Thoughts about DSP's Psychology - Dr Fred Freud's Office

[Fapcop]

Considering how disdainful he was over his parents not getting him the wolverine toy and how badly he later changed that story when he justifiably was mocked for his tantrum over it to make his parents seem less like assholes (But still assholes) from his perspective I wouldn't doubt Melissa took something from him, and seeing the later two comments posted confirms this.


Phil has a very severe case of parental attention and seems to be under the belief that as his parents only biological child, he is/was deserving of all their attention. He shit talks every relation of his with stories like they were druggies/ran with bad crowds and I suspect that is because at various events these cousins and various other relations stole Mommy and Daddy dearests attention away from him, thus he feels the need to talk shit about how some cousin of his died in Mexico or other random bullshit that is probably about as true as Chris-Chan's long list of ancestors. Phil is almost certainly somewhere on the spectrum and either knows it and won't tell because he thinks he will get laughed at or has never been aware/was diagnosed but his extreme narcissism denies the truth. The guy genuinely might've been looking for a woman to be his replacement mommy who will provide him all the attention he needs and might be part of his aversion to having any children of his own, as his mom-wife will now be giving attention to their children and not pouring it all onto a grown ass man going into his 40s.

Agree. This would also explain why he calls Khat “mom”. She subconsciously fulfills that need for parental/motherly attention in him which is, needless to say, an EXTREMELY fucked up relationship.

It also goes a good way towards explaining DSPs weird asexuality. (Along with low testosterone.) He isn’t gay, but has problems seeing women/relating to women as anything but a motherly figure. (And nobody wants to fuck their mom unless their Chris-Chan or Derich.

Something went very wrong in DSP’s childhood and I would probably blame Phil and undiagnosed autism (and possibly personality disorders) rather than
his parents who somehow did an alright job with Melissa.

I could apply this thought to all people who treat pets as replacement children in general. I personally find people treating their pets as that distasteful, nothing wrong with treating a dog or cat like family, but there is a lot wrong with tucking them in bed at night and some of the weird shit those types do.

I love my pets and they’re absolutely PART of the family. But they’re NOT family, if you know what I mean.

Treating pets as replacement children isn’t just weird and creepy, it’s also an unintentional form of animal abuse. Dogs need to be treated as dogs, or you confuse the fuck out of them and cause them needless stress. (For example: Studies have shown that not knowing it’s place in a hierarchy, is MORE STRESSFUL for a dog than being at the bottom of that hierarchy).

The same goes for cats (recent research shows that cats are absolutely social animals with social structures) but which are more wild and less inbred than dogs are.

Phil, if you are reading this, seriously seek help. It will be hard for you to admit and and I know you live in the now but a little therapy with an actual therapist will do you some good.

Phil is (almost) 40 and has deep seated issues which would take years of therapy to change.

The best and most realistic thing, would probably be for Phil to get his very overdue autism diagnosis and some help/coping tools.

I’d reckon it would be a real “AHA!” Moment for him, which all by itself would give him some answers, take a load off and maybe even make him less likely to use his current coping mechanisms: Addictions, being an asshole, narcissism, etc.

Of course it’s also extremely unlikely to happen barring some kind of extreme event in his life.

(We’re talking an LSD trip, near death experience, getting his life thrown upside down through homelessness or an arrest. Some serious shit in other words.)

It’s hard to pinpoint whether Phil has narcissistic personality disorder, or whether his narcissism is a coping tool he developed to deal with his autism.

But it’s there, and it’s a major roadblock in the way for him. Getting therapy means admitting that you’re not perfect.

Which is an admission Phil has invested enormous resources in avoiding.

Yeah, from when I went looking the only times I recall Phil mentioning Melissa, besides talking shit about her bio-parents, is he will mention video games that she had that he didn't have.

Like he talks about how she had a Gameboy and he didn't during some autismo manifesto he's delivering about his entire personal history with the Pokémon franchise.

Another time he was explaining how he got his own personal Christmas tree for his room every year that he got to decorate however he wanted, and mentioned how she also got her own personal Christmas tree for her room, and his mom would decorate the one in the living room however she wanted. Of course Dave doesn't get mentioned at all in this story where he has to buy 3 fucking Christmas trees every year for his family.

