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So you bump this thread again after nearly a month just to throw a fit at somebody telling another person off for bumping it with a text wall of unarchived personal beef.
Kill yourself.
Onyx Forepaw
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So you bump this thread again after nearly a month just to throw a fit at somebody telling another person off for bumping it with a text wall of unarchived personal beef.
Kill yourself.
Snuffkin
kiwifarms.net
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Pfft I have archived evidence on this "trans" person. This fake ass "trans" person who literally made an account here just to try and deflect her shit and be all 'I'm a man respect my pronouns'.
Also, not throwing a fit.
So far all the evidence provided you've ignored anyway, just marked it as dumb. And then some 'inspect element' screens are super informative for you. Bit weird how that works.
New facebook name; Jeffrey Jellyfish.
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You’re MATI for having your un-archived spergout given negative internet points
Nobody’s ignored anything if it’s actually archived and interesting. You just haven’t provided anything interesting aside from your own autism. Also protip: we demand archives specifically because inspect element exists on top of it being a way to protect content against DFE. If you’re going to accuse people of falling for fake shit while you refuse to provide archives of the things you post, you’re going to get puzzle pieces. Live with it or kill yourself.
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The contemptuous tone you're taking very much implies you're throwing one.
That aside, you have posted none of this purported evidence you claim to have that proves @cheesitscheems is Onyx.
Being edgy and acting like trannies are just pretending is just the opposite end of the 'respect my pronouns' spectrum, as though you are trying to prove yourself superior to Onyx.
Tldr: lol calm down and post it or gtfo
Snuffkin
kiwifarms.net
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Tumblr Posts of Onyx, which they have since deleted;
Cutting your hair short now counts as being a 'transition';
Breaking up with a fictional character is so tough;
^ Scrolling down this you will see a Lord Commander body pillow they got.
Attraction to Gantu the guard from Lilo & Stitch;
Turned 24;
Disabled Messages for Non-Followers;
This is a 'big yikes';
The #hastags added at the bottom (#life completely crumbled beneath me with one phone call and continues to now)
Ask before you reblog their stuff;
Blocking someone because they reblogged something without asking first;
£200 Jacket bought;
^ They can't pay someone they owe money to because they have "rent arrears" and can't afford to but they can splash out on a £200 jacket??
They make plushies if you want to get one;
The Jaffa Cake ship;
Trying to get the creator of Final Space to make her ship canon;
Jess Commander;
"We are friends once again" - almost implying this is someone else they fell out with;
"How dare you ship this, he's mine"
Sees something upsetting on instagram and migrates to tumblr to say so;
Talks about 'winning the battle with mental health' ;
Claims to be respectful of other self shippers;
Gushing over Lord Commander;
^ Further scrolling here shows them talking about all the money they've spent on content of the character - but they can't pay back people they owe money to because of those damn rent arrears!
Don't ship this & also sad about LC;
Then they remade the whole tumblr;
Then it was deleted but seems to be back online now.
TLDR: Unless you say what this person wants to hear, you're a horrible person. /She/ has since sent her whiteknights to attack people and try to claim they're the bad people not herself.
Cutting your hair short now counts as being a 'transition';
Breaking up with a fictional character is so tough;
^ Scrolling down this you will see a Lord Commander body pillow they got.
Attraction to Gantu the guard from Lilo & Stitch;
Turned 24;
Disabled Messages for Non-Followers;
This is a 'big yikes';
The #hastags added at the bottom (#life completely crumbled beneath me with one phone call and continues to now)
Ask before you reblog their stuff;
Blocking someone because they reblogged something without asking first;
£200 Jacket bought;
^ They can't pay someone they owe money to because they have "rent arrears" and can't afford to but they can splash out on a £200 jacket??
They make plushies if you want to get one;
The Jaffa Cake ship;
Trying to get the creator of Final Space to make her ship canon;
Jess Commander;
"We are friends once again" - almost implying this is someone else they fell out with;
"How dare you ship this, he's mine"
Sees something upsetting on instagram and migrates to tumblr to say so;
Talks about 'winning the battle with mental health' ;
Claims to be respectful of other self shippers;
Gushing over Lord Commander;
^ Further scrolling here shows them talking about all the money they've spent on content of the character - but they can't pay back people they owe money to because of those damn rent arrears!
Don't ship this & also sad about LC;
Then they remade the whole tumblr;
Then it was deleted but seems to be back online now.
TLDR: Unless you say what this person wants to hear, you're a horrible person. /She/ has since sent her whiteknights to attack people and try to claim they're the bad people not herself.
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None of this is even remotely interesting, this person looks like just a standard ass dime a dozen FTM posting some of the most room temperature shit I’ve seen to tumblr along with tens of thousands of other people posting the exact same shit.
What makes this person stand out from every other generic tumblr user in existence? Because I’m seeing nothing. Their Bolt sperging absolutely deserves them a thread but if all you have to post about this person now is just generic posting with nothing interesting or even remotely entertaining, it’s not worth boosting a thread from 7 years ago over.
Congrats on learning to archive your shit, now learn how to put images in your posts so people don’t have to individually click on every single one of your archives links to see the content.
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There is a recurring trend amongst furries of making KF accounts just to bring their personal drama with stagnant lolcows onto necro'd threads.
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I'm Sorry Ms Pac Man
kiwifarms.net
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Whenever you join any established forum it’s smart to lurk for a bit to get a handle on the atmosphere. You came in tone deaf as hell and then get snappy when others properly rag on you for it. Take the hint and just let it go.
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Judging by choice comments such as:
snuftard said:
This ostensibly appears to be two people who have a vendetta against what is essentially a dead lolcow and trying to use KF to 'embarrass' them. This, of course, begs the question of whether the people joining KF specifically to sperg about a stale cow who hurt their feelings are lolcows themselves.
