Trashfire Adam Kovic & Ryan Haywood (The Dead Pixel / Koko / Pikovic, and James Ryan Haywoood / Iron Ryan / The Mad King / Vagabond) - Rooster Teeth associates who've sent horrifying nudes behind their families' backs in what looks like a gay catfish

How many accusers will there be by the 23rd?

  • 9

    Votes: 5 0.7%
  • 10 ~ 12

    Votes: 91 12.0%
  • 13 ~ 15

    Votes: 273 36.0%
  • 16 ~ 18

    Votes: 185 24.4%
  • 19 or 20

    Votes: 44 5.8%
  • More than 20

    Votes: 161 21.2%

  • Total voters
    759
  • Poll closed .
She posts that she's thinking of telling her story, but as she dosen't have proof she's not sure that it's useful, however Ryan (who's probably on twitter searching his name like a true fucking idiot) finds her and starts messaging (from the same second account that he used on girl #2) her begging her not to say anything and to think of his kids.

Obviously to be taken lightly as there's no proof, but it seems fairly credible (I think) because it's the same account from #2.

So what exactly did you say to this girl Ryan that's got you so worried? Or this still your fucked up version of damage control.
Ryan in shambles, scrambling to contain the damage as much as possible. He's really feeling that pressure of a Federal Correctional Institution in his future.
 
SP7 getting unceremoniously shitcanned was the beginning of the end for RT Los Angeles. Kinda exposed the disposable nature of the system, killed moral at the FH office and almost certainly made Bruce leave the company. Then you got the slow, lingering death of cow chop, Sonntag bouncing and now this with Adam. Nothing can grow in LA. It’s just a place where things go to die now.
agreed, although apparently there was conflict between lawerence and steven suptic due to steven suptic's content making process involving just going to the funhaus office whenever he wanted, even if they were busy doing something.

shame though, SP7 were really funny and they were one of the few people in RT who aren't boomers. they definitely felt more relatable to the average teenager than AH or FH. it was funny though how steven suptic's arc starting with a video about leaving sourcefed and then barely a few years later leaving roosterteeth. in a really ironic and sad way.

edit: forgot to mention i think adam will most likely have a normal life in a year or two. yeah he likes shoving things up his ass but at the rate the internet forgets things he'll probably manage to get a job editing for some inside gaming-esque company. maybe even start producing content, who knows.
 
*Note: Gus is God. Nothing could come out about him that wouldn't disgust me, given what he's done for charity already...

Observation from somebody who doesn't really GAF about RT:

Gus, Meg, and Ryan... can go fuck themselves. Ryan even for reasons unrelated to this thread. I expressed why earlier in this thread. Before the shit really hit the fan.

Apparently they got some weird problem with Jeff Gerstmann, and they sound like shills while expressing it. My first impression of them was not a good one.


Gerstmann briefly addresses them here (by not really addressing them):


And in this:

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Get fucked, RT.

Also, see this thread:


Pat the NES Punk is a dumbass for unrelated reasons, but he's got the best video on the matter. So, that's what I use. You can also watch Review Tech USA's video which just recaps Pat's.

I admire Gerstmann on some level, because when Gerstmann gives an opinion, right or wrong, it's at least his fucking opinion. He got fired once for not toeing the corporate line. He still won't toe the corporate line.
 

Fine. Now get over him, you stupid cunt. Your last messages shared here were lame. I absolutely believe he creeped on you, and you deserve credit for not biting, but you're also not doing yourself any favors by acting like a battered wife when you really aren't.

"I can't leave him! I luvvvvv him!!!"

Goddamn, I don't hate women, but they can be really stupid sometimes. Especially the young ones.
 
I didn't see this posted yet but Ryan had apparently made a second (or third I guess?) account to message girl #2 and that's fucking hilarious (also incredibly sad but mostly fucking hilarious).
I'm going to double post like a fuck but watch out for this account as she's probably going to be #8 (if someone dosen't beat her to the punch).

She posts that she's thinking of telling her story, but as she dosen't have proof she's not sure that it's useful, however Ryan (who's probably on twitter searching his name like a true fucking idiot) finds her and starts messaging (from the same second account that he used on girl #2) her begging her not to say anything and to think of his kids.

Obviously to be taken lightly as there's no proof, but it seems fairly credible (I think) because it's the same account from #2.

So what exactly did you say to this girl Ryan that's got you so worried? Or this still your fucked up version of damage control.

