You know what? Thinking about this past week -- me losing my cool a couple of times, pointing out the Commandments he's broken (5 as I recall), this morning's post where I called him out on some of the outright lies/contradictions he's posted,and his best comeback is to blame me for all the deaths and problems happening in my life this past year -- man, I feel sorry for this dude. Yes, my wife is dead (a great loss, she was kind to everyone); yes, my mother is dying(almost 91, she's had a good life); yes, my daughter is leaving (to move back to Chicago to be with her kids which is as it should be) -- and he taunts me with "What do you have left?" I have something he will NEVER have in any lifetime that he behaves like this: I have friends. I have close friends who live around me who will help me to deal with my sorrows and my losses, I have friends online here and and in other forums who would do whatever it took it help me emotionally, I have friends in Chicago who I still talk to and who are ALWAYS THERE when I need them.
Forgive me if this is maudlin. I'm siting crying as I type this, but you know what? I'm not crying for myself, I'm crying for Brad because he does not have the love and support that I have in my life, he does not have the peace I have with Adonai. Oh, I'm sure he thinks he does -- but one day, probably sooner than he thinks, he's going to realize that his life has been one, long, empty lie. I weep for that moment, he will be alone with nothing but his delusions of grandeur and suddenly realize how meaningless they are.
I weep for you, Brad -- you have been a horrid little troll to me but I forgive you, I give you this blessing in the language of my people:
ייתכן שאדונים יברכו אותך ולסלוח לך על חטאיך כמו שאני עושה עכשיו, אתה עלול למצוא את הכפרה על כל העוולות שיש לך לעשות, ואתה יכול סוף סוף למצוא את שלום בארץ המובטחת תחת המבט הנדיב של אלוהים האמיתי אחת.
"May Adonai bless you and forgive you for your sins as I do now, may you find atonement for all the wrongs you you have done, and may you finally find peace in the Promised Land under the benevolent gaze of the One True God."