@skykiii Maybe consider putting down your toys and going out and talking to a professional? It’s normal for people to miss parts of their childhood but spending this amount of time hating adulthood and wishing to be a kid seems pathological.
There's nothing wrong with an occasional trip down memory lane. But think of it this way: perpetually living in the past also prevents you from having new enjoyable experiences and forging new happy memories.
The thing I notice people are missing is that a huge thrust of my problem is the modern world has
exclusively taken things away. Ideally, it would be a case of "you lose some things but you gain others" but that sort of equivalent exchange has not happened. The old video store will get shut down but nothing will take its place.. or worse, the thing that
does take its place is just another clothing store or gas station that we already had like 20 of.
One thing I notice whenever I use the video store example is people will say "well, now we have streaming, and that's more convenient!" That response itself encompasses part of the problem: people have come to only see things in terms of utility. But the fact is I don't recall the trip to the video store ever being something I did because I
had to like with groceries or something... going to the video store itself was
actually fun, just to walk around and see what all options even
exist.
It's the difference between seeing an actual place... and scrolling through menus on a TV screen.
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One funny thing about this topic is that for as many people tell me I need to "seek help"... nobody has actually told me I'm wrong about anything I said. In fact the first two pages were basically people saying "oh, you're absolutely right, especially about the sex thing,
but you should embrace it." You'll excuse me if I don't find being told "your basically right, but you should gaslight yourself into liking it" a very pleasant or convincing answer.