There's also the matter of that other Cheems guy specifically joining right after to deflect attention away from Onyx, which is sus in its own right.
Basically, this thread has been co-opted by autists to complain about people they don't like. At least do it on the designated personal army thread, rather than posting text walls of whinging here.
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Honestly surprised to see this thread back alive. (I know, I am the one poking it now)
Judging by the last posts here - mostly done by individuals who apparently interact with Onyx IRL (why?) - here a recap regarding everything that has happened. Enjoy, my darlings, before this thread goes back into a deep slumber. (And hopefully it will stay there this time)
For newcomers:
This is about "Onyx Forepaw" who now goes by the name "Jeff" (formerly "Jess"). As you can see in the initial post, this person became "famous" for being the self proclaimed #1 fan of the character "Bolt", a white talking dog - the main protagonist of a Disney movie.
Onyx / Jess / Jeff was active in the furry fandom and on DeviantArt, where she had a lot of beef with other individuals. Most of those fights were the result of her unhealthy devotion to the fictional character Bolt. If you are a long-time lurker, this may sound similar to "Atimon", the girl who had a similar obsession with the meerkat character from "The Lion King".
Back to the topic of Onyx/Jess: Every time an user on DA would post about being a fan of the character Bolt, Onyx would quite aggressively try to protect her spot as "Bolt's biggest #1 fan". This led to a lot of hate art drawn by Onyx targeting other users. The same thing happened on Furaffinity, where she got banned for this exact behavior. Issue wasn't only the hate art, but also her writing aggressive text walls / rants, targeted at everyone who just mentioned the name "Bolt". She also got banned for the creation of multiple sock puppet accounts on several sites.
Toxic:
Since she apparently comes from a dysfunctional home, a lot of her IRL friends took it upon themselves to white knight for her on several forums and sites (see KF here). Some people were pitying Jess and finding excuses for said horrendous behaviors. - Examples: using friends for money and benefits, attention whoring, lying and other things like faking her own suicide online. (Yes, that happened.)
Onyx is also known for being a furry vore fetishist - drawing and commissioning fetish artwork involving her furry self-insert OC. The vore fetish actually led her to try gaining weight IRL. While she started out with a perfectly regular weight, she is still following "her goal" of gaining weight.
Jess has lost a lot of friends due to her exceptional shitty behaviour, at example asking for money while claiming being poor af and unable to afford anything. This money then got invested into a fursuit, drugs (yes) or merchandise straight away. To make matters worse, those spendings have all been documented by herself in public posts on the internet.
There have been more lies and sagas and whatnot. Even to a point were the furry fandom went like "ew, no thanks".
What happened then:
Onyx / Jess was quite young, so the few remaining people who did not had her blocked (yet) said she was behaving horribly due to her young age and family history. Years have passed, Onyx is still showing the same behavior. Now being 24 years old, she is still drawing fan art of her (fat fetish) furry OC with Bolt, but also has developed a few other obsessions, which are all publicly showcased. She is a notorious "self-shipper", watching a lot of cartoon shows and drawing her character being in a relationship with a male character from those shows/ movies. Examples: Haida (furry character from the Netflix show Aggretsuko), a green alien character from the Netflix show "Final Space", Nick (furry fox character from the Disney movie Zootopia), the whale alien character from the Lilo and Stitch franchise, a random character from Dr. Seuss, more furry characters...
A recent drawing of Bolt:
She also started roleplaying as fictional characters like "Wakko" from the cartoon "Animaniacs", apparently believing this character is actually her.
Where we are now:
Nothing much has changed at all, but nobody cares anymore.
She has several Social Media accounts where she displays her obsession with her character pairings (green alien X self insert; furry character X self insert; Dr Seuss character X self insert)
Those drawings look horrible to put it nicely, and are rather unspectacular. Theme of this drawing is always self-shipping, with her self-insert being worshipped by a fictional boyfriend.
Several people have tried helping her IRL, but all failed or ended up being fucked over / exploited by Jess.
Once her horrible behavior comes up, she is directly going into the victim role and telling you about her "abusive past relationship" or "abusive family" instead of taking responsibility over her own actions. The displayed images here are from public sites by the way. Still reposting those is apparently a form of bullying in her eyes.
The newest arc:
She decided "being transgender".
(note: nothing against people who are trans, but this is obviously just for attention. Why? Because she put on a chest binder one time, then decided being genderfluid, and one week later changed it to being trans. Afterwards she "went through" the transition. All in like... one month? If you now call her by her "wrong" pronouns, she will block you or write a hate speech against you)
How to piss her off:
- tell her that she is not a hyena trapped in a human's body (she calls herself an otherkin)
- tell her that the fictional characters she loves are not real
- tell her she is a furry. She insists NOT being a furry, while running around in a fursuit and worshipping fictional anthro characters
- draw her character, but skinny
- draw any character French kissing the green evil alien from Final Space (she has a problem with people drawing "her" husband with other characters than herself)
- better do nothing of the above and just live your life. Simply because you got more important shit to do. <3
Judging by the last posts here - mostly done by individuals who apparently interact with Onyx IRL (why?) - here a recap regarding everything that has happened. Enjoy, my darlings, before this thread goes back into a deep slumber. (And hopefully it will stay there this time)
For newcomers:
This is about "Onyx Forepaw" who now goes by the name "Jeff" (formerly "Jess"). As you can see in the initial post, this person became "famous" for being the self proclaimed #1 fan of the character "Bolt", a white talking dog - the main protagonist of a Disney movie.
