Midjourney has a newish feature called 'describe', where you upload a picture and it describes it back to you. It was fun to try it on pictures of my family and friends to see what keywords it described them with. 'cottagecore', 'emotionally complex', 'intense laborer', 'dinopunk'(?), stuff like that. I also converted some of their portraits into illustrations, and they turned out surprisingly good. I might have finished my holiday shopping early this year.
But despite my better judgement, I tried the same things with a couple of my own selfies --my
best selfies--and was pretty devastated by the keywords it chose, things like: 'pre-op', 'woman with facial hair', 'made of trash' (?!), 'gender bending', 'drag', stuff like that. Which sucks, because I picked pictures where I thought I actually kinda passed, selfies that reflected extensive prep and shaving and color correcting, portraits I was considering using as my new coming-out profile pics.
Then I thought maybe if I convert the selfies into illustrations, it would be a salve, since the pics of my friends became way more attractive in the rendered illustrations. But not for me. The results were exaggerated caricatures of drag queens/kings.

Not the look I thought I was projecting...
And now I'm crawling under a rock. It will probably be awhile before I get enough confidence again to be seen in public. And even when I do, I don't know if I'll ever be able to trust my own assessment of how I look again.