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Skitzocow Taxman / Kyle Hawkins
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So Tax and Quixote really are alike then.
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what ive been wondering is if tax knew where to get acid, why doesnt he just keep doing acid? or LSD? why is he doing pharms?
i also hope someone warns him that anthrocon isnt all happy fun and games. i live in pittsburgh and furries have been jumped outside the convention center before
i also hope someone warns him that anthrocon isnt all happy fun and games. i live in pittsburgh and furries have been jumped outside the convention center before
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The reason he doesn't use LSD or the like at the moment is likely because his supplier is out.
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that is happy fun and games. we can only hope the same happens to all fans of mlp and furries
Anal Beads
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Okay so yesterday I decided to listen to all of his youtube videos while doing work. It was a wild ride listening to this dude, like jesus christ, wow. I’m happy that there is a thread on kiwi farms about him.
I really don’t think there is anything anyone can do on the internet that can help ‘save’ this guy. He is what I call an ‘impossible person’, a person who refuses to listen to reason and will always refuse help when given. He would rather people put his on a pedestal and he wants to be viewed as some sort of enlightened pony savior. He calls himself a god in a few of his videos, it makes me think he is a poisonous narcissist. He thinks he is really special in the sense that ‘everyone is out to get him’ (CIA, unicorns, and evil wizards?) because only HE knows the truth. In reality, he is a very depressed paranoid alcoholic pony fucker with a dead end part time job and he lives with his mom even though he is a grown ass man. If I was an evil wizard, I wouldn’t waste my time with someone as sad as taxman.
I believe that if Taxman continues down this route of crazy his family will have enough, kick him out, and he will be alone. Taxman’s delusions and paranoia will push all potential friends and life opportunities away until he is alone with nothing. The only thing that he will have left is his fantasies and drug abuse.
I think when Taxman comes to realize that there is no possible way to physically become a cartoon character in a make believe world, he will start to believe that Equstria is heaven. I think he will slowly convince himself that his spirit can cross into another dimension through death, leaving his ‘meat casket’ behind. The fact that he has tried suicide before makes me think that this could be a decision he makes. He will be so depressed one day, that he will OD on drugs or drink himself to death in hopes to be with his gay horse lover.
Taxman would have to take a lot of steps in order to take control of his life so that he doesn’t one day die from drug use. He has to first help himself, (I doubt he will do this) he has to WANT to change, no internet person (white knight) or family member can force him to change, he will have to realize he hit rock bottom and work himself out of it (he got himself into this mess after all). He would have to throw away/sell all of his pony merch shit and get it out of his life. He will need to go to long term therapy or see a psychiatrist. He needs to quit his job working with booze and go cold turkey on the alcohol and try his best to avoid it as much as possible. He should get a job being a pizza man/truck driver/garbage man/anything else than working with booze. I think he needs to delete his videos, waifu accounts, tumblr, commissioned pictures, and just get out of the internet for a solid 6 months or longer. He needs to work on himself. I think volunteering and helping other people less fortunate would be a positive hobby. (Working for the food bank, fundraisers for charity, ER, anything other than working with animals though. >.>;;; )Eventually he might find himself moving out of his parents house and getting a roommate if he does get a grip on reality. ( I mean, he can pass off as a normal person looks wise, he just needs help in the head) Will he even do any of this though? I think not. He is not mentally strong enough to change and I would be completely surprised if he tried to. Taxman's videos are just one long suicide note that will one day come to be.
Also I’m so glad people are archiving these videos because they took down the crazy weird dancing vid from youtube. I can’t wait for the day we see his mom or dad walk on him dancing half naked, making out with his stuffed animals. I am really curious to see how they would react to this shit. I wonder how much they really know about their son?
EDIT: I also apologize, I'm new and I didn't know we couldn't talk about life experiences on here so I edited it out. So sorry!