I hate to throw any doubt upon this, but those aren't the same accounts, are they? They end in different numbers (233 vs 736) and have different followers/following ratios.
 
He fucked a 17 year old in California, which is statutory rape, and he's definately an ephebophile given his taste in girls so far. He also received CP from at least one other girl, if not more.

Pedo? Technically not, if you wanna split hairs based on the pedophile vs. hebephile vs. ephebophile distinction, but pretty much everything short of that.

Again. So far. This is getting more fucked up by the day. The rate we're going, by next month, we'll find out he's a secret diaperfur.

I don't think he's a pedo/Ephebo or w/e. Well, not exactly.

Someone else ITT gave very good answer to the question "why does he fuck slam whales when he could route that money to an attractive escort" in that a hooker isn't going to look up to him as a demi-god, isn't going to worship him and believe its the best thing ever to get fucked by him.

He's targeting the blobby Ephebo demo because those girls are desperate for validation, and especially from someone they look up to. He has to put forth minimal effort to be the second coming (see what I did there), so he can pretend he's a good person, helping these girls out and giving them positive attention, while just being in it for the control & getting to coom. So you see its not really cheating, he's being so selfless rawdogging that virgin 'tang.

I guess what I'm saying is that I think if you found him a 27 year old he could exert the same level of control over as a 17 year old, he'd put in the same work bone her.

He's attracted to girls he can control and get adulation from, with minimal effort, and ideally ones that are sexually inexperienced so when he fucks them he doesn't have to worry about being compared to someone else, and then also drop and leave with them still thinking he's the greatest. Those girls just happen to fall into the barely-illegal age bracket when they pop into his radar and he starts on them; most of the ones he actually porks seem to be around 20 when he sticks it in.
Under 22, they also have much more limited options for financial freedom, so for just $300 of money from preening simps he can become some girl's heroic savior by bailing her out of whatever financial crisis. $200 for a plane ticket to have her come on a wonderful adventure to a city she'd never get to go to that culminates in her losing her viriginity to her idol. I mean, He'd be a monster NOT to do it.
 
I don't think he's a pedo/Ephebo or w/e. Well, not exactly.

Someone else ITT gave very good answer to the question "why does he fuck slam whales when he could route that money to an attractive escort" in that a hooker isn't going to look up to him as a demi-god, isn't going to worship him and believe its the best thing ever to get fucked by him.

He's targeting the blobby Ephebo demo because those girls are desperate for validation, and especially from someone they look up to. He has to put forth minimal effort to be the second coming (see what I did there), so he can pretend he's a good person, helping these girls out and giving them positive attention, while just being in it for the control & getting to coom. So you see its not really cheating, he's being so selfless rawdogging that virgin 'tang.

I guess what I'm saying is that I think if you found him a 27 year old he could exert the same level of control over as a 17 year old, he'd put in the same work bone her.

He's attracted to girls he can control and get adulation from, with minimal effort, and ideally ones that are sexually inexperienced so when he fucks them he doesn't have to worry about being compared to someone else, and then also drop and leave with them still thinking he's the greatest. Those girls just happen to fall into the barely-illegal age bracket when they pop into his radar and he starts on them; most of the ones he actually porks seem to be around 20 when he sticks it in.
Under 22, they also have much more limited options for financial freedom, so for just $300 of money from preening simps he can become some girl's heroic savior by bailing her out of whatever financial crisis. $200 for a plane ticket to have her come on a wonderful adventure to a city she'd never get to go to that culminates in her losing her viriginity to her idol. I mean, He'd be a monster NOT to do it.
While I agree with all of that, he does clearly get off on the girls being MUCH younger. All that “baby girl, daddy’s girl, pig tails, tight little pussy” shit is undoubtedly a major turn on for him. And the virginity factor. If he just wanted an affair where he was holding all the power, he had that with his 28 year old mod. But even in the midst of that, he was trolling for younger strange. And I don’t remember him using all that loli talk on her, despite the fact she was still nearly ten years younger than him.
 
Katie B who was a mod for Ryan and involved some how as an accomplace, if true that they also mod for Jerremy (AH Staff) I really can't help but believe its just a small step away that Jerremy was aware in some manner of what may have been happening.

I am a long term fan and watch almost all AH content and Ryan has always maintained the barrier between AH and his persona life (wife and kids) and sets the narritive. A lot of his maniuplation has gone unchecked because no one has been fact checking with each other. The victims are now presenting that only now they are sharing their stories with each other and he had people in power of moderation running interferance and censorship to prevent information escaping from these little bubbles he would create with each person.

