Last night I was the victim of abuse by a paramedic in the ambulance on the way to the hospital. I have frequent non-epileptic seizures as part of PTSD, which in consequence brings a lot of contact with emergency services, not voluntarily from my side, always called by passerby. This time was not different.
There are always two paramedics per vehicle. On the go it leaves just one paramedic with the patient.
This dirty fucker thought I was unconscious, even though I was lucid and aware of my surroundings, just not in control over my body. He grabbed the opportunity to take off my shirt and touched and felt up my breast for the whole ride. Just when we stopped he hastily put my top back in place.
I am still in schock and unable to really process what happened. How can somebody so shamelessly take advantage of a situation like that, someone who has the responsibility to keep people safe? I am feeling so much anger and violation at the same time.
I'll go to a consulting service for sexual assault against women to press charges in an hopefully effective way. I feel responsible for all that are put into his hands and it got to my knowledge that it was his first shift that night. Anxious to have to go through all this , but I know I am stronger than that, I'll come out of it.
My heart goes out to each and everyone of us that has to deal with this kinda hardship.
EDIT: I thank from my heart each and everyone of you who voiced support and well wishes. It truly means a lot in such a difficult and demanding time.
And to those who need to express disbelief and harassment, I feel sorry for you and it couldn't effect me less. I and this man know undoubtedly what happened and those who are clear and right in their heart will be receptive to hearing my story.
I will make an update when things move forward. I will not give up, that I assure you!