Onyx / Jess / Jeff was active in the furry fandom and on DeviantArt, where she had a lot of beef with other individuals. Most of those fights were the result of her unhealthy devotion to the fictional character Bolt. If you are a long-time lurker, this may sound similar to "Atimon", the girl who had a similar obsession with the meerkat character from "The Lion King".
Back to the topic of Onyx/Jess: Every time an user on DA would post about being a fan of the character Bolt, Onyx would quite aggressively try to protect her spot as "Bolt's biggest #1 fan". This led to a lot of hate art drawn by Onyx targeting other users. The same thing happened on Furaffinity, where she got banned for this exact behavior. Issue wasn't only the hate art, but also her writing aggressive text walls / rants, targeted at everyone who just mentioned the name "Bolt". She also got banned for the creation of multiple sock puppet accounts on several sites.
Toxic:
Since she apparently comes from a dysfunctional home, a lot of her IRL friends took it upon themselves to white knight for her on several forums and sites (see KF here). Some people were pitying Jess and finding excuses for said horrendous behaviors. - Examples: using friends for money and benefits, attention whoring, lying and other things like faking her own suicide online. (Yes, that happened.)
Onyx is also known for being a furry vore fetishist - drawing and commissioning fetish artwork involving her furry self-insert OC. The vore fetish actually led her to try gaining weight IRL. While she started out with a perfectly regular weight, she is still following "her goal" of gaining weight.
Jess has lost a lot of friends due to her exceptional shitty behaviour, at example asking for money while claiming being poor af and unable to afford anything. This money then got invested into a fursuit, drugs (yes) or merchandise straight away. To make matters worse, those spendings have all been documented by herself in public posts on the internet.
There have been more lies and sagas and whatnot. Even to a point were the furry fandom went like "ew, no thanks".
What happened then:
Onyx / Jess was quite young, so the few remaining people who did not had her blocked (yet) said she was behaving horribly due to her young age and family history. Years have passed, Onyx is still showing the same behavior. Now being 24 years old, she is still drawing fan art of her (fat fetish) furry OC with Bolt, but also has developed a few other obsessions, which are all publicly showcased. She is a notorious "self-shipper", watching a lot of cartoon shows and drawing her character being in a relationship with a male character from those shows/ movies. Examples: Haida (furry character from the Netflix show Aggretsuko), a green alien character from the Netflix show "Final Space", Nick (furry fox character from the Disney movie Zootopia), the whale alien character from the Lilo and Stitch franchise, a random character from Dr. Seuss, more furry characters...
A recent drawing of Bolt:
She also started roleplaying as fictional characters like "Wakko" from the cartoon "Animaniacs", apparently believing this character is actually her.
Where we are now:
Nothing much has changed at all, but nobody cares anymore.
She has several Social Media accounts where she displays her obsession with her character pairings (green alien X self insert; furry character X self insert; Dr Seuss character X self insert)
Those drawings look horrible to put it nicely, and are rather unspectacular. Theme of this drawing is always self-shipping, with her self-insert being worshipped by a fictional boyfriend.
Several people have tried helping her IRL, but all failed or ended up being fucked over / exploited by Jess.
Once her horrible behavior comes up, she is directly going into the victim role and telling you about her "abusive past relationship" or "abusive family" instead of taking responsibility over her own actions. The displayed images here are from public sites by the way. Still reposting those is apparently a form of bullying in her eyes.
The newest arc:
She decided "being transgender".
(note: nothing against people who are trans, but this is obviously just for attention. Why? Because she put on a chest binder one time, then decided being genderfluid, and one week later changed it to being trans. Afterwards she "went through" the transition. All in like... one month? If you now call her by her "wrong" pronouns, she will block you or write a hate speech against you)
How to piss her off:
- tell her that she is not a hyena trapped in a human's body (she calls herself an otherkin)
- tell her that the fictional characters she loves are not real
- tell her she is a furry. She insists NOT being a furry, while running around in a fursuit and worshipping fictional anthro characters
- draw her character, but skinny
- draw any character French kissing the green evil alien from Final Space (she has a problem with people drawing "her" husband with other characters than herself)
- better do nothing of the above and just live your life. Simply because you got more important shit to do. <3
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Once a cow, always a cow.Honestly surprised to see this thread back alive. (I know, I am the one poking it now)
Judging by the last posts here - mostly done by individuals who apparently interact with Onyx IRL (why?) - here a recap regarding everything that has happened. Enjoy, my darlings, before this thread goes back into a deep slumber. (And hopefully it will stay there this time)
For newcomers, welcome to the shit fest we call Jess / Jeff / Onyx Forepaw:
This is about "Onyx Forepaw" who now goes by the name "Jeff" (formerly "Jess"). As you can see in the initial post, this person is an autistic kid (now 24 years old) who became "famous" for being the self proclaimed #1 fan of the character "Bolt", a white talking dog, the main protagonist of a Disney movie.
Onyx / Jess / Jeff was active in the furry fandom and on DeviantArt, where she had a lot of beef with other individuals. Most of those fights were the result of her unhealthy devotion to the fictional character Bolt. If you are a long-time lurker, this may sound similar to "Atimon", the girl who had a similar obsession with the meerkat character from "The Lion King".
Back to the topic of Onyx: Everytime an user on DA would post about being a fan of the character Bolt, Onyx would quite aggressively try to protect her spot as "Bolt's biggest #1 fan". This led to a lot of hate art drawn by Onyx targeting other users. The same thing happened on Furaffinity, where she got banned for this exact behavior. Issue wasn't only the hate art, but autistic text wall rants, targeted at everyone who just mentioned the word "Bolt", as well as her creation of multiple sock puppet accounts on several sites.
