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The Razr+ came out and the financing for my carrier was well within my limits so I ordered it and it arrives next week. Also bought a case because obviously.
 
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Behind on my rent due to bank errors, (and not ones in my favor) reduced hours from the wildfires smoke, and My salary being shit tier after taxes, 401k, and benefits (I wonder if they're even worth it) promised the landlord it wouldn't happen next month and it better not. Oh and to top it all off I've had three dreams in a row these last few days where I've seen myself die....one of them not very pretty.
 
My gallbladder has turned coat on me and now it needs to come out soon. It's ruined my Summer holiday plans, fuck you gallbladder.
My knee is also being so fucked it doesn't want to wait for surgery in 6.5 weeks. Today I called to see if they would offer me any opening in his schedule that would get me in ASAP (and I have plans for the 4th week but I would rather have my defective knee removed and replaced with titanium or whatever instead)
 
My gallbladder has turned coat on me and now it needs to come out soon. It's ruined my Summer holiday plans, fuck you gallbladder.
Dealt with that myself a few years ago you'll feel so much better once the damn things gone. And though people say you may have issues eating certain foods afterwards that is not the norm unless you eat VERY VERY poorly.
 
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Job gone due to being cut for costs, even though the manager was bad enough for the lab more people left due to shit conditions up to and including the actually effective assistant manager. Family's already back to trying to use my empathy to bend me to their needs while violence and rage reign amongst them. The mood swings lately go from depressed to malding. There's even more, but that's the big stuff.

I need to get away from it all and start from scratch. In the modern world that's far easier said than done, but... I can't live around my area anymore or subject myself to chasing 'stability' or 'the right thing' when all it's done is lead life to a miserable cycle of being stuck or things slowly getting worse. I need to leave before I go nuts.

Funny I chose Cody for my avatar for this site. I relate too much to his time as a prisoner, feeling screwed over by terrible people and society even when you rise up to fight. That he got past it and became mayor was a pleasant shock, you know, inspiring and all that. But if I haven't unfucked myself by this point in my life, it may be unlikely to ever happen, and that frightens me.

And if I can't allow myself to be vulnerable and open up on a gossip site against losers and retards, well, where can I do so?
 
I should learn Polish. My grandfather was from Istebna and it would be nice to go there some day. My grandma's from France and my dad's ancestors came to Canada from France 200 years ago but that country's a pisshole.
I picked Polish because I feel a lot of personal kinship there because if you look at my genetics, I am mostly Polish ethnically. My family also serves Polish foods for holiday feasts. My grandma, who grew up with a Polish mother, tells me my pronunciation is very good. Because of my reasons, I'm planning on possibly learning Russian next after I'm done with Polish. If I were you, because of my own reasons, I'd go with French.
 
English, Spanish, and French are the big 3 due to colonial success.

Just got some new moccasins, they're so comfy, and, unlike my old hand-made moccasins I made at scout camp, have great arch support for my aching feet.
 
I picked Polish because I feel a lot of personal kinship there because if you look at my genetics, I am mostly Polish ethnically. My family also serves Polish foods for holiday feasts. My grandma, who grew up with a Polish mother, tells me my pronunciation is very good. Because of my reasons, I'm planning on possibly learning Russian next after I'm done with Polish. If I were you, because of my own reasons, I'd go with French.
What polish foods have you eaten? Any cheeses? Poland has some very underrated cheeses that are not available stateside, as far as I know.

Poland is very underrated in many ways, though the Polish don't want to admit it. Poland is probably the most self-hating country in Europe. If you haven't been to Poland, you only know a little bit of how good Polish food is.

I should learn Polish. My grandfather was from Istebna and it would be nice to go there some day. My grandma's from France and my dad's ancestors came to Canada from France 200 years ago but that country's a pisshole.

If you go to Poland and struggle, they'll understand, they're very aware of how difficult and ridiculous their language is. You really should go; Poland gets passed up by everywhere else in Europe, but there is very little crime there (I wonder why?), the American dollar goes far... and dating women in Poland as an American is easymode.
 
Extremely strict immigration from non-Christian countries leading to an oasis free of terrorist attacks in central Europe (and Czechoslovakia)
Poland's religiosity has a different character than America's. The youth are far less religious than their parents are, and many of them are just "cultural Catholics." Of course, though, lack of immigration, keeping people within a cohesive culture where you generally understand that your neighbor (probably) has somewhat similar and predictable values.

