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I'm sorry about your doggo. I had to mercy-put-down mine last year, and I still can't think about him or talk about it without getting teary. It was hard. But if yours is suffering, as mine was, it's the best you can do for them. 😔
She's a 13 year old cane corso. At this point, I'm shocked she can move at all. Going to miss that gentle giant.
 
My grandpa died. He was suffering and now is at peace. It feels weird for someone to not be there anymore. I am doing fine, though, better than I expected.
I went through something similar recently. I hope you got to spend a little time with him toward the end at least.
 
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She's a 13 year old cane corso. At this point, I'm shocked she can move at all. Going to miss that gentle giant.
I feel ya. My mastiff is getting to that age. She's old as dirt for a mastiff, but still tries to be so spry. Breaks my heart, sometimes, when I see her go down on her back legs in pain trying to run and play with my husky and the neighbor dogs. My big dumb giant sugarbooger. Who knew a 130lb monster would make such a wonderful lapdog?
 
Does it help to find excuses to hang out together? A movie might be too much, but it could be something like checking out a farmers market or an event nearby, something that's natural for both you and her to be interested about.
It was mentioned a couple times and she seemed down with it before I fumbled. Looking back with a clearer head now, she does seem at least somewhat interested in me. I'm just gonna wait a day or so to plan before I talk to her again. Hopefully I can get back to that topic. There's something happening at the beach nearby soon so that's an option.
Thanks again
 
Life is going fairly well honestly. Writing stories again, walking faster, found out that this Sinclair on the way home from work not only serves good food but is cheaper than McDonald's while being more filling, and I've ordered some USB 3.1 flash drives from the gas money I've saved since my car has been in for repairs.
 
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Was planning to start going to the pool before workonly to have a whole parage of children show up the moment I drove In. So I just spent some time on the treadmill then went home to shower, I've heard too many stories of guys being creepy at pools. Next time I'll get up an hour earlier so I can get there and out before the tykes show up
 
I'm not feeling well.

My father is the biggest conman I ever met. He scammed us and left us when me and my sister were still kids. He stole all our family's money and left. Back then I only felt anger. There really was no emotional damage. Just anger. I didn't cry, I didn't feel stupid. Just angry.

A few years ago he came back in to our lives, gained our trust and just today he pulled off the same trick again. At 65. The exact same scheme. This time, I didn't feel anger, I only felt pain. For the first time in my life I felt betrayed. And I have to say it really hurts. How could someone cause so much pain and come back decades after just so he could do it again?

Growing up with just my mother , I realize now how unfair we ve been to her. We always thought that she was responsible for making our father leave. We were thinking she was overreacting and just making stuff up with her mind. We couldn't believe her. We were blaming her. And yet, she was always right.

I can't believe people like this exist. Even though we ve been scammed twice by this man, I still refuse to believe there are people like that. People who just lie with ease straight on your face. People who would scam their own children. It may sound so fucking cliché but yeah I thought that this was just lazy writing in the fucking movies. Can't believe shit like this actually happens in real life.

When I was 8 I remember saying to myself that I would never trust anyone ever again. And now decades later, I did the same mistake again. I let my guard down again and I ve been scammed again. By the same man.

I feel like if I had a lolcow thread, I would deserve it. I'm so fucking stupid for believing this man changed. For believing that even after all these decades, we could still pretend to be a real family. Even just for some weekends per year. Even though we all have our own lives now...

I'm at home now and I just came to accept it. I understand it happened. I still haven't talked to my mom and honestly, I avoid it. I know she feels worse than me but right now I just don't have the capacity to console her. My sister visited her and told me she is holding up. That's all I need to know...
 
My hellhound crossed the Rainbow Bridge just now. Not a religious person, but really want an afterlife to be real just so I can meet her again.

She looked like this corso, but had the deepest, most intelligent brown eyes a dog could possibly have.
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When I call her a hellhound, that ain't an insult. That's what she was if you weren't allowed in the house.
 
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I hurt myself today. I wasn't even trying to see if I still could. I'm gonna get tore up, and tomorrow? Tomorrow maybe I'll go get some x-rays.
 
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Started using Rosetta Stone to learn Polish; I find it expects you to have a basic knowledge of the language before it drops you right in - it doesn't even provide English translations. However, I feel like I'm getting the hang of it, I have my Polish-English dictionary to help me out, I'm taking notes, and I find using Metatron's advice for learning languages helps; like in day-to-day situations, say what you're doing in your native language first, then in the language you're learning. Like when I drink a cup of milk a day like I normally do, say "I'm drinking milk" followed up with "pije mlako". If you don't use it, you lose it.
 
Started using Rosetta Stone to learn Polish; I find it expects you to have a basic knowledge of the language before it drops you right in - it doesn't even provide English translations. However, I feel like I'm getting the hang of it, I have my Polish-English dictionary to help me out, I'm taking notes, and I find using Metatron's advice for learning languages helps; like in day-to-day situations, say what you're doing in your native language first, then in the language you're learning. Like when I drink a cup of milk a day like I normally do, say "I'm drinking milk" followed up with "pije mlako". If you don't use it, you lose it.
I should learn Polish. My grandfather was from Istebna and it would be nice to go there some day. My grandma's from France and my dad's ancestors came to Canada from France 200 years ago but that country's a pisshole.
 
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Well I'm learning the slow and agonizing way that I need more fiber in my diet
Metamucil (and store brand equivalents) is good for that if you can't get it from your usual food.

Got my car back after over a week of walking home and less than a day later... the check engine light is back on. Not happy. At all. Car isn't stalling like before but I'm not dealing with this shit, it's getting fucking fixed, even if I bleed half my bank account dry.
Some fucking niggers stole the wheels off of my car a few years ago. I can't tell you how angry I was, I wanted nothing more than to find and commit unspeakable acts of violence against them.
 
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Some fucking niggers stole the wheels off of my car a few years ago. I can't tell you how angry I was, I wanted nothing more than to find and commit unspeakable acts of violence against them.
My brother in christ, I would give you a hug if you wernt trapped behind a computer screen. I'm going to autozone soon to check the codes (a scanner is arriving soon), but what's happening to me is nothing compared to that. Mine still runs alright, it's most likely a glitch if anything. Car troubles suck man
 
Today I discovered that I'll be a dad. How do I prevent my future child from becoming a lolcow?
Family.
Strong family ties.
One of the fundamental lessons I have learned from being engaged in the posts I am in the biggest chance to become a lolcow comes from absent family where the kid is left to their own devices on the internet.
One day at a time?
Lastly if someone wrongs you just do things on the down low. Be careful what internet footprint you create as it will fuck up your child's life.

For heaven's sake ONLY post baby pictures to family. Guard that shit with your life.
 
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