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[batteredpancakes]

An Enby TiF I posted about on the Troon Dungeons thread has a great L post on how she's upset that her autistic MTF "girlfriend" had bottom surgery.
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Spoiler: My gf had bottom surgery and I feel like such a transphobic asshole

*Triggering*

Edit: I want to say thank you to everyone that commented This community is incredibly welcoming and your kind and understanding comments mean the world to me. Just having people say "We see you; and we see your struggles and it sounds really fucking hard. And you're not alone and there's others who feel like you".
That is such a kind thing to do for someone.
I'm also really thankful for everyone that commented more negative comments. They were all really respectful and coming from a kind place and I really really apreciate that.
I had a really important talk with my gf this evening and it went really well. We've had one of the nicest evenings we've had in a while and I feel so much calmer and better about the situation right now
Thank you so much everyone!

My girlfriend (mtf, 21) and I (nb, 22) have has such a hard time since her bottom surgery.

We met when she was a year on hrt and our love story felt like a movie. I had never been in love before and the feelings hit me like a goddamn truck. It became obvious just a few weeks in that i had borderline personality disorder just because of how emotionally strongly i reacted to our relationship.

I've been trying to get therapy for 2 years now but the German health care system is completely overwhelmed ever since covid and it's been a huge fight to get help. It'll probably be another few months til I can finally get real therapy.

About 9 months into our relationship I had the realization that I didn't want her to have bottom surgery. I really wanted everything to stay the way it was, as i was happy for the first time like...ever? I wish I would've told her then but i felt like such an asshole for thinking that and hoped it would just go away.

When the call came that she would have surgery soon it felt like the start of a long nightmare for me. She was so happy, everyone was so excited for her, and she didn't even think about the possibility that it would be hard for me or that i might not want this. Obviously not! She did this for herself and I'm supposed to be a supportive partner that loves her no matter what.

I tried really hard to bury the feelings but as the date came closer i completely deteriorated. We tried talking but I had missed my window to just straight up say "i don't want this, thats why im freaking out so much." I tried to communicate my feelings to her as best i could but ended up hurting her and saying the wrong things because obviously she wants me to be on board!! She wants me to love her as she is and she wants me to love the person she is becoming.

I feel like such a horrible person for having these thoughts and feelings. I thought id love her no matter what! I took huge pride in being a really educated partner when it came to trans issues. I had friends who had horrible experiences while dating and i felt so good about myself for not being one of those horrible experiences. Now i HAVE become one of those horrible experiences.

I've tried to get to the bottom of why I'm having such a had time with this and this is what i've come up with so far:

1. My own dysphoria. My own gender identity is a huge MESS. I think i also started loving her because when we met, hers was kind of as well. She had been out for a while but still hadn't really found her stride when it came to gender expression. I relate to that a lot and i loved that about her i think...Now she's a lot further along in her transition than I am and i think i feel abandoned and left behind.It doesn't feel like there's ever gonna be a way for me to be as visibly trans as her and I'm always gonna be perceived as a cis female.I feel like i'm never gonna understand the trans experience and am doomed to always watch from the outside because i can't have surgery like her.
2. My sexuality is a huge HUGE mess as well.It feels like I feel differently everyday about wether i like women or men or both or neither.I always thought I'd know when i fell in love for the first time but here we are.I also experienced my fair share of trauma so there's also THAT blocking me from figuring it all out. When we met I thought i had finally figured out that i identified as a lesbian.
3. I started really liking her dick... At first it was a little scary to me but then I started really really liking it. It's just so cute? It's like the cutest little thing and i absolutely fell in love with it. I liked making it happy and I liked looking at it and I liked how it made me perceive her.I feel like nobody understands wtf i'm talking about when i say that.
4. I liked how she "looked nonbinary" when we met. I'm aware that doesn't really make sense but I'm trying to say that i liked how she looked kind of in-between genders in a polite way.I actually loved that about her. I worked really hard inside myself to perceive her as female when we met because i could tell my brain wasn't really there yet. Now after surgery i've realized that even though i tried so hard, i still kind of perceived her as not really female before surgery. I perceived her as...idek...non binary i guess? like a man but definitely not a man and that was what turned me on just thinking about her. Im terrified i liked her as a man the whole time and am just lying to myself about that. I'm terrified I'm a chaser. actually i think i might be a chaser. Just admitting that makes my cry so hard because i want to be a good person. And i want to be a good girlfriend and i want to not be a transphobic asshole that reduces her to her body but i think i might be.

