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despite now having an e-bf who I really love and who loves me back, things are just getting worse. I've been drinking every night this week just to drown my mental anguish.
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I’ve got a hard time thermoregulating and it’s made me feel anxious that summer is here. I’m gonna try to get out more in the summer, especially since I’ve found some really cool places to go fishing.
 
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Tentatively okay, my best friend online whom I usually have long calls with finally had her Hep C activate after getting bad blood in the ussr as a child. She's 32 and was FINALLY approved by insurance. I'm still worried, she's in liver failure and it will take 3 weeks for the medication to go through. I really hope she doesn't deteriorate much further but her viral load has doubled every week. I'm so scared for her.
 
I’ve got a hard time thermoregulating and it’s made me feel anxious that summer is here. I’m gonna try to get out more in the summer, especially since I’ve found some really cool places to go fishing.
See if you can find a good flat rock near your fishing hole. Up top to warm, underneath to cool.
 
See if you can find a good flat rock near your fishing hole. Up top to warm, underneath to cool.
I feel the phrasing of such a sentence indicates a humorous moment occurring

I am glad I missed seeing it but from what I have heard there was a goat killing in this discord server recently
 
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"No kill goats. Only pet." --Guy who makes a living off goat meat

I have a first rate intellect.
 
Passed my interview at the place I applied for, and moving on to the background check phase. That should be fine, but I've been feeling a bit anxious when it comes to the I9 documents. One of the necessary documents is a drivers' license. But I moved to a different town a few months ago and was really lazy about submitting a change of address. Would it be a problem to try using an ID with an old address? If I did change my address would I be able to use the temporary paper ID (wouldn't get the physical card for 2-3 weeks)? Or does it even matter either way. It might vary by state too. Kicking myself over being a procrastinator.
Do the CoA for your license asap and let your workplace know you're in the process of changing your address. You could write your current address on the back of your ID if you moved within the same state, but double check your state laws. A temp ID should be okay in the scenario that you need to fully replace your ID.

Don't stress out though.
 
Was fine until I got a message from a colleague‘s wife about 3 hours ago, that he suffered a severe stroke and passed away in the very early morning. Guy was 32, soccer player for a Hobby and we both went on fishing trips together for the last 4 or so years. I saw him Wednesday this week, all was as always.

Smoking and high blood pressures will accelerate your demise. I quit smoking end of 2017 and never looked back.
Going to get my clothes prepped for the funeral and a shot of our expensive tequila bottle will help a bit tonight
 
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Tentatively okay, my best friend online whom I usually have long calls with finally had her Hep C activate after getting bad blood in the ussr as a child. She's 32 and was FINALLY approved by insurance. I'm still worried, she's in liver failure and it will take 3 weeks for the medication to go through. I really hope she doesn't deteriorate much further but her viral load has doubled every week. I'm so scared for her.
My brother had Hep C and was in liver failure (jaundiced and really sick -- that's what led him to go to the doc and get diagnosed) and he had treatment for it (back when it was still in the experimental phase). When he got re-tested a couple of years later, there was no evidence of Hep C and he hasn't had any problems with his liver since. The liver is unique in that it can repair itself. It's scary, but there is hope. Hope it all works out as well for her as it did my brother.
 
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Been talking it out with a down to earth chick who just out of absolutely nowhere reveals she'll be moving literally 18 meters down the road. Nerdy but not a 'send me memes' gamer. Natural but capable of laying a mean make-up when needed. Hope things will work out.

Got a job at the Covid testing center down the road too. I rejected the first offer of exclusively 12-hour shifts cause I don't live in the Slavery of United States, but this second offer is a bunch of 9 hour shifts. Really good! Hope it somehow makes me more appealing in finding degree-relevant work.

I am however also deadly addicted (well, one day a week) to drinking. This new job will make that impossible 2 out of 3 weeks, so hopefully I'll get out of it. But that also means.. Isn't it fine I have a last drink today? Hmm..
 
“I have to restrain myself from killing people so you have to restrain yourself from sugary shit. I can’t lose you like that.” - my pos dad.
1. Murder is illegal, buying candy for myself with my own money because I accidentally came to a store hungry is not.
2. Sorry for having your fucking genetics that made me this way
3. Why should I listen to you anymore? Everything I do is offensive to you to the point it’s a miracle I can eat at dinner some nights. You constantly go at it with everyone, especially my brother (who’s a pos in his own right), had the gall to say that my depression was caused by not being religious enough, and make me feel pathetic by shoving it down my throat that you had a job at nine, on your own at 14 while I’m over here at 19 without a job, in college with no friends during a Chinese invasion. Great fucking job dad, I thought I was distancing myself from you after the surgery because I thought I got you hurt, but younger me was trying to save myself from hurting even worse

Only reason I haven’t cut off this entire family is I’m not able to afford a place for myself and we’re pretty close knit.

Also it’s hot as fucking balls and I can’t take it
 
Got a second job to help pay for some fees I acquired back in May. Lady said I would be going between departments but it sounding like I might be going to cashier only. At this point I need anything else to put some extra green in me pocket.
 
“I’m not going to chew you out.”
*proceeds to chew my ass out like cow chewing cud about how I accidentally had the freezer part way open and how the motor froze even though I didn’t know I had it open and he had to unplug it for two hours.*
”Oh if you need to, ask for help.”

And then proceeds to go apeshit on me and my brother about how coddled we are and ungrateful to him because I said I didn’t want to talk about why I was pissed bc I knew he’d be more triggered than a tumblr sjw because he’s more abrasive than the green side of a sponge and immediately chalked it up to me and candy.
 
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my brothers are both offically eagle scouts, the last generation of the scouts that called itself "boy scouts." welll at least my parents can say they have two kids who aren't total fuckups.

You ever get that feeling? The feeling of living in someone's shadow? They've done so much better than you and achieved so much more?
 
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