Careercow Adam White / Chibi / Chibinekodemyx / Aquana / ShinyAquana - Cringeworthy Speedrunner Extraordinaire, Online Predator, Sexual Deviant, Banned from magnet therapy, Has been to Japan and never shuts up about it, made an ass of himself on national Japanese television

[Whaler]

So you're saying if they said "gyoza" or something other than takoyaki he'd be into those instead?

I actually believe if Takoyaki had been replaced with any of kind street food, he would be into that instead.

 

[Sometimes Starting Shit]

5/8/2025 Public Post



"This is a message to Alan Redding.

I want to talk to you. Not scream, or whine or bitch. Just talk. 1 on 1, no outside people, no youtube video interviews. I would try to message you directly but I’m sure you have me blocked everywhere.

I’m sending this post in the hopes that you will see it and attempt to reach out to me. I want to settle everything that’s been unresolved between us once and for all. And if after that you still hold the same stance towards me and wish not to interact with me or see me again, fine.

You undeniably have very strong feelings against me, especially since our last meeting nearly 2 years ago to the date, where your friend brought you in a discord call with me to vent your frustrations. You had a lot to say, and I’m sorry for not showing much emotion or empathy in what you said. You had every right to feel as you did, hurt, betrayed, and angry. And I have my own frustrations too. I wanted to say something. But during our conversation I shut down, and let you say what you needed to say. I wanted to speak up but I couldn’t. I felt intimidated by the conversation and I didn’t want to raise my voice or be confrontational. I did the same thing when I was publically told to be quiet in front of a live audience. It’s a very common neurodivergent trait called “freezing”, and it’s closely linked to a sort of “Fight or Flight” mode.
I felt a lot of pressure at the time and I knew the conversation was being recorded, so I shut up. I’m sorry if it felt like I was being dismissive or disrespectful, I can assure you I wasn’t.

You have done a lot for me over the years and for that I am very thankful, like when you would cook for me, take me to thee Ren Faire, or when we hung out together with the other people in our group. I especially recall when you attended my Dad’s funeral, it was a very traumatic time for me and it meant a lot that you were there.

But there are things I want to say to you, feelings I want to express, that have still been left unsaid. And I will not say them here publicly. These are better handled privately, person to person. And that’s why I want to talk to you, again, in private. I’m prepared for the possibility that you may never get this message, or decline to respond. Or if you do respond, I am also not expecting forgiveness or to rekindle anything. I fully expect that this may not change anything at all, and that’s fine. But all I’m asking if for you to allow me the opportunity to come forward and say what I was unable to say before.

That is all. Thank you for reading."

(Misspelled Al's last name btw)

 

[LiquidChrisRespecter]

What an oddly-timed reconciliation attempt! Trying to airbrush your image again, bud?

 

[Light-Blue Yoshi]

Good thing he posted this publicly so all of his e-thots friends on Facebook can see how caring and introspective of a person he is.

 

[Shaman]

What an oddly-timed reconciliation attempt! Trying to airbrush your image again, bud?

The chibi cycle is starting to repeat itself.

 

[McSneaks]

I would try to message you directly but I’m sure you have me blocked everywhere.

....so he doesn't even know, because he didn't even try.

Yea this totally isn't Hero Chibi and the Image Brigade again

 

[GreenHoodieGuy]

Okay let's see how this turns out.

 

[NORMAL HUMAN]

Spoiler: somewhat off topic tmi

I was reading a shitty webnovel the other day and was stunlocked when this character appeared. An alternate timeline version of Chibi where he's a fed and got obsessed with Korea instead of glorious Japan.

Okay let's see how this turns out.

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Never tell the devil your plans, Chibi.

 

[Catboy Ranch Dressing]

I’m sorry for not showing much emotion or empathy in what you said

Chibi learned empathy at age 32, just like iDubbbz!

 

[Winter]

Chibi unlocked empathy like Icuckkkz, LEVEL 32 NEW SKILL UNLOCKED! His life is like a video game!

