I'm an FTMTF detransitioner, and this thread makes me thank the universe every single goddamn day that I broke out of the trans spell.
It is so profoundly disturbing to me how much crucial information about these life-changing medical procedures is intentionally obscured and downplayed by trans activists, gender therapists and doctors. I don't know how much detail is worth going into, but suffice it to say that I feel like I was taken advantage of by those people at an incredibly vulnerable point in my life. It is astonishing to think about how truly little effort my gender therapist put into assessing if I actually had genuine gender dysphoria. At no point was the idea even alluded to that maybe my gender issues were a result of any one of the million other issues that were going on in my life.
Unfortunately, it took 5 years of testosterone (with some interruptions in treatment for various reasons) and cutting my tits off for me to realize how much I regretted transitioning. But I'm lucky—my detransition is going fairly well, and my estrogen is steadily re-feminizing my body. When I read this thread, I shudder to think what might have happened to me if I hadn't snapped out of it. I had contemplated if I wanted SRS for a long time. Now O look at all the horrific FTM surgery pics here and contemplate the nightmarish alternate reality where I would have ended up like that, with no way to reverse it.
Now I'm imagining what would have happened if I were born male and fell down the trans rabbithole. The main reason I decided definitively against SRS while I was still identifying as trans was that even most trans people admit phalloplasties look ridiculous. But I had always been told by EVERYONE the lie that vaginoplasties are all soooo realistic that they "fool gynecologists". Imagine being promised you'd have a real vagina by everyone around you only to be left with one of these butcher jobs and the subsequent realization that you actually want to return to living as male. I can't imagine what that kind of regret must be like. I mean, Christ, at least I can get breast implants... It's just so disturbing and heartwrenching to think about the people like me who didn't snap out of it until it was far too late.
Sorry for the rant. KF is one of the few places I know I can feel comfortable venting about this crazy ass shit.