She turned me on so much before surgery. Now it's different... it's a little over half a year post op and i thought i'd have adjusted by now. I thought i'd get over it and I'd stop missing her penis and i'd stop lying awake at night crying.But I still miss how it was. I miss our sex and I miss how she made me feel.I hate myself for making this all about me and not being able to just put all those feelings behind me and just love HER as the person she IS.

Right after her surgery I was hospitalized by the nurses that cared for her because i was so unstable and that led to the worst psych ward experience i've had so far. Obviously that didn't help.

We've talked a lot since then and figured out a lot of stuff. I realized I was trying to make her conform to my idea of what kind of woman she was supposed to be and that my own dysphoria was a huge part of this all. But i still miss her dick.

Her vagina and I are just not becoming friends.

It's been over half a year and we tried having sex a few times and some were okay...but except for 2 times they always ended in tears because something happened, i said something wrong and/or did something wrong that made her feel really horrible which no WONDER with all the horrible feelings and thoughts insinde of me.

I feel SO alone. I feel SO fucked up. I feel SO evil. I don't know what to do.

I think i just really want someone to tell me that it's going to be okay and that what i feel is somehow normal.

 

[Catboi]

They don't have to flay an arm or a leg, theres also the Metroidoplasty clits, where the Pooner takes such an extreme and toxic dose of Testosterone it works as a mutagen on the female body and causes their clits to turn into something resembling a female Spotted Hyena.
The Fleshcrafters then take a scalpel to it and try to turn...
Or how about Cetrulo's Delayed Abdominal where he grows a trunk out of the Pooners belly and then tries to... yeah you're right.
Nothing positive.
Its all beyond fucked up and the Fleshcrafters that do these butcheries and the Splicers that pay to have it done should both be locked up.

Let me know if I've been ninja'd since it's good to add so people know how horrifying e en a "minor" procedure is, but they do super-metroidplasty or whatever by removing the outer labia and parts of the clitoral hood. It's literally removing parts of the organ just to make the clit more visible so they can pretend it's a micropenis.

 

[Procrastinhater]

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This isn't someone posting their own L online (it's a police cam video), but enjoy Amanda, a testosterone-raged FtM who thinks she can physically confront and goad a male police officer. Of course her born-again trans name is Jaden. Of fucking course.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c8lrEzoT4Dk

Watch from 20:41 for full context (Jaden making endless threats to the ex-husband of the lesbian she is currently shacked up with), or from 24:54 to get straight to the action of a fat woman skinwalking as an awkward but violently angry 14 year old boy.

As far as police cam arrests go it's better than average but it would have been chef's kiss material if she'd also been a "sovereign citizen" "travelling" in her car and the police take out the driver's side window.

I've seen this one before lol. It was on the videos of Troons freaking out thread.
The guy who called the cops on heŕ says "I'm not gonna hit a woman even if she does look like a Bullfrog" and then when the cop sees her he even laughs to himself and says "heheh she does look like a frog"

Another example of why Pooners shouldn't be given Testosterone. Their female system can't handle the aggression it gives you and they rage out.

 

[Candidate No 7]

Incredible scenes:

This is almost certainly the fault of TERFs.

 

[behindyourightnow]

Can any medfags explain why this is? I've seen it used so much with troon shit that's it's become synonymous in my head with "not informed", but what's it supposed to be? Is it only "gender science" where it means the opposite of what it sounds like or is it always pretty much a hand waving form like a terms of service?

Informed consent itself is fundamental to bioethics, and it's in the code of conduct of the AMA and every similar organization. Ironically one of the first landmark cases that established the concept in law in the early 1900s involved a woman being given an unwanted hysterectomy.

I actually did a bioethics course way back, and although I've forgotten too much to be very useful, one thing I do remember is that as part of informed consent the provider is supposed to lay out the risks and benefits of alternative treatments, including doing nothing. Contrast that to now, when the idea of doing nothing in has been reframed as "conversion therapy," and mentioning alternative treatments like psychotherapy marks you as an evil bigot.



(I'm not sure what types of forms the troon in question received before his butchery surgery, but I'd be curious to see what they said. Does it lay out the condition the procedure is supposedly treating, given that being trans isn't classified as a medical condition anymore?)

When troons say "informed consent" though, what they mean is "I am obviously more informed about this than doctors are, because of my lived experience as someone with a woman gender soul. And I want to chop my dick off, so that's consent. Therefore, we are practicing informed consent." It's a nicer way of phrasing "Give me what I want, now, for free, and don't ask questions." Troons are good at performing this kind of parasitization of older, more useful terms.