Being a toxic person:
Onyx has a history of using people. Since she apparently comes from a dysfunctional home, a lot of her IRL friends took it upon themselves to white knight for her on several forums and sites (see KF here). Her obsession with Bolt and her overall actions were a clear cry for help. This led to people pitying Jess and finding excuses for said horrendous behaviors. - Examples: using friends for money and benefits, attention whoring, lying and other things like faking her own suicide. (Yes, that happened.)
Onyx is also known for being a furry vore fetishist - drawing and commissioning fetish artwork involving her unoriginal furry "Bolt's girlfriend" OC. The vore fetish actually led her to try gaining weight IRL. While she started out with a perfectly regular weight, she is still following "her goal" of gaining weight.
Jess has lost a lot of friends due to being an exceptional shitty human being, at example asking for money while claiming being poor af and unable to afford anything. This money then got invested into a fursuit, drugs (yes) or Bolt merchandise straight away. (Female Chris-chan everybody).
There have been more lies and sagas and whatnot. Even to a point were the furry fandom went like "ew, no thanks".
Onyx has been unemployed ever since. If she got a job, she was soon getting fired due to her not showing up to work / showing up too late.
What happened then:
Onyx / Jess was quite young, so the few remaining people who did not had her blocked (yet) said she was behaving horribly due to her young age and family history. Years have passed, Onyx is still unemployed and showing her attention whoring and abusive behavior. Now being 24 years old, she is still drawing fan art of her (fat fetish) furry OC with Bolt, but also has developed a few other obsessions, which are all publicly showcased. She is a notorious "self-shipper", watching a lot of cartoon shows and drawing her character being in a relationship with a male character from those shows/ movies. Examples: Haida (furry character from the Netflix show Aggretsuko), a green alien character from the autistic Netflix show "Final Space", Nick (furry fox character from the Disney movie Zootopia), the whale alien character from the Lilo and Stitch franchise, a random character from Dr. Seuss, more furry characters...
https://www.instagram.com/scousehyenaa/ (one of her 1 million Insta accounts, filled with furry artwork. Insta name / handle changes weekly)
Someone has not improved at drawing. A recent drawing of Bolt of course.
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She also started roleplaying as fictional characters like "Wakko" from the cartoon "Animatiacs" believing this character is actually her. Psychologically concerning and makes people falling for her bullshit also not look like the brightest candles on the cake.
The site where she lists her "kins": https://scousehyena.carrd.co
Her otherkin Instagram @hyena_irl (boring)
Where we are now:
Nothing much has changed at all, but nobody cares anymore.
She has several Social Media accounts where she displays her obsession with her character pairings (green alien X self insert; Nick X self insert; Dr Seuss character X self insert)
Those drawings look like they are done by a 10 year old and are rather unspectacular and just a documentation of a sad individual's life.
This is honestly concerning. Several people have tried helping her IRL, but all failed or ended up being fucked over / exploited by Jess.
Once her horrible behavior and shitty personality come up, she is directly going into the victim role and telling you about her "abusive past relationship" or "abusive family" instead of taking responsibility over her own actions. Victim complex.
The newest arc:
She decided "being transgender" since this apparently gets you lots of praise and attention. A simple act of attention whoring.
(note: nothing against people who are trans, but this is obviously just for attention. Please note that she announced being trans and then "went through" the transition in record time. Once people stop caring / kissing her butt for being such a proud trans person, she might drop the act)
How to piss her off:
- tell her that she is female
- tell her that she is not a hyena trapped in a human's body (she is an otherkin - surprise)
- tell her that the fictional characters she loves are not real and that they do not love her back
- tell her she is a furry. She insists NOT being a furry, while running around in a fursuit and wanting to fuck cartoon dogs
- write anything about her and her antics. She is online 24/7 due to being unemployed and having no life / no friends. Every word you write will be reacted to. (Hi Jess!
- draw her character, but skinny
- draw any character French kissing the green evil alien from Final Space
- better do nothing of the above and just live your life <3 Simply because this individual does not deserve a second of your time and you got more important shit to do. <3
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Follow-up:
To clarify on her latest obsession
Jess claims to be legally married to "Jack / Lord Commander", a green alien from the Netflix cartoon "Final Space".
Going too far:
Jess contacted Olan Rogers, the creator of "Final Space" and asked him to insert her self-insert / OC into the show.
The character / self-insert she wants to see in Final Space is her fursona.
Background info on this fursona: Jess is an otherkin - she believes in being a hyena, but does not want to be called a furry. Her self-insert is named "Jess". The name got changed to "Jeff" later on due to her coming out as transgender.
This self-insert is not exclusive to the “Final Space” universe. She inserts the same character into any fandom / show / movie, she follows.
Link to “bio” of the self-insert:
https://aminoapps.com/c/final_space/page/item/jess-the-hytrexian/6PwY_6e5UYIWP1ZDvlNo0EVe4EjjQL4YkN2
A YouTube video to "proof" to the creator of the show, Olan Rogers, that her self-insert / ship is canon.
(She called the video a “satire”, but invested quite some time in creating it)
Video title: "JessCommander is canon"
Same obsession that was shown for "Bolt" a few years prior:
Jess also writes fan fiction about her self-insert and her "fictional husband".
Additionally, there are tons of commissioned fan art flowing around. Judging by the quantity only she spent quite a bit of money on this.
On another topic: Fat Fetish (older entry, but might still shed some light on her fat / eating / vore / feeding fetish - also still relevant)
The best of both worlds: Final Space meets fat / feeding fetish
She commissioned an artist to create a body pillow of “Jack the alien” with bedroom eyes and holding a slice of pizza - this was posted 1-2 pages back I think - if you really want to see that.