I really don’t think there is anything anyone can do on the internet that can help ‘save’ this guy. He is what I call an ‘impossible person’, a person who refuses to listen to reason and will always refuse help when given. He would rather people put his on a pedestal and he wants to be viewed as some sort of enlightened pony savior. He calls himself a god in a few of his videos, it makes me think he is a poisonous narcissist. He thinks he is really special in the sense that ‘everyone is out to get him’ (CIA, unicorns, and evil wizards?) because only HE knows the truth. In reality, he is a very depressed paranoid alcoholic pony fucker with a dead end part time job and he lives with his mom even though he is a grown ass man. If I was an evil wizard, I wouldn’t waste my time with someone as sad as taxman.
I believe that if Taxman continues down this route of crazy his family will have enough, kick him out, and he will be alone. Taxman’s delusions and paranoia will push all potential friends and life opportunities away until he is alone with nothing. The only thing that he will have left is his fantasies and drug abuse.
I think when Taxman comes to realize that there is no possible way to physically become a cartoon character in a make believe world, he will start to believe that Equstria is heaven. I think he will slowly convince himself that his spirit can cross into another dimension through death, leaving his ‘meat casket’ behind. The fact that he has tried suicide before makes me think that this could be a decision he makes. He will be so depressed one day, that he will OD on drugs or drink himself to death in hopes to be with his gay horse lover.
Taxman would have to take a lot of steps in order to take control of his life so that he doesn’t one day die from drug use. He has to first help himself, (I doubt he will do this) he has to WANT to change, no internet person (white knight) or family member can force him to change, he will have to realize he hit rock bottom and work himself out of it (he got himself into this mess after all). He would have to throw away/sell all of his pony merch shit and get it out of his life. He will need to go to long term therapy or see a psychiatrist. He needs to quit his job working with booze and go cold turkey on the alcohol and try his best to avoid it as much as possible. He should get a job being a pizza man/truck driver/garbage man/anything else than working with booze. I think he needs to delete his videos, waifu accounts, tumblr, commissioned pictures, and just get out of the internet for a solid 6 months or longer. He needs to work on himself. I think volunteering and helping other people less fortunate would be a positive hobby. (Working for the food bank, fundraisers for charity, ER, anything other than working with animals though. >.>;;; )Eventually he might find himself moving out of his parents house and getting a roommate if he does get a grip on reality. ( I mean, he can pass off as a normal person looks wise, he just needs help in the head) Will he even do any of this though? I think not. He is not mentally strong enough to change and I would be completely surprised if he tried to. Taxman's videos are just one long suicide note that will one day come to be.
Also I’m so glad people are archiving these videos because they took down the crazy weird dancing vid from youtube. I can’t wait for the day we see his mom or dad walk on him dancing half naked, making out with his stuffed animals. I am really curious to see how they would react to this shit. I wonder how much they really know about their son?
EDIT: I also apologize, I'm new and I didn't know we couldn't talk about life experiences on here so I edited it out. So sorry!
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In regards to how much they know it seems the consensus here is they are actively and willfully ignorant about it.
Anal Beads
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Hm, that's no good that they choose to ignore these escalating problems. Didn't the mother confiscate his guns though? There must be some sort of knowledge in the family that he is a potential suicidal person, so the idea that they choose to be ignorant about his mental health is alarming. It also probably is known by his family that he is an alcoholic (since there are shotglasses all over the place/wine corks collected in his room/ and a sea of wine bottles in the basement. ) The idea that there has been no known intervention for his obvious drug use also is not a good sign. It makes me believe that his parents has given up on their son. (his parents are divorced and his dad isn't around, so his dad might not know, but the mother does so I wonder about her and why she hasn't kicked him out of the house yet...O_O )
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He does claim his mother took his fire arm. I'm not 100% sure he ever owned one, perhaps it's wishful thinking.
Family dynamic and all can be really nasty and dangerous, with out knowing more our best guess is he's just ignored as long as he isn't being a hassle.
Family dynamic and all can be really nasty and dangerous, with out knowing more our best guess is he's just ignored as long as he isn't being a hassle.