I could 100% believe he did this with his coworkers and created some sort of narritive that that made some of his actions plausable. One already brought up in this thread was the Off Topic Pod Cast 177 where they discuss Ryans habbit of staying an extra day. While I don't see the body language others have pointed out as a tell reveling they knew what was going on. It is an example of him creating a plausable narritive. "I just want to sleep in and have some quiet time from my screaming kids".

As for an earlier question about taking company equipment home, yes on video it is confirmed that Ryan has been into the office to recover items and "servers", I assume these are the game servers they used to use in house for Minecraft or 7 days to die. But in the context of the video he was going into the office to recover the servers for Matt Brag (he needed them for some unstated reason). It is also in content that Michael took his entire work streaming/recording setup from the office. Jack took the mixer. Larry the editor took his entire work computer setup. So it is factual that most employees took their shit home, they even mention an email that made the rounds about getting comfertable at home as the outlook is they wont return to the office in a long time. However Ryan had already had a prexisting streaming setup before Covid so its unclear if he took his work computer home or not, as he most likely did not need it to continue to make content.
 
Katie B who was a mod for Ryan and involved some how as an accomplace, if true that they also mod for Jerremy (AH Staff) I really can't help but believe its just a small step away that Jerremy was aware in some manner of what may have been happening.

I am a long term fan and watch almost all AH content and Ryan has always maintained the barrier between AH and his persona life (wife and kids) and sets the narritive. A lot of his maniuplation has gone unchecked because no one has been fact checking with each other. The victims are now presenting that only now they are sharing their stories with each other and he had people in power of moderation running interferance and censorship to prevent information escaping from these little bubbles he would create with each person.

I could 100% believe he did this with his coworkers and created some sort of narritive that that made some of his actions plausable. One already brought up in this thread was the Off Topic Pod Cast 177 where they discuss Ryans habbit of staying an extra day. While I don't see the body language others have pointed out as a tell reveling they knew what was going on. It is an example of him creating a plausable narritive. "I just want to sleep in and have some quiet time from my screaming kids".

As for an earlier question about taking company equipment home, yes on video it is confirmed that Ryan has been into the office to recover items and "servers", I assume these are the game servers they used to use in house for Minecraft or 7 days to die. But in the context of the video he was going into the office to recover the servers for Matt Brag (he needed them for some unstated reason). It is also in content that Michael took his entire work streaming/recording setup from the office. Jack took the mixer. Larry the editor took his entire work computer setup. So it is factual that most employees took their shit home, they even mention an email that made the rounds about getting comfertable at home as the outlook is they wont return to the office in a long time. However Ryan had already had a prexisting streaming setup before Covid so its unclear if he took his work computer home or not, as he most likely did not need it to continue to make content.
and who might you be?
 
Katie B who was a mod for Ryan and involved some how as an accomplace, if true that they also mod for Jerremy (AH Staff) I really can't help but believe its just a small step away that Jerremy was aware in some manner of what may have been happening.

I am a long term fan and watch almost all AH content and Ryan has always maintained the barrier between AH and his persona life (wife and kids) and sets the narritive. A lot of his maniuplation has gone unchecked because no one has been fact checking with each other. The victims are now presenting that only now they are sharing their stories with each other and he had people in power of moderation running interferance and censorship to prevent information escaping from these little bubbles he would create with each person.

I could 100% believe he did this with his coworkers and created some sort of narritive that that made some of his actions plausable. One already brought up in this thread was the Off Topic Pod Cast 177 where they discuss Ryans habbit of staying an extra day. While I don't see the body language others have pointed out as a tell reveling they knew what was going on. It is an example of him creating a plausable narritive. "I just want to sleep in and have some quiet time from my screaming kids".

As for an earlier question about taking company equipment home, yes on video it is confirmed that Ryan has been into the office to recover items and "servers", I assume these are the game servers they used to use in house for Minecraft or 7 days to die. But in the context of the video he was going into the office to recover the servers for Matt Brag (he needed them for some unstated reason). It is also in content that Michael took his entire work streaming/recording setup from the office. Jack took the mixer. Larry the editor took his entire work computer setup. So it is factual that most employees took their shit home, they even mention an email that made the rounds about getting comfertable at home as the outlook is they wont return to the office in a long time. However Ryan had already had a prexisting streaming setup before Covid so its unclear if he took his work computer home or not, as he most likely did not need it to continue to make content.

