How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Neurotypical Mantis]

had an argument with a friend that led to both of us getting pretty nasty but eventually with the help of another bud we were able to calm down and get real with both ourselves and each other. lots of stuff found out about our own personal problems and each others.
friendship is a bumpy road sometimes but you gotta keep drivin on it. there's good shit at the end. usually

 

[Jimmy Olsen]

We're one step closer to figuring out who you are.

He's a nigger spacejew, just like the rest of us.

 

[Overcast]

My body has become more defined and muscly from working out, although I haven't gained too much weight. Not sure how much of it is because of my fast metabolism or how I tend to keep myself from eating a lot out of habit. Still, people have noticed and told me I was in shape. So that's a start. Only been other guys though so far.

I've also received my performance review, met expectations all across the board and got a substantial raise. So I'm feeling pretty good about that.

In general, I've been feeling a lot more confident in myself.

And I seem to have fallen in love with the treadmill. Nothing like losing yourself to the beat of the music, feeling the burn and coming out of it refreshed.

 

[Stanley the Gay Wizard]

So, my boyfriend proposed to my last night. We've been together for nearly 9 years and he's been living with me for about 4 or 5 years now. so I said yes. We're more than likely not going to have a wedding (which I'm very happy with) just gonna sign the paper. My almost always neutral face has become a big fat dumb smile all day today though.

In general, I am doing very fine and I feel like I'm walking in the sunshine.

 

[Clovis]

I'm better than I have been lately. Went out on my lunchbreak because there was a blue sky and it's the first day I've started feeling those tentative spring vibes. Sat on a bench and ate supermarket sushi with vodka in the cold next to some traffic but it was good. Went back to work and had a chill afternoon. I get stressed about work but sometimes I just reach peak stress and come out the other side with a few days of foolish, hubristic calm. I'm waiting for that one day that happens every year when I really feel the season has changed over to spring and the light quality changes - honestly my favourite day of the year, it's such an unpredictable and impossible to describe bit of qualia but it reoccurs every 365 days or so.

So, my boyfriend proposed to my last night. We've been together for nearly 9 years and he's been living with me for about 4 or 5 years now. so I said yes. We're more than likely not going to have a wedding (which I'm very happy with) just gonna sign the paper. My almost always neutral face has become a big fat dumb smile all day today though.

In general, I am doing very fine and I feel like I'm walking in the sunshine.

Congrats to you both

 

[JustSomeDong]

We're more than likely not going to have a wedding (which I'm very happy with) just gonna sign the paper.

You're a keeper. Your fiance is a lucky guy. Congrats!

 

[Stanley the Gay Wizard]

You're a keeper. Your fiance is a lucky guy. Congrats!

Congrats to you both

Thanks both of you and the rest who quote after or react. We're actually going to be some of the first few homosexual men to marry in our town. which hopefully won't lead to anything bad.

 

[starborn427614]

Bit run down if truth be told. Must be the weather.

 

[Some JERK]

Well I did it fuckers. I escaped from LA like Snake fucking Plissken. I'm currently drinking some strong coffee, smoking a cigar and looking at snow on the ground. California, you are now clear to implode. Thanks for nothing. (Well, thanks for the money. That was actually nice.)

 

[The Gifted Kid]

All things considered life is pretty great right now. Learn to see the natural humor in the world and you'll never be sad or depressed again.

 

[Shqueefa]

I was in that position too, man. I spent nearly three months trying to find a job in my field before I landed something, and it wasn’t even a permanent in-house job either. I know how it feels to feel like you’re wasting away in between sending out applications, callbacks and interviews, it’s a vicious, thankless cycle.

I’m gonna rip this bandaid off now in case you didn’t already know, but companies at a certain size are required by law to list vacant positions publicly on job boards, even when management has already decided to hire someone from within the company. You’d never actually know which companies are hiring internally and which ones are actually looking for new blood, so the onus is on you to apply to all of them.

It’s a draining and soul crushing process, and sometimes you’ll end up working for a shit company just because you can’t get the attention of anyone better, but always remember: you wouldn’t be trying so hard if you didn’t think you could make this a career.

Yeah, I had a hunch a lot of posting were there for the sake of being there. I also always have the looming idea I'll get rejected from most jobs for not having the jab. It's bad enough I can't attend events because they all want you to have vaccination proof to even attend. Lost some friends too for not wanting to get it jab, and I didn't want to deal with them losing their minds already.

