fecal incontinence, or rectal prolapse by capturing real-time images of the rectum and anal canal during defecation. During the roughly 1-hour procedure, barium paste is injected into the rectum and expelled on a specialized commode, showing how pelvic muscles coordinate.
we're talking spreading-rapidly-across-his-trunk-and-leaving-a-wake-of-dead-flesh necrosis to the point where every comment he received urges him to go to the hospital immediately. It has now been roughly 24 hours without any report from OP, so now we must watch and wait to see if he ever returns to update us with his prognosis...
it looks bad enough from the outside, but god only knows how far into his torso it goes. The redness around the outside is also a bad sign. It isn't clear who told him "nothing can be done until the liposuction heals", but it sounds like a retard at the plastic surgeon's office bc it is not at all what an emergency room doctor would say. the usual course of treatment for necrosis spreading quickly is aggressive surgical debridement & culturing whatever was cut out. If he survives he is going to have horrific scarring on his torso, though some very unlucky people end up having to get limbs amputated after their necrosis caused toxic shock.
a TiF wonders if the darkening of her 'dog is indicative that her little boy might not make it through the labor it took to bring him into the world. Now when I say dark, I'm not exaggerating, either - when I say dark, I really mean black.
this could just be bruising, but the circulation issue with phalloplasty makes that not such a great sign, either. her arm not being enough skin to make a phallus this small means she is probably stick thin or very short.
From what I've read, it's not recommended to rinse the inside at all, even with just water. I guess some people maybe have less of a problem with it than others, but the general guidelines are to not do it because it can lead to imbalances and irritation.
Paging @toilet_rainbow for another tranny to be added to the graveyard that is the SRS Hall of Shame: Erin Ezra Young, AKA theydystardust, a MTF who underwent shoulder reduction - among various other procedures - back around 2021 and seemed possessed by the urge to chase the plastic surgery dragon 'til the bitter end.
And well... Young's end was bitter: according to a comment from 2023, he committed suicide that same year in the midst of a debilitating struggle with depression and addiction on top of his autogynephilia and uncontrolled histrionic-borderline personality disorder (as he self-described it). Link | Archive
Was it because of these surgeries or her complications with srs? I’m looking for doing these surgeries but I’m really scared I’m committing a big mistake.
Anyway don’t want to make this about me, I’m so sorry for her, may she rest in peace.
It was suicide - if you'd asked her, she would probably blame a rare srs complication that gave her chronic pain (she had peritoneal pull through), but really she had already been talking about and attempting suicide for years before that, not to mention that she was an addict and prone to spiraling.
So... I don't know, she was an outlier. Don't let her bad decisions influence what you do for yourself.
Skeptical, I investigated into the matter myself, and with that, I present to you all: the obituary of one Mr. Erin Young. As you may have noticed, today would have been his 27th birthday. Link | Archive
Erin Young
April 21, 1999 ~ September 26, 2023
Erin Ezra Young age 24 of Waterloo died Tuesday, September 26, 2023 at her home. A celebration of Erin's life will be held at Wartburg Chapel on Saturday, November 11. Service at 2pm, followed by a reception at 3 pm with light refreshments. Dress suggestion: semi formal, and black, just as Erin would have loved.
Erin was a University of Northern Iowa graduate student working toward her Master's degree in counseling. She was an advocate for many important causes, and wanted to become a counselor to help those with the same problems she had faced. Erin enjoyed writing, philosophy, and making music; she wrote the lyrics, "Don't let that light out, I know you want to; things get better than this, because they have to." A vegan for many years, she loved animals. She was smart and sarcastic, with a unique charisma and a penchant for melancholia.
She will be missed by her mother April Young-Cervetti, stepfather Ronald Cervetti, sister Quinn Young, and birth father Don Gaff, as well as extended family and many friends and loved ones throughout Iowa, Indiana, Michigan and North Carolina.
...and I finally lost some of the weight previous commenters complained about getting in the way of seeing the results! Quitting antidepressants and then starting amphetamines and morphine for my chronic (SRS-related :/) pain was the best choice I could have made for my mental health; I finally feel like I want to do things again and I finally feel as though I have the energy to do them!
So hopefully some of you can see what I mean in trying to remove some of the gut fat that was in the way?
(don't worry, abdominoplasty is next if I can't save all the way until VFS- same bf with the same preferences so no traditional-style BA just yet)
Anyway...
In the intervening months, the healing process has gone fairly well! I no longer have trouble bumping my shoulder at night and waking up, and I have most functionality restored to both arms (though be prepared for the cultural shift around you that may happen where others feel uncomfortable around you being "incapacitated".)
Some complications I'm still experiencing are a bit of surgical hardware trying to exit my left clavicle, and it causes pain to the touch (though nowhere near the pain-relieving power the morphine I'm prescribed is, so I'm doing better than most might). There's a chance I'll have a surgery to take it out, but it's much less of a big deal than something like a bone healing incorrectly, which you would recognize very soon into the recovery process.
I still get some aches while reaching my left arm to its maximum reach, and this is something I'm seeing an orthopedic doctor about in a few weeks (I'm a rightie and I favor form over function anyway so it's not much off of my back personally, though I can see how it could be damaging to some.)
But overall, I'm very happy with my results. I literally couldn't ask for more shoulder reduction, because there's a physics problem there (otherwise I totally would! I still feel shoulder dysphoria sometimes, and having the body of a trans woman some clothing choices will be forever locked off to me).
This is also true of my waist, but a lot less so given just how malleable it is through both surgery and losing weight; that's some abdominal wall sticking out like a gut I'll never have to worry about again!
This surgery, as with any, isn't an overnight BDD fix and that's been what I've learned most from this experience but that doesn't mean it hasn't been immensely helpful in how I feel waking up in the morning and looking in the mirror.
If you have any questions I happen to know the answers to, I'd love to provide some insight for you as much as I can
And my open request from last time in regards to plastic surgery suggestions and belt outfit ideas now that I'm finally not a rectangle still stands
As a bit of trivia, Young was also an aspiring musician and released one song - a cover of Morrissey's "Everyday Is Like Sunday" - which is 1) fucking awful and 2) eerily morose for a song pick in light of the circumstances of his demise and his struggles with his mental health.
As Young supposedly had received a PPT (peritoneal pull-through) vaginoplasty, I think we can safely file this one under "Evidence that SRS does not necessarily prevent suicide."
24 years old and had already had facial surgery, rib removal, collarbone surgery, and a botched stinkditch installation (there are no "unbotched" ones). All of this while openly identifying as a fetishist who gets off on this bodymod and roleplay; consent cucks on suicide watch.
I can't help but wonder if he ended up killing himself because of the botched surgeries, the lack of coom after the stinkditch, or somehow even sadder, because he was hit with the inevitable realization that he has made himself a hunchbacked eunuch with a weeping wound between his legs and no way of going back. That's someone's son, and I hope if they were the ones cheering him on that they remember that every moment of their shitlib lives.
and things instantly felt so much better. the irritation and pain from the catheter continued until it was removed on day 8. it feels like the first week was more painful and miserable, for me, than most people i've talked to.
