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Youuuuuuuuuu......guiseeeeeeeee.........she is a daintyyyyy withthwe princess in a fat suit.....you don't understand
Amberlynn Reid - 600 pound pathological liar and U-Haul lesbian moving in with her next live-in maid/nurse/girlfriend.
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Remember what I said about feeders not being sexual with their pig. They almost always have someone else they're actually fucking. Some even actually have a spouse.
Some, if confronted about this, would even reason that the pig does things that the feeder would NEVER ask their real partner to do.
Because they love/respect that person too much.
This will be Fat Albert's LAH-f
Love that for HURR!
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I've only known one person who had it and he died of it. He also had cancer which is why he got it, according to the doctor.
dfranki723
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I know her getting cellulitis so much may make sense because she's a disgusting fat beast but is this something she's self diagnosing? I gotta wonder if she's just automatically labelling whatever discomfort she feels as ''cellulitis'' because she knows the word and may have genuinely had it in the past.
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According to doc I saw, cellulitis is uncommon among normal weight, active individuals. Overweight, inactivity and lack of proper hygiene and the biggest risk factors along with lymphedema.
Animal bites, especially deep ones, increase chances.
Animal bites, especially deep ones, increase chances.
Even more 8008135
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As much as Fat AL likes to primp and preen her moon face every so often, the rest of her fatburg body is much, MUCH harder to reach.
We've all seen the state of her hair at times. Not only can't she wipe properly, she can't bathe or clean herself properly. Combine typical fat-body problems (lymph fluid leakage, urine leakage, yeast and bacterial growth) with the fact that she's a lazy cunt, and Amber is dirty. DIRTY.
Not in a risqué way, not in a trashy way ... in a gross, poor hygiene way. Every nick and scratch of her bloated tick body gets infected because she's a fucking gross, dirty bitch.
We've all seen the state of her hair at times. Not only can't she wipe properly, she can't bathe or clean herself properly. Combine typical fat-body problems (lymph fluid leakage, urine leakage, yeast and bacterial growth) with the fact that she's a lazy cunt, and Amber is dirty. DIRTY.
Not in a risqué way, not in a trashy way ... in a gross, poor hygiene way. Every nick and scratch of her bloated tick body gets infected because she's a fucking gross, dirty bitch.
Turd Fergusson
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@Bipolar Tomato wrote: "Slommy has a child, and even though her ex has custody I don't see her leaving Wisconsin for Amber. Amber is just a fatso with zero standards and Slommy knows that, she's easy and will be with anyone that gives her attention."
Instead, I can see this relationship to be platonic with Amber staying in OKC and Emily staying in Wisconsin, with the odd visits to OKC. Regardless, any decision would need to be done fairly soon.
I agree that Emily will not move to OKC, but the question is then will Amber move to Wisconsin and more appropriately will Emily want Amber to move with her in Wisconsin. It could be that Emily want Amber to move to Wisconsin but not with her. This means that Amber would need to get a place on her own, and Emily would visit her when she sees fit. I do not think that Amber would go for that.
Instead, I can see this relationship to be platonic with Amber staying in OKC and Emily staying in Wisconsin, with the odd visits to OKC. Regardless, any decision would need to be done fairly soon.
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But why don't the other deathfats ever seem to get it? Chantal has had infected boils in her folds and like, C Diff, but not cellulitis IIRC. Is it one of those things that keeps coming back after you get it once?
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I can see Slommy likely keeping this strictly as a long distance thing just like how she did with her last, now-dead-girlfriend. Less commitment that way after all. So unless she's 1,000% serious about this latest fatso, she will never leave Wisconsin. And even so, she would have to be a massive retard to leave behind a good paying job, a nice home, her daughter (even if she doesn't have full custody) in exchange of cellulitis ridden laygs and pussy, and un-paid ass wiping.
whatever we are now
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Yes! The risk for recurrent infection is higher after an initial infection. (Especially if you aren't proactive in hygiene and the like, but it increases the risk regardless)
notfoodienotbeauty
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I can think of three times she had "boils". Once in her vag, and another time on her back, and another on her thigh. I guessing that was cellulitis, or maybe I'm wrong. We probably don't know other times she may have had it.
New Video Alert!!
Girlfriend Moving in, Health Update, Past Relationship Regret, & Mukbangs!!
May be a final season for Amberlynn.
Girlfriend Moving in, Health Update, Past Relationship Regret, & Mukbangs!!
May be a final season for Amberlynn.
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“The only reason this bitch thinks the moon landing isn’t real is because nothing has ever landed on her face.”
-my husband after walking into the room and hearing 3 seconds of the most recent episode
-my husband after walking into the room and hearing 3 seconds of the most recent episode
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Who the fuck is out there asking her on when she'll release a book? Oh, right. Herself.
Fee
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lol calm down
Someone needs to use one of those bolt shooters on her like they do when they are putting down cows. She's so stupid. I can't remember her drink oh you mean because you've met her twice. And all this we crap and talking for the feeder. I want to punch her in the face. And her thinking her size is why people can't wait for her to choke on another potato is fucking hilarious. No dumb bitch it's really cause you are a terrible person. A waste of space at least 4 people's worth of space. You are selfish, ignorant, a liar, a user, worthless lazy, she's got a very low IQ, except when it comes to figuring out ways to avoid functioning in society as an adult working and taking care of themselves. Her being the size of a double wide is just the bonus. Her outside matches her putrid insides. I can't wait for the day we get the message she was found dead and they had to remove a few walls to get her gigantic dead carcass out of the apartment. I would actually donate to the go fund me for the piano crate she will call a coffin.
