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I agree about his mom being an enabler and not getting him on meds earlier in life, but I will say that he has been on meds in the past, like during/immediately after his involuntary psych commitments. So he does know what it feels like to be medicated, although whether he knows what it feels like to be "near normal" I doubt. From the videos where he's medicated, he's still caught in the same obsessive thought loop about teen pussy and bigotry and how unfair it is the world doesn't hand him everything he wants for no effort. He's just talking about that shit more calmly and not ranting and screaming into his phone. I don't know exactly what Lucas' major malfunction is, I think schizoaffective is a good armchair psychologist guess since he seems to have both bipolar symptoms like mood swings and schizo symptoms like audio hallucinations and delusional thinking. One other thing I've heard that may be a reason he doesn't take meds is that some bipolar types will avoid them because they enjoy the manic phase. It's energizing and possibly even euphoric, although for Lucas we've seen that it can also be angry-manic. Manic phase is also probably when Lucas is able to reach those highs of smug arrogance and convince himself for a short time that he's an amazing handsome genius who all the girls secretly lust after etc. But eventually the thought will intrude: if I'm so great, why am I homeless, alone, mocked on the internet etc. and, unwilling to consider that maybe he's not plenty good, he begins to rail against this horrible unfair world full of bigots and malevolent voices on the wind. Maybe angry-manic is also fun for him, in a way? I know I don't enjoy being angry but I know for some people self righteous anger is like a drug.I'm of the mind that the reason he doesn't take his meds, is because his mom is/was an enabler, and never made him take his medicine, so he has no idea of what being somewhere near normal feels like, and if his mom didn't make him take them, it probably made him think he was perfect, and has zero need for meds, because he's plenty good.
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