Good Bye Everybody!
By
WillM3luvTrains
Guys, I'm sorry to do this but I cannot stay on Deviant Art anymore! I was trying and trying not to do this but push has come to shove. I have to leave DA now and I have to go away forever!
I went back on Kiwi Farms to see what Varian4eves did to me there and just as I suspected, she betrayed me and shared sensitive and confidential information about me with them, and I knew she was gonna do that when she said she joined Kiwi Farms, and that's another reason why I blocked her. I know I said I wouldn't go back there but after what Varian4eves told me, I got curious and I went on there and just as I suspected, she betrayed me!
And just when I thought it couldn't get worse, they found out more information about me that I didn't think they'd find, information I intentionally hid from you. Now they know my last name and they also discovered I once had a YouTube account, that was back when I liked that website but I closed my account in April 2007, which was the worst April of my entire life, because that month, and I didn't want to tell anyone this but you might as well know now, I was part of Mike's Railroad Crossing Website as TrainmanWP until 2007 when it was mistaken that I gossiped about someone who goes by the name Elton801. I'd rather not talk too much about that but because of that, and complaints from the website host, Mike Hickok, who's dead now, and two of his regulars, and admittedly my not following the rules on that website, I got banned from there and Mike and the two regulars, whom I thought were my best friends, abandoned me, refused to contact me again, and talked trash about me on Mike's Railroad Crossing Website forum (all posts about me there are gone.) And they refused to forgive me too. Later that same month someone with the name RailroadDirector got into an instant message with me and accused me of doing unsafe activities at railroad crossings. When I told my mother that, she told me to close my YouTube account, which I did. I didn't want to but she insisted I did and so I did. I did try making new accounts but due to me having severe psychological issues, I closed them all and in 2008 I decided to abandon YouTube altogether. And after that I cut ties with everyone I met on YouTube, Mike's Railroad Crossing Website and in late 2006 all of 2007, those were the worst times of my life and that's why I hate YouTube now, I never want to see that site again or anything originating from it! It was mean of me to let those people go but I didn't feel I could stay with them and be happy and I just wanted my life back to the way it was before late 2006 and I took drastic measures to do so. And I decided Mike and the two regulars were right about me. And I kept some things about myself secret so they wouldn't find me again and reconnect with me.
Well now, it's April 2007 all over again! And ironically it is April!
And they now sort of know what I look like and they know my race now. I never told anyone this but I'm black but I kept that a secret, except maybe for my showing of Demetre Adams, whom you're now never going to see anymore of. But they found an old picture of me from my High School years (I was in the News Paper as Student of the Week.) And I read the N-word on there, I don't know if it was Varian4eves that called me that or if it was one of the other Kiwi Farmers. But that's why I didn't want anyone to know my race because I did not want to be called the N-word, which is what one of Mike's regulars did to me, and I admit I deserved that, I kept subscribing to his videos on YouTube and he got really ticked off with me and cussed me out big time. I admit I couldn't handle not having him in my life and wanted him, the other guy, and Mike back, but they made it clear they wanted nothing more to do with me! IT took me months but I finally accepted it. I even tried emailing Mike again 6 or 7 months later and he still refused to contact me, although he did when he had Stage-4 colon cancer, which he died of in December 2011. I mean he didn't contact me, I contacted him when I found out from another regular that I decided to keep contact with. And Mike was the first person I found that liked railroad crossings like I did, and to be let go by him hurt me severely and messed me up mentally along with other things I went through that time.
And the jig is up, I have a confession to make. For any of you who have been on FurAffinity.net, I admit it, I AM MenditoAnthroEnthuz8502. I never wanted to share that but someone on Kiwi Farms discovered that and recognized my art. I admit I drew more pictures of cartoon characters using the bathroom after I said I wouldn't anymore, and I tried to do so hoping I wouldn't be noticed and trying to not to reveal too much information about myself although I did suspect my art would be recognized and hesitated to do so for a while, and I discovered someone recognized me and brought my article back to life. Then I made a sock-puppet account over there as Poriba Jap 8, pretending to be somebody else defending me and confronted them, which I know was stupid and counterproductive and I got myself into a battle I wasn't going to win! But I decided to let some steam off at those nosy busy-bodies! And that's just it, they're busy-bodies. Okay yes I'm the one who chose to draw and post bathroom-using pictures but I wish they'd just minded their business. They even took one of my pictures I posted there and twisted it, adding vulgar dialogue and other things, things I would never put in a bathroom picture or any other picture. In fact there are bathroom-using pictures even I wouldn't add to my favorites!
