How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[afternoon_tea]

I have a cold. It's just a wussy little head cold and it could be worse but I rarely get sick so it's annoying me. I want to read or watch a movie or something but I have no attention span.

My MiL made me some nice soup though <3

 

[A Grey Cat]

Well despite how bad this day started I got a job interview tommorow and another one I just gotta schedule. I just gotta go in don't blow one or the other and hopefully I'll be back in the saddle before I know it.


Frankly I wanted to leave that shit server job anyways. The pay wasn't a living wage even with tips and the hours sucked. I just hope my experience in food service can net me another job asap.

My life may have more ups and downs, twists and turns than a six flags roller coaster bit one thing that always holds out is my luck. Fickle as it may be at least it's saved me more times than I can count.

 

[Flavius Claudius Julianus]

I think if I just stop relying on pills to sleep I'll be fine. As I said, using them to chemically educe yourself into REM sleep can make your subconscious open up and show you things, the dark side of yourself and everything you are. Thankfully sleeping meds have one of the shortest half lives of any medication and the body metabolizes otc ones in a couple hours. As for sleep wandering and noises? AFAIK no it wasn't making me wander around or disturb anybody.

Not quite sleeping meds, but I take on a regular basis some very strong antihistamines which produce some VERY wild dreams on occasion. Even when I took zopiclone in the past, the dreams are often even nuttier on this stuff.

Can't comment on the night terrors, but I've dreamt of some shit that has made me dart awake on the rare occasion.

 

[ToxicKek]

I think I need to stop sperging on the normie part of the internet. I've always done it to some degree but the past year has been particularly bad because of the vaccine tyranny and putting 2+2+2+2+2+2 together on that topic and several others. Actually pretty much everything in life, my whole life is a lie.

One of my family members took notice and thinks this is a bad thing. Man I just don't want my loved ones to die or become crippled from the vaccine. And I fucking hate that most of the population are sealing their own eventual doom by complying (either blindly or knowingly).

 

[Jason Wynn]

As much as I’ve dismissed the idea in the past as being a dead end or unhelpful, I think I might need to book an appointment and schedule a session with a councilor/therapist. I’ve been really fucking depressed for a long time, it’s not getting better and the mask I put up to conceal it at work/home is starting to crack.

 

[Xenomorph]

It was my birthday yesterday so not bad.

 

[Biggusstickus]

Well I'm making preparations to move out from my state. Everything I've been holding against my family, the people I work with I more or less vented out to them a couple of times recently. So I feel like I can move on if something doesn't relapse me back into my old habits that makes me trap in my past like a safety blanket. Wish me luck.

 

[Stabmaster Arson]

I think I need to stop sperging on the normie part of the internet. I've always done it to some degree but the past year has been particularly bad because of the vaccine tyranny and putting 2+2+2+2+2+2 together on that topic and several others. Actually pretty much everything in life, my whole life is a lie.

One of my family members took notice and thinks this is a bad thing. Man I just don't want my loved ones to die or become crippled from the vaccine. And I fucking hate that most of the population are sealing their own eventual doom by complying (either blindly or knowingly).

I deleted all social media last year and this is the last place I post that requires registration.

Do it. You'll feel better.

 

[A Grey Cat]

That first job interview seemed go go well. I mentioned working for the parent company before and that I have plenty of experience and my availability is open. The only drawback is I met with a regular employee and not the hr manager, but said employee said he'll hand my application off to the HR manager and she'll call me to set up a follow up interview with her properly . Not maybe we'll call you but will call least that's what he said. I just hope it's soon.

The other interview is tommorow but TBH I'm kinda hoping the other place calls back soon, the other interview is for ANOTHER server job this time at IHOP but after my last job as a server I almost never want to be one ever again.

 

[Local Fed]

Every time I think I can't get more stressed out about stuff, it manages to find a way to get a little bit worse. I've had some major life event stuff happen and I'm not handling it well at all. I knew it would be hard, but I still wasn't prepared for any of it.

I've been applying for some office positions recently, but I'm afraid that I'm in over my head. At the same time maybe that thought is all just in my head. I don't know.

 

[A Grey Cat]

Every time I think I can't get more stressed out about stuff, it manages to find a way to get a little bit worse. I've had some major life event stuff happen and I'm not handling it well at all. I knew it would be hard, but I still wasn't prepared for any of it.

I've been applying for some office positions recently, but I'm afraid that I'm in over my head. At the same time maybe that thought is all just in my head. I don't know.

I'm sick of job hopping too, the last place it was cause I sucked as a server, (though it's only been like a month) before that it was less my fault and the restaurant was too short sided (it's out of business now) and before THAT well... I guess it was my fault, I wanted to leave on good terms and try something new in a place that looked like it would have offered potential. Now I'm kinda wondering if I should have just stayed were I was. It's almost like I'm right back where I stated anyways.

 

[Xenomorph]

Got a PET scan tomorrow to check for any progression Im trying so hard not to let it fuck my weekend up with the help of Xanex it is helping.

 

[Blewberry Nausea]

I hit a real rock bottom last week. It was embarrassing but it needed to happen to stop me from going further. Thanks to family and friends and religious sermon that oddly seemed to be tailored to me I am going day by day fixing what is wrong in my life and changing for the better slowly. It will be a long process but if I change what I need to and do what I should then I can find a way to happiness again. So I am cautiously optimistic.