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Amber winking like it’s a post credit marvel scene about visiting Emily. No one cares.
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hey guys welcome to a new video So today
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we're going to do a Q&A so I went on to
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Instagram which is where I always have
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you guys ask me questions because I
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notice that people are more willing to
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ask a variety of questions when it's
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like private versus like if I go on
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YouTube on my community post and say ask
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questions people will purposely ask like
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the harshest questions they could think
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of and it's just all about who can come
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up with the meanest thing and I'm just
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not really about that competition so I
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always go to Instagram so if you guys do
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know follow me on Instagram for future
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reference when time like this does
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happen all of my social media is down in
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the description below so I gathered 33
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questions yes I did I'm 33 years old so
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I figured why not let's do it are you
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still doing cameos yes yes I am that's
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also something else you can find down in
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the description box I will do a cameo
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for literally anything besides roasting
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people I can only roast people that I
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know and where we have that level of
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like roasting friendship or relationship
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I can't roast people I don't know so
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that's like the only one I can't do but
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besides that I will do any Cameo
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requests how are your kidney stone
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symptoms going so I know not everyone
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watches every single one of my videos so
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just little backstory I had a little bit
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of blood in my urine I was tested for a
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UTI three times and it would come back
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negative each time I also started to
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have a little bit of pelvis pain a
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little bit of flank pain and I ended up
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getting a CT scan and it turns out I
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have a 6 mm kidney stone that is is not
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obstructing so it's not moving it's
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literally just chilling inside of my
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kidney I actually have not had blood in
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my urine in a while so that is a good
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thing but when I do a lot of like moving
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and stuff I do still have a little bit
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of pain and that's normal uh when you
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have a kidney stone if you're doing a
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lot of moving you're going to move it
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around a little bit and you're going to
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feel uncomfortable so that is currently
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what I'm dealing with I do still have my
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urologist appointment scheduled and
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ready to go if you guys remember that
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was scheduled for November and I'm not
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able to get anything sooner I've tried
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who was someone you miss and wish was
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still in your life honestly I miss my
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friend Alexis I miss the Friendship we
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used to have and I miss the person that
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I thought she was but I miss the Alexis
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before the Betrayal why do you keep
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calling your girlfriend Tommy so I'm
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calling my girlfriend Tommy because that
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is what she prefers to be called so it's
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out of respect who are you voting for so
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this is actually going to be the first
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year that I vote and I'm voting for Cala
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Harris and I am literally so ecstatic if
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she becomes our president I will be
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balling my eyes out like I genuinely
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love like what she stands for obviously
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no president will ever be perfect and I
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know politics look at that cutie I know
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politics isn't thoroughly something that
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I really want to talk about on my
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channel but I genuinely love her and I
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support her and I would love for her to
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be my president and you don't have to
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agree with me it's totally fine everyone
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can have different opinions on politics
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without like fighting in the comments
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please let's just calm down have you and
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Tommy considered having a third in your
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relationship no she's too jealous I'm
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too jealous we're definitely monogamous
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people neither of us want to share each
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other at all people say they don't like
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you cuz you're a bad person but they
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make fun of your weight and body why do
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you think that is those people they
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don't dislike me because I'm a bad
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person they dislike me because I'm a big
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person and I'm an easy target when are
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you going to publish a book so if you
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guys don't know I've been wanting to
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publish a guy a journal in a poetry book
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because I used to love writing poetry
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but I'm telling you guys I haven't
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really been writing poetry it's kind of
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like left my body I used to be super
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passionate about it but I'm still
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journaling every single day I love
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journaling I love guided journals so I
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still would love to be able to create a
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guided journal for you guys I think that