 

[Poonocchio]

Incredible scenes:

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This is almost certainly the fault of TERFs.

Nope, none on mine, just this fucking psycho's who tried to literally hack his own genitalia off. Not mental illness though.

 

[LateNightMuffin]

A lot of people are expressing sympathy or at least pity for some of these troons who have mutilated their genitals. I can respect your expressions of sympathy and/or pity, but honestly, so many women have received so many rape threats from these pricks; and so many women and men have received death threats from these pricks; and so many people, sorry for the powerlevel but including me, have lost our jobs because we won't suck tranny cock, that at this point I've reached the stage of that line from Joker: You get what you fucking deserve. What did you think was going to happen to you when you chopped off your genitals? And how many lives have you destroyed in your quest for your ultimate coom? My sympathy for those whose lives are hard disappears when they become perpetrators, and the fucking troons are collectivel perpetrators.

 

[Candidate No 7]

Nope, none on mine, just this fucking psycho's who tried to literally hack his own genitalia off. Not mental illness though.

You are misinformed.

 

[Positron]

Whether troon doctors just skip that whole explanation bit and only present the form to sign, or whether the troon chooses to ignore all the horribleness because he's too pornsick to understand that actions have consequences is unknown to me, you'll have to find a de-tranny to ask.

A detranny is just as liable to lie as a tranny. People lie to make themselves the victim, or confabulate because facing the truth, that they themselves fucked up and they deserve it, is too painful.

 

[RandallBoggs]

Informed consent for adults isn't much better. Doctors verbally promise the world, the forms that people sign say otherwise. Doctors are a business.

One of my doctors (not involved with this) is pretty open about how other doctors will promise all sorts of bullshit to make money.

I was always under the impression that, at least in Burgerland, it’s actually illegal for a doctor to promise anything. Because then you can get into situations where a doctor promises the family the surgery is gonna work and their loved one will survive, but now oops they have to backpedal on that because “sorry, he actually ended up dying on the operating table.”
Is this not the case? I know SRS butchers’ morality is already dubious at best, but at least they’re beholden to medical practice license laws (one would hope.)

 

[FuckMeGentlyWithAChainsaw]

An Enby TiF I posted about on the Troon Dungeons thread has a great L post on how she's upset that her autistic MTF "girlfriend" had bottom surgery.

This girl's post history is wild.

Some random quotes:
My girlfriend calls them my tiger stripes
(talking about self harm scars)

Twice i made the mistake of mentioning drugs, so of course i was immediately out of the question as a patient.

oh look, it's the inner voice I've had since i was 14, telling me im just pretending to be gay, writing a comment on my post!

This whole situation is DRENCHED in my bpd and it means EVERYTHING to me that you seem to understand how this feels.

for a time, discord was ALL that mattered to me...i loved it and i loved the people i met....
but yesterday i got in a small fight and got so triggered that i couldn't stop shaking and crying....

I definitely started cutting for attention and then just kept doing it and i used to feel so bad about it... I used to even lie that i did it when i didn‘t and i thought i was such a bad person for doing that... But yea, in the end i‘m a self harmer just as any other and not some super horrible person... attention needer not attention seeker

I have struggled so much with my sexuality because it just never seems to fit into any mold that's been laid out. I was pretty sure im a lesbian though, and knowing that there's other lesbians who feel this way about their gfs bodies is such a relief!!!

And also I'm not a woman, I'm nonbinary

because of my poor mental health i struggle to hold down jobs...i am in no position to pay for therapy :/

im so bored of my internet addiction...

Some topics she's started:
Cut in front of my girlfriend and my mom

i feel HORRIBLE. I feel like the worst girlfriend and an absolute burden and i‘m so scared. Last night we got really drunk. We actually had a LOT of fun but then my mom came out and we all talked... my mom told my girlfriend how she wishes she could leave me and my dad blah blah, the usual. i went upstairs, cut, went downstairs and they both saw. My girlfriend and I went upstairs where i cut some more. my mom came in, saw, and left again. then i cut more, my girlfriend and i talked and fell asleep. i‘m so EMBARRASSED. I cant believe my mom had to see this, my girlfriend had to see this.... it’s all a big mess and i hope my mom just doesnt say anything about it as usual. My girlfriend was a real champ tho, she was extremely sweet and i don’t think she judged me and she really did her best... i‘m so sorry for her though that she gas to be with me after all this. She also said she now really understands how it’s an addiction and all

My Rats ate Ritalin 20 minutes ago. Help!!