Jess mentioned feeling uncomfortable if people would repost the image of the body pillow, but still posted it online - on a publicly accessible Tumblr page nonetheless.
To clarify on her latest obsession
Jess claims to be legally married to "Jack / Lord Commander", a green alien from the Netflix cartoon "Final Space".
Going too far:
Jess contacted Olan Rogers, the creator of "Final Space" and asked him to insert her self-insert / OC into the show.
The character / self-insert she wants to see in Final Space is her fursona.
Background info on this fursona: Jess is an otherkin - she believes in being a hyena, but does not want to be called a furry. Her self-insert is named "Jess". The name got changed to "Jeff" later on due to her coming out as transgender.
This self-insert is not exclusive to the “Final Space” universe. She inserts the same character into any fandom / show / movie, she follows.
Link to “bio” of the self-insert:
https://aminoapps.com/c/final_space/page/item/jess-the-hytrexian/6PwY_6e5UYIWP1ZDvlNo0EVe4EjjQL4YkN2
A YouTube video to "proof" to the creator of the show, Olan Rogers, that her self-insert / ship is canon.
(She called the video a “satire”, but invested quite some time in creating it)
Video title: "JessCommander is canon"
Same obsession that was shown for "Bolt" a few years prior:
Jess also writes fan fiction about her self-insert and her "fictional husband".
Additionally, there are tons of commissioned fan art flowing around. Judging by the quantity only she spent quite a bit of money on this.
On another topic: Fat Fetish (older entry, but might still shed some light on her fat / eating / vore / feeding fetish - also still relevant)
The best of both worlds: Final Space meets fat / feeding fetish
She commissioned an artist to create a body pillow of “Jack the alien” with bedroom eyes and holding a slice of pizza - this was posted 1-2 pages back I think - if you really want to see that.
Jess mentioned feeling uncomfortable if people would repost the image of the body pillow, but still posted it online - on a publicly accessible Tumblr page nonetheless.
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alright i've had just about enough of this nonsense, heres the facts, i'm putting this to rest. whether anyone chooses to listen or not is not my concern, i've then said my bit and can move on. probably not 'farms etiquette' or whatever but fuck it
my name is Jeff, i have had gender dysphoria all of my life, and it has gone unaddressed due to my difficult home life and adulthood (that you're all very much aware of, to my knowledge). my name is Jeff on all my legal documentation, including my bank, my tenancy and landlord agreements, my doctors and medical records, my passport (including its gender changed to male), my government details such as benefits and what USA would call social security - it's been changed across the board, i've never been so certain of myself in all my life. i received a diagnosis from a private GP as apposed to being on the NHS waiting list for several years; this attributed to how fast the process was compared to others in my region. i was passed for a diagnosis of gender dysphoria, and i'm awaiting an appointment letter from an endocrinologist in my city to start hormone therapy. i don't know what basis these "fake trans" accusations will have in 2 years time when my voice has dropped and i've got a better beard than all of you. that accusation is on a very fine time limit.
what Manic (yes it was him reactivating the thread with blind stupidity and using two aliases on this thread to cover himself weaponising this thread, i know his typing style anywhere his masking and alibi is mediocre at best) failed to mention was the 2+ hour phone call i had with the guy explaining my history with dysphoria and in-congruence right back to childhood, and his supposed acceptance of such. and the rest of you! dont even bloody know me! didn't see all the time i spent out privately to my friends but not out on social media, exploring my new identity and coming to terms with things before going public. wasn't just some drop off decision, i finally got the chance to be myself this year and the pieces all just fit together. my doctor certainly knows more than any of you lot do about the topic. and the person who DID know more about the topic (Manic) failed to present this information out of pure bleedin spite because i ended the friendship with him after he'd made me feel uncomfortable in many ways (digging into my story, trans gatekeeping, random sexual remarks from many years, all the shit on twitter i honestly dont know, not my business, never wanted any part in his nonsense but stuck by him despite that for as long as i bloody could) - he had all this info, he's known me for as long as he had, he just chose to reactivate a dead thread no one clearly cared about in some petty spite move because i didn't want to be his friend anymore. he spun the story to his own benefit because he's petty. he's done this to other people, and he's done it to me too, can't imagine i'll be the last. he's a grown ass 30 yr old adult c'mon! be better.
while i'm at it, i'm not cheems, i honestly don't know who they are and would have rather not have had a mole on my accounts, as you can see if i had any place to respond i'd damn well just do it myself. Manic would get so defensive over that twitter thread being brought up, and it's none of my business, he can sort his own battles. i'm here to sort my own and then drop.
but i digress - yea, my interests are pretty out there, i'm by no means in denial that what i do for fun is a bit odd, yeah! i own it, as do the THOUSANDS of others who all also self ship, have kins, weird kinks, it aint just me i assure you that. it's becoming more and more common place as time goes on and while the numbers of people just being happy and being themselves increases, the less leverage this outdated site will have in ragging on folks for it. the way what i say online is taken beat for beat seriously is ludicrous. i have an enormous sense of self especially this year - i'm fully aware that i am human, i use the term otherkin very lightly, i don't go out stickin tails on and running through the woods pretending i'm an animal. i am human, i am aware i am not a hyena, nor any of the characters i claim to be "me" - it's literally just a term of phrase. it means we share a lot of similar attributes, the real me 1:1 shtick is literally just part of the fun, and it's not something i or many other of the kinnies i know actually take at face value. you're really clutching at straws with any of this. additionally for not using the furry label - that's just it, a label. i have anthro characters, i made a costume of that character, very "furry" like traits yeah, but i don't use the label, so therefore, i'm not. i'm fine with that, the friends i keep who do use the label are fine with that, it's bollocks, moving on.