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would be so freaking fun it's just like
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the steps to doing so I am a little
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confused by it I'm not going to lie but
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I really do want to make it happen
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because I know how many of you would
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love guide to journal by amberin Reed
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because I am journaling over here when
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you go back to therapy will you share
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that Journey with us I think a lot of us
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would love that I am sure that when I
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start therapy I will definitely tell you
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guys about it I remember last time I did
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like intensive therapy I came on here
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and I would share that with you guys and
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I got really open and a lot of people
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hated that which I thought was weird
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because it was also very highly
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requested it's just a really good
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example that like no matter what I do
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it's always like the the wrong thing and
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the wrong option so I'm just going to do
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me and however I feel in the moment is
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probably what I will do and a lot of
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people think that I'm super indecisive
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which I definitely am a very indecisive
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person I changed my mind a lot and I
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think a really big reason for that as
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well is because I get so many different
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like conflicting opinions so then I try
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to take those into consideration and
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then it makes me more indecisive so it's
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like what the heck so that's why a lot
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of the time I'm kind of just like go
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with the flow and it's however I'm
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feeling at the moment is what I will do
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do you trust Tommy I know that you have
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trust issues with people I never fully
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trust anybody that is just how it's
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always been for me I fully believe that
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you earn someone's trust you don't just
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trust someone right off the bat and hope
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they don't break that I have been
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through a lot in my life and in my
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childhood I learned very early that you
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cannot trust people and I learned that
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at a very young age that most people
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shouldn't have to like experience that
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but I do feel like everything I've been
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through has made me stronger and it has
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made me realize that like you can't
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fully trust people but I trust Tommy
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more than I have trusted
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anybody probably my whole life and that
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feeling has come natural it hasn't even
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like been something that like I've had
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to work on fully of course I've had to
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work on my trust with literally everyone
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including Tommy but like the level of
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where I do trust her that has come
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natural for me and it has actually
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shocked me are you doing vlogmas this
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year honestly I have no earthly idea I
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go back and forth it was a strong no and
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then I was like you know what let's do
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it and now I'm currently at like I don't
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know where did the nickname Ambi come
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from so it originated when I was just a
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little girl I'm talking like a baby my
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both my parents would call me ambes and
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my mom would call me Ambi here and there
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and then I've had two people in my life
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call me Ambi just like actually by
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themselves my ex fine and then my
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ex-best friend Alexis and I've realized
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I actually lowkey love that I love the
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nickname so much that I made it my
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Instagram and I'm kind of feeling it
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like amberlin who so I've also noticed
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that a lot of people are calling me Ambi
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now and I love it low key I think it's
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super adorable like it comes from
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literally just when I was like knee high
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to a grass haa what was that what is
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your current Obsession well besides my
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girlfriend the song Good Luck Babe by
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Chapel rone I cannot stop I literally
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cannot stop listening to it it's kind of
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sick it's kind of gross it's kind of
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disgusting like I'm obsessed like I love
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the meaning behind it and like I love
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how she sounds I just love everything
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like it is the most perfect song I'm
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obsessed have you fully forgave your
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mother for her actions while she was
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deep in her addiction yes I have do
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those things still hurt me sometimes yes
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but you can forgive and you can heal and
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you can still be a human with feelings
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and emotions that's completely normal
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I'm not a robot but it's like I think
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it's time to move on like I'm 33 years
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old my mom and I still have those deep
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discussions sometimes about the past but
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I've always loved my mom unconditionally
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and sometimes to a fault I'm not going
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to lie so now that she's almost 9 years
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sober and she has completely transformed
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her life and we have a relationship
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together like if I didn't fully forgive
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her it would only be hurting the both of