Anal Beads
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I agree with you, there is just so much we don't know that all we can do is assume. It's just a shame because he became a crazy person and I am assuming that his parents just let his bad behavior slide without consequences for a very long time. (After all, one video taxman said that people thought of him as a school shooter type since junior high, so he's been fucked for a long while.) If I was his mother living with him, I would have a date set where he has to move out by OR I would have him pay rent. He is almost in his thirties after all, he should start acting an adult and take responsibility for his life instead of being a whining man-child.
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Variety is the spice of life
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If someone researches Jimson Weed and still actually wants to try it, I think it would be best to assume that they are beyond the ability of anyone who isn't a trained mental health professional to help.
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Man, even though this guy is the most depressingly horrible brony I've seen in a while, I still think the title of this thread is hilarious. Whenever I read it I get the feeling that this guy's just some stupid animated youtube show about a generic alchoholic nerd adventuring through nerdy universes.
Sadly, that doesn't change how disgusting this guy is.
Sadly, that doesn't change how disgusting this guy is.
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I wonder who he's trying to convince with the "I AM AMAZING! I AM A GENIUS!" talk, others or himself.
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I'm startin to believe he's just always high. like, when you think of a plan or idea that's retarded as fuck but you're too blasted to know any better? I think that's tax 24/7 now, but it's just mixed with crazy amounts of nerd rage
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I'm torn on Taxman, this all started out funny, but has spiraled into some bad shit.
Taxman needs to be properly assessed by a mental health professional, but it seems like his parents either don't know what to do or are content to let whatever they think is happening play itself out. By law he wouldn't be their responsibility, but you would think that if they allowed him to move back in that they would WANT him to get better.
Anyway, this whole situation is EXTREMELY common. Taxman over there appears to be in the throes of either schizophrenia or a schizoaffective disorder. As said earlier in the thread, his age matches up with the "normal" timeline for something like that to appear. To most people he probably just looks like he's on drugs (which he is, but not quite what I'm after), so he, like so many others, will most likely be kicked out on the streets where the police will eventually pick him up for something along the lines of being a nuisance/drug use/assault. From there he'll probably engage in a cycle of recidivism that accounts for a large portion of the prison/jail population. Unfortunately in the US, incarceration=mental health care, so without SOME sort of intervention by his family, this all could go downhill fast, and possibly violently. I know that all sounds over-dramatic, but if you don't believe me, feel free to look it up yourself.
Last point I have is that drugs, especially hallucinogenic or dissociative ones, are some of the worst things a schizo person can do. They will bring out the absolute worst of the problem, and often lead to violent outbursts due to the drugs inducing elevated anxiety, paranoia, confusion, and general panic/fear.
Or this could all be a very convincing fake, and if it is I will be very impressed.
Anyway, this whole situation is EXTREMELY common. Taxman over there appears to be in the throes of either schizophrenia or a schizoaffective disorder. As said earlier in the thread, his age matches up with the "normal" timeline for something like that to appear. To most people he probably just looks like he's on drugs (which he is, but not quite what I'm after), so he, like so many others, will most likely be kicked out on the streets where the police will eventually pick him up for something along the lines of being a nuisance/drug use/assault. From there he'll probably engage in a cycle of recidivism that accounts for a large portion of the prison/jail population. Unfortunately in the US, incarceration=mental health care, so without SOME sort of intervention by his family, this all could go downhill fast, and possibly violently. I know that all sounds over-dramatic, but if you don't believe me, feel free to look it up yourself.
Last point I have is that drugs, especially hallucinogenic or dissociative ones, are some of the worst things a schizo person can do. They will bring out the absolute worst of the problem, and often lead to violent outbursts due to the drugs inducing elevated anxiety, paranoia, confusion, and general panic/fear.
Or this could all be a very convincing fake, and if it is I will be very impressed.
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I wouldn't say he's disgusting, so much as he's just tragic.
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damn. after watchin this video i really think tax just needs friends. maybe he wants to escape into equestria because he wants to find friends there
edit: i didnt get that idea at all from him constantly lurching into the camera saying "BE MY FRIEND"
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