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"I did the same thing when I was publically told to be quiet in front of a live audience. It’s a very common neurodivergent trait called “freezing”, and it’s closely linked to a sort of “Fight or Flight” mode."

 

[Hot HOT HOTTT]

That's almost certainly what he's doing, because everything with Adam is monkey see monkey do. Even people who do have actual depression shouldn't be posting that shit on social media imo, but definitely not Adam with his imaginary self-diagnosis.

In my admittedly limited opinion, I think that a clinical depression diagnosis is within reach. Just imagine being Chibi and tell me you wouldn't be instantly depressed. Even a cursory review of things we know about his life in list form would read like a series of compounding factors leading to depression. For example:

1. 35 years old with no significant other, children, or fulfilling long-term career. This one alone probably applies to millions of depression cases worldwide.
2. Infamous laughing stock of the internet, one of the most publicly humiliated people in all of gaming.
3. Rejected from damn near everywhere he sticks his nose into just for being his own autistic self.
4. The autism itself.
5. Poor relationship with mother, dead father, mogged by supposedly more autistic brother.
6. Lives in veritable filth with no bedsheets. If I woke up on a yellow mattress with no sheets I feel like I would be instantly down about my lot in life.
7. Large debt without the financial know-how to mitigate its impact on his life.
8. Yearning for a mystical, fictionalized version of life in a country which he has been to many times but is halfway across the world from him for 90% of the year.
9. Degenerate coomer who can't have fulfilling sex without cooming into his walleyed ex-GFs panties. Unrealistic fetishes which are literally impossible to satisfy in any meaningful way (giantess, Vaporeon, etc.).
10. Hundreds of pages in a thread about you on KF over the course of a decade.
11. Crippling vidya obsession with no accolades to show for it.

The list can go on and on. Are autism, narcissism, and general stupidity the true culprits? For sure, but I don't think that eliminates the legitimacy of the comorbidity. Some people are depressed just due to neurochemistry and it is entirely beyond their control, which I guess could be considered cases of "pure" depression. This may not apply to Chibi, but at the end of the day, he has many reasons to be clinically depressed, even if it has to be acknowledged that he is the active and iterative source of these reasons through his own behavior.

Also, autism.

 

[Oliver Onions]

Just imagine being Chibi and tell me you wouldn't be instantly depressed.

Also, autism.

These rule each other out imo. I'm not saying it's impossible for autistic people to be depressed, but I think a lot of your points in favour of Adam having depression are mooted by the fact he's too retarded to really care.

He's not quite the level of someone like Peetz (AKA Neetz) who lives in the kind of perpetual gooner limbo that would drive most people insane, but I think he has enough going for him to be content in a life that would make most of us paint the wall with our brains. As long as he has an apartment and makes enough money to make his regular pilgrimages to Glorious Nippon I think he'll continue on like this for the rest of his life.

I maintain that everything Adam does on social media is done purely for attention. While maybe not depressed, he is definitely a case of arrested development: none of his interests have advanced past what he liked in high school and he's still using the kind of transparent manipulation tactics that might have worked when he was a teenager (which may also be part of why he targets minors so often, as they're the only ones this shit is likely to work on).

 

[2in1]

These rule each other out imo. I'm not saying it's impossible for autistic people to be depressed, but I think a lot of your points in favour of Adam having depression are mooted by the fact he's too retarded to really care.

He's not quite the level of someone like Peetz (AKA Neetz) who lives in the kind of perpetual gooner limbo that would drive most people insane, but I think he has enough going for him to be content in a life that would make most of us paint the wall with our brains. As long as he has an apartment and makes enough money to make his regular pilgrimages to Glorious Nippon I think he'll continue on like this for the rest of his life.

I maintain that everything Adam does on social media is done purely for attention. While maybe not depressed, he is definitely a case of arrested development: none of his interests have advanced past what he liked in high school and he's still using the kind of transparent manipulation tactics that might have worked when he was a teenager (which may also be part of why he targets minors so often, as they're the only ones this shit is likely to work on).