The American dollar will get you far there. It's important to also remember just how poor Poland can be sometimes though, and don't bring up how cheap everything is, because they hate hearing it--wages for, say, a grocery store worker are ~$3/hr US.
 
My brother in christ, I would give you a hug if you wernt trapped behind a computer screen. I'm going to autozone soon to check the codes (a scanner is arriving soon), but what's happening to me is nothing compared to that. Mine still runs alright, it's most likely a glitch if anything. Car troubles suck man
Back at you pal. I was lucky enough that my insurance covered the whole thing (I paid for wheel nut locks out of pocket on top of it though). It was more of an emotional thing because that's my car, and on top of that it was a gift from my father, which makes it mean that much more. That and the time wasted on the repair process. I even had a replacement, so in a logical sense, you have it much worse. It sounds like you use your car much more than me, and you're paying for repairs out-of-pocket. Best wishes to you and I hope your car troubles are resolved soon.

Family.
Strong family ties.
One of the fundamental lessons I have learned from being engaged in the posts I am in the biggest chance to become a lolcow comes from absent family where the kid is left to their own devices on the internet.
One day at a time?
Lastly if someone wrongs you just do things on the down low. Be careful what internet footprint you create as it will fuck up your child's life.
I used to think my dad was crazy with how much he pushed us to be careful about our privacy.
Now I'm more paranoid than he ever was.

My salary being shit tier
Job gone due to being cut for costs
I don't know your industries or situations, but it sounds like you guys should start applying for new jobs if you can. I just got a new one myself, but it took a lot of time. LinkedIn was pretty useful, at least for me.
 
I've not been doing great.

I attempted suicide last month. Obviously failed, but it cost me my second job and a good bit of my health. My remaining job has cut hours for everyone so far that I can barely afford my cut of the rent if I sell some more belongings this week. However, I have not been very successful at selling belongings despite that I move in less than two months. I've ended up in a lot of debt over dental work as well, as I had to finance it with CareCredit. I'm angry at myself that I not only let my teeth get to that state but that I also couldn't wait until I was in the damn new country to get my teeth looked at.

I've started therapy despite moving soon due to the attempt. The therapist is useless. She mostly just wants me to write words of affirmation on post its and "make it" that way. I've had no sleep from all the stress of moving, wedding, debt, surviving the suicide attempt, etc. My medication likes to stick to my mouth even with water or applesauce, cutting it in half, etc. I have to take cocktails of medication that do nothing.

I don't even know how I'm alive right now, honestly. They said that I took three times the lethal limit when I was at the hospital. A good part of me still wishes I succeeded. I suppose I want to be my partner's wife that bad?
 
don't know your industries or situations, but it sounds like you guys should start applying for new jobs if you can.
Yeah but I only say shit tier cause in addition to taxes, a portion of it goes to health benefits, union, and a nice 401k for when I retire someday. Honestly those are the only reasons I can't just leave...and the 401k will be the only perk to getting old provided it actually amounts to something someday and I can afford to live in one of those nice communities in the fresh air and my own golf cart and not some hellhole retirement castle.
 
I've not been doing great.

I attempted suicide last month. Obviously failed, but it cost me my second job and a good bit of my health. My remaining job has cut hours for everyone so far that I can barely afford my cut of the rent if I sell some more belongings this week. However, I have not been very successful at selling belongings despite that I move in less than two months. I've ended up in a lot of debt over dental work as well, as I had to finance it with CareCredit. I'm angry at myself that I not only let my teeth get to that state but that I also couldn't wait until I was in the damn new country to get my teeth looked at.

I've started therapy despite moving soon due to the attempt. The therapist is useless. She mostly just wants me to write words of affirmation on post its and "make it" that way. I've had no sleep from all the stress of moving, wedding, debt, surviving the suicide attempt, etc. My medication likes to stick to my mouth even with water or applesauce, cutting it in half, etc. I have to take cocktails of medication that do nothing.

I don't even know how I'm alive right now, honestly. They said that I took three times the lethal limit when I was at the hospital. A good part of me still wishes I succeeded. I suppose I want to be my partner's wife that bad?
How about a therapy cat?

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