Are you refering to this? The comment section was kind enough to highlight the section in question.
 
I don't think he's a pedo/Ephebo or w/e. Well, not exactly.

I think the distinction is moot in itself, honestly. It doesn't really matter WHY a person is going after teenage girls, especially with a significant age gap between them - if they're 18 or older and dipping below the age of consent, then something's fucked up with them, and someone 21 or older doing so is way beyond the realm of acceptability for most people. Ryan is almost 40, and has been going after teenage girls since his mid 30s (and that's assuming this only started at the earliest time we know, in 2016; we don't know when this behavior started for sure). That's not normal or acceptable behavior given the power dynamics between them, and despite what he said to the contrary, he has a recurring pattern and targets the same type of people, so he clearly knows exactly what he's doing and why he's doing it.

On top of that, he's clearly got a vested interest in the DDLG stuff, and even called the anonymous girl stuff like "little girl" and "kiddo," both of which are definitely not terms that a non-pedo would use to describe their significant other. (EDIT: I was gonna get into this more, but got ninja'd so I just cut it short.)

Regardless of what you want to call him, though, the man is a sexual predator, and the thing about predators is that they will pursue any target that fits their mold and that is a convenient pick for them. Some pedos are pedos because they have a specific preference for kids; some pedos are pedos because kids are easier targets to go after than adults who will generally know how to defend themselves and/or call for help if necessary. Doesn't really change the fact that both are pedos regardless. The same logic applies to Ryan.

One already brought up in this thread was the Off Topic Pod Cast 177 where they discuss Ryans habbit of staying an extra day. While I don't see the body language others have pointed out as a tell reveling they knew what was going on. It is an example of him creating a plausable narritive. "I just want to sleep in and have some quiet time from my screaming kids".

In all honesty, I didn't think about the "plausible deniability" aspect of that story until just now (which makes me feel kind of dumb :story: ). Of course he'll insist that his kids are going to be all over him and that his wife won't help out - it makes his reason for wanting to stay behind an extra day sound much more understandable, even sympathetic. I had just assumed that the guys put it together that he was unhappy at home/cheating on his wife from Michael's retelling of the story, but now I wonder if they were empathizing with a lie. His wife had basically zero ties to RT, and I don't think she participated in any RT content at all, so I wouldn't be surprised if she never even heard the claim he made. Very interesting concept you've posited.
 
I'm going to double post like a fuck but watch out for this account as she's probably going to be #8 (if someone dosen't beat her to the punch).

She posts that she's thinking of telling her story, but as she dosen't have proof she's not sure that it's useful, however Ryan (who's probably on twitter searching his name like a true fucking idiot) finds her and starts messaging (from the same second account that he used on girl #2) her begging her not to say anything and to think of his kids.

Obviously to be taken lightly as there's no proof, but it seems fairly credible (I think) because it's the same account from #2.

So what exactly did you say to this girl Ryan that's got you so worried? Or this still your fucked up version of damage control.
Depends on what she meant by useful. If by useful she meant entertaining and embarassing, then yes. If she meant useful in taking Ryan down then no, there's already plenty of evidence for that. There's really no reason for anyone to share at this point except to soothe their conscious, vent, or stroke their ego.
 
Another one.
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Fuck You RH

I‌ ‌feel‌ ‌the‌ ‌need‌ ‌to‌ ‌preface‌ ‌this‌ ‌by‌ ‌saying‌ ‌that‌ ‌I‌ ‌am‌ ‌not‌ ‌writing‌ ‌this‌ ‌to‌ ‌
downplay‌ ‌the‌ ‌stories‌ ‌from‌ ‌the‌ ‌real‌ ‌victims‌ ‌of‌ ‌Ryan’s‌ ‌disgusting‌ ‌behavior.‌ ‌I‌ ‌
was‌ ‌not‌ ‌victimized‌ ‌by‌ ‌him‌ ‌the‌ ‌same‌ ‌way‌ ‌but‌ ‌I‌ ‌almost‌ ‌was‌ ‌and‌ ‌looking‌ ‌back,‌ ‌
I‌ ‌can‌ ‌see‌ ‌that‌ ‌it‌ ‌was‌ ‌all‌ ‌grooming‌ ‌behavior.‌ ‌I’m‌ ‌so‌ ‌angry‌ ‌and‌ ‌hurt‌ ‌and‌ ‌
absolutely‌ ‌disgusted‌ ‌but‌ ‌I‌ ‌cannot‌ ‌stay‌ ‌silent‌ ‌any‌ ‌more.‌ ‌