I mean ADDERALL sorry!!!
called several vets but they all said they don't know if it's poisonous for them and that as long as there's no symptoms they can't really do anything.It's 4 rats and 4 capsules are missing and 4 are open.
I'm giving them water and cooling the room down. So far they seem fine.

It feels like I'm not bad enough to stop permanently

F/20 I've been trying to quit drinking for about three years now and never lasted more than a few weeks or months because I always convince myself that I didn't even need to quit in the first place.
I am a binge drinker and I don't binge often so it always feels like it isn't an issue.
But drunk driving, suicide attempts and just generally constant breakdowns when drunk make it necessary for me to quit.
I'm not a fun drunk and recently I've gotten into a bad situation because I tried to agitate my roommate enough so he'd hurt me bad enough to leave some sort of mark as proof (He'd been hurting me before) and that made me try to get sober again.
But here we are. I'm planning to get drunk after the lockdown "only at parties" which will inevitably lead to drinking alone again.
I always feel like I'm "too young" to be an alcoholic and like I need to hit rock bottom before <i can truly quit. But i don't WANT to have to hit rock bottom.

 

[cypocryphy]

We seem to have the choice between two insane futures: Literally Gilead or AGP troontopia with the death penalty for denying any troon any request. Dystopian novels like Brave New World or 1984 were ultimately flawed because they vastly underestimated humanity's penchant for utter, pants-shitting insanity.

I just want the relative "normalcy" of before 2014 to come back....

 

[Tilikum]

I was always under the impression that, at least in Burgerland, it’s actually illegal for a doctor to promise anything. Because then you can get into situations where a doctor promises the family the surgery is gonna work and their loved one will survive, but now oops they have to backpedal on that because “sorry, he actually ended up dying on the operating table.”
Is this not the case? I know SRS butchers’ morality is already dubious at best, but at least they’re beholden to medical practice license laws (one would hope.)

It’s widely considered to be unethical, but there’s not a law explicitly banning promises in the medical setting. It’s just foolish as a practice, because it sets the doctor up for liability if/when the promise is not fulfilled, like in the example you wrote.

But if you don’t give a shit about ethics, and you have a patient base that is largely unable/unwilling to sue you for breach of contract… go ahead, promise the perfect neovag on the moon. The surgeon who was making tentacle dicks used the word “promise” with his patients to no consequence.

 

[Jacques1194]

Had to share this here as well because it's too funny not to. TIF has a meltdown because...her friend invited her to a sleepover desperate trying to look like a boy.

 

[everybody in Portugal]

Some topics she's started:
Cut in front of my girlfriend and my mom

Big huge fluttering red flag BPD vibes all over this one. Her identity ain't stable enough to be allowed to change gender, FFS. Just another example of an unstable NLOG with bigger problem than her genitals ending up in the Gender People sphere. Checks and balances and some sort of, I dunno, therapeutic pathway away from troonacy would have served her well. If she'd been set straight the sucking void at the centre of her being would have made her latch on to another, likely much less dangerous identity pretty soon.

Don't think from that that I have much sympathy for her please, she sounds like a fucking nightmare to have to deal with and someone needs to adopt and/or re-home that poor girlfriend pronto, assuming she's any closer to normal and functioning.

I don't buy the rats thing at all, either... Four rats all got access to and ate exactly one whole pill each? C'mon, lady. Just admit you took a few extra doses for fun instead of as medication today, it's aight. Don't blame the poor rats for this, they aren't the clearly personality-disordered lying assholes here. They didn't do shit.

 

[monstrous bubo]

Is it coz i haz twans?


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Spoiler: full story with extra colonoscopy!

PCP not "comfortable" treating me​

TRIGGER WARNING

This was my first major issue during my transition, or "Life 2.0."

Like many with little to no other options, I use Planned Parenthood to "manage" my HRT. I use the word manage loosely as I have done far more managing than they have. Hell, our local Planned Parenthood was burned down and now they operate covertly in an unmarked RV that moves around but never stays in one spot too long.

I had a bad experience at Quest Diagnostics and filed an official complaint, which Quest ignored. When I told Planned Parenthood, their response was just, "Good for you for advocating for yourself," which felt dismissive. They send patients to Quest but expect us to handle issues ourselves.