Exactly. He's got everything going on that would cause normal people to be depressed, but he doesn't show many signs of actual depression that can't be attributed to retardation and extreme laziness. First thing he would need to feel actually depressed is some self reflection.

He's just retarded. He views himself as a young adult with a bright future in front of him. It's just other people and things out of his control holding him back, but he himself is a great person.

 

[ddlloo]

Mentioning his infamous GDC incident in that post was just wild. That wasn't 'freezing', that was being put in your fucking place and stfu because you suddenly realised what you had been doing.

God I want to know what he now tells himself he should have done.

 

[2in1]

Mentioning his infamous GDC incident in that post was just wild. That wasn't 'freezing', that was being put in your fucking place and stfu because you suddenly realised what you had been doing.

God I want to know what he now tells himself he should have done.

He still doesn't realize what he did wrong. He thinks he just made too many silly jokes and maybe could have saved himself by having a clever comeback and that would have changed everything following the event. He doesn't understand that clip showcases his whole personality (except the predatory stuff). He will never get that the thing he did wrong was just him being there.

Trying to worm himself into groups where he isn't invited. Doesn't get that nobody wants him there. Tries to suck all attention towards him. Even though it's somebody else's spedrun, he is the main character.

And that's something he will never get, because of retardation. If someone explained it to him he could repeat it as if he gets it. But he doesn't get it, and that's his problem.

 

[TV's Adam West]

Chibi learned empathy at age 32, just like iDubbbz!

So empathetic that he doesn't know how to spell his best friend's name.

 

[Wonathan Joss]

I want to talk to you. Not scream, or whine or bitch. Just talk. 1 on 1, no outside people

On a public post:
"1 on 1, no outside people"
"1 on 1"
"1 on 1"
"1 on 1"
Nigga...

 

[Requiem for a Ween]

The chibi cycle is starting to repeat itself.

He needs to learn to quit whilst he's behind because there's never going to be an ahead.

Just imagine being Chibi and tell me you wouldn't be instantly depressed.

That's where things get murky. I don't think anyone is going to contest that he has good reason to be depressed, but it's pretty clear that these things do not affect him in the way that they would any vaguely normal person. You do actually see genuine emotion from him including fleeting glimpses of actual depression brewing somewhere beneath all the autism, but it always relates to stupid and irrelevant shit that makes no sense to anyone but himself.

This is all just armchair psychology of course, but I genuinely believe that the kick up the ass that finally motivates him to sort what's left of his life out or that final push that sends him over the edge into a pit of depression is infinitely more likely to come from an anime episode or video game cutscene than it is from anything in the real world. Both scenarios (especially the first) are extremely unlikely as far as I'm concerned.

At the end of the day it's all just unpleasant noise to him. It doesn't cause him legitimate grief and leave him seriously depressed for the same reason it doesn't serve as a wake up call and motivate him to seriously improve. He's just not that interested.

 

[Oliver Onions]

He's just retarded. He views himself as a young adult with a bright future in front of him. It's just other people and things out of his control holding him back, but he himself is a great person.

It's Anime Protagonist Syndrome, I'm tellin ya. He's convinced the day will come when his brilliance is recognised and he will finally become the man he was supposed to be. All the stuff that's happened so far is just the tragic backstory that'll be told through excruciatingly long flashback sequences to pad the runtime of every episode.

Then again, knowing Adam's luck, it'd be an isekai where he's transported to a world populated entirely by CavemanDCJs.

God I want to know what he now tells himself he should have done.

Given an infinite number of Chibis and an infinite number of couches, I doubt there is any timeline where he doesn't take a seat and still make a fool of himself.

 

[Falcon Sebben]

Okay let's see how this turns out.

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No fucking way it's legit or if there's an actual job it's not the gravy train that he thinks it's going to be.