Cultcow EvaXephon / Yanderedev / Alex Mahan / Alexander Stuart Mahan / cannotgoogleme - Edgy weeaboo coomer with pedo tendencies and 15+ years internet history as a lolcow, now known as a disaster developer behind eternal debug build called "Yandere Simulator", confirmed groomer and dollfucker

The end of EvaXephon?


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Why's he so confident, though? 'I doubt a counselor could change my mind'? Hell, that's almost certainly true NOW, but back then it wouldn't have been, if he had spared a thought for the possibility that his worldview was uninformed shit, built on culture that's not even his passed through a game of telephone composed of various media.

Jesus, Alex. Now that we know you read, I'm gonna talk directly to you, ok? Spare a thought for how much happier you'd be if you had been wrong about all of this. You still are, but now it's so entrenched in your mind there's no getting it out, and what you are is what you're going to be. You've stagnated to the point of crystallization, and you're going to stay an immobile incel loser for another 50-80 years, then die.

For over a decade people have been screaming the truth at you, Alex, and you just sniff and go 'you don't understand'. It would seem not once in your life, have you ever considered the possibility that maybe you don't understand, and therefore you are the one who needs to change and give up ideals that are important to you. You have no basis for anything you believe - You begrudge the people that keep you alive for hoping you'll learn to overcome hardship. You loathe hardship for existing, nevermind that everyone deals with it. And you hate everyone because they learned to do things you never even attempted. Even the tiniest drop of logic would knock down this house of cards, centered on the singular question: Alex, why don't you change yourself?

Not your internet handle. Not your haircut. Not your job. Yourself. Accept that everything you've ever thought is rotten to the core, and therefore you are too. Realize that you are a bad person, and you deserve to be called out on it, just like all bad people everywhere. This is, very likely, your last chance to accomplish anything like this before your brain settles in too far.

Or keep on keeping on, and wind up raping Mulberry or whatever.
 
Probably because he doesn't want to be with someone who would have enough experience to know that he would be absolute shit. It's very likely that he's using his insecurities and inadequacies as fuel for his weird hatred
(Not sure why the last few words didn't post :/ )
Given how aggressively self deprecating he can be when talking to women, I think lays it on thick in the hopes that a girl will be like "No, Eva! You are not a worthless slimy creepball, I see the beauty inside! Let you redeem you with my love!"

That's not a quote from an anime but I imagine that sort of thing happens all the time in the anime he watches.
If he hates sluts why did he want prostitutes?
Regardless even if he was still a horrible person I think he def lowered his standards over the years yet keeping his mentality toward woman. lol
In part I imagine because that's all he could realistically get at the time. But it's deeper than that. He doesn't want a slut, he wants to fuck a slut. He wants a sweet wholesome girl. Sluts and sweet wholesome girls are completely separate species in his mind.
That's why the two adult rivals are so very different - one's a literal sex doll who just wants to fuck Senpai, while the other is a infantile nurse who accidentally flirts with senpai because her naiveté means she's too wholesome and pure to realise her big busty anime boobies have an effect on him.

It's why he got so pressed about that comic character. Upon learning she allowed a man to get to second base with her, he could no longer see her as a wholesome girl and therefore she's a slut who he cannot respect.

Most of the time the pure women in his fantasies end up being objectified and degraded against their will - either with upskirt shots or literally being kept as rape slaves. If a character in Yandere Simulator was to willingly flash Senpai her panties, then she could only ever be a sex obsessed fuckdoll - because any of the other characters would never dream of doing something so lewd, being such wholesome sweethearts.
I could ramble on with my autistic armchair psychology all day, but mostly I think there's a deep seated misogyny in Eva which may or may not be because he rarely interacts with women in real life besides his mother.
 
Given how aggressively self deprecating he can be when talking to women, I think lays it on thick in the hopes that a girl will be like "No, Eva! You are not a worthless slimy creepball, I see the beauty inside! Let you redeem you with my love!"

That's not a quote from an anime but I imagine that sort of thing happens all the time in the anime he watches.

In part I imagine because that's all he could realistically get at the time. But it's deeper than that. He doesn't want a slut, he wants to fuck a slut. He wants a sweet wholesome girl. Sluts and sweet wholesome girls are completely separate species in his mind.
That's why the two adult rivals are so very different - one's a literal sex doll who just wants to fuck Senpai, while the other is a infantile nurse who accidentally flirts with senpai because her naiveté means she's too wholesome and pure to realise her big busty anime boobies have an effect on him.

It's why he got so pressed about that comic character. Upon learning she allowed a man to get to second base with her, he could no longer see her as a wholesome girl and therefore she's a slut who he cannot respect.