March‌ ‌of‌ ‌2016.‌ ‌Ryan‌ ‌Haywood‌ ‌announces‌ ‌that‌ ‌he’s‌ ‌going‌ ‌to‌ ‌start‌ ‌
streaming.‌ ‌At‌ ‌this‌ ‌point,‌ ‌I‌ ‌am‌ ‌6‌ ‌months‌ ‌into‌ ‌the‌ ‌darkest‌ ‌depression‌ ‌I’ve‌ ‌ever‌ ‌
experienced‌ ‌after‌ ‌my‌ ‌father‌ ‌passed‌ ‌away‌ ‌in‌ ‌October‌ ‌of‌ ‌2015.‌ ‌He‌ ‌had‌ ‌
always‌ ‌been‌ ‌my‌ ‌favorite‌ ‌AH‌ ‌personality‌ ‌and‌ ‌I‌ ‌was‌ ‌so‌ ‌excited‌ ‌to‌ ‌get‌ ‌to‌ ‌
watch‌ ‌him‌ ‌stream.‌ ‌I‌ ‌donated‌ ‌bits‌ ‌and‌ ‌after‌ ‌a‌ ‌few‌ ‌streams‌ ‌he‌ ‌knew‌ ‌my‌ ‌
nickname,‌ ‌Nyx,‌ ‌and‌ ‌would‌ ‌respond‌ ‌to‌ ‌my‌ ‌cheers‌ ‌using‌ ‌that‌ ‌name.‌ ‌I‌ ‌was‌ ‌
over‌ ‌the‌ ‌moon.‌ ‌I‌ ‌was‌ ‌20‌ ‌years‌ ‌old‌ ‌and‌ ‌emotionally‌ ‌vulnerable‌ ‌and‌ ‌him‌ ‌
saying‌ ‌my‌ ‌name‌ ‌publicly‌ ‌was‌ ‌an‌ ‌endorphin‌ ‌rush‌ ‌that‌ ‌I‌ ‌craved.‌ ‌He‌ ‌made‌ ‌me‌ ‌
feel‌ ‌special‌ ‌because‌ ‌he‌ ‌knew‌ ‌my‌ ‌name.‌ ‌

Fast-forward‌ ‌to‌ ‌2017/2018‌ ‌when‌ ‌he‌ ‌announced‌ ‌that‌ ‌he‌ ‌got‌ ‌a‌ ‌Snapchat.‌ ‌I,‌ ‌
like‌ ‌so‌ ‌many‌ ‌others,‌ ‌used‌ ‌this‌ ‌as‌ ‌a‌ ‌chance‌ ‌to‌ ‌connect‌ ‌with‌ ‌him.‌ ‌I‌ ‌sent‌ ‌him‌ ‌
pictures‌ ‌of‌ ‌my‌ ‌dog‌ ‌that‌ ‌I‌ ‌had‌ ‌recently‌ ‌adopted‌ ‌from‌ ‌a‌ ‌friend‌ ‌that‌ ‌I‌ ‌was‌ ‌
training,‌ ‌I‌ ‌sent‌ ‌him‌ ‌pictures‌ ‌of‌ ‌my‌ ‌cat,‌ ‌of‌ ‌the‌ ‌scenery‌ ‌in‌ ‌my‌ ‌city,‌ ‌of‌ ‌the‌ ‌
snowfall‌ ‌in‌ ‌winter.‌ ‌He’d‌ ‌open‌ ‌them‌ ‌but‌ ‌never‌ ‌respond.‌ ‌One‌ ‌day,‌ ‌I‌ ‌
messaged‌ ‌him‌ ‌because‌ ‌I‌ ‌was‌ ‌having‌ ‌a‌ ‌bad‌ ‌day‌ ‌and‌ ‌just‌ ‌needed‌ ‌to‌ ‌vent.‌ ‌
That‌ ‌day‌ ‌started‌ ‌what‌ ‌I‌ ‌now‌ ‌recognize‌ ‌as‌ ‌his‌ ‌attempts‌ ‌to‌ ‌groom‌ ‌me.‌ ‌ ‌

