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For some fucking reason, cops showed up today with a search warrant, because somehow, under my IP address, someone had stolen an e-mail account that someone in my county had to steal a good chunk of money. Nobody in this house could have done it, not a fucking chance. I certainly haven't done shit; I don't even know how that kind of process works! Yet, I have to deal with this bullshit. I am prepared to lawyer up if shit has to go down for some reason. I am not having any of this.
 
At Costco. Wanted hot dog. Got hot dog. More messy than it should’ve been, but I’m content.
I hope some crazed Serb whacks Putin for no reason at all, with wacky and unpredictable results. I don't care whether in Minecraft or not.
How was the chicken Kiev my man? Been meaning to cook some again and saw you were planning some in the happening thread…
 
I have a big opportunity coming up that I accepted today, but I feel anxious about it. Lots of change is coming and it makes me doubt myself and my capabilities. I'm just actively trying to get out of my own head and accept that everything is as it should be. All I can do is my best, and accept what comes after.

Comparison really is a senseless thief of joy.
 
I’m feeling burnt out again. I lost two gigs today: one because the production straight up ran out of money and another because I’m not vaccinated and they didn’t bother to inform me that this was a requirement for them. My only solace is that the latter was an unpaid gig but I’m still upset by this turn of events.

I don’t want to freelance anymore. I hate this line of work, and I’ve been bleeding money for almost three months. My roommates want me gone and I don’t feel like my SO understands me. I just want to finalize my living situation already so I can start training to get my electrician cert.
 
I have been so stressed out and depressed lately it's ridiculous.. and like, I know, I have diagnosed MDD and anxiety disorders, so this is "normal" for me but it feels worse for some reason. CBD candies help a little, but not enough. I just want to sleep for like.. an entire year, and maybe I would feel better once I woke up. I just feel like either crying or screaming all the time lately.

The world keeps exploding and I'm trying not to read the news but it's hard to avoid. And my birthday is next week, which just makes me feel old and gross. My fam keeps asking me what I want and I have no idea what to tell them. I don't really want "fun" stuff and they're not gonna pay to fix my porch for my birthday. I'm pretty sure my MIL is gonna buy me cupcakes from my favorite bakery though, so at least I have that to look forward to.

Here's hoping things get better from here.
 
Been working hard on college (even though it's awful as I listed from a post earlier in this thread) and maintaining a 4.0GPA. However, I've had zero luck in finding new work after applying to places a few times every day for the past 3 months and never hearing anything back. It's frustrating.
 
This just in Kiwis, cooking is great for my anxiety. Am I good at it? Yet to be seen. But I have something that works and damn does it feel good
Nice. Here's some unsolicited basic tips that I wish I'd known when I started cooking:

- When in doubt, cook everything at medium high on the stovetop and 350 in the oven.

- The secret ingredient is always butter or heavy cream in an obscene quantity. They also work very well to fix a dish if you over salt it.

- Nothing goes on a steak besides salt and pepper. Nothing. No rubs. No sauces. Nothing. Always let it rest for 5 minutes before serving.

- Leave the skin on salmon. Cut parallel lines into the skin at 1/4 inch intervals and lightly sprinkle sea salt into them. The cuts keep the skin from curling.

- learn how to make a good roux.

- Never ever put bacon in a hot anything. Bacon goes in a cold oven or a cold pan. Turn them on and let them come up to temp and cook the bacon. Save the grease.

I have a thousand tips if you want them but those are the ones I wish I'd known when starting out.
 
This just in Kiwis, cooking is great for my anxiety. Am I good at it? Yet to be seen. But I have something that works and damn does it feel good
I love cooking too! I can't say I'm good at it, since I'm the only one who eats my cooking, but I love doing it all the same!

If you don't mind me asking, what types of food do you like to cook?
 
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I love cooking too! I can't say I'm good at it, since I'm the only one who eats my cooking, but I love doing it all the same!

If you don't mind me asking, what types of food do you like to cook?
I'm still learning. I've mostly dabbled in simple baking things. Cookies, mug cake, ect. However I always deviate a bit and add my own twists. It's oddly calming, probably because I have to think about that instead of other things like I normally would. I'll move on to other things once I get these down!
 
I'm still learning. I've mostly dabbled in simple baking things. Cookies, mug cake, ect. However I always deviate a bit and add my own twists. It's oddly calming, probably because I have to think about that instead of other things like I normally would. I'll move on to other things once I get these down!
That's how it started for me! I learned simple recipes, then moved up to more complex recipes. For better or for worse, I love making my own burgers and fries. I've bought my own grinder to make steak burgers. I'm trying to master milkshakes.

But I agree. Cooking is soothing and fun activity!
 
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That's how it started for me! I learned simple recipes, then moved up to more complex recipes. For better or for worse, I love making my own burgers and fries. I've bought my own grinder to make steak burgers. I'm trying to master milkshakes.

But I agree. Cooking is soothing and fun activity!
I hope to get to that level one day. Right now I'm just starting, and I don't quite trust myself with meat yet.

It is and I somehow just now realized today after I found I wasn't in some form of fear for the first time in a while after trying to cook.
 
Broke my own rule on forcing to care about the Russia-Ukraine fallout in the Happening thread, and now I found myself thinking before speaking on things that I have no business or knowledge of knowing or understanding about.

It’s been a rough couple of days for my brain.
 
Been working hard on college (even though it's awful as I listed from a post earlier in this thread) and maintaining a 4.0GPA. However, I've had zero luck in finding new work after applying to places a few times every day for the past 3 months and never hearing anything back. It's frustrating.
I was in that position too, man. I spent nearly three months trying to find a job in my field before I landed something, and it wasn’t even a permanent in-house job either. I know how it feels to feel like you’re wasting away in between sending out applications, callbacks and interviews, it’s a vicious, thankless cycle.

I’m gonna rip this bandaid off now in case you didn’t already know, but companies at a certain size are required by law to list vacant positions publicly on job boards, even when management has already decided to hire someone from within the company. You’d never actually know which companies are hiring internally and which ones are actually looking for new blood, so the onus is on you to apply to all of them.

It’s a draining and soul crushing process, and sometimes you’ll end up working for a shit company just because you can’t get the attention of anyone better, but always remember: you wouldn’t be trying so hard if you didn’t think you could make this a career.
 
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