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us is Tommy moving to Oklahoma no she
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isn't I know a lot of people are
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assuming that but nope she's not do you
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think the sun is real because it is so
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bright it doesn't even make sense I'm
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sorry but this question genuinely made
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me LOL when I first read it because you
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guys like hate conspiracy Lynn which I
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understand I just like to think outside
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of the box sometimes you know and I'm a
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firm believer that like just because
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you're taught something in school and
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you're told something doesn't mean it's
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real and I know that's hectic to a lot
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of people that's fine but like the moon
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landing did not happen like I firmly
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feel that like inside of my soul so it's
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fun to also be like hm what else isn't
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true do I think the sun is real yes
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because we see it we feel it but do I
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think that every single thing that they
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have told us about it is 100% accurate
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no no I don't what's your go-to cocktail
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when you're with Tommy and is that is
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that the reason why you're drinking
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again so first of all no Tommy isn't a
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drinker I think we just drink socially
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we just have a couple drinks together
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cuz it's fun we like to go to the bar
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listen to music hang out but my go-to
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for some reason is sex on the beach and
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I'm drawing a blank of what she always
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orders oh my gosh is it a long island oh
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no I literally do not remember but I do
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know that I've also ordered it and it
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tastes really good I'm not remembering
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what it's called when did you and Tommy
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make it official so this is going to
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be off the chain to some of y'all but
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she first messaged me on June 18th and
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we became official on June
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26th literally like 8 days later we
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became official when you know you know
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what can I say have you been reading
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lately no I haven't I'm still in such a
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reading slump but I really really want
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to choose a book off of my bookshelf and
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just like open it up just read the
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freaking first page amberlin what's your
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ideal engagement ring look like so if I
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can find any photos just like online or
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whatever I'll plop them up right here
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but I really want like something that
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isn't the norm I really like the color
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black so I think like a black diamond or
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a black stone of some sort would be uh a
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big yes for me genuinely like at my core
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I feel like that's so me would you get a
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tattoo with Tommy yeah I would it would
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be my first tattoo but yeah I would
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totally do do that how are you doing
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with regulating your emotions because I
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know that's something you were working
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on I'm not perfect I'm definitely
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getting better I'm learning more like
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what my triggers are and I have created
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like journaling prompts specifically for
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moments where I need to regulate myself
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or become more rational like I said
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before like I know a lot of you don't
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watch every single one of my videos but
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if you don't know I do have BPD so that
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makes it really hard sometimes for me to
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regulate my emotions and something else
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that like I have come to terms with is
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like I have zer zero emotional
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permanence which honestly makes things
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even harder and that's probably like one
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of my biggest triggers I've realized
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recently so I noticed by like creating
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these Journal prompts whenever I feel
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like triggered or like I like to call it
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like BPD moments or BPD freakouts for
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the lack of a better term whenever I'm
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about to have that I go straight to
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those Journal prompts and this is
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something new that I've recently started
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because it's like being with Tommy it's
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like I've never wanted to improve so
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much with my BPD like until now like she
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genuinely makes me want to be a better
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person and I have felt that in our
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relationships I feel like that's like
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that's important to feel when you're in
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a relationship like I hope the person
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that you're with makes you want to
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become a better person but it's like the
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fact that I am like actually actively
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not only just like wanting to become a
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better person but I'm like taking the
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steps to do so like that just like I
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don't know it makes my heart feel nice
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and warm and fuzzy so anyways these
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Journal prompts have actually helped me
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I have stepped away from journaling
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after doing these prompts and I'm like
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wow I feel lighter I feel better I'm no
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longer freaking out and I am now finally
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able to be rational and aware I know