same goes for my self ships - the irl husband thing is just a shtick guys, it really is - i'm grey romantic, i'm quite happy just being single and living for myself and my friends and family, i'm fully aware i've not gone through any marital ceremony with anyone real or fictional, to take these terms literally when thousands of other self shippers do the same is just absurd! the creators of final space are always active and talking to the fans, and i thought i'd throw in a passing line or joke on reddit, or throw together a funny video in an hour to point out some funny coincidence or whatever, i'm not taking it as seriously as you think i am. i'm not that interesting, really, several people on this thread have even said it themselves, the cow is stale as they put it - no one fucking cares. everyone stopped caring about dumbass onyx forepaw like 6 years ago man, it's such a waste of time.
one of you really had the hypocritical cheek to be like "oh yea he has no job and spends all his time on the internet" whilst making a friggin 10 page essay on a stranger on the internet and why they're a knob with all these incorrect facts and no research. you write that on your lunch break or summat? thousands of people are unemployed this year, lost their businesses, been laid off, furlough wasn't enough to support them, that feeling is mutually exclusive with the whole fucking world right now champ. i was actually going to be moving to work related ESA at the start of this year, i'd undergone enough health support to finally feel comfortable seeking work, and was in the movements to do so - and then, yanno, the world shat itself, and i was back to square one. cest la vie, if you lot can bugger off for good this time i can actually focus on my recovery and be back in work by the start of next year, if that'd make any of you eejits satisfied. the talk of lying to and manipulating my friends and not taking accountability for my actions simply just is not true. anyone who actually knows me, like really actually knows me (knows me enough to actually get the list of characters i ship with correct, not a stranger with half a story), knows i absolutely fall over myself apologising to people for the slightest mistake (and even for things that arent mistakes but i still hold myself accountable, gotta love anxiety). i bend over backwards for people i love, often suppressing my own emotions to see others succeed and not taking care of myself. i cut people i deem harmful or toxic out of my life, and i don't view myself as a toxic individual - believe me, i would hold onto it for months if i started to view myself as such. addressing the past, i hold a lot of guilt and regret for the onyx days, to this day. i feel as though the reprimand i received back then, the ones that didn't take it to the extreme, were justified. i've had people from those days find me from ED, inform me that they have seen a change in me that is vastly different from who i was back then, and we remain good friends to this day! i had a bad coping mechanism for a bad situation and i fully admit that. the suicide attempt wasn't fake, again, anyone who actually knows me would know that, spreading false information to that degree is extremely harmful. but then, that's just the farms' shtick innit, just being extremely harmful with no purpose. see when farms is used correctly - going after actual pedos, zoos, genuinely depraved people who need to be cancelled - that i can see as a good use of this website and the users time. i've seen the group effort of the people on here be impressive at taking down actual criminals and finding actual genuine information. i watch youtube videos and streams about such takedowns all the time, it really is tactful and great when people come together for a deserving cause. but for.. this? really? is this really a justified use of the websites resources and users time? just to be like hur hur look at this knob they do a self ship. just feels like a massive waste of time.
regarding onyx forepaw as my last statement - that whole thing has been the butt of me and my mates jokes for YEARS now. ever since i dropped it in what, 2013? seven fucking years ago?? it's been nothing but a hoohaa do you remember that funny shit between my friend groups. my friends jokingly call themselves the 'true number one fan ever' of things they get into and i laugh and encourage it! i make the jokes myself. i'm completely self aware of who i was, and who i am now, and the two arent in the same fucking league. once was a cow, now just one of thousands of others who have the same casual artistic hobby of self insert characters and characters we relate to. i just so happen to be trans on top, whooptidoo, i could name at least 5 other people in my general mutual circle who fit literally all of those perimeters, there's nothing about me that makes me different from any of them. onyx is a joke to yall, and it is to me as well, you may laugh along with me! it was dumb, i was too defensive over summat that didnt matter cus it was the only sense of control i had in my life back then, but now me and my family have all made wonderful amends this year. i've got a sense of control over my life now, and don't need to dominate some little community with a stupid iron fist because i don't need to cling onto anything for emotional support now. i used to be really open about the weird furry kinks which, again, i raise my hands to, i don't choose to deny i have weird interests, but again! there are thousands of people that do, i'm no different from the others! i've realised that putting it so publicly on display was not only gross but very exposing, and i keep it to myself now, as seen from the weasyl journal in 2016, i don't want to interact with anyone about it and it's a part of my private life. side note, the pizza was added by my friend as a joke, but i thought it was funny and kept it in there, posted it on tumblr for shits n gigs but asked for no reblogs, nowt criminal about that. i deleted my blog but tumblr keeps logs public, as do folks taking screenshots, so there you go, lesson learned. we're all only human and we have to make mistakes to learn from them.
i'm not going to completely censor myself because of this thread however. i know who i was, and i know who i am, and i know that what i'm doing now is not harmful in any way. i have a full sense of self, and the content i create and wording i use is not and will never be in a literal one for one reality shift sense. the art may not be spectacular, but i'm satisfied with it. thousands of others like me post the exact same sort of content all the time, on public accounts, and with my past well and truly out of the way i have every right to do so as well. i have my self ships and my kin characters and they HELP in coping, they assist, but it's not the only defining factor. it's not something i need to believe as reality in order to get by every day, and taking the little mannerisms and phrases as literal truth is meaningless. i'm in the middle of CBT this year, i'm coping a lot better with my mental health despite what any of you lot might think, that i'm this unhinged delusional manipulative nutcase. i'm just like anyone else, a grown ass adult living in his own flat, paying bills n rent n getting on with life innit. "but self shipping and having dumb body pillows and weird kinks isnt like anyone else!" chief there are SO MANY people like me out there, we're doing just fine.