We‌ ‌would‌ ‌chat‌ ‌for‌ ‌a‌ ‌while‌ ‌on‌ ‌occasion,‌ ‌but‌ ‌I‌ ‌always‌ ‌backed‌ ‌off‌ ‌because‌ ‌I‌ ‌
didn’t‌ ‌want‌ ‌to‌ ‌intrude‌ ‌on‌ ‌his‌ ‌personal‌ ‌life.‌ ‌But‌ ‌anytime‌ ‌I’d‌ ‌send‌ ‌him‌ ‌a‌ ‌new‌ ‌
Snap,‌ ‌he’d‌ ‌open‌ ‌it‌ ‌and‌ ‌respond‌ ‌almost‌ ‌immediately.‌ ‌The‌ ‌few‌ ‌times‌ ‌I’d‌ ‌send‌ ‌
selfies‌ ‌I’d‌ ‌get‌ ‌semi-flirty‌ ‌messages‌ ‌back‌ ‌and‌ ‌I‌ ‌played‌ ‌them‌ ‌off‌ ‌and‌ ‌never‌ ‌
responded‌ ‌back.‌ ‌Looking‌ ‌back,‌ ‌he‌ ‌was‌ ‌very‌ ‌obviously‌ ‌using‌ ‌the‌ ‌fact‌ ‌that‌ ‌I‌ ‌
trusted‌ ‌him‌ ‌and‌ ‌that‌ ‌I‌ ‌was‌ ‌emotionally‌ ‌vulnerable‌ ‌to‌ ‌flirt‌ ‌with‌ ‌me.‌ ‌After‌ ‌a‌ ‌
few‌ ‌flirty‌ ‌messages:‌ ‌“You‌ ‌look‌ ‌so‌ ‌cute‌ ‌;)”‌ ‌and‌ ‌“Wow‌ ‌you’re‌ ‌so‌ ‌gorgeous‌ ‌
with‌ ‌your‌ ‌hair‌ ‌down‌ ‌<3”‌ ‌and‌ ‌others‌ ‌like‌ ‌that,‌ ‌I‌ ‌stopped‌ ‌contacting‌ ‌him.‌ ‌I‌ ‌was‌ ‌
still‌ ‌active‌ ‌in‌ ‌his‌ ‌streams‌ ‌but‌ ‌I‌ ‌stopped‌ ‌trying‌ ‌to‌ ‌talk‌ ‌privately‌ ‌with‌ ‌him.‌

Fast-forward‌ ‌to‌ ‌last‌ ‌week.‌ ‌The‌ ‌first‌ ‌accusations‌ ‌came‌ ‌out‌ ‌and‌ ‌I‌ ‌was‌ ‌so‌ ‌
adamant‌ ‌that‌ ‌it‌ ‌was‌ ‌fake.‌ ‌Like‌ ‌so‌ ‌many‌ ‌others‌ ‌in‌ ‌those‌ ‌first‌ ‌few‌ ‌hours,‌ ‌I‌ ‌
refused‌ ‌to‌ ‌believe‌ ‌that‌ ‌this‌ ‌man,‌ ‌this‌ ‌man‌ ‌who‌ ‌raised‌ ‌money‌ ‌for‌ ‌charity‌ ‌and‌ ‌
had‌ ‌a‌ ‌wife‌ ‌and‌ ‌two‌ ‌young‌ ‌children,‌ ‌would‌ ‌do‌ ‌something‌ ‌so‌ ‌horrible.‌ ‌I‌ ‌was‌ ‌
one‌ ‌of‌ ‌the‌ ‌people‌ ‌who‌ ‌tried‌ ‌to‌ ‌defend‌ ‌him‌ ‌because‌ ‌I‌ ‌couldn’t‌ ‌believe‌ ‌it‌ ‌was‌ ‌
true.‌ ‌I‌ ‌was‌ ‌willing‌ ‌to‌ ‌defend‌ ‌him‌ ‌because‌ ‌I‌ ‌couldn’t‌ ‌accept‌ ‌that‌ ‌someone‌ ‌I‌ ‌
looked‌ ‌up‌ ‌to‌ ‌could‌ ‌be‌ ‌a‌ ‌monster.‌ ‌