Phil only seems to mention Melissa in the context of material possessions she had. I assume little Philliam thought all the things his parents bought for her is money they would have spent on him if they hadn't adopted her.

What a... Weird tradition.

A Christmas tree is usually something that unites the family, no? You put it up in the most meaningful place in the house, you decorate it together. You put your presents for everyone under it.

I might be taking this thing out of context or making too big of a deal of it, who knows. But it’s pretty fucking weird, and kind of sad.

They couldn’t even come together under a Christmas tree? Wowza.

Wouldn’t be surprised if it started because little autist Phil threw a shitfit after Melissa moved in, and they were told to decorate the tree together.?HE always decorated the tree! He! REEEE!

Why do it with Melissa? CHANGE IS BAAAAAD!!!

And Phil’s well meaning parents (who like most parents then knew fuck all about autism or assburgers) didn’t stop to think “Gee, that’s an unusually strong reaction over such a minor change!” But instead got everyone a Christmas tree.

And a great opportunity to get little Philliam to see a therapist was lost.

 

[UncleTusky]

The irony that brings joy to mah detractor heart is that Melissa, after some fuckups, seems to have gotten her life on track, and leads a normal life with things that Phil will never have: Friends, family and a meaningful jawb. (Something in healthcare as I recall.)

I looked into that when I doxed Phil's parents and unfortunately it is not true. She has not been arrested or tried for anything in almost a decade but I cannot find anything about her working in healthcare and she still appears to be living with Phil's parents. She is even older than Phil so I imagine his parents do not expect her to move out until they either pass away or sell the place; this unfortunately means she could end up in a very bad situation (section 8, group home) when his parents are gone.

It’s hard to pinpoint whether Phil has narcissistic personality disorder, or whether his narcissism is a coping tool he developed to deal with his autism.

But it’s there, and it’s a major roadblock in the way for him. Getting therapy means admitting that you’re not perfect.

Or the autism could be causing the narcissism: Difficulty with communication and poor/no of theory of mind (as in, the idea that not everyone sees things the way you do) are common indicators of autism. The cycle could go: Phil tries to verbalize idea -> Phil makes a fool of himself -> Phil doesn't realize he did a terrible job explaining his idea/doesn't realize it was a lousy idea -> Phil concludes everybody else is an idiot. His social isolation for a good chunk of his childhood did not help there by cutting off negative but constructive feedback. Posting "lol kys" on SF forums might have been amusing but it was not, in fact, a psychiatrist-recommended tool for child development.

Going to a godawful high school really hurt him there not because the teachers were shit, but because he really was the smartest guy in the room there and apparently did not realize how low of a bar that was. Having classmates who were smarter and more articulate than him, but not to the point that he got insecure or defensive, could have mitigated this and helped him realize that he did not know everything.

 

[Corpun]

@Fapcop can't quote so I'm improvising

Agree. This would also explain why he calls Khat “mom”. She subconsciously fulfills that need for parental/motherly attention in him which is, needless to say, an EXTREMELY fucked up relationship.

It also goes a good way towards explaining DSPs weird asexuality. (Along with low testosterone.) He isn’t gay, but has problems seeing women/relating to women as anything but a motherly figure. (And nobody wants to fuck their mom unless their Chris-Chan or Derich.

Something went very wrong in DSP’s childhood and I would probably blame Phil and undiagnosed autism (and possibly personality disorders) rather than
his parents who somehow did an alright job with Melissa.

You also have to consider Phil and Khet's weekend activities, which are, in his own words, going shopping while holding hands and eating out. This is stuff a child does with their parent. I don't live in Washington state but I know for a fact there are countless parks and other activities Phil and her can do, even if it is walking in the park (Though he can always use WuFlu as an excuse I suppose). His weekend activities reek of repeating what he did with his mom, I wouldn't be surprised if he fiddles with a toy from the toy aisle before putting it back like the manbaby he is.

I love my pets and they’re absolutely PART of the family. But they’re NOT family, if you know what I mean.

Treating pets as replacement children isn’t just weird and creepy, it’s also an unintentional form of animal abuse. Dogs need to be treated as dogs, or you confuse the fuck out of them and cause them needless stress. (For example: Studies have shown that not knowing it’s place in a hierarchy, is MORE STRESSFUL for a dog than being at the bottom of that hierarchy).

