Amber's live. I'm 10 minutes late, but Amber is complaining that Becky was lahing again.
Amber said that Becky would constantly buy cheap crap with Amber's money to the point where Amber kept getting alerts of fraud from (and I quote) "MY bank!!!!!" Amber is claiming Becky went on massive spending sprees with Amber's money.
Amber claims that a "mutual friend" of her and Becky's texted Amber that Becky was using them and how horrible it was. This conversation allegedly happened on Jan 9, 2024, Amber claims.
Amber's jumping all over the place trashing Becky left and right. Now she's saying Becky would refuse to get a job. "I'm going insane. GENUEEEEENLY, you guys are watching someone go insane! If I was lying about this financial bullshit, I'd straight up say 'Yeah Beck is telling the truth!' Even if it makes me look fucking horrific."
Amber: "There was NEVER a 'Oh I'm your employer..."
Except she did. I remember the live when she said it. Straight to Becky's face. I watched it live when it happened during the livestream Amber/Becky breakup era. She's a lah.
Amber: "Did you notice they literally can't keep a job???"
The best part of this is watching a classic narc meltdown. It's like she's throwing an emotional temper tantrum and it's obvious how hard she's panicking. Jumping from one "Becky is an asshole" random topic to another, not being able to keep on task for more than a minute.
Amber: "Salty Crab kisses Beck's ass so hard, I'm surprised they don't have shit on their nose. Reaction channels can only think of one way: that Amberlynn is bad. And that's scary. That's GENUEEEEENLY scary."
Now she's talking about her hair. "I'm just a normal human who's fat and it's hard. But I do everything myself." (this is about brushing her own hair)
Amber: "I was good sometimes. They were good sometimes. I was bad sometimes. They were bad sometimes. I can take accountability for that, but they sure can't."
Amber: "I wish we could move past things that were personal."
She's now going on a long rant how she's been silenced for so long. She mentions her horrible childhood and how she's been silent about everything, how her foster care experience was so horrible but she was silent about everything, how she never sticks up for herself but now she is and she's in sooooo much pain over some people in the chat who don't believe her. "Now I have an ex who it lidurally torturing me!"
"People hate when I talk about why I am the way I am, which is so fucking weird to me."
"Imagine me, someone with
BEEPEEDEE, enduring this TORTURE! Like it's lidurally TORTURE!!! You guise just don't understand!"
Incoming fake tears.
Amber complains that Becky never takes accountability for anything, how Amber has taken accountability for "this and that and this other thing" but Becky has lidurally never talks about anything Becky's done wrong and it's soooo unfair!
Amber is now complaining that Becky's sister has blocked her on Facebook. Amber claims that they were super friendly. How Amber would send messages to Becky's sister things like "You're in my thoughts" and other kind things, but what did they do to repay her? Block her! Boohoo. "That happened lidurally today that I got blocked. For the longest, we were still friends."
Amber: "I wish more than anything Beck would show the receipts to their Uber job. Show them. Show them. Show them. Show them. Show them."
Amber's glitching.
Amber: "The best money I made on Youtube is $200k/year. So you're telling me someone who brushed my hair, one time over a few months, deserves $200k? Beck had free range to LIDURALLY every penny to what I made. Beck had free range to it. All of it."
Amber: "I'm a victim to my ex lying, spreading personal information. With the whole rag thing, Beck is out for vengeance. So now it's my turn."
Amber: "Beck's current partner is actually a hater of mine. So yeah, I'd say that is a red flag."
Amber then goes into threatening mode. "I'm telling you, right now, I'm strictly defending myself and trying to prove that Becky isn't this innocent little flower child. Maybe it'll be my turn to sit down and be like "Alright guys, here it is. Here's all the random tea." Exactly what Becky is doing."
Chat: "All you have to do is not talk about Beck and that's it."
Amber: "I wish you could sit and marinate in that. So my ex is allowed to talk about me, but I'm not allowed to defend myself?"
Amber: "NONE of the money you gave Beck for the car went to the car. It didn't go to the car! That's information I've known for so long but kept silent about it."
Amber: "There's a part of me that is telling me 'Amberlynn, do not release personal information, do not do that." So there is a part of me that is stopping me from doing that."
She then picks up her phone and starts texting someone in silence for a long, long time. No context is given.
She reads a few chat messages for a few minutes, a sound comes from her phone indicating an incoming message, Amber smiles, then spends more time silently texting.
Amber: "Remember the time when I said "Yeah I spent $3k/month on takeout." That's when I was with BECK." She talks about how they were constantly going out to eat and spending money when they were dating.
So Becky forcibly made Amber spend $3k/month on Doordash?
Amber: "I'm going to be alone forever. Because everyone betrays me. Everyone." She then starts laughing. Maybe something from the chat. Maybe not. I'm not sure.
Amber: "People are so far up Beck's butthole, they're not thinking straight at all."
Amber talks about how sometimes she messes up and calls Becky "Becky" instead of Beck after knowing her as Becky for years and years. She says that even though she messes up and wants to get Becky's name right, she says it's unfair that she's always said she wants to be called Amberlynn, but Becky calls her "Amber."
Amber: "That [Amber's name] is something I've made
very clear" but apparently Becky is sooooo awful to call Amber Amber instead of her PREFERRED NAME AMBERLYNN. Anyone who calls her Amber instead of Amberlynn is being dispekful.
This is so stupid. People freaking out over Becky/Beck is just as stupid as Amber freaking out over Amberlynn/Amber. No one cares.
Amber then starts humblebragging about pronouns and how the chat has opened her eyes about Becky wanting to be called Beck because it ties into being nonbinary and how supportive Amber is about it. Amber not so subtly performs the dance of showing how open-minded, amazeeeeeng, and caring Amber is for caring about pronouns and being nonbinary.
Amber: "I actually want to be called Amberlynn. I didn't realize some people didn't know that, but yeah."
We're deadnaming Amber if we call her Amber, guys. She wants to be called Amberlynn.
Anyway, so then Amber starts talking about how people DM her random stuff.
Someone in the chat mentions Amber confessing she was in love with Destiny for the entire first half of Amber and Becky's relationship. Amber talks about how Becky confessed to being in love with her ex, Brook, when Amber and Becky first got together. "And that's okay? They weren't honest."
Amber: "The last time I cheated on someone, I was 17 years old and it was on Casey. Yeah. I was seventeen years old!"
17 is old enough to know not to cheat, she's acting like 17 year olds are constantly tripping and going "oops I accidentally cheated! Not my fault, I'm 17."
The chat pushes back and Amber brushes it off again with "I was 17 fucking years old. I'm now 34."
Chat: "Do you think it's valid to cheat?"
Amber: "No. Never."
Amber insists again that Becky only brushed Amber's hair twice when they were together.
Amber mentions wanting to stop the livestream early. She says she has a vlog set to drop tomorrow.
The chat complains her vlogs are prerecorded so the content will be irrelevant.
Amber: "Lucky for you, tomorrow's video is the only one that's pre-recorded and then I'm peacing out."
Amber claims so many people are harassing her over how Amber treated Becky that Amber now needs a break from Youtube and social media.
Amber says she needs to take a step back, her mental health is bad, and she's "spiraling." Why is it that every toxic person ever says they're "spiraling"? Do they think that gives them pity points or something? Do they think that makes people care?
Amber says Mr. Snowflake is constantly talking about her body and sexually harasses her. And Jordy is constantly talking about her body, too.
Amber: "He [Mr. Snowflake] sexually harasses me frequently, actually. I don't care if he's joking or not. It's fucking sexual harassment."
Or when Eric and Amber were in his room and he was lighting 4 candles and placed them around her?