 

[Stanley the Gay Wizard]

I kinda feel like I'm dragging because me and my boyfriend couldn't sleep last night. so all we did was just spoon and talk while listening to some TON.

Other then that, I'm glad it's an off day.

Edit: Was just informed that me and my bf are going to sign our papers to be legally married in about a week. I'm oddly excited.

 

[MARlNA]

I broke a rib after an accident yesterday. I'll be alright but damn, this shit hurts lmao.

 

[Mr. ShadowCreek]

I was really surprised yesterday. Why? Well, a house blew up in my neighborhood, of course! I was a work when it happened, so I didn't see or hear it. These guys who are digging to put cables down hit a gasline and they had to evacuate a few houses. One of them blew up. It caused damage to a few other houses, shook the neighborhood, and the smoke could be seen from miles away. A few of the houses might need to be torn down and built again. My house wasn't damaged, so it did knock some things other, opened the microwave, and broke my mom's cross thing above the fireplace. Needless to say, the city fired the company. Throughout the day people were coming in and out to see it despite there being a sign saying "residents only".

 

[Mealy Mouth Spittle]

I was really surprised yesterday. Why? Well, a house blew up in my neighborhood, of course! I was a work when it happened, so I didn't see or hear it. These guys who are digging to put cables down hit a gasline and they had to evacuate a few houses. One of them blew up. It caused damage to a few other houses, shook the neighborhood, and the smoke could be seen from miles away. A few of the houses might need to be torn down and built again. My house wasn't damaged, so it did knock some things other, opened the microwave, and broke my mom's cross thing above the fireplace. Needless to say, the city fired the company. Throughout the day people were coming in and out to see it despite there being a sign saying "residents only".

Here's the explosion

From another angle. Jump to 00:37

Wow. That's pretty terrifying. Glad no one was hurt. Feel sorry for the people who lost pretty much everything. Hope they get lots of cash from that company.

I'm having a shitty day. I've got my mom's dog (she died a couple of months ago) and it has been hell. She got sick after she adopted the dog from the shelter so I can't blame it on her but this dog is a disaster. It isn't housebroken and appears to be too stupid to learn not to pee and poop all over the house. I've got puppy pads everywhere and the dog will stand next to it, not on it. If I try to pick up the dog and put her on the pad, she runs under furniture and leaves a mess there. It is too scared to go outside so I have to pick it up and force it to go. Still won't poop or pee outside and waits until it comes inside to do its business. It also has started bullying another dog of mine (3 1/2 lb dog bullying a 60 lb dog). So far my dog has been pretty tolerant, but she has started to growl and get more aggressive, so I'm pretty sure it's only a matter of time before something happens. We've been thinking we probably need to take it to the shelter so it can be rehomed. My brother doesn't seem to want the dog either, so we've got no other choice.

So we took the dog to the vet today to get shots up to date. Wanted to get her groomed and ready to go to the shelter and get a clean bill of health. Discovered the dog's teeth are in terrible shape. It will cost about $800 bucks to get them extracted. WTF. I feel like the worst person in the world, but I am seriously thinking of just taking her to the shelter and letting someone else deal with those teeth. I feel guilty because it will make it harder for her to be adopted. But, $800 is a lot of money to spend on a dog that I don't plan on keeping anyway.

My mom is probably so disappointed in me. She was an animal lover who always adopted the dogs no one else wanted. But I just can't take cleaning up dog waste all day long, every day + making sure there's no fighting + dealing with major teeth issues.

 

[Jimmy Olsen]

Wow. That's pretty terrifying. Glad no one was hurt. Feel sorry for the people who lost pretty much everything. Hope they get lots of cash from that company.

I'm having a shitty day. I've got my mom's dog (she died a couple of months ago) and it has been hell. She got sick after she adopted the dog from the shelter so I can't blame it on her but this dog is a disaster. It isn't housebroken and appears to be too stupid to learn not to pee and poop all over the house. I've got puppy pads everywhere and the dog will stand next to it, not on it. If I try to pick up the dog and put her on the pad, she runs under furniture and leaves a mess there. It is too scared to go outside so I have to pick it up and force it to go. Still won't poop or pee outside and waits until it comes inside to do its business. It also has started bullying another dog of mine (3 1/2 lb dog bullying a 60 lb dog). So far my dog has been pretty tolerant, but she has started to growl and get more aggressive, so I'm pretty sure it's only a matter of time before something happens. We've been thinking we probably need to take it to the shelter so it can be rehomed. My brother doesn't seem to want the dog either, so we've got no other choice.