The same goes for cats (recent research shows that cats are absolutely social animals with social structures) but which are more wild and less inbred than dogs are.

It's even worse when looking at Jasper Kitty and how he treats him. When Jasper lies around he's cute, but when he does cat things like running around, pawing the TV, or playing with loose wires Phil is too lazy to fix suddenly he goes mad and yells at the poor thing. It's clear Phil only views Jasper as little beyond another excuse to justify e-begging ("Guys I have muh family to think of. So please please please can we hit the tips goal by the end of the hour, we only have $139 dollars tipped.") and not much else. Even him goofing off with Jasper in his grating kitty voice reeks of fake as shit, like one of those movie stars having to put up with autistic fans at conventions.

Phil is (almost) 40 and has deep seated issues which would take years of therapy to change.

The best and most realistic thing, would probably be for Phil to get his very overdue autism diagnosis and some help/coping tools.

I’d reckon it would be a real “AHA!” Moment for him, which all by itself would give him some answers, take a load off and maybe even make him less likely to use his current coping mechanisms: Addictions, being an asshole, narcissism, etc.

Of course it’s also extremely unlikely to happen barring some kind of extreme event in his life.

(We’re talking an LSD trip, near death experience, getting his life thrown upside down through homelessness or an arrest. Some serious shit in other words.)

It’s hard to pinpoint whether Phil has narcissistic personality disorder, or whether his narcissism is a coping tool he developed to deal with his autism.

But it’s there, and it’s a major roadblock in the way for him. Getting therapy means admitting that you’re not perfect.

Which is an admission Phil has invested enormous resources in avoiding.

This is the crux of why Phil will likely never improve. His attitudes on life and how he has lived up until now will never let him improve and become a better person. His love for video games, which was likely there in the beginning even if he was awful at them and had awful scummy tactics to rake in views, is pretty much gone by now. I suspect it was quickly consumed by the greed once the dollars started rolling in, which is why he put everything on autistic schedules and always justified rage quitting or cheating games as if he was on a time constraint back in the day, and gives up puts them on hiatus games now when he 'isn't having fun'. He will never improve until reality finally hits him in the ace and I suspect that event will either be his mom wife leaving or a stroke on camera.

Going to a godawful high school really hurt him there not because the teachers were shit, but because he really was the smartest guy in the room there and apparently did not realize how low of a bar that was. Having classmates who were smarter and more articulate than him, but not to the point that he got insecure or defensive, could have mitigated this and helped him realize that he did not know everything.

Just like getting fourth is a shoddy fighting game tournament almost two decades ago makes him the best vidya player in the country because the three winners were foreigners. Just because you're on the top doesn't make you the best Phil.

 

[L.I.M.B. Commander]

I just had this thought....did Phil ever bring up his father when it comes to good things in his childhood??? He will talk about his mom all day but almost never bring up his dad for anything...

 

[KKKrèmebrûlée]

I just had this thought....did Phil ever bring up his father when it comes to good things in his childhood??? He will talk about his mom all day but almost never bring up his dad for anything...

His dad would sometimes work nights, so he would call Phil at bedtime to say good night. And he supervised Phil when he played with some retarded action figurine (don't remember what it was) while in the attic.

 

[Corpun]

I just had this thought....did Phil ever bring up his father when it comes to good things in his childhood??? He will talk about his mom all day but almost never bring up his dad for anything...

Think he mentions his dad helping him do home improvement in this video, think it's in this video he mentions his parents visiting and doing a lot of work around his condo. I might have the wrong video however.

This video is also telling of a few more things, he is an extremely lazy fuck that can't be bothered with doing the barest minimum of effort in maintaining anywhere he lives. I seriously wouldn't be shocked if his parents did all the cleaning for him and at some point stopped trying to teach him life skills when it was evident he didn't pay attention.

Also does anyone have a clip of him talking about Melissa? I want to see how his voice sounds when referencing her just out of curiosity, as he does a very bad job at masking his true feelings on things.


The lack of any color in his skin, and how saggy it is makes me wonder if he has agoraphobia or some anxieties over going outside. This man is almost 40 but he looks decades older. I'm willing to bet he only goes outside on weekends because his mom is with him then.