Then‌ ‌more‌ ‌stories‌ ‌came‌ ‌out.‌ ‌I‌ ‌saw‌ ‌the‌ ‌videos,‌ ‌the‌ ‌pictures,‌ ‌the‌ ‌
screenshots‌ ‌from‌ ‌the‌ ‌victims,‌ ‌many‌ ‌who‌ ‌I‌ ‌consider‌ ‌my‌ ‌friends.‌ ‌I‌ ‌heard,‌ ‌
over‌ ‌and‌ ‌over‌ ‌and‌ ‌over‌ ‌again,‌ ‌how‌ ‌this‌ ‌monster‌ ‌used‌ ‌Snapchat‌ ‌as‌ ‌a‌ ‌way‌ ‌to‌ ‌
contact‌ ‌these‌ ‌girls‌ ‌and‌ ‌send‌ ‌them‌ ‌explicit‌ ‌images‌ ‌and‌ ‌videos.‌ ‌How‌ ‌he‌ ‌used‌ ‌
the‌ ‌money‌ ‌that‌ ‌we‌ ‌‌donated‌ ‌to‌ ‌him‌‌ ‌under‌ ‌the‌ ‌impression‌ ‌that‌ ‌it‌ ‌was‌ ‌going‌ ‌to‌ ‌
be‌ ‌used‌ ‌for‌ ‌his‌ ‌‌kids’‌ ‌college‌ ‌funds‌‌ ‌to‌ ‌pay‌ ‌for‌ ‌flights‌ ‌and‌ ‌hotel‌ ‌rooms‌ ‌for‌ ‌his‌ ‌
infidelity.‌ ‌It‌ ‌made‌ ‌me‌ ‌sick‌ ‌to‌ ‌my‌ ‌stomach,‌ ‌not‌ ‌only‌ ‌because‌ ‌of‌ ‌what‌ ‌he‌ ‌did,‌ ‌
but‌ ‌because‌ ‌it‌ ‌could‌ ‌have‌ ‌been‌ ‌me.‌ ‌

That’s‌ ‌why‌ ‌I’m‌ ‌writing‌ ‌this‌ ‌out.‌ ‌I‌ ‌was‌ ‌not‌ ‌a‌ ‌victim‌ ‌of‌ ‌Ryan‌ ‌Haywood‌ ‌in‌ ‌the‌ ‌
sense‌ ‌that‌ ‌he‌ ‌lured‌ ‌me‌ ‌in‌ ‌and‌ ‌had‌ ‌sex‌ ‌with‌ ‌me‌ ‌and‌ ‌tried‌ ‌to‌ ‌silence‌ ‌me.‌ ‌But‌ ‌
I‌ ‌am‌ ‌a‌ ‌victim‌ ‌of‌ ‌his‌ ‌grooming.‌ ‌I‌ ‌have‌ ‌survivor’s‌ ‌guilt‌ ‌because‌ ‌it‌ ‌could‌ ‌have‌ ‌
just‌ ‌as‌ ‌easily‌ ‌been‌ ‌me‌ ‌in‌ ‌one‌ ‌of‌ ‌those‌ ‌hotel‌ ‌rooms.‌ ‌Two‌ ‌or‌ ‌three‌ ‌years‌ ‌ago‌ ‌
I‌ ‌was‌ ‌in‌ ‌such‌ ‌a‌ ‌vulnerable‌ ‌place‌ ‌mentally‌ ‌and‌ ‌emotionally‌ ‌that‌ ‌if‌ ‌he‌ ‌had‌ ‌
posed‌ ‌that‌ ‌offer‌ ‌to‌ ‌me,‌ ‌I‌ ‌probably‌ ‌would‌ ‌have‌ ‌said‌ ‌yes.‌ ‌I‌ ‌probably‌ ‌would‌ ‌
have‌ ‌gone‌ ‌with‌ ‌him‌ ‌willingly‌ ‌and‌ ‌that‌ ‌is‌ ‌the‌ ‌scariest‌ ‌thing‌ ‌for‌ ‌me‌ ‌to‌ ‌face‌ ‌
about‌ ‌all‌ ‌this.‌ ‌ ‌

And‌ ‌now,‌ ‌hearing‌ ‌that‌ ‌some‌ ‌of‌ ‌these‌ ‌girls‌ ‌were‌ ‌barely‌ ‌legal‌ ‌makes‌ ‌me‌ ‌wish‌ ‌
that‌ ‌it‌ ‌had‌ ‌been‌ ‌me‌ ‌so‌ ‌that‌ ‌these‌ ‌young‌ ‌girls‌ ‌would‌ ‌not‌ ‌have‌ ‌to‌ ‌live‌ ‌the‌ ‌rest‌ ‌
of‌ ‌their‌ ‌lives‌ ‌with‌ ‌this‌ ‌darkness‌ ‌in‌ ‌their‌ ‌hearts.‌ ‌I‌ ‌wish‌ ‌that‌ ‌it‌ ‌had‌ ‌been‌ ‌me‌ ‌
instead‌ ‌of‌ ‌these‌ ‌other‌ ‌victims,‌ ‌and‌ ‌I‌ ‌am‌ ‌so‌ ‌sorry‌ ‌that‌ ‌any‌ ‌of‌ ‌the‌ ‌victims‌ ‌had‌ ‌
to‌ ‌suffer‌ ‌this‌ ‌way.‌ ‌I‌ ‌stand‌ ‌with‌ ‌you,‌ ‌and‌ ‌I‌ ‌will‌ ‌always‌ ‌stand‌ ‌with‌ ‌you.‌ ‌