Most of the time the pure women in his fantasies end up being objectified and degraded against their will - either with upskirt shots or literally being kept as rape slaves. If a character in Yandere Simulator was to willingly flash Senpai her panties, then she could only ever be a sex obsessed fuckdoll - because any of the other characters would never dream of doing something so lewd, being such wholesome sweethearts.
I could ramble on with my autistic armchair psychology all day, but mostly I think there's a deep seated misogyny in Eva which may or may not be because he rarely interacts with women in real life besides his mother.
While that is true he had many relationships or so he THINKS with girls in school such as the Amy chick, "Girls are all mean to me!" Is his thoughts just because they don't want to be around the same person 24/7 he thinks he can own someone and if someone has other things to do and relationships that they quote on quote are not interested in him.

The funny thing about it is that Eva caters to a certain group of people at a time and is often flirty with people or any girls he finds attractive as a way to convey that he wants attention.

But he comes off as a total creep, ugh gross.
 
His slut hate thread on that forum is great. Bunch of stuff from it.

"I can't imagine the thought of having sex with a girl who another guy had sex with. It's like drinking from a cup that other people spit in. "

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=45 (http://archive.is/TNeTq)

We learn more about Eva and his childhood. Talks about how he was in an independent study program and that he attended elementary school before this.

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=75 (http://archive.is/Nm1yx)

Eva talks about writing stories that have nuanced characters with interesting backstories because that's something he's capable of. He had written 70,000 words and 20 chapters of I Am Your Slave by March 2006. Final word count would be 350,223 and 60 chapters.

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Welcome to the real world, Eva.

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=150 (http://archive.is/pyMoQ)

"I've never actually met a slut in real life."

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=195 (http://archive.is/l6iPj)
 
We learn more about Eva and his childhood. Talks about how he was in an independent study program and that he attended elementary school before this.

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=75 (http://archive.is/Nm1yx)

This is actually pretty sad. So he gets bullied and used as a kid while in Elementary and instead of being taught how to deal with it, his parents opt to homeschool him.

That and the extremely traumatizing event that he has supposedly blocked from his memory.

I guess he has technically gotten better? He has his "fanbase", Skype "friends", and Mulberry his "girlfriend". So in a sad, very sad way, Alex has seen an improvement in his life thanks to YanSim.
 
Man, what a faggot. "Losing respect" of a fake character in an internet comic because she got more ass than he did in real life. Every time I think he can't get more pathetic, Ride posts more golden nuggets that make the previous ones look tame.

Yeah, I'm taking back what I said earlier. I'm never gonna reach a point where the shit he says doesn't disgust me anymore or make him attain completely new levels of pathetic.

Considering he has a boob mousepad

Of course he has one, fucking hell! I need to tell this to my non-kiwi friend immediately, we've been speculating this. :lol:

"I can't imagine the thought of having sex with a girl who another guy had sex with. It's like drinking from a cup that other people spit in. "

Okay, I- I can't... You guys have said it all before. I'm just gonna shut up and read the rest of his... lonely, sheltered, masturbatory posts... next thing tomorrow. He's fucking earned that loveshy tag.

Please, let him stay away from the incel community. We don't want to get their input on what Yandere Simulator should be more like....
 
More on sluts from Eva.

Why does he hate them? "I detest sluts because they daily give to other guys what I've never once recieved, and that makes me feel cheated and wronged." "No offense meant to any present sluts."

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=15 (http://archive.is/wdOAd)

If you just had sex, I cannot read your post. Forum-goers try to help Eva come understand his hatred of sluts and advise him to seek professional help, but of course Eva doesn't listen.

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=30 (http://archive.is/hTv1L)
God I fucking love sadrah, she just keeps fucking with him and the whole forum is defending her because their all just fed up with alex
 
We see the conversation move from hating sluts to hating swearing and those who do it. I've always found Eva's antipathy towards swearing curious seeing as you can find examples of him swearing around the same time he's posting this.

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=450 (http://archive.is/bS7nr)

Eva and offensiveness

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=465 (http://archive.is/8AS4D)

Eva still does not like swearing. I've already forgotten how this got from hating sluts to hating swearing.

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=510 (http://archive.is/4PGqK)
 
Of course he has [a boob mousepad], fucking hell! I need to tell this to my non-kiwi friend immediately, we've been speculating this. :lol:

He has (or has had) at least two, actually. The one from that image, and another one with Zero-Suit Samus Aran that he always shows off in his animated videos of him "working" at his computer. Why he is so proud of a boob mousepad to the point he feels it necessary to include in animations depicting himself at his workstation I don't know.

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The thread takes a turn from swearing to morality.

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=570 (http://archive.is/5zCm5)

"I'm more fit to judge because I am more pure than other people, have sinned less than other people, and have better morals than other people."

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=585 (http://archive.is/eEQoY)

Around the same time that this is going on, Eva's posting at another webcomic forum (Chugworth by Dave Cheung) about how he's attracted to the characters of this web comic. Now the loserz forum, upon seeing this post, think he's a dedicated troll.

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http://web.archive.org/web/20061027234621/http://chugworth.com/forum/index.php?topic=4238.0

Eva knows he's always right because of his morals and ethics.

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=675 (http://archive.is/7JTfU)

"I had always envisioned myself as a well-spoken underdog with a rare worldview"

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=720 (http://archive.is/0QHzW)

"I'm definately not an asshole, because assholes are mean, and I'm not mean, I'm nice."