 

[Freshtodeath]

Not being in the job market since 2010 has helped contribute to phil's reckless spending. He has no idea how bad it is right now, no idea that he should have been saving his money. Any person in their 20s/30s will tell you how shit it is out there. If Phil ever has to bet a real jawb it will be on hell earth. He's going to be working at burger king for 18 an hour.

 

[Corpun]

Not being in the job market since 2010 has helped contribute to phil's reckless spending. He has no idea how bad it is right now, no idea that he should have been saving his money. Any person in their 20s/30s will tell you how shit it is out there. If Phil ever has to bet a real jawb it will be on hell earth. He's going to be working at burger king for 18 an hour.

Especially how he justifies not looking with, "Dah trallz ruined mah laif. I have to play video games to live and help muh waif and family!"

It both opens up that yes, he actually does internally hate what he does, but not on the same level as say Wings who has openly spoken of how much he hates where he is in life, and hides it under a very thin veneer. This probably is one of the factors in his alcoholism and gambling addiction and definitely isn't helping in his slip ups over the past few weeks. That whole narrative about the trolls ruining his prospects is even worse because every thing that supposedly ruins his job hunting is his fault, not anyone else. No one is editing Phil saying nigger or how women are sluts or whatever else into his videos, that's Phil himself. I personally don't give a shit if someone is a blank-ist or whatever but Phil does himself no favors in the job market. It doesn't help his ego demands he call any normal person working a 9-5 a loser.

I'm sure if you brought up on his stream why he doesn't look for a job in his area as a part time thing to supplement his supposedly terrible income and how many places across the country are providing mass sign on bonuses for even part time (A grocery store chain near me just upped their hire on bonus to 1k for working a month to get people hired, granted I live on the other side of the country) he'd explain in a long winded rant how that isn't true, companies in Washington aren't suffering an employee shortage and you're a retard for thinking otherwise, and how he is somehow fine with streaming even when he has daily taxes to pay and will go back to e-begging within an hour.

 

[Fren]

Think he mentions his dad helping him do home improvement in this video, think it's in this video he mentions his parents visiting and doing a lot of work around his condo. I might have the wrong video however.

This video is also telling of a few more things, he is an extremely

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The lack of any color in his skin, and how saggy it is makes me wonder if he has agoraphobia or some anxieties over going outside. This man is almost 40 but he looks decades older. I'm willing to bet he only goes outside on weekends because his mom is with him then.

His day to day activities are well documented I think.
There is no chance in hell he is leaving his house after the first or second stream, not for a walk, not for things to take care of, nor to spend time with his wife outside the house. So the Hypothesis, that he only leaves the house once a week is probably correct.
He will probably dismiss any suggestions with something like "I don't have time". His mid day break is like two hours and he constantly complains he doesn't get stuff done during that, he only has time to eat.

 

[Freshtodeath]

You can tell that just on how pale he is. If I had to guess the only time he goes out is on his day off. He probably sleeps until noon then they go out to eat for bfast then right to target and fred meyer and other places then home. So he gets very little sunlight.

he has mentioned sometimes on his day off they DD bfast so maybe they don't even go out for errands until much later in day after the sun has started to go down.

 

[Big Brown Schlub]

The only proof you need that he doesn't get any sunshine is the fact that he's a white dood who has to take Vitamin D supplements.

 

[Corpun]

You can tell that just on how pale he is. If I had to guess the only time he goes out is on his day off. He probably sleeps until noon then they go out to eat for bfast then right to target and fred meyer and other places then home. So he gets very little sunlight.

he has mentioned sometimes on his day off they DD bfast so maybe they don't even go out for errands until much later in day after the sun has started to go down.

The only proof you need that he doesn't get any sunshine is the fact that he's a white dood who has to take Vitamin D supplements.

Knowing Phil, he probably thinks supplements are better than sunshine because they cost more, and it Phil's mind the more expensive the better it is.

 

[Sup3r]

Not being in the job market since 2010 has helped contribute to phil's reckless spending. He has no idea how bad it is right now, no idea that he should have been saving his money. Any person in their 20s/30s will tell you how shit it is out there. If Phil ever has to bet a real jawb it will be on hell earth. He's going to be working at burger king for 18 an hour.