So we took the dog to the vet today to get shots up to date. Wanted to get her groomed and ready to go to the shelter and get a clean bill of health. Discovered the dog's teeth are in terrible shape. It will cost about $800 bucks to get them extracted. WTF. I feel like the worst person in the world, but I am seriously thinking of just taking her to the shelter and letting someone else deal with those teeth. I feel guilty because it will make it harder for her to be adopted. But, $800 is a lot of money to spend on a dog that I don't plan on keeping anyway.

My mom is probably so disappointed in me. She was an animal lover who always adopted the dogs no one else wanted. But I just can't take cleaning up dog waste all day long, every day + making sure there's no fighting + dealing with major teeth issues.

I'm a dog lover, but if you have to take it to the shelter (provided the place is no kill), do what you need to do. It's better than it getting in a fight with your dog, living with painful teeth, or being cared for by somebody who isn't equipped to deal with it (not meant as an insult, some dogs are a mountain of work). Any dog that isn't some sort of hulking pit bill will probably get adopted fairly quickly into a nice home.

If it is a hulking pitbulll... Well, I don't have any advice there.

 

[Mealy Mouth Spittle]

I'm a dog lover, but if you have to take it to the shelter (provided the place is no kill), do what you need to do. It's better than it getting in a fight with your dog, living with painful teeth, or being cared for by somebody who isn't equipped to deal with it (not meant as an insult, some dogs are a mountain of work). Any dog that isn't some sort of hulking pit bill will probably get adopted fairly quickly into a nice home.

If it is a hulking pitbulll... Well, I don't have any advice there.

It's a teacup chihuahua. I don't know if that is better or worse than a pitbull. The shelter is no kill. We've tried to find someone we know (or friends of friends) who might be willing to take her but nobody is interested. We've got 3 other dogs (we ended up getting my brother in law's dog when he got divorced and sold his house) so honestly I think we are just kind of overwhelmed. We had a firm 2 dog rule and we are now at 4. We have one other dog who has some health problems that need treatment, so we just weren't prepared to have to come up with money for this dog's teeth. Just feeling overwhelmed, I guess.

I've honestly never really cared for chihuahuas. They just aren't my type of dog. I would never have adopted this dog myself. But, I wanted to keep her because she was my mom's. My husband has been patient but we've had to put up baby gates around the house to limit where she can be to prevent her from ruining all the carpet in our house. So, you can't even walk freely through the house anymore. It has just been 3 months of a lot of stuff. And I don't know why I haven't been able to housebreak her. I've never had problems with any dog before this. She just doesn't seem to get it. So frustrating. But I feel so incredibly guilty because I have never, ever taken a dog to a shelter. I've adopted all mine, but never given one up. I honestly don't even know if I can do it.

 

[JustSomeDong]

I was really surprised yesterday. Why? Well, a house blew up in my neighborhood, of course! I was a work when it happened, so I didn't see or hear it. These guys who are digging to put cables down hit a gasline and they had to evacuate a few houses. One of them blew up. It caused damage to a few other houses, shook the neighborhood, and the smoke could be seen from miles away. A few of the houses might need to be torn down and built again. My house wasn't damaged, so it did knock some things other, opened the microwave, and broke my mom's cross thing above the fireplace. Needless to say, the city fired the company. Throughout the day people were coming in and out to see it despite there being a sign saying "residents only".

Here's the explosion

From another angle. Jump to 00:37

That's fucking crazy, but the scariest thing to me is that someone would willingly localize themselves to this degree on kiwifarms, of all places...

I feel guilty because it will make it harder for her to be adopted. But, $800 is a lot of money to spend on a dog that I don't plan on keeping anyway.

Take the dog to the shelter tomorrow. A pet is an investment of so much more than just money. That dog deserves better.

 

[Juan But Not Forgotten]

Exhausted due to some minor recent geopolitical events, but hey

 

[Ughubughughughughughghlug]

Basically I think I'm depressed, but functionally so.

It's something where I think I sort of cyclically get melancholy, my Mom does too, but I really don't think I ever had it this bad before. I don't remember feeling with any actual belief before that life was bad, as opposed to just feeling down.

I feel happy plenty often, I do lots of stuff, it's the overall tone of my days (especially complete dread of work and feeling drained afterwards) that's toxic.

I hate where I live, I hate the people around me (I have one friend, but he moved off so I see him less often, and I hate my coworkers I have to interact with), and I have no interest in my career at all, and it's a self-directed one where motivation matters a ton. I feel trapped.