Every so often I'm reminded of when I went back to my hometown, and the conversations slowly pivoted from "Are you gay? You can bring you boyfriend over if you've got one." to "Are you going to become a mountain man? Please be normal."
I'd be salty that they don't know, but I don't know, myself. is this what hikkis feel? I'm not really a shut-in but I did abandon the family to eke out my own existence elsewhere. I feel bad about not sticking around, but sticking around would have been even more disastrous than my life has shaken out anyway. I was watching a Wolf New Order LP the other night just because, and that post courtroom scene where BJ is apologizing to his mom after the big firefight struck me. I don't even like my mom.
I just don't know what to do. I got out of one crisis and stepped into a void. I don't like anything anymore, and I don't have that survival drive keeping me on. It's all good
and it's not right.
well, my bf(?) messaged me telling me that ...
I hate to be an asshole, but that's it. There's no sense making this into baggage.
It's an online relationship; he'll move out, you'll move on, and probably see eachother on the same bootleg Tribes server someday. If it were local, you could have done more, but that's simply not the case.
Be frustrated and work it out however you want, but suicide isn't even remotely a good option here. Re-enacting Romeo and Othello is not in the cards. Realistically, he'll get his own new devices and regain contact once he breaks his shackles. I know this post is a rapid tonal shift and may reek of projection, but hopefully your bf is more with it and better composed than I am.
