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- Mar 30, 2023
Going on vacation. I'll be gone for short periods of time over the next week.
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- Thread starter Milk Mage
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- Joined
- Jun 17, 2016
Best friends child died. Been in the south for services.
I’m sad.
People are nice here.
I’m sad.
People are religious here, and assume you are too.
Too many people ask what happened but we won’t know until after autopsy results. That question is really bugging mother so if you are ever adjacent to this, a simple “I’m so sorry” is best.
I’m sad. Also helpless.
That’s all. Glad I go home soon.
I’m sad.
People are nice here.
I’m sad.
People are religious here, and assume you are too.
Too many people ask what happened but we won’t know until after autopsy results. That question is really bugging mother so if you are ever adjacent to this, a simple “I’m so sorry” is best.
I’m sad. Also helpless.
That’s all. Glad I go home soon.
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- Aug 19, 2018
In some way the best summer in 30 years. I always badly tolerated hot weather, and it turns out that not only is the area around my new home significantly colder than in the city (and also colder than what all the weather reports show it's supposed to be) but the house itself being built decades before electricity became available in the country surely helps. Whereas before I used AC already since like May it looks like I can get through the summer here without as much as a desk fan. When they were scaremongering with the big "heat wave" a week or so ago, I opened all the windows and doors for the night to get ready and then had to wear a hoodie inside until late evening. Max temperature in the bedroom has been 21C so far. I am very happy about this.
Crashman11
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- Jul 8, 2023
I went to a grassy oval at 5am this morning to do 20 mins of relaxed jogging on the soft grass. It was great.
I was jogging up and down the center of the oval.
There was 2 people jogging together around the perimeter of the oval.
people from houses nearby were getting up and driving to work.
So it didnt seem too dangerous.
I'm always really carefull of wat/who is around me at such an early hour because it's still dark and I might have to run away from an attack or something.
Also im an adult male, so I think I would be more trouble than I'd be worth for a potential attacker.
I walked back home, had a shower straight away and put on some warm clothes, feellin comfy rn.
I was jogging up and down the center of the oval.
There was 2 people jogging together around the perimeter of the oval.
people from houses nearby were getting up and driving to work.
So it didnt seem too dangerous.
I'm always really carefull of wat/who is around me at such an early hour because it's still dark and I might have to run away from an attack or something.
Also im an adult male, so I think I would be more trouble than I'd be worth for a potential attacker.
I walked back home, had a shower straight away and put on some warm clothes, feellin comfy rn.
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- Oct 11, 2020
Got the outdoor couch today, spent all day on my adult lego. My forearms feel sore, but I'm happy about the result
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- Jun 3, 2023
So like... if you have a drink, then you get stabbing pains in your abdomen. Then stop drinking, and the pain goes away.
That's like bad right?
I guess the 7 bottles of Vodka over the weekend wasn't such a good idea.
That's like bad right?
I guess the 7 bottles of Vodka over the weekend wasn't such a good idea.
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- Mar 30, 2023
I'm badly craving a place that is quiet, cool, comfy, and not so damn sunny all the time. And still three days to go
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- Jan 8, 2020
I'm okay. Got a great family and a little house... but Christ, I need more money.
Shopping for anything other than the main necessities is absurdly pricey. Sure, we can eat and keep the car filled with gas-- but go somewhere for entertainment? That's a minimum of 35 usd per person.
Eating out? 100 minimum.
I'm working part time but it's just not satisfying. I need to make way more cash. I want to be able to take my tot to Legoland and spoil the shit out of him.
It just feels so hard to make money now in days. I COULD get a full time, much better paying job but then I'd spend less time with my kid. Sacrificing any more time from my kid just seems like the wrong thing to do.
This shit weighs on my mind a lot. It's might seem materialistic but I just wanna give my kid more experiences.
Thanks for reading my bitching ~
Shopping for anything other than the main necessities is absurdly pricey. Sure, we can eat and keep the car filled with gas-- but go somewhere for entertainment? That's a minimum of 35 usd per person.
Eating out? 100 minimum.