don't take everything you see on the internet at face value, or you'll end up one of them scamdemic flat earth believers innit. it's been a long time guys, really, it's been a really stupidly long time and it's gettin real old. focus your energy on someone relevant and actually harmful, like the hundreds of actual scammers, pedophiles, zoophiles, all the people that the farms actually does a lot of good in taking down. cheers
my name is Jeff, i have had gender dysphoria all of my life, and it has gone unaddressed due to my difficult home life and adulthood (that you're all very much aware of, to my knowledge). my name is Jeff on all my legal documentation, including my bank, my tenancy and landlord agreements, my doctors and medical records, my passport (including its gender changed to male), my government details such as benefits and what USA would call social security - it's been changed across the board, i've never been so certain of myself in all my life. i received a diagnosis from a private GP as apposed to being on the NHS waiting list for several years; this attributed to how fast the process was compared to others in my region. i was passed for a diagnosis of gender dysphoria, and i'm awaiting an appointment letter from an endocrinologist in my city to start hormone therapy. i don't know what basis these "fake trans" accusations will have in 2 years time when my voice has dropped and i've got a better beard than all of you. that accusation is on a very fine time limit.
what Manic (yes it was him reactivating the thread with blind stupidity and using two aliases on this thread to cover himself weaponising this thread, i know his typing style anywhere his masking and alibi is mediocre at best) failed to mention was the 2+ hour phone call i had with the guy explaining my history with dysphoria and in-congruence right back to childhood, and his supposed acceptance of such. and the rest of you! dont even bloody know me! didn't see all the time i spent out privately to my friends but not out on social media, exploring my new identity and coming to terms with things before going public. wasn't just some drop off decision, i finally got the chance to be myself this year and the pieces all just fit together. my doctor certainly knows more than any of you lot do about the topic. and the person who DID know more about the topic (Manic) failed to present this information out of pure bleedin spite because i ended the friendship with him after he'd made me feel uncomfortable in many ways (digging into my story, trans gatekeeping, random sexual remarks from many years, all the shit on twitter i honestly dont know, not my business, never wanted any part in his nonsense but stuck by him despite that for as long as i bloody could) - he had all this info, he's known me for as long as he had, he just chose to reactivate a dead thread no one clearly cared about in some petty spite move because i didn't want to be his friend anymore. he spun the story to his own benefit because he's petty. he's done this to other people, and he's done it to me too, can't imagine i'll be the last. he's a grown ass 30 yr old adult c'mon! be better.
while i'm at it, i'm not cheems, i honestly don't know who they are and would have rather not have had a mole on my accounts, as you can see if i had any place to respond i'd damn well just do it myself. Manic would get so defensive over that twitter thread being brought up, and it's none of my business, he can sort his own battles. i'm here to sort my own and then drop.
but i digress - yea, my interests are pretty out there, i'm by no means in denial that what i do for fun is a bit odd, yeah! i own it, as do the THOUSANDS of others who all also self ship, have kins, weird kinks, it aint just me i assure you that. it's becoming more and more common place as time goes on and while the numbers of people just being happy and being themselves increases, the less leverage this outdated site will have in ragging on folks for it. the way what i say online is taken beat for beat seriously is ludicrous. i have an enormous sense of self especially this year - i'm fully aware that i am human, i use the term otherkin very lightly, i don't go out stickin tails on and running through the woods pretending i'm an animal. i am human, i am aware i am not a hyena, nor any of the characters i claim to be "me" - it's literally just a term of phrase. it means we share a lot of similar attributes, the real me 1:1 shtick is literally just part of the fun, and it's not something i or many other of the kinnies i know actually take at face value. you're really clutching at straws with any of this. additionally for not using the furry label - that's just it, a label. i have anthro characters, i made a costume of that character, very "furry" like traits yeah, but i don't use the label, so therefore, i'm not. i'm fine with that, the friends i keep who do use the label are fine with that, it's bollocks, moving on.
same goes for my self ships - the irl husband thing is just a shtick guys, it really is - i'm grey romantic, i'm quite happy just being single and living for myself and my friends and family, i'm fully aware i've not gone through any marital ceremony with anyone real or fictional, to take these terms literally when thousands of other self shippers do the same is just absurd! the creators of final space are always active and talking to the fans, and i thought i'd throw in a passing line or joke on reddit, or throw together a funny video in an hour to point out some funny coincidence or whatever, i'm not taking it as seriously as you think i am. i'm not that interesting, really, several people on this thread have even said it themselves, the cow is stale as they put it - no one fucking cares. everyone stopped caring about dumbass onyx forepaw like 6 years ago man, it's such a waste of time.
