How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Rekeita's Kidneys]

It's strange not having anxiety anymore.

I feel powerful or whatever the fuck but now the thing I'm contending with is FOMO and "goddamn am I behind!"

Idk, I need to keep it up with avoiding 4chan type bullshit. Legitimately it's fucking mental poison and preys on insecurities and only makes my ass feel worse.

Starting flight school soon so I'll be focusing on that which is cool. I'll post regularly about it

Also I fucking need glasses now which makes me officially old or "unc" now lmfao

 

[Blamo2000]

Idk, I need to keep it up with avoiding 4chan type bullshit. Legitimately it's fucking mental poison and preys on insecurities and only makes my ass feel worse.

That's a good call. Being surrounded by constant negativity and low quality noise all the time is a recipe for feeling like shit. The worst part it is addictive as well, you always need to get your fix of negativity.

 

[a-Lager]

Been absolutely struggling to find a job recently. Even the minimum wage PT shit shovelers aren't even giving me the courtesy of a rejection letter. My degree isn't in Cantonese Finger Painting but it feels as if it might as well be and has been utterly choke slamming me into the throes of depression to the point where I can barely finish my sets at the gym. Gonna see about trying to find a club to network this week but Im not optimistic

 

[Getmeout]

Stop thinking about it. What do you gain by asking such questions? Does it magically restore your ancestral homeland if you gain insight into the answer? It would change nothing and only bring you misery trying to be a philosoper.

Yeah, a lot of your ancestors got fucked. But that's just how it is. If we all sit around crying about our ancestor's fate then we would be getting nowhere. They're dead now and obsessing about them will not do any good. So start thinking about your own life and how you're going to make it better. I think even if you're the worst, most niggerish specimen of your race, you still can be happy.

Moralizing is for losers. What you deserve is what you get. So if you improve your situation then all the better things in life you obtain is rightfully yours to keep.

I can move past the fact that it happened, but I just don't get why I'm expected to be happy that it happened. That I should be thankful that the "more civilized people" came when I never asked them to. I wanna look back at it and think my own emotions, and move past. Not think back to it and force a smile and a "Ya, go USA!"

 

[Super Mario Brothers]

I can move past the fact that it happened, but I just don't get why I'm expected to be happy that it happened. That I should be thankful that the "more civilized people" came when I never asked them to. I wanna look back at it and think my own emotions, and move past. Not think back to it and force a smile and a "Ya, go USA!"

You don't. Why are you even asking other people to think for you? You're just asking for your mind to be colonized lmao

 

[Friend of Dorothy Parker]

I can move past the fact that it happened, but I just don't get why I'm expected to be happy that it happened. That I should be thankful that the "more civilized people" came when I never asked them to. I wanna look back at it and think my own emotions, and move past. Not think back to it and force a smile and a "Ya, go USA!"

[why is formatting all fucked up?]

Anyway: I had a long response to your tit for tat analogies above but can't spoiler so I'll save it for later. But in this one: no one is telling you to think any particular way. You're allowed to feel and think what you do.

People are going to disagree with you or spout other views. Someone talking does not mean you have to listen or do whatever it is you think they're saying you must do. Inform yourself. Read and STUDY actual history - a lot of it, and I mean books not online posts or god forbid tweets. Read, study, think, assess. You have a brain; why are you willingly and willfully turning it to mush by pretending uwu you have no agency because random and often rabid fucks have loud or ignorant voices (that goes for some people coming from all angles on these things; ignorance can be found everywhere...but so can quality thought).

 

[The Last Stand]

Back from a magical vacation that felt like a Hollywood movie. Lots of memorabilia from the convention. Now, I'm back on the grind while everything gets more expensive.

 

[SOLDIER OF WALES]

I can move past the fact that it happened, but I just don't get why I'm expected to be happy that it happened. That I should be thankful that the "more civilized people" came when I never asked them to. I wanna look back at it and think my own emotions, and move past. Not think back to it and force a smile and a "Ya, go USA!"

This is gonna sound a bit fruity but at the end of the day there is no such thing as morality. Motherfuckers were killing and eating eachother in caveman times and the only reason we agree not to rape and murder others is because men with guns will come and kill you/throw you in a cell for the rest of your life. bit of an exaggeration but less so, we've all stolen things/jaywalked/sped in cars, etc etc even though its wrong.

The only reason stuff like that happens is because people want to exploit others for power/resources. If Africa ended up being the worlds superpower, inventing gunpowder/muskets/swords and armour/etc etc and whites were the colonized ones we'd be in the same place, just with the roles reversed. No such thing as superior or inferior people inherently. But yeah you don't have to like it, the world is evil.

Anyway just had my first MMA class... learned how to kill a man with 3 kicks whilst on the ground... this shits no joke...

 

[M00NMANfan#1]

I'm feeling great. Hope you all had a great day.