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=750 (http://archive.is/ihdHn)
 
"I'm definately not an asshole, because assholes are mean, and I'm not mean, I'm nice."
Good gosh. With everything I've been reading so far (and there's amazingly a lot), if he's the definition of 'nice', I'd rather be an asshole.

But I'm keeping an open mind; these views of his are like from years ago, so maybe his thinking has changed, now that he's older and have seen the outside world and that he has 'friends' and a fanbase. Or am I still being naïve?
 
More than ever I am glad he found YanSim as an outlet because he is starting to sound a lot more like Roger Elliot. Another Kiwi called it first but my god are the comparisons become exceedingly apparent.

I just hope he becomes more and more depressed and stays in his parent's basement forever.
 
Ha ha ha holy shit, is Alex actually religious? Suddenly a lot of pieces are clicking into place for me.

I like that he's completely oblivious to the sin of pride he's committing when he admits (11 YEARS AGO) he knows he's full of shit and is continuing just to spite people who didn't tell him coddlingly enough. Alex, nobody cares about the willfully ignorant because there's nothing you can do for someone who wants to be stupid and wrong. I'm now telling myself the same thing, and am thinking I should maybe do so once a day for the rest of my life.
 
Alex thinks that genocide would be a good idea. I'm not exaggerating.

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=765 (http://archive.is/k6tE6)

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=795 (http://archive.is/Twi1Z)

"were the school shootings justified?" "That depends."
"Obviously, the bullies I've described don't deserve to live, make the world a horribly place, and should be exterminated."
He's arguing about this on Christmas.

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=810 (http://archive.is/kruAc)

"Lines of thought don't justify genocide. Circumstances do." People have moved to believing that he's a psychopath now.
http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&view=findpost&p=7738446 (http://archive.is/UDUT7)

After this Alex was suspended, not for the things he was saying, but for double posting.

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=885 (http://archive.is/rl6bp)

"Me, good guy. You, bad guy."

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=900 (http://archive.is/BtZdZ)

"If all mean people were killed, the world would be a pleasant place. Most of the unpleasantness in the world is due to mean people."

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"The button'd kill a lot of people who could have been saved if they'd only changed their ways by being more polite. It'd be such a pity, but in the end I think the world'd be better without them. Their contributions to society would be missed, but society'd be a lot simpler, and wouldn't need them anymore - and their impoliteness wouldn't be missed at all."

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=915 (http://archive.is/Ry7gn)

Eva finally swears at someone.

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=960 (http://archive.is/nRQ8M)

A week later, he would make the post featured here: https://kiwifarms.net/threads/evaxe...nder-stuart-mahan.19311/page-453#post-2077840

We've gone from hating sluts, to crushing on a girl, to hating profanity, to discussing morality, to wishing genocide on a bunch of people over the course of 67 pages. What a thread.
 
God I fucking love sadrah, she just keeps fucking with him and the whole forum is defending her because their all just fed up with alex
Right? Sender and others just laugh their asses off at him. Like literally how can you take anything he says seriously when he's writing all this shit on an internet forum and not use the advice people give him and leave LOL

Alex thinks that genocide would be a good idea. I'm not exaggerating.

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=765 (http://archive.is/k6tE6)

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=795 (http://archive.is/Twi1Z)

"were the school shootings justified?" "That depends."
"Obviously, the bullies I've described don't deserve to live, make the world a horribly place, and should be exterminated."
He's arguing about this on Christmas.

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=810 (http://archive.is/kruAc)

"Lines of thought don't justify genocide. Circumstances do." People have moved to believing that he's a psychopath now.
http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&view=findpost&p=7738446 (http://archive.is/UDUT7)

After this Alex was suspended, not for the things he was saying, but for double posting.

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=885 (http://archive.is/rl6bp)

"Me, good guy. You, bad guy."

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=900 (http://archive.is/BtZdZ)

"If all mean people were killed, the world would be a pleasant place. Most of the unpleasantness in the world is due to mean people."

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"The button'd kill a lot of people who could have been saved if they'd only changed their ways by being more polite. It'd be such a pity, but in the end I think the world'd be better without them. Their contributions to society would be missed, but society'd be a lot simpler, and wouldn't need them anymore - and their impoliteness wouldn't be missed at all."

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=915 (http://archive.is/Ry7gn)

Eva finally swears at someone.

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http://z12.invisionfree.com/loserz/index.php?showtopic=692&st=960 (http://archive.is/nRQ8M)

A week later, he would make the post featured here: https://kiwifarms.net/threads/evaxe...nder-stuart-mahan.19311/page-453#post-2077840

We've gone from hating sluts, to crushing on a girl, to hating profanity, to discussing morality, to wishing genocide on a bunch of people over the course of 67 pages. What a thread.
If that's the case, Then Eva would be mutilated in the genocide.
It's lovely how his sadism is shown more and more over his internet post.

How is he not in jail yet? Oh hell, Shouldn't of said so but he should be in jail.
 
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