WillM3luvTrains
Hey Maddie, I'll talk to you this once.
I understand and I forgive you and I beg everyone else to too, hopefully some will listen. You did hurt me but I'm gonna try to let it go as much as I can though it'll always affect me! I've made some really dumb decisions in my life too, worse than those bathroom pictures I made but I'm not allowed to say what I did.
And I cannot and won't stay mad at you forever. Besides like I said I'm at fault too!
And yes you can continue using Cody, you care more about him than anyone else does, except for me, and i want Cody, and his legacy if he has one, to continue and would still like it if more people drew Cody and Demetre and made Carletre pictures. So please continue using Cody, I think he's cool too and you design him better than even I do. Why don't you draw a picture of him with Lincoln and Clyde and him with Lincoln, Clyde, Liam, Zach, and Rusty together, even include him with Stella, and even Chandler and Mike, Marcus, Lucas, and Gus. Those are all just suggestions.
Yes it's true I'm a grown-up and I can make my own decisions and don't need my mother telling me what to do although she's always welcome to give advice, I do have to respect her and her wishes. Sometimes she gets under the impression that I don't love her or respect her and I'm feeling like she's right, and she gets angry when I don't listen to her, although she can be too much of a mother and has trouble stepping back! But seeing how I have autism, cannot do a lot of thinhgs right, she feels she has to step in and I cannot stop her. She can be overly controlling, however, I get myself into a lot of crap much to her dismay! Although I will be 35 soon, I act more like a 2 year old, 3 year old, 7 year old as someone once said about me, and perhaps a 10-year-old! Besides if you were my mother, wouldn't you want me to be safe and to not do things and wouldn't you be mad if I didn't listen to you, even if I was a grown up? (Please answer! Imagine yourself as my mother, but please don't act like you are in real life!)
And I know you're not racist and I'm sorry I accused you of that. You think you're bad? Sometimes I think you are, but I'm bad myself! I have much of the same issues you have. And I make very terrible decisions. Remember when I made a sock-puppet account on Wikia to bash myself? That was really stupid, and some of that had to do with Kiwi Farms and what others outside that site said about me and how they treated me.
I also confronted this person
soundeffects.fandom.com/wiki/M… for being so mean to me (he blocked me from that wikia twice and after that I hit the roof on him, at least I tried to.) This is what he said to me
soundeffects.fandom.com/wiki/T…. I asked him for help but he was a huge jerk to me.
I said this to him, although I got the name wrong
community.fandom.com/wiki/Thre…
And I complained about him here
community.fandom.com/wiki/Thre…. And Informer4250, that's one of my other sock-puppet accounts! I had that one first before the one you saw on Fairly Odd Parents Wiki.
And as it turns out, others had trouble with him too. Some of his ban victims started a new Sound Effects Wiki.
sfx-resource.fandom.com/wiki/S…
So I must admit I'm not that trust worthy! In fact I made myself leave Wiki and was supposed to be gone forever, although I did make two sock-puppet accounts to bash myself. Then as you advised me when you found out and I confessed to you that was me, I went and confessed on FOP wikia I sock-puppeted.
fairlyoddparents.fandom.com/wi… Then later when I reported someone for posting a porn link on FOP wikia to Community Central, to feel less like a hypocrite, I confesses my sock-puppet accounts. See here but skip the first three to four paragraphs
community.fandom.com/wiki/Thre…. And not only was my second sock-puppet account blocked globally, all but one of my posts through that account got deleted!
Bottom line, I've made stupid choices, including getting into fights with others, and admit I cannot be trusted although I want to be, I hate not being trusted! A lot of times though, even I don't trust me! And I came to that conclusion when I was 15! I even once yelled to my mother "MAYBE I SHOULD KILL MYSELF!" I really did say that and it made her cry, and although it's true I can be suicidal, I won't commit it, don't worry, I still feel really bad about saying that bullcrap to my mother! She told me that was the meanest thing I ever said to her. And it was, no question about it. I want to be put out of my misery and admit I don't deserve to live but killing myself is not the way and it's a serious sin and it affects everyone! Man I cannot believe I said that! I wish I'd swallowed those words, and my mother doesn't deserve that! And I hate to hear of parents losing their children!
So I am a very shameful person! And I'm sorry if this offended you with this too. I won't end my own life no matter how miserable I feel and what happens in my life! And I'll reject any idea I get to do so and pray for help to act against it! Besides my mother needs me as much as I need her and seeing how I treated her, now I know she'll be devastated if anything happens to me, and my mother loves me more than she loves anyone else! And I cannot do that to her!
I'm gonna go now. But don't give up hope, I'm considering staying and my mother doesn't have to know about all this, in fact not everything I do is her business even if she thinks it is, but I still have to be considerate of her and her feelings, I'd want her to do the same for me!
But more than all else, please keep Cody alive for me. Demetre too! Oh and thanks for the gifts. I'll always keep your version of Cody, he's already on my computer!