 

[Endless Blabbery]

Yes, I would say they’re definitely is a certain level of commitment necessary. You have to actually be willing to take the advice given and be open with how you’re feeling and how your
processing things, stuff like that. It’s definitely not for everyone and I don’t think it can help everyone, but for the people that it CAN help it can be super useful

I think that's it, I just don't believe in therapy. maybe it's my upbringing but I was taught to just suck it up. It would be wasted on me not for lack of trying but for lack of my own effort.

I can attest to this. However, I must ask: what does one mean when they say "I don't believe in therapy"? That it doesn't work, or that the way in which it is done is icky and yucky and you don't like it therefore you don't commit...?
I know that mocking clankers is funny and all, but using artificial intelligence could help you. It is not human, the models are increasingly better (they are not as sycophantic as GPT 4o was, for instance), and with the appropriate guardrails and tips you could ensure you don't lose your mind (which happens to about 5% of users anyway, so it's not like a big risk).

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Moralizing is for losers. What you deserve is what you get.

And yet, you are struggling with an exhausting example of Eastern Asian stereotype. Do you think you deserve it?

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bit of an exaggeration but less so, we've all stolen things/jaywalked/sped in cars, etc etc even though its wrong.

I remember one time I stole the batteries off a TV remote. I literally told my mates: "I think I'm going to steal these batteries.," to which one of them replied, "Why?"; "I just want to steal them to see what it feels like."
And, guess what. I got caught right before checking out of the hotel: it does seem like they check the TV remotes. Huh.
But I didn't feel particularly... remorseful. I stated my intentions, batteries are replaceable and cheap; the intentions mattered more than the economic value, really. And yet, nobody really cared: some got mad, but that didn't last long. Others laughed; everything was forgotten in less than a week.
Does this count as nigger behavior? Maybe. It's up to you to decide.

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You don't. Why are you even asking other people to think for you? You're just asking for your mind to be colonized lmao

I agree with this. This whole "b-but why?" bit is becoming circular in nature: asking the same thing over and over again will likely not result in a richer, more thorough response but will be met with increasing annoyance instead.
I would also like to point out that victims, in general, are deemed as annoying. Regardless of how true their victim status is, the descendants of colonialism victims one can't care about forever, just like how we can't care about the grandchildren of the supposed victims of holocaust. At some point you've just got to... you know, forget it.
Is that fair? I don't know, I'm not God. Ask Him!

 

[the khat quaffer]

I can attest to this. However, I must ask: what does one mean when they say "I don't believe in therapy"? That it doesn't work, or that the way in which it is done is icky and yucky and you don't like it therefore you don't commit...?

I don't believe in therapy because I just wasn't raised to rely on it. I was raised where weakness was seen as an affront against the status quo. "Shut up and deal with it."

Besides a great many things, I find human frailty disgusting, even within myself.

SO when I say I don't believe in therapy, I mean, I just wasn't raised that way. I was raised to deal with shit and not talk about feelings outside of the bedroom.

 

[SofondaCox]

Therapy has a parallel to the Trick/Whore relationship. It's paying a person to care about you, pay attention to you, hear you. That is a humiliating situation for both parties. It highlights
the fact that you have nobody in your life that you can confide in, or that you can trust and respect at your level. The AI thing would be far less demeaning, but still pitiful.

 

[the khat quaffer]

Therapy has a parallel to the Trick/Whore relationship. It's paying a person to care about you, pay attention to you, hear you. That is a humiliating situation for both parties. It highlights
the fact that you have nobody in your life that you can confide in, or that you can trust and respect at your level. The AI thing would be far less demeaning, but still pitiful.

so are cooking shows w.r.t. porn. to paraphrase tony bourdain, you watch cooking shows because you wish you could do something and you plan on doing it later

 

[Endless Blabbery]

I don't believe in therapy because I just wasn't raised to rely on it. I was raised where weakness was seen as an affront against the status quo. "Shut up and deal with it."

I never quite understood the reasoning, because if one has a problem and a bunch of people get together to fix it, that would generate trust and a greater bond between people, no? So this whole "deal with it yourself, alone" bit seems like a variation of "IDC & IDGAF"; somewhat selfish and uncaring.

SO when I say I don't believe in therapy, I mean, I just wasn't raised that way. I was raised to deal with shit and not talk about feelings outside of the bedroom.

When you say bedroom do you mean your girlfriend/wife is the only person you can trust with your shit? That's a heavy load to carry, no pun intended, by your partner.
I do recall countless men talking about how they just don't talk about things, until one night they just seem to spill the beans. And don't get me wrong, I actually used to fall in the other farther end of the spectrum, narrating everything I did and carrying my phone everywhere like a good Zoom-Zoom; I'm doing better now.

Therapy has a parallel to the Trick/Whore relationship. It's paying a person to care about you, pay attention to you, hear you. That is a humiliating situation for both parties.