Ten days ago, I asked my Primary Care Physician (PCP) to do my labs. Since I’m managing this alone, I requested tests based on how I felt: T, E, Kidney Function, CBC (I was slightly anemic before), and a micronutrient test. My PCP's response was, "We're not sure what goes into the micronutrient test or if we can do it." They outsource labs, so all they had to do was draw blood—they could have easily looked it up.

I sent a professional but firm response, highlighting my dissatisfaction with their care since updating my paperwork to reflect my transition. Previously, I had symptoms of dizziness and fatigue and was tested for multiple STDs, including HIV, despite not having sexual partners for almost two years. The doctor didn’t inform me about these tests, and they all came back negative. What I actually had was low iron, but the doctor ignored my recent colonoscopy and didn’t consider it could be hormone-related.

After my message, I heard nothing from my PCP's office for seven days. I sent three messages, one an apology. It wasn't until I emailed the practice management that I received a response at 11 pm saying my PCP is uncomfortable treating me and suggested I find a doctor more comfortable with "cross-sex hormones.

I realize that we aren't everyone's cup of tea and that it's inevitable we will encounter opposition, as we are outnumbered 99.5% of the time. It just feels odd that a doctor who does my yearly checkup and handles the few times I’m hurt or sick isn't "comfortable" treating me. I promise it’s not contagious! However, knowing what I know now and feeling the way I do, if it were contagious, I’m not sure I’d mind catching it!

Although shitty as it may be that someone who liked me just fine until I told him I was trans now isn't comfortable anymore, I'd rather know than continue to see him and have him act weird. I did expect better from a doctor but we're all human after all. But 7 days of no response made it so I couldn't help but feel it was personal.

This person is in Knoxville, Kentucky, where the PP clinic was indeed burned down. As for his doctor, honestly what is he complaining about? He says his contact with the doctor pre-transition was for simple and straightforward issues. He has now discovered his doctor isn’t capable for whatever reason to deal with him and his more complex needs. Better to discover that now before he has real problems of his own making.

But is is an evil transphobe and/or incompetent doctor? This bit also jumped out

Since I’m managing this alone, I requested tests based on how I felt: T, E, Kidney Function, CBC (I was slightly anemic before), and a micronutrient test. My PCP's response was, "We're not sure what goes into the micronutrient test or if we can do it." They outsource labs, so all they had to do was draw blood—they could have easily looked it up.

So he tells the doctor what to test for (which would irritate the fuck out of me, and also have implications for insurance coverage and even his right to practise if he followed his patient’s orders without his own independent judgement). The micronutrient test BTW can cover over 30 of them, and the doctor needs to know which to test for, or over-test for the lot.

And the doctor has years of this crap lying ahead of him. Those seven days probably included getting advice on how to deal with this craziness. He then actually did the right thing in telling his patient to find a doctor who knows about troonery, plus he saved himself years of arse ache as well. So basically this is a W for both doctor and patient. Why then is it posted here? The patient is too stupid to see it’s a W, which turns this right back into an L.

 

[Vampirella]

Just say "my doctor", from the title I thought they were talking about angel dust.

 

[Procrastinhater]

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This is almost certainly the fault of TERFs.

Lmfao. That isn't angle grinder Troon is it because that was funny as shit.
If they're that unstable they're no loss anyway.
Fuck these perverts. The world is better without them.

Had to share this here as well because it's too funny not to. TIF has a meltdown because...her friend invited her to a sleepover desperate trying to look like a boy.
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Ridiculous Pooner.

 

[Hassou Tobi]

Is it coz i haz twans?

I'm exhausted just reading this. I would fire the troon, too. Also how he clearly just thinks the doctor should just rubber stamp everything he wants, and anything else is "transphobia." Well, that's what most troons think, but still. Insane.

I can only speak for myself and reference Prisha’s case above, but I think it’s a mix of childish magical thinking, severe mental illness inhibiting clear decision making, and outright grooming, for the young ones anyway. No idea how adult “informed consent” goes but probably not dissimilar, if they can get away with saying that shit to kids.

Man, I'll never forget (the outline anyway) of the doctors from wpath leaks who said things like "IDK it's just kinda hard because we are trying to explain hormones and reproduction to children who haven't even had 9th grade biology yet.. They say they understand but they just don't."

like...holy shit.

 

[Otterly]

is it actually a thing (do women need replacement clits??

They can do surgery to partially fix some of the after effects of FGm. The clitoris is a large structure and I think they pull more of it through to the outside? I could be wrong on that but I vaguely remember reading an article about it years back.