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there's actually a lot of people who
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also suffer with BPD who is watching me
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or people who probably just have issues
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regulating themselves etc etc so if you
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guys are interested in seeing the
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prompts and like kind of the process
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that I go through during a moment like
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that I would honestly love nothing more
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than to share that with you guys because
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I really do think that it could be
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helpful and before anyone says anything
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yes I need to go to therapy I understand
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I'm not a therapist I'm not giving
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advice I'm strictly just like showing
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something that helps me that I feel like
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could help you will you ever do mukbangs
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again I have flirted with the idea I'm
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not going to lie there are times where I
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don't want to Vlog there are times where
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I don't want to show what is going on in
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my personal life I do have a job job I
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have to do and that's creating content
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so my brain does go to maybe I should
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just throw up a mukbang so I'm not going
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to lie that is thoughts that I've had
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for a while now maybe since like
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February or March so the fact that I
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have not done one I'm very proud of that
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because mukbangs are easy they're easy
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to do they're easy to film you're going
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to eat anyways throw it up and call
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today make some money are you interested
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in buying property I would love to buy a
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house one day but that's such like a big
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commitment and it's like you guys have
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seen I have not like stayed in one state
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I have moved around so much I have lived
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in so many different states and it's
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like where would I buy the house am I
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going to be in that state forever like
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it's just like such a huge commitment
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plus I'm like super picky the house
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would have to be like my idea of perfect
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because it's like it's it's mine I own
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it but the thought of like owning my own
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house would be like my little baby and I
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could do whatever I want to it like
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that's pretty exciting so it's up in the
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air I don't really know at this moment
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what is your biggest regret from each of
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your relationships definitely having
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undiagnosed BPD and definitely not
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understanding the reason why I was the
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way I was not getting help sooner it
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takes two to tango in most relationships
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but like I am fully aware and taking
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accountability of like it was probably
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hard being in a relationship with me in
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the past because I had a lot a lot of
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baggage a lot of heaviness and
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undiagnosed BPD is it's scary it's
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overwhelming it's consuming and it's not
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just for the person experiencing it but
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it's also for the people around them and
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it's like I have a lot of regret towards
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that like a 100 million
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th% and I would do anything to like be
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able to go back in time because I
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genuinely think it would have prevented
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99% of my problems that were caused by
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me how do you cope with a long-distance
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relationship it's hard but we do make a
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lot of time for each other and I'm very
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grateful for that like Tommy puts as
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much energy in me as I put in her and I
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feel like that's super freaking
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important because I know how it feels to
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be you know in a relationship with
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someone or like in a situationship with
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someone where it's like you're putting
15:27
all this energy and all this time this
15:29
attention into them it's like they're
15:31
not giving it back it's awkward it's
15:33
painful it's like do they even like me
15:36
like what when two energies are just
15:38
like so similar just like what you want
15:41
in a relationship and like what you give
15:43
in a relationship and like the give and
15:45
take is like very balanced I think it
15:48
makes any relationship just a lot easier
15:50
whether it's long distance or not how
15:52
many pets have you had as an adult so
15:54
far I've had four Wasabi Twinkie Rarity
15:58
and Jack and unfortunately Jax passed
16:01
away if you guys remember Jax then you
16:03
have definitely been around for a long
16:04
time um I think about him all the time
16:07
and I miss him dearly if you could only
16:09
listen to One artist for the rest of
16:10
your life who would it be so I know a
16:13
lot of people are going to think I'm
16:14
either going to say Billy ish or Miley
16:16
Cyrus but no Billy eyh is um my second
16:21
choice but honestly my first choice is
16:24
Banks if you guys know me through and
16:26
through banks is just like everything
16:29
her music is just like magic to me and
16:32
she has been flirting on social media
16:34
with a new song and I'm just like hurry
16:37
it up let's like get a new album out
16:39
because I'm ready to have that on repeat
16:41
like on the constant if you guys have
16:43
not listened to Banks before do it like
16:46
do it now please like you can pause this
16:48
video it's fine or actually finish the
16:50
video first and then go do that what's
16:53
something you really want to do with
16:54
Tommy I would love to like go on a
16:56
vacation with her maybe like a little
16:58
cat cabin like a cabin in the mountains
17:01
or something that sounds like cute fun
17:03
and fresh low key just sounds so cozy
17:05
like I could do anything with her and
17:07
have the time of my life that is
17:08
something me and her like agree on like
17:10
we could literally just be sitting next
17:12
to each other and it's the best time
17:14
we've ever had like ever in our life
17:16
will you be visiting Tommy or is that
17:18
off the table hm I don't really
17:22
know what's one thing you notice about
17:24
Tommy that made you realize you were in
17:26
love y'all there are thousands of things
17:28
that made me realize this not going to
17:30
lie to you so I'm just going to like go
17:32
on my little list of reasons and
17:35
randomly pick one it's the way that she
17:37
cares about me the way that like if I
17:40
just have like oh I have a little tummy
17:42
ache or oh I have like a tiny little
17:45
headache like the way that she like