one of you really had the hypocritical cheek to be like "oh yea he has no job and spends all his time on the internet" whilst making a friggin 10 page essay on a stranger on the internet and why they're a knob with all these incorrect facts and no research. you write that on your lunch break or summat? thousands of people are unemployed this year, lost their businesses, been laid off, furlough wasn't enough to support them, that feeling is mutually exclusive with the whole fucking world right now champ. i was actually going to be moving to work related ESA at the start of this year, i'd undergone enough health support to finally feel comfortable seeking work, and was in the movements to do so - and then, yanno, the world shat itself, and i was back to square one. cest la vie, if you lot can bugger off for good this time i can actually focus on my recovery and be back in work by the start of next year, if that'd make any of you eejits satisfied. the talk of lying to and manipulating my friends and not taking accountability for my actions simply just is not true. anyone who actually knows me, like really actually knows me (knows me enough to actually get the list of characters i ship with correct, not a stranger with half a story), knows i absolutely fall over myself apologising to people for the slightest mistake (and even for things that arent mistakes but i still hold myself accountable, gotta love anxiety). i bend over backwards for people i love, often suppressing my own emotions to see others succeed and not taking care of myself. i cut people i deem harmful or toxic out of my life, and i don't view myself as a toxic individual - believe me, i would hold onto it for months if i started to view myself as such. addressing the past, i hold a lot of guilt and regret for the onyx days, to this day. i feel as though the reprimand i received back then, the ones that didn't take it to the extreme, were justified. i've had people from those days find me from ED, inform me that they have seen a change in me that is vastly different from who i was back then, and we remain good friends to this day! i had a bad coping mechanism for a bad situation and i fully admit that. the suicide attempt wasn't fake, again, anyone who actually knows me would know that, spreading false information to that degree is extremely harmful. but then, that's just the farms' shtick innit, just being extremely harmful with no purpose. see when farms is used correctly - going after actual pedos, zoos, genuinely depraved people who need to be cancelled - that i can see as a good use of this website and the users time. i've seen the group effort of the people on here be impressive at taking down actual criminals and finding actual genuine information. i watch youtube videos and streams about such takedowns all the time, it really is tactful and great when people come together for a deserving cause. but for.. this? really? is this really a justified use of the websites resources and users time? just to be like hur hur look at this knob they do a self ship. just feels like a massive waste of time.
regarding onyx forepaw as my last statement - that whole thing has been the butt of me and my mates jokes for YEARS now. ever since i dropped it in what, 2013? seven fucking years ago?? it's been nothing but a hoohaa do you remember that funny shit between my friend groups. my friends jokingly call themselves the 'true number one fan ever' of things they get into and i laugh and encourage it! i make the jokes myself. i'm completely self aware of who i was, and who i am now, and the two arent in the same fucking league. once was a cow, now just one of thousands of others who have the same casual artistic hobby of self insert characters and characters we relate to. i just so happen to be trans on top, whooptidoo, i could name at least 5 other people in my general mutual circle who fit literally all of those perimeters, there's nothing about me that makes me different from any of them. onyx is a joke to yall, and it is to me as well, you may laugh along with me! it was dumb, i was too defensive over summat that didnt matter cus it was the only sense of control i had in my life back then, but now me and my family have all made wonderful amends this year. i've got a sense of control over my life now, and don't need to dominate some little community with a stupid iron fist because i don't need to cling onto anything for emotional support now. i used to be really open about the weird furry kinks which, again, i raise my hands to, i don't choose to deny i have weird interests, but again! there are thousands of people that do, i'm no different from the others! i've realised that putting it so publicly on display was not only gross but very exposing, and i keep it to myself now, as seen from the weasyl journal in 2016, i don't want to interact with anyone about it and it's a part of my private life. side note, the pizza was added by my friend as a joke, but i thought it was funny and kept it in there, posted it on tumblr for shits n gigs but asked for no reblogs, nowt criminal about that. i deleted my blog but tumblr keeps logs public, as do folks taking screenshots, so there you go, lesson learned. we're all only human and we have to make mistakes to learn from them.
i'm not going to completely censor myself because of this thread however. i know who i was, and i know who i am, and i know that what i'm doing now is not harmful in any way. i have a full sense of self, and the content i create and wording i use is not and will never be in a literal one for one reality shift sense. the art may not be spectacular, but i'm satisfied with it. thousands of others like me post the exact same sort of content all the time, on public accounts, and with my past well and truly out of the way i have every right to do so as well. i have my self ships and my kin characters and they HELP in coping, they assist, but it's not the only defining factor. it's not something i need to believe as reality in order to get by every day, and taking the little mannerisms and phrases as literal truth is meaningless. i'm in the middle of CBT this year, i'm coping a lot better with my mental health despite what any of you lot might think, that i'm this unhinged delusional manipulative nutcase. i'm just like anyone else, a grown ass adult living in his own flat, paying bills n rent n getting on with life innit. "but self shipping and having dumb body pillows and weird kinks isnt like anyone else!" chief there are SO MANY people like me out there, we're doing just fine.
don't take everything you see on the internet at face value, or you'll end up one of them scamdemic flat earth believers innit. it's been a long time guys, really, it's been a really stupidly long time and it's gettin real old. focus your energy on someone relevant and actually harmful, like the hundreds of actual scammers, pedophiles, zoophiles, all the people that the farms actually does a lot of good in taking down. cheers
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You writing an entire word salad in response isn't any better, nor will it convince people of whatever innocence you're professing. If you're going to come onto an internet gossip forum to defend your 'besmirched' name, please do invest some time in editing your grand statement so that people will actually bother to read it.
A massive wall of text is a waste of your time that people will skim past after the first few sentences, especially after horrendous punctuation, and only cement our pre-existing opinions of you. And get someone to look over and edit it, too.
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'you have bad grammar and punctuation' is the laziest most childish excuse i've ever heard to deflect someone's genuine response to a too-long drawn out situation. it tells me that no matter how it was written, you wouldn't want to change your opinion, even if it's factually incorrect and stated otherwise. my statement is legible, and i have no more to invest in this absolute tripe, it didn't deserve my full typing effort. this is over now, move on to the next cow
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FTFY
I’m at work, so I won’t be able to follow along with this, but I feel like today’s going to be fun.
I’ll enjoy reading over your sperg-out later on.
Have a good day, and try to use less words.
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For someone who is "over the whole thing" and "laughing about it", you seem quite mad about the whole thing, darling. Also all info here is stuff you posted publicly. If you don't want people to laugh about your weird-ass fetishes, then do not post them online.
