2018-12-23 11:31:10 PST] antichrist_super5tar: cheer50 why not just set up a tip goal on stream? it would make things very clear cut. I think a lot of people are so caught with their own lives that we can't really keep up with the life of someone on the internet to know if you're close or not to reaching the goal. especially during busy holidays
"All right! I'm going to be VERY HONEST. AGAIN! People don't seem to listen when I say stuff, because I've said this a MILLION TIMES, and people don't listen to me! All right? NUMBER ONE! I gave a ROUGH ESTIMATE of what I'm going to owe for TAXES in 2019. I ALREADY gave the ROUGH ESTIMATE! All right? *LIP SMACK!* That is a ROUGH ESTIMATE based on what my ACCOUNTANT-SLASH-TAX ATTORNEY told me I would've need to pay for the course of THIS YEAR, in quarterly payments! Okay? HOWEVER! What you need to understand is, that estimate has TWO CONTINGENCIES! The first estimate is that, they're ASSUMING that the money I make THIS YEAR, is exactly the same as the money I made LAST YEAR. The second contingency is assuming that I made those payments on time! Well, guess what? I can tell you guys two things: NUMBER ONE, I made DIFFERENT amount of money THIS YEAR than I did LAST YEAR! How much? I HAVE NO IDEA! I won't know that, until I do my taxes! Until, I actually SIT DOWN and I actually look at INCOME versus EXPENSES! And I do that NUMBER CRUNCH! Which I'm probably going to be doing, probably, in February! *SNIFF* I have NO IDEA what I made in 2018 yet! There's NO WAY I can figure this out yet! Okay? I could guess! But I could be TOTALLY WRONG! That's NUMBER ONE! NUMBER TWO! I didn't make the quarterly payments this year! I didn't have any money to do it! So, that means, there's going to be INTEREST! There's going to be FEES! There's going to be all kinds of stuff, that accumulated over this year, that are going to make what I owe to the government, EVEN MORE! Because I didn't do my quarterly payments! So, when I give you guys a BALLPARK FIGURE of, kind of, what I'm going to next year. THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT IT IS. And, by the way, THAT'S KIND OF WHAT I SAID on Thanksgiving, when I first revealed this whole issue! Okay? Uhm. That's exactly what I said. But, people just want to make, *MOCKING VOICE* 'OH! That's all Phil owes and that's exactly right! And Phil should have a countdown on his streams on how much he's raised towards that!' NO!! NUMBER ONE: THAT NUMBER COULD BE WRONG!! And then, HOW, HOW dishonest would it be, for me to say, 'This is what I owe. And then WE raise it, and it's not enough!' That's not right! That's messed up! That would be IRRESPONSIBLE OF ME! And I wouldn't ever- I wouldn't want to do that! You know? But what it is, is people who want this, are people who, basically, want to say, *MOCKING VOICE* 'Look at how much money Phil raised! BUH, BUH, BUH!' It's the same people who are JEALOUS! It's the people who want to DETRACT! It's the people who want to, uhm, TAKE AWAY from the streams. Having a running tally of what's being raised, TAKES AWAY from the FUN INTERACTIVITY of why you guys are here on the streams to begin with! I don't want the ENTIRETY of today's HOLIDAY STREAM, which is supposed to be, me playing games and having fun, and drinking, and INTERACTING with you guys in a Holiday setting. To be about, 'OH! Here's what we're raising, towards a GOAL!' IT'S BULLSHIT! You know what I mean?! That's bullshit! And, they just want to DISTRACT from US having FUN! And, that's why, I'm not gonna do that! I'm just not! Uhm. I'm not going to fall for the bullshit! Having a running tally, on a PHANTOM TOTAL, that may or may not even be correct, is not a good idea! I'm not DUMB ENOUGH to think that!! Okay? So. NO! I'm not going to things- Because here's what they REALLY want to do: THEY want ME to set up a GOAL on stream, then WE raise it, but then I find out it wasn't the CORRECT GOAL. *MOCKING VOICE* 'OH! You see?! PHIL LIED! He took that money, and he EMBEZZLED that money! He's going on a VACATION! He's flying to Tahiti! Where he bought a boat! Or he has a, fucking, metal golden statue in his house of himself!' Or, you know? All kinds of STUPID SHIT! Like that idiot on stream, who said, 'Don't give, don't ever give Phil contributions. Because he eats fast food!' *SNAKE CHUCKLE* This is the mentality of the COMMON PERSON who doesn't like me! Okay? Uhm. But, you see my point? Uhm. That's why I'm not going to do it. I REFUSE! It doesn't make sense! All right? If you guys want to contribute, I'm incredibly APPRECIATIVE. All right? It helps me out TREMENDOUSLY. This month, in particular, like I've already mentioned, I'M STRAPPED! If you TIP ME in the next few days, it would help me, TREMENDOUSLY! BUT! I'm not expecting anything! Anything I get, I'm incredibly grateful for! I'm not going to have a RUNNING TOTAL of things HERE, that becomes what the stream is about! Like a fundraiser. WE'RE NOT DOING THAT!! This is supposed to be a Holiday Gaming Stream! All right?! So. I'm not going to fall for their BULLSHIT! And I'm not going to turn it into that! Because that's what THEY want! They want me to seem like A NEGATIVE GUY and A JERK! Who's here all about MONEY and all bout shit! AND I'M NOT! You know? Once the stream starts with gameplay, I'm not going to be talking about that anymore! I'm only bringing it up now, because these are people who are ASKING about it on prestream! Okay?"