My family hates the man, and would have told me if he had molested me. However, when he found out that my mother was pregnant with me, he moved away to Florida. He physically could not have reached me, either, as my mother had a restraining order that, according to the Texas State Department of Corrections, has never been violated. Again, I would be more than happy to help you, Blinski. I've been in your situation before. Mental health problems like this aren't something to sneeze at.
I had paranoid delusions for most of my adolescence. I believed that everyone I knew hated me for various reasons, be it my race, my sexuality, my beliefs, my politics, all kinds of things. It got so bad that I repeatedly attempted suicide. My world was completely defined by my fantasy and delusion as to what said world was like. You're a dude with a lot of promise. You have your whole life left ahead of you, and it hurts me emotionally to see you allowing yourself to go down this road without at least trying to address the issues that are present.
Blinski, I know that you don't believe that you're delusional. That's the condundrum- it's not delusions if you know they are. But this is something that can be fixed with visits to a psychiatrist, and actual medication- not fucking cough syrup.