I'm working part time but it's just not satisfying. I need to make way more cash. I want to be able to take my tot to Legoland and spoil the shit out of him.
It just feels so hard to make money now in days. I COULD get a full time, much better paying job but then I'd spend less time with my kid. Sacrificing any more time from my kid just seems like the wrong thing to do.
This shit weighs on my mind a lot. It's might seem materialistic but I just wanna give my kid more experiences.
Thanks for reading my bitching ~
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- Apr 13, 2022
Was grocery shopping and got suckered into buying a bag of coffee beans that's branded "EXTREME CAFFEINE" made by "Black Insomnia Company", even has "Warning: Not suitable for pregnant women and children!" and "WORK HARD PLAY HARD" labels on the back. I must've been the only sucker as the bags were reduced from 17€ down to 5€. Had two cups, brewed in a caffetiera, now and the taste is shit but it kinda sorta feels like i did a very small bump of Speed. Which says more about the shitty quality of Speed around here than the quality of the coffee beans.
That's a sore one, i feel for you and the parents. I lost a very young relative that i loved very dearly more than ten years ago and his funeral still remains the darkest day in my life, and if i'm totally honest, i still haven't processed that loss entirely.
Sounds like pancreatitis. Can turn chronic if you continue drinking, it's a very common affliction in alcoholics.
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- Jun 3, 2023
I can't drink at the moment. I can feel like my internal organs have tensed up. And I'm not drinking because even after two shots it was too painful.
So I'm fucking sober at the moment, thoughts wandering, things from the past floating into my brain now. Shit.
Time to go for a smoke.
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- Apr 13, 2022
Yeah, that's the point of no return for most alcoholics, you either power through the pain (because of the addiction) and eventually die like a dog and in bad pain or you start seriously thinking about getting and staying sober. Minor PL (even if this is pretty much the unofficial "Show your Powerlevel" thread) but virtually every male in my family is or was an alcoholic, many having died from drinking. It's an extremly shitty way to go that also can drag on forever until you finally buy the farm.
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- Jun 14, 2020
My MIL passed away recently, and Mr. Bowl didn’t get a chance to say goodbye. Furthermore, his dad may have contributed to her death unintentionally.
Our parents are all either passed or severely ill, and the hard part is, our little one will not remember having or knowing grandparents. That almost hurts worse.
Our parents are all either passed or severely ill, and the hard part is, our little one will not remember having or knowing grandparents. That almost hurts worse.
Mine is the Fury
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- Nov 17, 2022
When I was 28 I decided that if I wasn't happy by the time I turned 30, I was going to kill myself. I didn't enjoy my teens or 20s, so I couldn't see things getting much better as I got older. But they did. I spent my 30th birthday with someone I really liked, on top of a mountain, in one of the most beautiful places I've ever seen. I decided to drop my plans and throw myself into my 30s with the intention of living my best life. I was going pretty well. Recently, I turned 31 and all I can think is how I should have stuck to the original plan. I'm not going to do anything just yet, but I need to make some changes.
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- Nov 13, 2020
I've been better and I've been worse. I'm doing pretty ok but could be doing better. I'm planning a career change in the next year or so and I'm really looking forward to it.
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- Oct 11, 2020
Don't kill yourself, that's what troons do.
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- Feb 4, 2021
Most things going really well. Fitter, accomplishing some neat personal goals. Only downside is dating is an absolute disaster and I can't really pin down any one reason why. Its a real bummer.
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- Jun 3, 2023
30's? Wait at least until your 40's when your body becomes so mangled, you wake up with a cramp for no reason. Even though in your youth, you could sleep upside down on a lounge chair with no seatcushions, and would wake up fine.
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- Apr 13, 2022
As someone who felt exactly like you did and do and who is now closer to 40 than 30 i wish i could tell you it gets better but my personal experience so far is that you only get more jaded over time and care less and less, even about ending it all. Sorry for being a Negative Nancy.
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- Dec 7, 2018
I went to cash in a check and I'm fucking hating myself. Not for the check but because I ended up out in the heat and baking damn near to death. Can someone set fire to Canada again?