Like all lolcows, she
refuses to press the learn button. I enjoyed her admitting that she’s so validation-starved that she still makes the mistake of looking online to see what people think of her:
“I don’t know,” she says. “If you have an addictive personality, which clearly I do, any hit of the dopamine of positivity [is welcome] and there’s also a hit of adrenaline that comes from the negative. And then, because you see something negative, you want to see something positive to erase it, and you end up in this cycle. It’s easy when you’re young to feel the internet’s a game you want to win. I remember breaking up with a guy in my early 20s and him writing an email that was really mean. And my father said, ‘Well, why don’t you just ignore him? You’ve broken up, you don’t have to do anything else.’ And I was like, ‘Because I don’t want him to have the last word.’ And then you meet up with the person and they act sweet so you kiss them, then they act mean again. And that’s the relationship you’re in with the internet.”
…The fact that for years now she’s been free of social media apps on her phone – Dunham writes posts which someone else uploads – is, she says, “aside from sobriety and moving more slowly and understanding my health better, a huge part of how my life can be calm and joyful”. In recent years, she has only caved in, once. “I made the mistake of going to [the apps on] my husband’s phone – I wanted to see what people said about our wedding picture.” My hand flies involuntarily to my mouth. In 2021, Dunham married Felber, with whom she’d been set up by a friend, and for the ceremony in London, wore a beautiful satin gown designed by the British designer Christopher Kane.
“I was so excited,” she says, her voice falling. “I felt like it was so joyful and I wanted someone to say how cute my husband is, whatever. And I looked for five minutes and – it was five minutes I deeply regretted.”
Her husband is ugly and looks like he reeks of BO.
