life is so lonely isn't it. just endless working, a thankless task. No matter how much you do, there is always more, and nobody cares. The meaning of life is to work, there is nothing else. Just slave away forever.
The only thing that relieves you of this is death. But what awaits after death? Is it something even worse? That is what makes it a tough decision.
Forever onwards, toiling in the lonely cage.
I usually have some yoghurt/make some toast/heat up some soup, this is a 5 minute thing with a microwave.
How does it take you 4 hours to feed your cat? Are you chewing his food for him or what?
Soup for breakfast? What kind?
It takes a long time to heat the kettle, toast toast, take my pills, eat a banana, it's not a quick process.
Kirby eats his own food but I still have to get things out for him.
My morning routine is like an hour excluding travel time. Getting up and eating is 30 min max and I usually take eggs for breakfast with tea. Teeth, hair and getting dressed takes like 20 min. Remaining 10 min is for fucking around. Mind you, I could probably be faster if I took breakfast at work.
Which of these do you need more time for?
Do you not shower? That is incredibly fast, you must eat quickly and get dressed fast.
Right now I have just enough time to do these things, they all take an equal amount of time really.
Have you considered you might have Addisons Disease or similar symptoms as a side effect of the Miconazole?
I know you hate being told to seek professional help because that's some kind of abandonment issue or something but if you're going to use pharmaceuticals anyway you really should be standing up for yourself and grilling them.
Don't just go in all sheepish like "oh am I sick from my booboo creme?" You have to stick up for yourself like "hey I was inappropriately advised to use this medicine. I am asking for more appropriate treatment that doesn't cause fatigue." Because while adrenal fatigue is normally associated with munchies it's also a proven condition directly related to even low-percentage topical medicines like miconazole.
I've not considered that because I've never heard of Addisons disease. So Micreme might be causing me health issues?
What is the alternative to the cream? If I don't take it for two days my face becomes full of rashes, I have to keep taking it or I'm fucked.
I agree, the GP and big pharma are killing me. I need to go in and demand answers. But nothing I do will make them listen. I've tried. Nobody in this life listens to a single thing I say.
If it is causing those side effects then what can I do about it when I need it to stop the rashes? My face is constantly itchy and stinging, a week without micreme and I hate to think what would happen.
I am dead when the inevitable fall of the west happens soon.
Maybe not publicly, but sure, think about it.
They weren't just building castles and cathedrals all willy nilly eyeballing shit, for that level of building you need drafting, and for drafting you need an understanding of 3d perspective. I'd argue the seal of metatron was a bit of an IQ test for new initiate architects.
"Hey master mason I really want to build castles guvnah, what do I do to get in pip pip cheerio?" "Draw this from memory, if you can draw it accurately that's step 1, if you can figure out what it's trying to teach you, that's step 2, bob's your uncle and buckets of blood!"
There's also the theory the various permutations of the metatron seal were to teach the platonic solids, but I'm not sure how useful that information would be to people in the middle ages. Sure I can't prove any of this, and much of what I read up on the occult was decades ago so something most definitely may be getting lost in translation, but it roughly makes sense to me as a theory.
They needed to learn gothic arches in the middle ages.
I see, so basically they were making 3d drawings of these complex buildings and these seals were training.
Churches took decades to build in some cases, they would want to be sure they got it right.
platonic solids? Whoever metatron is he was a dense bastard.
Slam that fucker into submission with a few scrip downers at 2am followed by uppers at 5 and you'll be golden.
If you want the weirdest dreams in human history combine benzos, alcohol, lithium orotate and modafinil. Still remember that one.
What did you dream about?
And what can I take to forget working? I want to not remember anything from the daytime, I just want to exist in the brief window that I can be myself.
Well war is awful and all that.
Realistically I buy some articles of clothing, but not a whole wardrobe's worth, at least every 3-6 months. Maybe 0.25 wardrobes per 10 months.
The maternity clothes were sinfully comfortable is all I didn't want to go back to regular pants.
I mean they don't call it the second godlen age of disney for nothing...
I didn't think the art design for Luca was that offensive. It's not that dissimilar from How to Train Your Dragon.
OUCH have you considered a lot of topical benadryl? It might help take the edge off... in more ways than one...
Aftershave?? It hurts but it helps to apply an antiseptic after you shave heavy hair zones like that.
War is awful but it doesn't excuse the Jews killing 100 million people.
Regular pants are quite uncomfortable.
Disney sucks.
How to train your dragon looks just as sloppy as this luca.
What is topical benadryl?
I'm not sure what aftershave is.
If you've got no family/friends to talk with, consider finding a local cause that needs hands. Animal shelter, local food co-op, fucking hell picking up trash? Something to get you outside and away from this internet shitposting/drinking/eating/chores/sleeping/working cycle.
I feel you man I really do, but no one is going to kick your door down and change shit for you, you gotta pick a direction and go with it. You've got a cat, you like animals. I bet you dollars to donuts there's a shelter who needs volunteers around. You can still drink when you shitpost at home, just cut back and devote some time to them, see how it goes. If it doesn't work out at least you can say you tried, it's not like the bottle is going anywhere.
It would be nice to help animals but I don't have time. Right now I couldn't really afford to sit down and type out a message, it's 3 hours till I should be in bed and I haven't eaten yet, not eaten since 3am, how do I complete the rest of my night and get sleep?
I can't do anything while I work.
There is only one direction and that is death. I think that is the only thing that will make me happy. At the end of the day all I'm doing is skipping a few decades more of work, I don't think I'll miss that.
I've tried to live and it doesn't work.
For a white male all that matters is success and genes, it's what defines our worth. If you have neither then you have nothing to live for.
I just want to die. is there something I can take that helps with that?
Anyway, it's the time of the day I have a pie and a cask wine, and I'll put some youtube slop on, and then i'll get my 5 minutes of sleep.