17:48
worries and like cares about me and like
17:52
shows that is so G it's just so gentle
17:56
and sweet and kind and and I'm not used
17:59
to that I'm not going to lie like one of
18:01
the days she was here like we walked a
18:03
lot and my feet were hurting and just
18:06
automatically she's like let me massage
18:08
your feet and I'm
18:10
like this is new like I'm just not used
18:13
to that like that type of care and it's
18:16
just like H like someone who matches my
18:19
energy because I'm the same way like the
18:21
minute she feels some type of way I'm
18:24
just like are you okay oh my god do you
18:25
need like me to help with that or like
18:28
we just like worry and Care in the same
18:31
way like again it's just like our
18:33
energies are matching even in that way
18:36
that's just like one thing out of like
18:37
thousands like G she's just so sweet how
18:40
long do you think the honeymoon phase
18:42
will last in your relationship so just
18:44
based on like experience but also based
18:47
on other people's real life stories
18:49
sometimes the honeymoon phase never
18:50
stops so the last question you get
18:53
dinner with five people dead or alive
18:55
who are you inviting so I'm inviting
18:57
Tommy obviously L I'm inviting my
19:00
Grandma Judy she passed away when I was
19:02
12 but she was my heart my soul my
19:06
everything she was my mom when my mom
19:07
couldn't be my mom I miss her so much
19:10
and there's so much I want to tell her
19:11
and ask her and just G I'd give anything
19:15
to do that Billy ish Britney Murphy last
19:19
but not least Drew Barrymore anyways so
19:22
those are the 33 questions and now that
19:24
I have sat here and answered them all I
19:27
didn't realize how many of you ask
19:29
questions about Tommy and how many of
19:31
them I actually jotted down wow this is
19:33
almost 40 minutes that's hectic so I'm
19:36
going to need to edit this down a lot so
19:38
you guys aren't sitting there listening
19:39
to me ramble like nonsense but I hope
19:41
that you guys did enjoy this and I'll
19:43
see you in my next one bye
0:02
we're going to do a Q&A so I went on to
0:05
Instagram which is where I always have
0:06
you guys ask me questions because I
0:08
notice that people are more willing to
0:11
ask a variety of questions when it's
0:13
like private versus like if I go on
0:15
YouTube on my community post and say ask
0:17
questions people will purposely ask like
0:20
the harshest questions they could think
0:22
of and it's just all about who can come
0:24
up with the meanest thing and I'm just
0:26
not really about that competition so I
0:28
always go to Instagram so if you guys do
0:29
know follow me on Instagram for future
0:32
reference when time like this does
0:34
happen all of my social media is down in
0:36
the description below so I gathered 33
0:39
questions yes I did I'm 33 years old so
0:42
I figured why not let's do it are you
0:45
still doing cameos yes yes I am that's
0:48
also something else you can find down in
0:49
the description box I will do a cameo
0:51
for literally anything besides roasting
0:54
people I can only roast people that I
0:56
know and where we have that level of
0:58
like roasting friendship or relationship
1:02
I can't roast people I don't know so
1:03
that's like the only one I can't do but
1:05
besides that I will do any Cameo
1:07
requests how are your kidney stone
1:08
symptoms going so I know not everyone
1:10
watches every single one of my videos so
1:13
just little backstory I had a little bit
1:15
of blood in my urine I was tested for a
1:17
UTI three times and it would come back
1:19
negative each time I also started to
1:21
have a little bit of pelvis pain a
1:22
little bit of flank pain and I ended up
1:25
getting a CT scan and it turns out I
1:27
have a 6 mm kidney stone that is is not
1:30
obstructing so it's not moving it's
1:31
literally just chilling inside of my
1:33
kidney I actually have not had blood in
1:35
my urine in a while so that is a good
1:38
thing but when I do a lot of like moving
1:40
and stuff I do still have a little bit
1:42
of pain and that's normal uh when you
1:44
have a kidney stone if you're doing a
1:46
lot of moving you're going to move it
1:48
around a little bit and you're going to
1:49
feel uncomfortable so that is currently
1:51
what I'm dealing with I do still have my
1:53
urologist appointment scheduled and
1:55
ready to go if you guys remember that
1:57
was scheduled for November and I'm not
1:59
able to get anything sooner I've tried
2:01
who was someone you miss and wish was
2:03
still in your life honestly I miss my
2:06
friend Alexis I miss the Friendship we
2:09
used to have and I miss the person that
2:12
I thought she was but I miss the Alexis
2:15
before the Betrayal why do you keep
2:17
calling your girlfriend Tommy so I'm
2:19
calling my girlfriend Tommy because that
2:21
is what she prefers to be called so it's
2:23
out of respect who are you voting for so
2:26
this is actually going to be the first
2:28
year that I vote and I'm voting for Cala
2:30
Harris and I am literally so ecstatic if
2:34
she becomes our president I will be
2:36
balling my eyes out like I genuinely
2:38
love like what she stands for obviously
2:40
no president will ever be perfect and I
2:42
know politics look at that cutie I know
2:44
politics isn't thoroughly something that
2:46
I really want to talk about on my
2:47
channel but I genuinely love her and I
2:50
support her and I would love for her to
2:52
be my president and you don't have to
2:53
agree with me it's totally fine everyone
2:54
can have different opinions on politics
2:58
without like fighting in the comments
3:00
please let's just calm down have you and
3:02
Tommy considered having a third in your
3:04
relationship no she's too jealous I'm
3:07
too jealous we're definitely monogamous
3:09
people neither of us want to share each
3:11
other at all people say they don't like
3:13
you cuz you're a bad person but they
3:14
make fun of your weight and body why do
3:16
you think that is those people they
3:18
don't dislike me because I'm a bad
3:20
person they dislike me because I'm a big
3:23
person and I'm an easy target when are
3:25
you going to publish a book so if you
3:27
guys don't know I've been wanting to
3:29
publish a guy a journal in a poetry book
3:31
because I used to love writing poetry
3:33
but I'm telling you guys I haven't
3:35
really been writing poetry it's kind of
3:37
like left my body I used to be super
3:39
passionate about it but I'm still
3:41
journaling every single day I love
3:42
journaling I love guided journals so I
3:44
still would love to be able to create a
3:46
guided journal for you guys I think that
3:48
would be so freaking fun it's just like
3:50
the steps to doing so I am a little
3:53
confused by it I'm not going to lie but
3:55
I really do want to make it happen
3:57
because I know how many of you would
3:59
love guide to journal by amberin Reed
4:02
because I am journaling over here when
4:04
you go back to therapy will you share
4:05
that Journey with us I think a lot of us
4:07
would love that I am sure that when I
4:10
start therapy I will definitely tell you
4:11
guys about it I remember last time I did
4:14
like intensive therapy I came on here
4:16
and I would share that with you guys and
4:18
I got really open and a lot of people
4:21
hated that which I thought was weird
4:24
because it was also very highly
4:25
requested it's just a really good
4:27
example that like no matter what I do
4:29
it's always like the the wrong thing and
4:31
the wrong option so I'm just going to do
4:33
me and however I feel in the moment is
4:35
probably what I will do and a lot of
4:37
people think that I'm super indecisive
4:38
which I definitely am a very indecisive
4:41
person I changed my mind a lot and I
4:43
think a really big reason for that as
4:45
well is because I get so many different
4:47
like conflicting opinions so then I try
4:49
to take those into consideration and
4:51
then it makes me more indecisive so it's
4:53
like what the heck so that's why a lot
4:55
of the time I'm kind of just like go
4:57
with the flow and it's however I'm
4:58
feeling at the moment is what I will do
5:00
do you trust Tommy I know that you have
5:02
trust issues with people I never fully
5:05
trust anybody that is just how it's
5:07
always been for me I fully believe that
5:10
you earn someone's trust you don't just
5:13
trust someone right off the bat and hope
5:15
they don't break that I have been
5:17
through a lot in my life and in my
5:19
childhood I learned very early that you
5:21
cannot trust people and I learned that
5:23
at a very young age that most people
5:24
shouldn't have to like experience that
5:26
but I do feel like everything I've been
5:28
through has made me stronger and it has
5:30
made me realize that like you can't
5:32
fully trust people but I trust Tommy
5:34
more than I have trusted
5:37
anybody probably my whole life and that
5:41
feeling has come natural it hasn't even
5:43
like been something that like I've had
5:45
to work on fully of course I've had to
5:48
work on my trust with literally everyone
5:50
including Tommy but like the level of
5:54
where I do trust her that has come
5:57
natural for me and it has actually
5:59
shocked me are you doing vlogmas this
6:01
year honestly I have no earthly idea I
6:05
go back and forth it was a strong no and
6:08
then I was like you know what let's do
6:09
it and now I'm currently at like I don't
6:11
know where did the nickname Ambi come
6:13
from so it originated when I was just a
6:16
little girl I'm talking like a baby my
6:19
both my parents would call me ambes and
6:22
my mom would call me Ambi here and there
6:24
and then I've had two people in my life
6:28
call me Ambi just like actually by
6:30
themselves my ex fine and then my
6:32
ex-best friend Alexis and I've realized
6:37
I actually lowkey love that I love the