If one considers an LLM to be a lifeless "stochastic parrot" then, again, they might consider chatting with a clanker beneficial. After all, if it can't feel, and you could learn something new about yourself, what would the harm be?
"B-But I'm just not used to it"—I wasn't born knowing how to speak, write, ride a bike. And yet, here I am.
"B-But it's humiliating! What would other people think"—You don't have to tell anyone. If anything, you can host the AI on your own computer, although that depends on what hardware you've got available.

 

[the khat quaffer]

When you say bedroom do you mean your girlfriend/wife is the only person you can trust with your shit? That's a heavy load to carry, no pun intended, by your partner.
I do recall countless men talking about how they just don't talk about things, until one night they just seem to spill the beans. And don't get me wrong, I actually used to fall in the other farther end of the spectrum, narrating everything I did and carrying my phone everywhere like a good Zoom-Zoom; I'm doing better now.

When I say bedroom I mean feelings are for, to put it vulgarly, for pussies. For men, it is a sign of weakness and frailty to express feelings. I could say kitchen instead of bedroom to the same effect.

 

[Zirnwyb]

Pissed off at my retard of a doctor because she told me last year I don't have osteoarthritis, but I actually fucking do. An MRI that was ordered by a different doctor determined that I do and now I want to fucking yell at my current doctor for being a retarded cunt.

 

[Friend of Dorothy Parker]

When I say bedroom I mean feelings are for, to put it vulgarly, for pussies. For men, it is a sign of weakness and frailty to express feelings. I could say kitchen instead of bedroom to the same effect.

Maybe it will surprise you to know that some women were also raised being told that "expressing feelings" is a sign of weakness, therapy is for crazies, and just to get on with it.

But as individual, sentient adults, we need to make our own paths in life.

 

[the khat quaffer]

Maybe it will surprise you to know that some women were also raised being told that "expressing feelings" is a sign of weakness, therapy is for crazies, and just to get on with it.

But as individual, sentient adults, we need to make our own paths in life.

It doesn't surprise me.

 

[Endless Blabbery]

When I say bedroom I mean feelings are for, to put it vulgarly, for pussies. For men, it is a sign of weakness and frailty to express feelings. I could say kitchen instead of bedroom to the same effect.

For whatever it's worth, I've talked to both men and women about this. I kind of understand why so many men seem to think that not speaking about how they feel is manly, masculine, or whatever, but women do go through something similar.
From what I could gather, men are expected not to explain how they feel as to not be deemed as useless or high-maintenance; for women, it's actually rather similar (mainly towards the high-maintenance, or even the "crazy" label).
Unable to change genders as we are, both kinds of people may have been subjected to the same "rules" under a different reasoning; but the point is the same, regardless: don't bother anyone because that's a no-no and if you do, no one will love you.

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Oh, and before I forget: I've been noticing a rather absurd shift towards expressing everything that bothers one to the therapist they pay for, implying that "serious stuff" is meant for professionals only.
I've seen it with both men and women, where talking about being anxious or depressed will always have someone come to you with a retarded look on their face and say, "Have you thought about going to therapy?" Biased as always, I learn of more and more people that have been going to therapy for years and they still haven't gotten their shit together. Maybe some people just are incapable of introspection and agency that they need another human to tell them what to do. Goyim status.
And no, I don't mean to say that everyone should just not go to therapy; there are instances in which it is absolutely necessary. But this over-reliance on delegating really good opportunities to bond with friends and family members under the pretense that, heh, professionals are so much better—it, to me, strains the relationship by acting as though you are unreliable.

 

[the khat quaffer]

For whatever it's worth, I've talked to both men and women about this. I kind of understand why so many men seem to think that not speaking about how they feel is manly, masculine, or whatever, but women do go through something similar.
From what I could gather, men are expected not to explain how they feel as to not be deemed as useless or high-maintenance; for women, it's actually rather similar (mainly towards the high-maintenance, or even the "crazy" label).
Unable to change genders as we are, both kinds of people may have been subjected to the same "rules" under a different reasoning; but the point is the same, regardless: don't bother anyone because that's a no-no and if you do, no one will love you.

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Oh, and before I forget: I've been noticing a rather absurd shift towards expressing everything that bothers one to the therapist they pay for, implying that "serious stuff" is meant for professionals only.
I've seen it with both men and women, where talking about being anxious or depressed will always have someone come to you with a retarded look on their face and say, "Have you thought about going to therapy?" Biased as always, I learn of more and more people that have been going to therapy for years and they still haven't gotten their shit together. Maybe some people just are incapable of introspection and need another human to tell them what to do. Goyim status.
And no, I don't mean to say that everyone should be able to just not go to therapy; there are instances in which it is absolutely necessary. But this over-reliance on delegating really good opportunities to bond with friends and family members under the pretense that, heh, professionals are so much better—it, to me, strains the relationship by acting as though you are unreliable.

I 100% was raised where men are seen as weak and vulnerable if they can't shrug off emotional problems. No points for guessing the stance on alphabet issues.

That's the mindset I've adopted.

I just don't believe in therapy. My heart isn't in it. Therapy (court-ordered or otherwise) would be a waste of time.