He's lost all grasp on the value of money, he gets and spends so much. Also he would never work a low skill, minimum wage jawb as he sees himself as above them. Especially BK after the whole kaht's bday shitshow. He thinks he would be able to walk into somewhere like Boeing and get a middle-management role with no trouble. He is that detached from reality at this point.

 

[Elescondido]

I've always wondered but was the deal with Phil's obsession with perfomativity

Like he how talks about him having a "bussines" and wanting to expend time with his "family" when he could just say wife since there's no one else
Or he says he is a cat parent instead of a cat owner

I wonder if it's conected with his racism ? to him having a bussines and a family makes him better than the darkies and it doesnt really matter if it's true or not, it just needs to seem like it is .

He didnt even have an llc like most normal youtubers (and declared bankrupcy not long ago ) and he barely sees his wife so that relationship is obviously not real and his cat just want to annoy him

 

[Big Brown Schlub]

I've always wondered but was the deal with Phil's obsession with perfomativity

Like he how talks about him having a "bussines" and wanting to expend time with his "family" when he could just say wife since there's no one else
Or he says he is a cat parent instead of a cat owner

I wonder if it's conected with his racism ? to him having a bussines and a family makes him better than the darkies and it doesnt really matter if it's true or not, it just needs to seem like it is .

He didnt even have an llc like most normal youtubers (and declared bankrupcy not long ago ) and he barely sees his wife so that relationship is obviously not real and his cat just want to annoy him

Phil is just a shallow person who is just a product of his environment and state of the society he grew up in. Everything in the neolib West is now seen as performative and there is no intrinsic value to anything. This coupled the genetic aspect of it, by which I'm saying that he's dumb as shit, and you get a person who cannot see anything past the surface level and doesn't understand the deeper meaning behind anything. He is incapable of reaching a deeper understanding about something since he cannot understand the intrinsic, basic element behind anything. You can see this most clearly when he tries to copy something that worked for him once and then spergs out when it doesn't work again. For example, let's say that he has a big premiere schtreem of some dumb game on the same day that his paypigs get their welfare checks. The stream is a success, he gets his tithe of 150 and then some. Hogan pulls are secured. However, as the weeks go on support drops for that game and he doesn't understand why. After all, people told him they loved the game because they opened their wallets for the first stream.

His poorly run Youtube channel is a "business" because it has income and expenses, his "family" is a family because he has a waif and a cat-son. The dude can't even be bothered to have a human child in order for him to truly have a family (not saying that he should, mind you. It's a good thing his bloodline ends with him). He doesn't spend any quality time with his waif, hell they don't even go on vacation together or anything, he never took her to a honeymoon, the only thing they do together is shopping and D'VOURing on their days off. At least Leanna got staycations. They're glorified roommates. Moreover, him overpaying for a khando and a car that probably gets driven 150 kilometers per month is because he saw those mature adults on teevee having a big house and a car. As you can see it's all surface level, just because he says he has a business, car, house and wife means he's a mature adult, the fact that he's an absolute retard with money who's perpetually on a financial knife's edge, the fact that Kiwis knew more about his wife and her history than even he did when he first flew her over, the fact that he's got too big of a house for what he needs and a car that he barely drives means dick. It's like trannyism, just because they put on a dress and a wig and say they're women, they're now suddenly women. Same principle.

Of course, we can't forget another important element of his performativity, and that's him using it to brag to his paypigs and to flex on da trollz. His paypigs are even fucking dumber than him so they buy all of his shit about how having 10k monthly expenses for a pig, a horse and a cat is somehow reasonable. They see him have a house and make money running a business and they just take it at face value because they're even more dented than he is. When it comes to flexing on the trolls, it's because Phil has deluded himself into thinking that if you dislike his content or anything he does in any way, you must be mentally deficient and mentally ill, also you're a child. There's this really old video where he reads feedback emails back on his original darksydephil channel from way, way back where someone gave him a bunch of constructive criticism, it was harsh to be fair but you can tell it didn't come from a place of malice since the person wanted to see Phil succeed long term, so they gave him advice that would pay off in the long term. Phil reacted to the email with "WOOOOW JEALOUS MUCH???" But back to Phil thinking that all of his trolls are mentally ill underage losers, with some of the aloggy spergy detractors he's not too much off the mark there and there are still those dentheads around, but most detractors nowadays can see right through his paper-thin "machoor adult" facade.