6:39
nickname so much that I made it my
6:42
Instagram and I'm kind of feeling it
6:44
like amberlin who so I've also noticed
6:47
that a lot of people are calling me Ambi
6:48
now and I love it low key I think it's
6:51
super adorable like it comes from
6:53
literally just when I was like knee high
6:55
to a grass haa what was that what is
6:59
your current Obsession well besides my
7:01
girlfriend the song Good Luck Babe by
7:04
Chapel rone I cannot stop I literally
7:09
cannot stop listening to it it's kind of
7:12
sick it's kind of gross it's kind of
7:14
disgusting like I'm obsessed like I love
7:16
the meaning behind it and like I love
7:18
how she sounds I just love everything
7:21
like it is the most perfect song I'm
7:23
obsessed have you fully forgave your
7:25
mother for her actions while she was
7:26
deep in her addiction yes I have do
7:29
those things still hurt me sometimes yes
7:32
but you can forgive and you can heal and
7:34
you can still be a human with feelings
7:36
and emotions that's completely normal
7:38
I'm not a robot but it's like I think
7:39
it's time to move on like I'm 33 years
7:42
old my mom and I still have those deep
7:44
discussions sometimes about the past but
7:47
I've always loved my mom unconditionally
7:48
and sometimes to a fault I'm not going
7:50
to lie so now that she's almost 9 years
7:53
sober and she has completely transformed
7:56
her life and we have a relationship
7:57
together like if I didn't fully forgive
8:00
her it would only be hurting the both of
8:02
us is Tommy moving to Oklahoma no she
8:05
isn't I know a lot of people are
8:08
assuming that but nope she's not do you
8:10
think the sun is real because it is so
8:12
bright it doesn't even make sense I'm
8:14
sorry but this question genuinely made
8:17
me LOL when I first read it because you
8:19
guys like hate conspiracy Lynn which I
8:22
understand I just like to think outside
8:23
of the box sometimes you know and I'm a
8:25
firm believer that like just because
8:27
you're taught something in school and
8:29
you're told something doesn't mean it's
8:31
real and I know that's hectic to a lot
8:33
of people that's fine but like the moon
8:35
landing did not happen like I firmly
8:37
feel that like inside of my soul so it's
8:41
fun to also be like hm what else isn't
8:43
true do I think the sun is real yes
8:46
because we see it we feel it but do I
8:49
think that every single thing that they
8:51
have told us about it is 100% accurate
8:54
no no I don't what's your go-to cocktail
8:57
when you're with Tommy and is that is
8:59
that the reason why you're drinking
9:00
again so first of all no Tommy isn't a
9:03
drinker I think we just drink socially
9:05
we just have a couple drinks together
9:07
cuz it's fun we like to go to the bar
9:08
listen to music hang out but my go-to
9:11
for some reason is sex on the beach and
9:13
I'm drawing a blank of what she always
9:15
orders oh my gosh is it a long island oh
9:19
no I literally do not remember but I do
9:22
know that I've also ordered it and it
9:24
tastes really good I'm not remembering
9:25
what it's called when did you and Tommy
9:27
make it official so this is going to
9:30
be off the chain to some of y'all but
9:34
she first messaged me on June 18th and
9:38
we became official on June
9:41
26th literally like 8 days later we
9:45
became official when you know you know
9:46
what can I say have you been reading
9:48
lately no I haven't I'm still in such a
9:52
reading slump but I really really want
9:54
to choose a book off of my bookshelf and
9:57
just like open it up just read the
9:59
freaking first page amberlin what's your
10:01
ideal engagement ring look like so if I
10:03
can find any photos just like online or
10:05
whatever I'll plop them up right here
10:07
but I really want like something that
10:10
isn't the norm I really like the color
10:13
black so I think like a black diamond or
10:15
a black stone of some sort would be uh a
10:19
big yes for me genuinely like at my core
10:22
I feel like that's so me would you get a
10:24
tattoo with Tommy yeah I would it would
10:26
be my first tattoo but yeah I would
10:28
totally do do that how are you doing
10:30
with regulating your emotions because I
10:32
know that's something you were working
10:33
on I'm not perfect I'm definitely
10:35
getting better I'm learning more like
10:37
what my triggers are and I have created
10:39
like journaling prompts specifically for
10:42
moments where I need to regulate myself
10:44
or become more rational like I said
10:46
before like I know a lot of you don't
10:47
watch every single one of my videos but
10:49
if you don't know I do have BPD so that
10:52
makes it really hard sometimes for me to
10:53
regulate my emotions and something else
10:56
that like I have come to terms with is
10:57
like I have zer zero emotional
11:00
permanence which honestly makes things
11:02
even harder and that's probably like one
11:04
of my biggest triggers I've realized
11:05
recently so I noticed by like creating
11:08
these Journal prompts whenever I feel
11:11
like triggered or like I like to call it
11:13
like BPD moments or BPD freakouts for
11:16
the lack of a better term whenever I'm
11:18
about to have that I go straight to
11:20
those Journal prompts and this is
11:22
something new that I've recently started
11:23
because it's like being with Tommy it's
11:25
like I've never wanted to improve so
11:28
much with my BPD like until now like she
11:32
genuinely makes me want to be a better
11:34
person and I have felt that in our
11:36
relationships I feel like that's like
11:38
that's important to feel when you're in
11:39
a relationship like I hope the person
11:42
that you're with makes you want to
11:43
become a better person but it's like the
11:45
fact that I am like actually actively
11:47
not only just like wanting to become a
11:49
better person but I'm like taking the
11:51
steps to do so like that just like I
11:54
don't know it makes my heart feel nice
11:56
and warm and fuzzy so anyways these
11:58
Journal prompts have actually helped me
12:00
I have stepped away from journaling
12:02
after doing these prompts and I'm like
12:05
wow I feel lighter I feel better I'm no
12:09
longer freaking out and I am now finally
12:12
able to be rational and aware I know
12:15
there's actually a lot of people who
12:17
also suffer with BPD who is watching me
12:19
or people who probably just have issues
12:21
regulating themselves etc etc so if you
12:24
guys are interested in seeing the
12:25
prompts and like kind of the process
12:28
that I go through during a moment like
12:30
that I would honestly love nothing more
12:32
than to share that with you guys because
12:34
I really do think that it could be
12:36
helpful and before anyone says anything
12:38
yes I need to go to therapy I understand
12:40
I'm not a therapist I'm not giving
12:42
advice I'm strictly just like showing
12:44
something that helps me that I feel like
12:46
could help you will you ever do mukbangs
12:48
again I have flirted with the idea I'm
12:50
not going to lie there are times where I
12:53
don't want to Vlog there are times where
12:55
I don't want to show what is going on in
12:57
my personal life I do have a job job I
12:59
have to do and that's creating content
13:02
so my brain does go to maybe I should
13:06
just throw up a mukbang so I'm not going
13:09
to lie that is thoughts that I've had
13:13
for a while now maybe since like
13:17
February or March so the fact that I
13:20
have not done one I'm very proud of that
13:23
because mukbangs are easy they're easy
13:26
to do they're easy to film you're going
13:27
to eat anyways throw it up and call
13:30
today make some money are you interested
13:32
in buying property I would love to buy a
13:34
house one day but that's such like a big
13:36
commitment and it's like you guys have
13:39
seen I have not like stayed in one state
13:43
I have moved around so much I have lived
13:45
in so many different states and it's
13:46
like where would I buy the house am I
13:48
going to be in that state forever like
13:50
it's just like such a huge commitment
13:53
plus I'm like super picky the house
13:55
would have to be like my idea of perfect
13:58
because it's like it's it's mine I own
14:00
it but the thought of like owning my own
14:01
house would be like my little baby and I
14:04
could do whatever I want to it like
14:05
that's pretty exciting so it's up in the
14:07
air I don't really know at this moment
14:09
what is your biggest regret from each of
14:10
your relationships definitely having
14:13
undiagnosed BPD and definitely not
14:16
understanding the reason why I was the
14:18
way I was not getting help sooner it
14:21
takes two to tango in most relationships
14:23
but like I am fully aware and taking
14:27
accountability of like it was probably
14:29
hard being in a relationship with me in
14:31
the past because I had a lot a lot of
14:34
baggage a lot of heaviness and
14:37
undiagnosed BPD is it's scary it's
14:41
overwhelming it's consuming and it's not
14:43
just for the person experiencing it but
14:46
it's also for the people around them and
14:48
it's like I have a lot of regret towards
14:50
that like a 100 million
14:53
th% and I would do anything to like be
14:57
able to go back in time because I
14:59
genuinely think it would have prevented
15:02
99% of my problems that were caused by
15:04
me how do you cope with a long-distance
15:06
relationship it's hard but we do make a
15:10
lot of time for each other and I'm very
15:12
grateful for that like Tommy puts as
15:14
much energy in me as I put in her and I
15:19
feel like that's super freaking
15:20
important because I know how it feels to
15:22
be you know in a relationship with
15:24
someone or like in a situationship with
15:26
someone where it's like you're putting
15:27
all this energy and all this time this
15:29
attention into them it's like they're