Something else, after I first found out about Kiwi Farms four years ago, I told my mother about the picture I drew of Timmy going to the bathroom and she was super mad at me and yelled at me for it, and I think she was embarrassed. And she ordered me never to draw those pictures again although I planned not to before I told her, and I only told her because I was afraid she'd find out through the News. And I did tell her about it again months later and she yelled at me again although she already did, even wanting me to leave Deviant Art, which I was so not ready to do and refused to do. I did obey her for a while but after seeing some more bathroom-using pictures I didn't like, I decided to go back to it but not post them here, instead on FurAffinity.net, which I should have known was a stupid idea!
I don't mean to be rude but now I wish I NEVER met Varian4eves and wish I never got involved with her and I knew I couldn't trust her! I knew she wasn't right for me and by the way she's acted, I was afraid she'd not only leave me but betray me too and my fears came true!
So because of that, and now that the people on Kiwi Farms know more about me, found out information I intentionally tried to withhold, it is no longer safe for me to be here anymore. I never wanted to do this but I'm gonna have to shut down my account and discontinue any further involvement with this site. I'm ruined now! I admit I ruined myself too but the people at Kiwi Farms ruined me even more and Varian4eves also ruined me! So now I'm going to have to do what my mother wanted me to do and get off here! I tried not do but now it's gotten to the point where I have no choice anymore and I cannot fight this anymore, and I cannot ignore this anymore, this has really taken it's toll! And all my future projects on this site and on FurAffinity are cancelled! I am ruined beyond repair and at the point of no return!
So now, I have to say "Good bye" to all of you. And like I said, I know many of you don't like me anyway and find me annoying.
I joined DA originally to add art to my favorites. Then a year later I decided to go ahead and start posting artwork. Admittedly some of my artwork sucked, as someone on Kiwi Farms told me "Your Art Sucks, No Skill!" Okay so I'm not the best artist in the world and my artwork wasn't top-quality, but I still wanted to post it. I even redid some artwork I wasn't happy with. And I wanted this to last to the end of the world, but after all the crap that's happening and how worse things have gotten, and again I was hoping I wouldn't have to do this, now it's time for me to go! I admit some, no, MUCH of this is my own fault! I did say I wan't always going to be on DA, I knew one day my time on DA would end, but I didn't know when.
I admit I'm choosing to leave DA, nobody told me to, but seeing how serious things have gotten and how degraded I've become, and I think my mother would have wanted me to do this, and now she's going to get what she wants as do all the people that hate me and don't want me around, but the best thing for me to do is to quit and leave once and for all!
So, I'm sorry but it's over for me and Deviant Art, well not just Deviant Art, the internet in general! I'm not sure I'll be on Wiki anymore either! You guys will never see or hear from me again! I will close my account sometime this month so if you have any pictures you really like you better save them now because by the end of this month, barring unforeseen circumstances, all my pictures will be gone forever!
I'm going to miss you and I know some of you are going to miss me too, and I'm sorry it's come to this. And I know I'm gonna regret this, one I close my account there's no getting it back! And I worked really hard on this account and now 6-years of my work down the toilet! And it's not just Varian4eves I'm leaving, it's everybody!
So Good Bye my fellow deviants. I love you!
Best regards,
William D. Pearson. The Train-Sperg slash N***er slash so-called"pedophile" (which I'm not,) slash the messed up person!
Go ahead and leave your comments. I may respond to some of them, otherwise, fare well!
Oh and by the way, you Kiwi-Farmers have really really ticked me off and you really hurt me! You should all be ashamed of yourselves! SCREW YOU!
ADDED: Okay everyone, I will not close my account, I never wanted to anyway, but if my mother insists I do, and if she finds out any of this, she will insist I do and I'll have to.
But I'm just not going to add anymore to it. So the account stays! But I cannot stay, and this is more than just a cyber-bullying matter, my life could be in real danger, maybe even my freedom! I think this is bigger than me now! So as much as I hate to, and I really don't want to, it's in my best interest I go before I cause anymore problems. It's not all Varian4eves' fault or the Kiwi Farmers, but it's mine too! It's just too dangerous for me to stay anymore!