 

[DZoomer]

I've always wondered but was the deal with Phil's obsession with perfomativity

Like he how talks about him having a "bussines" and wanting to expend time with his "family" when he could just say wife since there's no one else
Or he says he is a cat parent instead of a cat owner

I wonder if it's conected with his racism ? to him having a bussines and a family makes him better than the darkies and it doesnt really matter if it's true or not, it just needs to seem like it is .

He didnt even have an llc like most normal youtubers (and declared bankrupcy not long ago ) and he barely sees his wife so that relationship is obviously not real and his cat just want to annoy him

I think that's a stretch, to say that it has anything to do with racism.

The usual interpretation of this behavior we have on the Farms is that it's just Phil trying to show to his retarded fanbase that he's a real adult. Like, think about it, what actual, normal human being says things like "I'm a mature adult with a business degree" and "Living with a girlfriend full-time" in a non-ironic way?

I think Phil's life can be summed up with one word: self-delusion. Every single day he has to convince himself that he's successful (despite being bankrupt), envied (despite being seen as a joke by everyone), loved (despite having far more haters than fans), smart (despite being, uh, Phil), etc.

So this "I have a family" thing is yet another manifestation of Phil's self-delusion. He doesn't have a family, he has a wife that probably has more contempt than love for him. That's not a family, everyone understands that, but he doesn't give a shit. As long as he says it to himself enough times, he'll believe it is true.

When you actually think about it, you realize that Phil's life must be hell. I always remember that moment that Phil forgot to turn off his cam after the stream had ended, and he just sat there staring at the void. He knows that he's a loser that lives in a house of cards.

If his top 10 supporters disappear, he's absolutely fucked. Imagine completely depending on 10 people who are not even family, and who are probably retarded manchildren. Phil's only reason for not killing himself is his self-delusion. That's why most people's response here when asked about what they'd do if they woke up as Phil is "I'd kill myself".

 

[UncleTusky]

I've always wondered but was the deal with Phil's obsession with perfomativity

Like he how talks about him having a "bussines" and wanting to expend time with his "family" when he could just say wife since there's no one else
Or he says he is a cat parent instead of a cat owner

I wonder if it's conected with his racism ? to him having a bussines and a family makes him better than the darkies and it doesnt really matter if it's true or not, it just needs to seem like it is .

He didnt even have an llc like most normal youtubers (and declared bankrupcy not long ago ) and he barely sees his wife so that relationship is obviously not real and his cat just want to annoy him

My guess would be ego plus laziness.

Phil hates being laughed at and desperately wants to be taken seriously so words get redefined to suit that. Unfortunately for him he also has the mindset of a ten-year-old boy so he has no idea how to make this sound convincing. Condo with water damage? Nope, serious adult house. Gold digger wife with Asperger's and a cat? ' Nope, she's a swimsuit model and they're a family. Too radioactive for even "Raid: Shadow Legends"? Companies are afraid of his ahnesty. Even when the stakes were incredibly high during his bankruptcy hearing, he couldn't just say "I make Internet videos and get paid for it in tips". Instead he had some mushmouth explanation of how he's a provider of "on demand content streaming services" or some other equally convoluted and pretentious title.

The "performativity" part comes in because anything more than just making things up is actual work and might even force him to realize that his old way of doing things sucked. That's also why he only makes improvements after a LOT of pushback from viewers then instantly memory-holes his complaints when he does. This also has the effect of meaning he never improves in his own version of events-if things were always great then there was never room for improvement by definition. That is exactly what a narc like the Pig wants to believe.

 

[Thomas Highway]

Phil is a classic narcissist. Lazy, entitled and never wrong.

 

[Michael Janke]

phil is straight up addicted to gambling.

have you noticed that he takes literally no other enjoyment out of life than to spend thousands a month on gacha.

he doesnt cook, he doesnt clean, he doesnt go out, he showers weekly at best, now with uber eats. he probably stays in ever more.

 

[Verxis]

phil is straight up addicted to gambling.

have you noticed that he takes literally no other enjoyment out of life than to spend thousands a month on gacha.

he doesnt cook, he doesnt clean, he doesnt go out, he showers weekly at best, now with uber eats. he probably stays in ever more.

And somehow, he's still richer than all of us.