That's cold, but damned if it wasn't true. Makes me think of Bob's letters to Chris: did he really feel sad for his dad dying, or is Chris feeling sorry for himself?
I think the answer is Chris doesn't actually
know how he's supposed to feel about Bob's death. Given the existence of Bobchu, the very notion of death itself seems to be twisted in Chris's mind in that the dead ascend to CWC heaven as sonichus. Hell, specifically in the most recent letters, Chris outright says he believes Barbra to
already be dead but the body just won't die. We've seen what his idea of 'healing' is -
retroactively - so honestly if he decides that the best way to help his mother is to
fucking kill her, he's gonna do it either himself or try to get somebody else to do it.
He's so far absorbed into believing in C-137 that...well, shit, it's basically the fucking plot of
Ghostwire where the main bad guy ripped out everybody's souls and tried to shatter the barrier of the worlds of the living and the dead so paradise could be achieved and nobody would experience loss ever again...which also involved Japanese demons and other bad shit coming into reality and generally nothing good was actually going to come of it.
Chris does genuinely want this reality destroyed and replaced with the one where he becomes god, to the point he believes that everything lost in this world has been 'merged' - he literally said as much when Stan Lee died. It's gotten to the point where Chris has even claimed that the merge
has happened and cartoons are walking around like it's fucking Who Framed Roger Rabbit. Thus, he's eliminated any sense of responsibility, shoving it off into the new reality to be handled, as there he believes he will be forgiven in all likelyhood for ALL transgressions in his own name.
At this point, I have to say suicide may not entirely be out of the question as the end of Christory should he decide THAT is how he will attain his Merge.