Fuck‌ ‌you,‌ ‌Ryan‌ ‌Haywood.‌ ‌Fuck‌ ‌you‌ ‌for‌ ‌preying‌ ‌on‌ ‌vulnerable‌ ‌young‌ ‌girls‌ ‌
and‌ ‌young‌ ‌women.‌ ‌Fuck‌ ‌you‌ ‌for‌ ‌using‌ ‌your‌ ‌fame‌ ‌and‌ ‌power‌ ‌to‌ ‌hurt‌ ‌those‌ ‌
who‌ ‌trusted‌ ‌you.‌ ‌Fuck‌ ‌you‌ ‌for‌ ‌lying‌ ‌to‌ ‌all‌ ‌of‌ ‌us‌ ‌for‌ ‌‌years‌.‌ ‌Fuck‌ ‌you‌ ‌for‌ ‌being‌ ‌




someone‌ ‌who‌ ‌twisted‌ ‌the‌ ‌trust‌ ‌of‌ ‌thousands‌ ‌of‌ ‌people.‌ ‌Fuck‌ ‌you‌ ‌for‌ ‌hurting‌ ‌
Laurie.‌ ‌Fuck‌ ‌you‌ ‌for‌ ‌hurting‌ ‌Eli‌ ‌and‌ ‌Olivia.‌ ‌Fuck‌ ‌you‌ ‌for‌ ‌shattering‌ ‌this‌ ‌
community.‌ ‌Fuck‌ ‌you,‌ ‌fuck‌ ‌you,‌ ‌‌FUCK‌ ‌YOU‌.‌ ‌My‌ ‌only‌ ‌prayer‌ ‌for‌ ‌you‌ ‌is‌ ‌that‌ ‌
karma‌ ‌gives‌ ‌back‌ ‌to‌ ‌you‌ ‌all‌ ‌the‌ ‌pain‌ ‌and‌ ‌suffering‌ ‌you‌ ‌have‌ ‌put‌ ‌so‌ ‌many‌ ‌of‌ ‌
us‌ ‌through.‌
 
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In all honesty, I didn't think about the "plausible deniability" aspect of that story until just now (which makes me feel kind of dumb :story: ). Of course he'll insist that his kids are going to be all over him and that his wife won't help out - it makes his reason for wanting to stay behind an extra day sound much more understandable, even sympathetic. I had just assumed that the guys put it together that he was unhappy at home/cheating on his wife from Michael's retelling of the story, but now I wonder if they were empathizing with a lie. His wife had basically zero ties to RT, and I don't think she participated in any RT content at all, so I wouldn't be surprised if she never even heard the claim he made. Very interesting concept you've posited.

He has maintained a information firewall between his wife and his coworkers the entire time I've watched their content. Unlike every other employee's spouse (thats in content) she is an egnigma, black hole of information.

Which when he made that 2nd statement on twitter about people "threatening his family" made me think that if he was the only source of information about this, as he has always been the firewall between her and his job. If this was a deflection or attempt to prevent people presenting her information he was not giving her. Because as far as I know, none of his co-workers would even have her phone number to call her and talk to her.

To prefix even more, the on screen talent in AH often socialize at each others houses and other events. People go to Michaels house to play games, people to to Jerremys for board game nights. Alfrado comes over and helps people out with computer issues. Even the spouses form friendships, Jacks wife Cati vists Jerremys wife Kat and they spend time together completely unrelated to AH or RT, just two people hanging out. The context is their work relationship extends to a real friendship.

Ryan does not participate in this, nor does his wife (Maybe by his design?). People do not go to his house. He does not go to other peoples houses. I honestly think the only known recorded factual context of his work life interacting with his wife is lindsay jones (on screen talent and married to Micheal) talked to her on the phone, once. Ryan is only there when content is being filmed.

I am starting to get paranoid concpicy theory vibes that he created a massive 3+ year house of lies that involves every one in his life one way or another and we are watching it fall apart.
 
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