Happy Birthday Chris!
Although you wont believe it, not everyone on this board is out to get you, many of us would like to see you happy, or at least not so depressed.
I know you are FRUSTRATED and feel SAD and HOPELESS, but it doesn't have to be that way--
YOU have the power to do something.
Meetup.com has some great topics, some of them happening in your area.
http://www.meetup.com/Charlottesville-Gamers-Guild/
Welcome to the Charlottesville Gamers' Guild! This group is intended to be a meeting place for anybody in the Charlottesville-Staunton-Harrisonburg area who enjoys card games, board games, miniatures games, roleplaying games, or war games. Everybody is welcome.
If you are worried about TROLLS, then enroll under a different name, like Ricardo.
Now that's almost SPRING, take a 15 WALK every day. I bet Clover and Snoopy would really LOVE a good walk with you and even better a good game of fetch.
There are lots of things that you can do that don't have to cost money.
Chris, Happy 31st and Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.