 

[A Grey Cat]

Ok I know I'm posting a lot on here and it comes of as PL ing but I'm in am end of my wits rock bottom type situation here;
I had to reset my Xbox because the programs weren't starting, (Eg I couldn't even open the games and apps list) now I'm stuck with it in factory reset startup mode because.... Well the console needs an online update (which is probably why it wasn't running right before) but guess who is currently stuck offline because he has no router and no internet.

Ive lost my job, my computer and now my Xbox. All I have left is my phone which could go at any time of Verizon decides to cut off my service again. I'm not much of a praying man but I feel like this either some devine punishment or a test of faith. If it's one or the other all I can say is when things get this bad the only way to go is onward and upward.

()

 

[Blewberry Nausea]

Ok I know I'm posting a lot on here and it comes of as PL ing but I'm in am end of my wits rock bottom type situation here;
I had to reset my Xbox because the programs weren't starting, (Eg I couldn't even open the games and apps list) now I'm stuck with it in factory reset startup mode because.... Well the console needs an online update (which is probably why it wasn't running right before) but guess who is currently stuck offline because he has no router and no internet.

Ive lost my job, my computer and now my Xbox. All I have left is my phone which could go at any time of Verizon decides to cut off my service again. I'm not much of a praying man but I feel like this either some devine punishment or a test of faith. If it's one or the other all I can say is when things get this bad the only way to go is onward and upward.

()

I know here tons of people set up shop giving away free Obama phones to anyone on street corners and stuff. Six months, unlimited talk/text and like 12 GBs data. Maybe try there. Don’t be afraid to take a drifter type job like day labor or landscaping if you are desperate, the pay is low but tips help. Find a local group like a church or hiking group you can meet people and network a job with (but if they do help you find a job make sure you don’t fuck it up). Some general tips.

 

[AnOminous]

Don’t be afraid to take a drifter type job like day labor or landscaping if you are desperate, the pay is low but tips help.

These jobs mostly suck but on their good side they also often pay daily in cash.

 

[Monkey Shoulder]

It is literally hotter than on the surface of the sun.

It is somehow even hotter today. Or tonight rather. 30 degrees Celsius at 0330 in the plant. I'm not made for this.

 

[ToxicKek]

I deleted all social media last year and this is the last place I post that requires registration.

Do it. You'll feel better.

Sperging on normie internet territory makes me feel good though, if anything it's therapeutic. I'm mostly a content "producer", as in shitposter, and rarely ever look at anyone's posts.

A friend of mine (who also quit social media years ago and has never been back since) questioned the efficacy of me shouting into a black hole of content consoooomers. You and him are right, but I need to find an alternative - maybe doing Louis Rossmann style rant videos (he personally stated back in the day that many of his rant videos managed to replace therapy).

On the topic of jobs (since a few posters above were discussing it) and networking, one of the reasons I feel fine taking a shit on vaccines, homos and normies in the middle of normieland internet is because networking has NEVER worked for me. Literally never since school. All my jobs and business opportunities were through my own effort. Fuck, even my relationships... nobody has ever introduced me to a date before.

People say I'm friendly and approachable and all that other bullshit (if anything, I play the part of an "extrovert" very well), but when it comes to looking for a job or girlfriend, they're like "that sucks, hope you get one soon man! kbye". The few introductions I've had to jobs seemed driven more by company referral programs (and me getting a job is just a plus for the person) and I've never successfully received an offer from interviews deriving from being referred.

So why waste my time and try to act all politically correct to normies when it doesn't do anything anyway?

 

[Stabmaster Arson]

Sperging on normie internet territory makes me feel good though, if anything it's therapeutic. I'm mostly a content "producer", as in shitposter, and rarely ever look at anyone's posts.

A friend of mine (who quite social media years ago and has never been back since) questioned the efficacy of me shouting into a black hole of content consoooomers. You and him are right, but I need to find an alternative - maybe doing Louis Rossmann style rant videos (he personally stated back in the day that many of his rant videos managed to replace therapy).

On the topic of jobs (since a few posters above were discussing it) and networking, one of the reasons I feel find taking a shit on vaccines, homos and normies in the middle of normieland internet is because networking has NEVER worked for me. Literally never since school. All my jobs and business opportunities were through my own effort. Fuck, even my relationships... nobody has ever introduced me to a date before.

People say I'm friendly and approachable and all that other bullshit (if anything, I play the part of an "extrovert" very well), but when it comes to looking for a job or girlfriend, they're like "that sucks, hope you get one soon man! kbye". The few introductions I've had to jobs seemed driven more by company referral programs (and me getting a job is just a plus for the person) and I've never successfully received an offer from interviews deriving from being referred.

So why waste my time and try to act all politically correct to normies when it doesn't do anything anyway?

By all means, troll some fags on Facebook. But do it under a burner account. It's the wrong place to be posting wrongthink. The establishment there hates you, and are just waiting for a reason to punish you.

 

[A Grey Cat]

I know here tons of people set up shop giving away free Obama phones to anyone on street corners and stuff. Six months, unlimited talk/text and like 12 GBs data. Maybe try there. Don’t be afraid to take a drifter type job like day labor or landscaping if you are desperate, the pay is low but tips help. Find a local group like a church or hiking group you can meet people and network a job with (but if they do help you find a job make sure you don’t fuck it up). Some general tips.

Thanks I feel a little better having vented my frustrations out and while I appreciate the advice it hasn't gotten that bad. Really it's the waiting that's making me anxious waiting to hear back Wether it's after filling out applications or after an interview. The waiting is always the worst part.