15:31
not giving it back it's awkward it's
15:33
painful it's like do they even like me
15:36
like what when two energies are just
15:38
like so similar just like what you want
15:41
in a relationship and like what you give
15:43
in a relationship and like the give and
15:45
take is like very balanced I think it
15:48
makes any relationship just a lot easier
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whether it's long distance or not how
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many pets have you had as an adult so
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far I've had four Wasabi Twinkie Rarity
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and Jack and unfortunately Jax passed
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away if you guys remember Jax then you
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have definitely been around for a long
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time um I think about him all the time
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and I miss him dearly if you could only
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listen to One artist for the rest of
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your life who would it be so I know a
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lot of people are going to think I'm
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either going to say Billy ish or Miley
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Cyrus but no Billy eyh is um my second
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choice but honestly my first choice is
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Banks if you guys know me through and
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through banks is just like everything
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her music is just like magic to me and
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she has been flirting on social media
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with a new song and I'm just like hurry
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it up let's like get a new album out
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because I'm ready to have that on repeat
16:41
like on the constant if you guys have
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not listened to Banks before do it like
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do it now please like you can pause this
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video it's fine or actually finish the
16:50
video first and then go do that what's
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something you really want to do with
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Tommy I would love to like go on a
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vacation with her maybe like a little
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cat cabin like a cabin in the mountains
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or something that sounds like cute fun
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and fresh low key just sounds so cozy
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like I could do anything with her and
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have the time of my life that is
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something me and her like agree on like
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we could literally just be sitting next
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to each other and it's the best time
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we've ever had like ever in our life
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will you be visiting Tommy or is that
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off the table hm I don't really
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know what's one thing you notice about
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Tommy that made you realize you were in
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love y'all there are thousands of things
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that made me realize this not going to
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lie to you so I'm just going to like go
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on my little list of reasons and
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randomly pick one it's the way that she
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cares about me the way that like if I
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just have like oh I have a little tummy
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ache or oh I have like a tiny little
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headache like the way that she like
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worries and like cares about me and like
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shows that is so G it's just so gentle
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and sweet and kind and and I'm not used
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to that I'm not going to lie like one of
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the days she was here like we walked a
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lot and my feet were hurting and just
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automatically she's like let me massage
18:08
your feet and I'm
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like this is new like I'm just not used
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to that like that type of care and it's
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just like H like someone who matches my
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energy because I'm the same way like the
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minute she feels some type of way I'm
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just like are you okay oh my god do you
18:25
need like me to help with that or like
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we just like worry and Care in the same
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way like again it's just like our
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energies are matching even in that way
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that's just like one thing out of like
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thousands like G she's just so sweet how
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long do you think the honeymoon phase
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will last in your relationship so just
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based on like experience but also based
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on other people's real life stories
18:49
sometimes the honeymoon phase never
18:50
stops so the last question you get
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dinner with five people dead or alive
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who are you inviting so I'm inviting
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Tommy obviously L I'm inviting my
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Grandma Judy she passed away when I was
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12 but she was my heart my soul my
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everything she was my mom when my mom
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couldn't be my mom I miss her so much
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and there's so much I want to tell her
19:11
and ask her and just G I'd give anything
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to do that Billy ish Britney Murphy last
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but not least Drew Barrymore anyways so
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those are the 33 questions and now that
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I have sat here and answered them all I
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didn't realize how many of you ask
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questions about Tommy and how many of
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them I actually jotted down wow this is
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almost 40 minutes that's hectic so I'm
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going to need to edit this down a lot so
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you guys aren't sitting there listening
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to me ramble like nonsense but I hope
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that you guys did enjoy this and I'll
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see you in my next one bye
Edit: I went through and put the questions in bolded italics and I underlined some interesting bits.
Also the five people she would invite to dinner dead or alive are Slommy, her dead grandma Judy, Billie Eilish, Brittany Murphy, and Drew Barrymore.
Hectic.
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Sometimes I'm still flabbergasted that a person can talk for 19 minutes straight and it's all just word salad with nothing of merit actually said. Listening to Amber mush-mouth her way through another fucking Q&A makes me feel like I've got some kind of aphasia.
Props to tommy for handling her ankle balls though, I guess. Getting up close and personal with those cellulitis riddled swollen tumors she calls her legs must have been an experience.
Props to tommy for handling her ankle balls though, I guess. Getting up close and personal with those cellulitis riddled swollen tumors she calls her legs must have been an experience.