I used to be the edgy fedora-tipping atheist type who thought that believing in God was a mental delusion only for idiots who couldn't rationalize the world to save their life.
The funny thing is I still do believe that but understand why.
I've seen the complete abyss and sheer nihilism that can come from atheism and or modern ideological counters to religion and what they do to people.
I still don't believe in a god, but I realize a society where people the majority of people do is infinitely preferrable to the alternative.
Something about humans having an end-all goal to reach, community, and a comic book level lore system gives people a kind of power to triumph and prevail through the sheer bullshit that is living that nothing else does. Religion tends to be the only real established thing that has these systems that has also worked and survived and thrived throughout time.
Yes, there are hypocritical followers and a lot of the morals in sacred texts aren't exactly to all be taken literally or at all, but that's also the case with every secular community as well. I see all the great works of art and science that has come about because of people believing in silly things and I've seen the absolute nadir of civilization come from "intellectuals" (who in reality are usually a lot more retarded on most subjects across the board than an average man of faith). I've noticed how the majority of influential people in the counter-culture and skeptic worldview all succumbed to their own vices and lived hedonistic, self-destructive lifestyles while espousing how humanity was shackled by religion, as if anyone would want to join them in their depressing lifestyles.
Everyone tries to use copes now and say you can replace faith wth whatever is of value to you in order to live a fulfilling life but the joke is most human beings can't find value in much things WITHOUT a belief system that puts value on anything.
This puts me in a bit of a pickle as a guy who still is a nihilistic atheist faggot but realizes where that road ends, while still not being able to believe in any major god and all the shit I'd have to swallow with that pill if I decided to take it. It's truly a weird position to be in. I might try to learn more about eastern philosophy because shit like Buddhism/Taoism always was more my thing. But overall anymore when I notice someone's religious I don't instantly cringe or reee and have a prepared debate on hold in my mind and I just accept that they're probably a much happier person than me/
For myself, religion. I can't force myself to believe, but I don't think believers are all idiots being deceived anymore. I see that it gives them purpose in life, a moral compass, and comfort in their final hours.
Goddamnit (literally)
Here I am writing a novel about my experience with religion and then the first thing I see after I post it is literally the same thing just in a much more concise TL;DR form "lawl fam, religion ain't my thing but I get it just do you bro".
Kill me.